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Mar 17, 2018, 11:35 PM
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Trust me you can do damage at a grocery store. When you spend $200 and walk out with all the most exotic ingredients to begin your new life as the most amazing chef ever, but really you left without anything to actually feed your family lol If you feel you are heading towards danger reach out to the good doctor
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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 Wild Coyote, wildflowerchild25
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Mar 18, 2018, 06:12 AM
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The line between hypomania and mania for me is my level of functioning. When hypo I can still function; mania, nope. Totally consumed by my thoughts and delusions. Not sure if that helps or not.
I agree with the others... try to get in touch with your doctor. You don't want this to get out of control.
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dx: schizoaffective bipolar type; OCD; GAD rx: clozapine, clonazepam PRN |
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Mar 18, 2018, 04:15 PM
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Sooooooo I started to crash yesterday, I don't know if it's the ativan causing depression or just the fact that i've been high since the beginning of march, back and forth anyway. I don't know. I just wish this all would stop. I've given up, really. I'm so depressed today. And I had a really great time with my date last night, I have every reason to be happy about my life right now. But it's like my brain is like actually, **** you for thinking you're allowed to be happy about anything. Here's some depression to kick you in the face.
I'm going to see if I can get on the cancellation list for my pdoc for this tuesday. It worked last time I was having issues. Otherwise I only have a week left of school and then it's spring break so I think I can make it. And perhaps this depression is a one day deal and I'll be back up tomorrow. But I don't really want that either. I just want to be stable. Haven't been since I stopped Invega. Btw I'm going to ask to go back on Invega. See if that will help stabilize me. It worked so well before. I don't even care about the side effects at this point. I'll just stay with an endocrinologist and take meds to combat the high prolactin. IDGAF. sigh.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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May 01, 2018, 03:49 PM
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I hate the ups and downs I get as a result of bipolar. This afternoon I had a great discussion with a potential business partner. I felt great for about a half-hour. Lots of possibilities on the horizon, good ideas exchanged. I was out of the doghouse that I'd been in for the last 18 months.
And then, <thwunk>...out of nowhere my hope gave way to fatigue, and total lack of productivity. It's now an hour and a half later. I promised him that I'd send him a PowerPoint analysis right after the call. However, I'm just sitting here staring at the computer, surfing the Web, Googling random people / articles. This sucks...why does my productivity and interest see saw like this?!?!? I wish I could be more consistent...
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Diagnosis: Bipolar I w/ Depression Medications: Lamictal Lyrica ECT - once / month |
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