[beauflow]

I have issues with tracking my cycles. Any rapid cycling people that have some insight?


Babble from another day, an insight of why it's hard to pin down cycling:

I have too many dx's that bleed into one another (I feel) . Bipolar, PTSD, borderline...

I have been under a lot of stress, lack of sleep, mixed feeling of moods & self; and other times a concrete feeling of self- like clearity on confusing topics just a few weeks ago.
I'm in some lows too. And I've had times that nothing is wrong with me. - majority of humans just aren't honest with themselves and observe enough.
:/ I've been empty at times
I'm a ping pong ball in my head.
Some don't like to hang out with me because they claim "alternate personas of a person makes them feel uneasy"..( then stay away dude).

Sometimes when I'm like this, I have the thought of Deja Vu with - this has happened recently, and of course when it's occuring it has a meaning or a sign to it...

Sometimes I "feel" a change coming and try to prepare but sometimes I don't.

Perhaps this is all normal?

I just have issues tracking... Then I'll forget all this when I'm feeling normal or another me or whatever.

I get confused if this is even bipolar, but I've had more than one doctor dx me with it.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by beauflow

I have issues with tracking my cycles. Any rapid cycling people that have some insight?





Babble from another day, an insight of why it's hard to pin down cycling:


I have too many dx's that bleed into one another (I feel) . Bipolar, PTSD, borderline...


I have been under a lot of stress, lack of sleep, mixed feeling of moods & self; and other times a concrete feeling of self- like clearity on confusing topics just a few weeks ago.

I'm in some lows too. And I've had times that nothing is wrong with me. - majority of humans just aren't honest with themselves and observe enough.

:/ I've been empty at times

I'm a ping pong ball in my head.

Some don't like to hang out with me because they claim "alternate personas of a person makes them feel uneasy"..( then stay away dude).


Sometimes when I'm like this, I have the thought of Deja Vu with - this has happened recently, and of course when it's occuring it has a meaning or a sign to it...


Sometimes I "feel" a change coming and try to prepare but sometimes I don't.


Perhaps this is all normal?


I just have issues tracking... Then I'll forget all this when I'm feeling normal or another me or whatever.


I get confused if this is even bipolar, but I've had more than one doctor dx me with it.

I’ve been dx with complex ptsd, ptsd, dysthmia, unspecific mood disordered, nonspecific personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, bipolar 2, and mixed moderate bipolar and emotional shock as well as mental giftedness and very superior intelligence plus a nonspecific learning disorder

My current dx I am dealing with is the mixed moderate bipolar

I do not hang out with anyone

I work and take care of my daughter and go to church

What is it you want or are looking for

[jacky8807]

Hi beauflow

I do not typically rapid cycle so I cannot say to much here. However with the borderline,anxiety Ptsd ...all of those things lead to mood shifts and are more likely than bipolar to cause multiple shifts throughout the day. Many ppl keep a mood journal . Its probably a good idea to see what is triggering the shifts if you notice it happens at certain times or after certain events. Being mindful will make it easier to tell when you are going up or down. If you see a therapist he or she could probably help you with that as well.
BTW my brain is tired and a little slow right now, so if you answered all this stuff in your original post sorry!

This place is great for support and we are glad you joined us.

[luvyrself]

Originally Posted by beauflow

I have issues with tracking my cycles. Any rapid cycling people that have some insight?


Babble from another day, an insight of why it's hard to pin down cycling:

I have too many dx's that bleed into one another (I feel) . Bipolar, PTSD, borderline...

I have been under a lot of stress, lack of sleep, mixed feeling of moods & self; and other times a concrete feeling of self- like clearity on confusing topics just a few weeks ago.
I'm in some lows too. And I've had times that nothing is wrong with me. - majority of humans just aren't honest with themselves and observe enough.
:/ I've been empty at times
I'm a ping pong ball in my head.
Some don't like to hang out with me because they claim "alternate personas of a person makes them feel uneasy"..( then stay away dude).

Sometimes when I'm like this, I have the thought of Deja Vu with - this has happened recently, and of course when it's occuring it has a meaning or a sign to it...

Sometimes I "feel" a change coming and try to prepare but sometimes I don't.

Perhaps this is all normal?

I just have issues tracking... Then I'll forget all this when I'm feeling normal or another me or whatever.

I get confused if this is even bipolar, but I've had more than one doctor dx me with it.

—my therapist told me about eMoodTracker for Bipolar online. I so love it. I am rapid cycling right now. It tracks yr changes and lets u journal also. Does graphs.

[beauflow]

Many thanks everyone for the replies, it's helpful.
Right now been in therapy to work on trauma, but I'm always trying to figure out a way to manage and track.

Sometimes I believe I get wrapped up of "controlling" what I can only manage.

I have started so many tracking journals and tried apps. I'll just have to keep trying. I shared with my T my tracking for a few months, she was impressed but I couldn't seem to stop beating myself up that day about how inconsistent I can be.

I'll find something I'm sure or find self compassion and live more

I got a fitness tracker to try to aid in tracking sleep (it's still inaccurate because it counted 3 hours of trying to sleep/get up out of bed, as sleep.

I try to recognize my triggers, but also am learning- even though I've been dealing with this for so long I feel like.

Mixed and rapid days I have issues labeling the shifts.

I think I get frustrated with it just in general.

But I'm thankful, I've learned, I'm trying.

Thanks everyone

[Unrigged64072835]

Good for you for trying to keep track.

[Wild Coyote]

Impressive efforts!
i hope you can get things sorted out.

WC

[luvyrself]

Originally Posted by luvyrself

—my therapist told me about eMoodTracker for Bipolar online. I so love it. I am rapid cycling right now. It tracks yr changes and lets u journal also. Does graphs.

I love eMoodTracker too! I am rapid cycling also. Haven’t found a way to adjust my meds to deal w this in the best way.