Begging for help

feel better soon.

Sending hugs! Happy thanksgiving

Sending more positive vibes.

I’m sending positive thoughts

Thank you everyone. My family is not worthless. I’m sorry for what I said and how I acted. I’m so sorry......I was trying to stand up for myself for a change. I know to keep my mouth shut now. Please forgive me. Please don’t do anything to my son. I know you expect more from me and I’m trying but I’m so lost. I’m trying to get help but don’t know if it’s possible for me but please know my son can be better. I will stay away if I can’t be a good role model. I’m trying to hold myself together. I’m trying to better. Please help.

I’m trying to handle more. I know I’m not strong like I should be. Don’t make my family pay the price please. Please!!!! Tell me what to do!!!! Dont take my friend from me.

Hi Elsa. We care about you and are here to support you. How can we help?

I’m so sorry for all I said. I know I’m an azzhole. I just thought I was standing up for myself for a change. I won’t do it again if that’s what you want. Please tell me what to do.

Please tell me what to do to stop the pain and torture......please tell me. I know it doesn’t work like that.....I’m suppose to figure it out for myself but I can’t.

Is there someone I’m suppose to apologize to?

There is no one you need to apologize to. Everything is going to be ok. Do you think you should call your pdoc? You seem to be struggling. I’m here to support you. I would not ever hurt you or your precious family. ((((( Hugs )))))

Thank you Jennifer. I think I need to apologize to my ex boss.....my friend says to let it go. I need to apologize to someone.....to everyone. I’m sorry Jennifer......if I ever did or said anything offensive to you.

I can’t write my doctors. I don’t want to be hospitalized or bother anyone. I’m suppose to handle this in my own.....the messages are clear but I don’t know how to. I think I’m just having a bad moment.....they just keep happening. This can’t be real.

Sweet Elsa....thank you but you’ve only ever helped me and I’m grateful for you. I hope you start feeling better.

Hi Elsa,

You have not said anything here which would put any of your loved ones at risk.

Your posts have been fine.
We have all been very concerned about you.
Nobody has any desire to harm you or anyone in your family.

We all care very much about your welfare, Elsa.

Have you thought more about possibly calling your pdoc or going to the ER?

I hope to help, somehow. We all hope to help, somehow.

We can only give feedback and make some suggestions. You are in control of your life. You get to make the decisions.

Did something happen to make things worse?

Please remember we all love you and have no intentions of harming anyone.

Keep yourself safe.


WC

I’m really concerned about you right now. Do you have anybody with you right now?

I’m sorry......it was a bad moment. I will be stronger. I just need help. My doctors are helping just not in the ways I think they should but I don’t make good decisions right now so I’m probably wrong on what I need. I’m not drinking and that is huge. I just need to not drink or other things I’m tempted to do that will harm more than help. I don’t want to hurt my family with my dysfunction. I’m being quiet about all this. They have enough of their own problems. I just needed help. I will be ok. I need to focus on the future and not the past.

Are you going to be ok tonight?

There's no need to apologize, Elsa.
This is a support forum and we all take turns supporting one another.
You are so often helpful to us, it's our turn to support you.


WC

I’m sorry to make you concerned.....I will be ok. I can’t say whAt happened because if I do they will know it’s working and ramp it up. It might all be in my head. I hope so because it’s so scary. When things trigger us, does that mean it’s something we need to work on? I’m guessing yes. I’m learning so much about what I must work on but it feels like too much to overcome or come to terms with.

I hope I didn’t hurt people here. I angered people, I know. I didn’t mean to. I watched stuff I shouldn’t have watched........the thoughts cannot be erased. I didn’t know what I was doing.

I thought I was helping by watching it. I thought it would provide positive instructions.......it didn’t.

(((((( Elsa )))))))

I will be ok. I need to sign off before my husband knows I came here or heard me crying. I will try to find a distraction and go to the ER if I can’t. Thank you for talking with me. I never meant to hurt anyone. I see now I did. I’m not a bad person and neither is my family. My son just needs help as do I. We will be better, I promise.

Elsa - Ok....I know you need to go. I’ll check back frequently in case you need support. (((((( Hugs ))))))

Elsa, you have not hurt anyone here.

Please take excellent care!


WC