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#1
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I'm not really upset about anything and not much is
Wrong right now but I have the urge to self harm.
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All the time. If I recall you’ve been doing it for many years, yes? I’ve been doing it for about 16. So I honestly think it just becomes so ingrained in you that you just get urges for no reason. At least it has for me.
I just let the thoughts float in, acknowledge them, and move on. I don’t dwell.
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That's what I'm doing. Accepting them as thoughts and urges but not letting them
Get to an action. I've done it since I was 16 so 15 years.
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Dont do it. You dont deserve to hurt yourself- you deserve better than that.
Thats what I tell myself when I feel the urge- that I cant let myself do it. That I dont deserve the pain that I would unleash on myself. That I cant treat myself like that. That I might feel better for a while, and thats the hard part, but later on Ill feel so bad about it that I just CANT do it to myself. You dont deserve to be stuck in a cycle of wanting to hurt yourself. And Im sorry you feel the urge, I understand, I feel it sometimes still and its hard not to just... let yourself do it. Just once. Once isnt so bad? Yes it is. Because YOU DONT DESERVE IT. You dont deserve to feel like you need to hurt yourself. Dont do it. You cant let yourself do it. Do you have anythibg else that you can do instead? |
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I'm watching tv and relaxing and getting ready for bed
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Excellent!
Im so happy about this! You are strong- I know you can do it! |
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Thanks. Im trying my best
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Thats all anyone can ever ask!
I hope you have a good sleep |
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I think your subconscious is upset about something, but your conscience doesn't know what.
Maybe you can figure out what your subconscious wants and why. I know that finding out "why" could he upsetting, but you deserve to know how to combat these thoughts. You DESERVE to be healthy and happy. You DESERVE to get better. But that's just my interpretation, as I've had suicidal thoughts out of boredom and it turned our that my conscience wasn't understanding my subconscious, if that makes sense? |
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I did that a lot in college, now not so much, but then again, if I started, my husband would surely notice, I couldn't hide it. Sometimes, I think about it, but I haven't acted on it since the early 2000s.
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I'm sorry to hear you're having the urge, especially with no obvious reason.
I have been struggling for the past week or so, and have been strong enough to hold out. It's been weeks since I have harmed, but I have been going through a rough time and my arm is practically calling out to me for 'attention'. I hope you're able to resist. I hope I'm able to resist.
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It's been since Christmas Day since I have
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I wouldn't do that. I love thyself too much. And hate feeling any pain.
There were times, when I have made crass mistakes, that I have thought about smashing my testicules with a ten pound mallet. But than only will prove I'm crazy. And it must hurt like hell.
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Thats awesome!
I promise it DOES get easier the longer you go. I remember when I first stopped the thoughts about doing it again were really strong- I really had to fight. But it got better- now I hardly ever even think of it anymore. Its so much better! Itll get better for you too! |
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