normal is ok ..... i guess ...

when your low and level for so long it becomes the new normal ... always a new med ... always the same ... sometimes I thought its better ... at least I told myself it was ... there comes a point you just accept what is ... and things will just be this way ... the sad thing is when I was ( way down in the blackness ) ... I had a reason to look forward to ... not a good dream but one just the same ... now ... nothing ... day after day of nothing ... no hope of change ... no future dream ... oh well ... I am working so there is money for the family ... I guess that will have to be enough ...

if it was not for my "girl" ... well you know ...

just bitc***g ... no need to respond ... Tigger ...


... slowly , I guess ... ( going into the sunset )

Good for you. It's 'evidently' that our high expectations came from watching TV?!

I think so. Stepping back and giving up when we are faced with the root of all problems...Money.

I go through a similar scenario, but in my case, I no no no turn to narcotics..

I finally found a medication combination that made me stable at a pleasant level even facing monetary stresses and a minor fender bender. It has taken me over a decade to find this combo. Don’t give up hope.

Ditto to what Merlin said. Have a frank and hard discussion with your psychiatrist. You deserve a quality of life not just an existence.

Hey, Tigger--

No, baseline is not a low-level depression. Baseline is generally calm, with the typical ups and downs of life just life-ing along.

I agree with the others about seeing your pdoc and getting your meds changed. Hold on.

Thanks for this thread and the responses. My normal is similar and I think I’m going to address it at my next pdoc appt.

I hope you’re able to achieve a better level of normal

thanks for the response ... I have a very good relationship with my pdoc ... I am the only patient he has that can call him and get doses and new meds from him without seeing him ... I know what it takes for my mind and body to respond ... the fear factor , the side effects and the cost limit me some what ...

I am completely stable .. sleeping fairly well ... anxiety under control 95% ... xanex for other 5% ...

I hold civil conversations with people ... I no longer "rage" over "things & people" ... my eating is fairly under control (some emotional binging) now and then ... and I am able to work with out getting mad at myself or others all the time ...

yah I am missing the " smell the roses" from my life ... but all in all I am happy to be where I am ... it is a hell of a lot better than where I was 2 years ago ...

thanks for the comments ... I love all you guys ... Tigger .

just that "springtime" rant I guess ...