[~Christina]

I called today to get back in with my old Pdoc and T ( I moved out of state last April and moving back now. )

I can’t go back to the same office as they are at capacity for Medicare patients.

I will need to go to a new office ( same company) and see the NP. There is also only 1 T that takes Medicare.

I can’t even imagine starting with a new T , I saw the same Pdoc and T for 6 years, so I have no idea how to do T with anyone else, I don’t want to at all. The Np will probably want me off Xanax since so many providers are against them.

I think it’s likely I will just not go and dump my meds too.. I see no point for the whole mess.

Sorry had to dump this somewhere.

I see no hope.

Thanks to that butch for killing herself in my home and having to clean up the actual mess and all her shyt... great just add that to my ptsd and hope eventually it will go away.

Fml

[Trippin2.0]

So sorry sis
Maybe if you reach out to Richard or Graves directly they will pull some strings?

I think it’s worth a shot, I also had some red tape ******** getting in the way of seeing Clint again, but it worked out eventually even tho technically it looked impossible from the outside ...

[possum220]

Fingers crossed that strings can be pulled and you can see your previous p'doc and T.

Sorry you're struggling!

Maybe you'll get lucky with Xanax? I think it's worth going.

Could you weasel your way around and get a GP to help prescribe meds?

[Moreta]

Sorry christina. I'd just go and see how it is. I've restarted with so many t's. Not all want to know your whole back story. I've had 10? t's. I'm back with my old t now since last t tried to dx me with BPD. She's more understanding.

[bioChE]

Why would you dump your entire med regimen based on an unproven fear that a new provider won’t prescribe one of your meds?

I can understand being upset about not being able to get back into your previous provider, but I don’t think you should throw the baby out with the bath water.

[luvyrself]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I called today to get back in with my old Pdoc and T ( I moved out of state last April and moving back now. )

I can’t go back to the same office as they are at capacity for Medicare patients.

I will need to go to a new office ( same company) and see the NP. There is also only 1 T that takes Medicare.

I can’t even imagine starting with a new T , I saw the same Pdoc and T for 6 years, so I have no idea how to do T with anyone else, I don’t want to at all. The Np will probably want me off Xanax since so many providers are against them.

I think it’s likely I will just not go and dump my meds too.. I see no point for the whole mess.

You know dropping your meds will only make things worse. Wish there was a funny way to say that. U need a laugh right now. Talk to a friend and do something physical.

Sorry had to dump this somewhere.

I see no hope.

Thanks to that butch for killing herself in my home and having to clean up the actual mess and all her shyt... great just add that to my ptsd and hope eventually it will go away.

Fml

----I know moving really makes everything harder. I still need to get a pdoc that fits since moving to Phoenix. Im in the process again. I find that it helps hugely to type out your psych history and meds history for the new person so you're not starting all over again. My family isn't supportive--it's all men w no history of depression in my family--"don't talk, just do or watch sports". You know the drill! My hair is falling out from the klonepin I had to take going off the disastrous Latuda which was giving me panic attacksLOL However, I found an incredible new friend here, the best bp group ever, and the best gym. All this took great snuggle.
EXERCISE away some of that anger, find a group. You will make some friends.

[Victoria'smom]

In our state NP's can't prescribe benzos or stimulants. I would look for another clinic that has a pdoc and a T. If you forward your record you shouldn't have to go through so much back story.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I really wish they could make an exception since you have long history with Richard and graves. :/

[Sunflower123]

I like the idea of reaching out to both the pdoc and T directly to see if they’ll get you in. I’m sorry you’re in this position. Good luck.

[~Christina]

Due to the companies policy there is no way for me to get anywhere going directly to Pdoc and T , there hands are tied and having that long history with my T Richard it will actually upset him and I dont want that.

When I made this move to Florida I started looking for a T was only getting " no openings for 3-6-9 months. When I had to clean up after a suicide in my home I couldnt find ANYONE that "deals" with that sorta thing... yeah go figure.. So I have sucked it up and decided eventually I will get past/over it. 23 weeks and counting.

Prior to moving my T and I discussed how to go about finding a new T and how to get them to understand I am not walking back through my abusive life traumas just to bring them up to speed. I will write up a short bullet type intro to me. I understand someone needing some info about what I have worked through and put to bed..

There is only 1 T that takes Medicare at the new office and I do NOT like female T's .. Never have never will. All female T's I have had are far to "chatty" for me.. I like direct goal orientated work. I dont need a cheerleader type. Yes using a broad stroked brush but I have been there done that and no need to return.

As for my dumping my meds? I have done it before and been fine for a year or more each time. Between physical and psych meds I think my entire body needs a break from all the damn chemicals My last Arthritis med that I had high hopes for has been yet another epic fail..

I sleep maybe 2-3 hours a night , many nights nothing so none of my meds are helping much anyway.

Maybe Ill go home unpack and get away from this hell hole and sleep for weeks or I will finally lose my shyt and wind up IP ... 50/50 I guess.

I dont mean to be a bytch or a downer I am just tired of it all and having no choice but to change providers has really pushed me to the edge. I can never trust another T that I had with Richard.. I could tell him Im feeling suicidal and need to talk things out He never spazzed and hit the OMG you HAVE to go IP right now.. A new person? I will not be able to be open and honest with and make a crisis plan that I will be okay with... I need to focus on the fact that I had a great team for 6 years and I am grateful for that...

Thanks for the advice and encouragement... It means alot.

[HopeForChange]

If they're at capacity for Medicare patients currently, can you get on a waiting list? You could see someone else in the meantime, and then once another Medicare patient leaves the practice, hopefully you can get in. Not sure if that would work or not. I'm so sorry for all you're going through!

[HALLIEBETH87]

I hate this for you. I really do. I wish you could see my t. I wish things could be reminded three years and none of this had happened to you. I love you and I'm here for you.

[Pookyl]

Sorry I don’t understand how it works in the US.
I get you on the female therapist thing. Chatty and because I was a health professional always ended up telling me about all their medical issues.
Regarding issues with going back into your past:
With my last psychologist/therapist my psychiatrist actually called her and said ‘please don’t perform an archeological dig on this patient.’
Maybe when you do find new people you can get your current team to bring them up to speed.

[Victoria'smom]

I think it old T bringing new T up to speed is a good idea. I went from no hospitalizations to two in one year because my new T / pdoc "over-reacted". After several T's and pdoc's I landed on a combo of meds that I take. Maybe something good will come from this.

Awww, Christina, that's crappy. Wish I had some brilliant advice -- or better yet a magic wand! How frustrating. I hope that somehow it can work out better than it looks from here. My heart goes out to you and I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you.