Down

I was feeling ok yesterday then working my part time job I started to break down. I felt pathetic. I’m working a kids job on top of my regular job. I mak good money but feel like it’s not enough.

Then I started to feel real crappy. Kids moving on to their dreams. In my regular job same thing. I use to be one of those kids. With a dream and it was stripped of it. I am feeling like a failure. I kinda felt what’s the point. How do I rediscover myself. I look like crap and feel like crap. I don’t even want to be here. I want to retreat to my house and cry.

Part of me last night wanted to end it. All the skill I learned, all the progress in iop out the window. I’m still feeling shi tty. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just a lost day. I hope not a lost cause but feels like it.

Sometimes we just have bad days. I know you read my post about fighting back. That’s the mindset you have to get into. Don’t let it beat you!!! You’re worth so much more.

I’m sorry you’re having a tough time. I hope you feel better soon about yourself and about life and have a good weekend. Thinking of you.

I just took the sanity quiz for a second time. It showed that what I struggle with the most is self esteem. So you are not alone. You are valuable because you are you. It has nothing to do with weight, motivation ect. It's time to accept yourself as you are before you can work on your goals. Love yourself...big hugs, I know how hard it is to actually put this into action, but I believe in you. You will get through this!

I know it's easier said than done. But you have to try to find something to hang on too during your time of need. It's out there you just have to find it.

HUGS

Kick and claw your way out of it , meds can only do so much. Hugs