[giddykitty]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

You're right -- there's no excuse to be rude -- but I do empathise. I can be the same way when I'm feeling like ****. At least you've realised that you were in the wrong; that takes a lot of courage to admit.

Try not to beat yourself up for it, though. What happened in the past, happened. You can't change the past. However, you CAN change the present and redirect your future. So if you need to, aplogize and tell people you will be more mindful next time. And tell them how you plan to make sure it won't happen again. That usually makes a difference in a lot of people's minds.

Also, my phone has changed all of my spellings to British spellings. *sigh* At least it's still English.

I feel like I don't know what to do in those situations. Like, I don't have or remember the tools. I need therapy and well that's part of my holdup I guess. Afraid of not getting helped. Afraid of losing that help. I feel so alone and go into defense mode. So far therapy can't crack me. *sigh/tear But I'm gonna try going this week and specifically ask about this. Hope I get some tips!

Ps I didn't notice any britishisms. Hmm you fixed them?

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Giddykitty--I knew when I had panic attacks, or if I was really depressed, I couldn't use any coping skills. My T emphasizes practicing these things when I'm not in that stage so I could use them when I'm at that point. It feels more of a habit then. Sorry you're having a hard time and I hope things clear up for you soon.
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Went to PT this morning. Shoulders and neck feel more stiff than before I went in.

Husband is still working on his new bed. Every so often I hear the saw and drill go off.

I'm now on the hook to make meatloaf. Even with good recipes I don't like meatloaf. I ate it too often growing up and just blech.

Another night of next to no sleep. Not good.

Feeling low but bearable.

[Wild Coyote]

It's a beautiful day here-- sunny and in the 50's!

I am super anxious today. Going to a very large social event tonight. Am fighting another migraine and I have to go. I have invited people to go with us. No backing out. Gotta do it no matter what.

I hope the migraine dissipates.


WC

5 weeks + 4 days

My mood was all over the place today. I had to talk on the phone twice today and i hate that. I made plans to take my dog into the vet for her Spring meds on Saturday and that's gonna be such an ordeal. We have to take cabs both ways. I didn't want a weekend appointment but my vet is all booked up. I ate well, so that's something, plus also made it over to the pool again and did six lengths this time. I found it a bit of a hassle this time and may try the exercise bike as the pool is closing for renos soon.

Hugs,

Jane.

[scatterbrained04]

All in all doing ok. Have been really anxious lately that someone I care about is upset with me. Kept hoping to get the chance to ask them in person, but it just hasn't worked out that way. Just sent them a text. Nervous as hell for the response. Or worse, that I won't get one.

[Daonnachd]

A little down, still, but that shouldn't really be a surprise.

[Tucson]

I am alive. I walked 4.5 miles today. Unfortunately, this has me losing weight again. So I am increasing the calories by eating more food. I cannot eat like this because this makes me very full through the day. I am going to have to find more calorie ladened food which tends to be more expensive.

I need to clean this place up now that I am not as depressed as I have been in the recent past. Exersize has been helping me allot here. My cat has been constantly crying for many weeks now. I have been feeding her. She has her water dish, even though my cat frequently likes drinking from the bathroom faucet. This situation irritates me at times. This is one spoiled cat. Lately she has been getting better about this, but she still has her crying spells. When this happens, I usually whistle at my cat to come over to me where I pet her.

[Pookyl]

So my four day regime of increased Seroquel has managed to knock me from being on the cusp of a mixed episode back to being a happy hypomanic individual.
Pdoc wants me to continue on extra Seroquel to come back to ‘normal’. She’s no fun.

[Asteya]

I’d like a bipolar community that’s more positive. Although this morning I took my lamictal (I normally take it at night) and I got all the bad side effects. Nausea, dizzy, drowsyness. Oh well, live and learn, tomorrow is a new day <3

[hopeless2015]

Doing pretty good. Dental appointment went good yesterday, shocking since it had been years since I went. Got an email for meeting on a new position that vacant here. It would be a new department and a lateral move not a promotion but some of the duties are things I have no experience in but would really benefit me to learn career wise. The admin that contacted me about this position last week was very encouraging about learning those those duties. Also after looking up that department there ate several faculty members that I have frequent contact with in my current position so I feel like I could get good references. That would obviously be interviewing others for this position so it's not like it's a guaranteed thing but still exciting. I work for a University so very strict rules to follow on these matters.

Hugs EVERYONE

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by Asteya

I’d like a bipolar community that’s more positive.

I understand your feelings, but I feel fortunate just to have a community like PC. As for me, I don't post much in the bipolar section when I'm feeling well, & that might be the same for other folks. While I sometimes try to inject a little levity it's primarily in the general chat section. I hope you can lead by example...& I'll try, too. Peace.

[ShikyoNoTenshi]

Having a mixed week so far. Part of me wants to just go go go... the other part of me wants to just disappear in to a void... I had my first of two interviews for a promotion which has me excited but I'm anxious more than anything about it. I'm secretly hoping I don't get the spot but at the same time I've been waiting for the spot to open. I have today and tomorrow off from work which is nice. But come Thursday I have to lead a two day site decommission and it is causing me a lot of anxiety, too many unknowns and there's a lack of documentation / direction... The best I can do right now is distract myself by listening to music. I just hope all my anxiety is unfounded and things go smoothly.

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Cat survived surgery and is pretty high on meds at the moment. She thinks she can do a lot more than she is able to do. Daughter probably could use something to calm herself down though. She's a really worried pet parent.

Daughter's boyfriend is cooking steaks with baked potatoes and a veg.

Rest of day was okay. Wrote more poems for writing challenges and that's doing well.

I thought maybe i've been so down lately because i've been lonely so i went to my old drop-in today and to an art house cafe before it. But it didn't really work out. I only stayed an hour at the drop-in. Not sure what to do with myself.

[Wild Coyote]

I made it out to dinner with friends and then to a concert last night. I have been awake for 2 days and will sleep well tonight, I hope.

Had 5th row seats at a very loud rock concert. The concert was great! The light show was awesome.

My brain went into overdrive from the massive stimulation. I typically do not sleep until a couple of days have passed when I have been to a concert like this one.

Love to all!


WC

I keep doing a self check. I've no symptoms other than being a bit spend thrifty. Am I going manic?

[Guiness187055]

Had a good visit with the pdoc yesterday.We got rid of the temazepam and the doxepin neither were working and I think the doxepin was making me manic. So we upped the gabapentin for social anxiety and went to thorazine for sleep. Everything else stayed the same. I had to wait for the pharmacy to get the thorazine in so hopefully I will sleep well tonight.

[Cocosurviving]

Today I called about a bill I received. Before long I was screaming at the lady on the phone. I calmed down and ended the call. I just started Prozac. One of the pharmacist at my pharmacy said it would help with anger. I’ve been real irritable lately. I need to just use my coping skills and set boundaries with some people. I took a Ativan this morning and it really helped my anxiety.

[Mini2018]

Got a letter with no meds saying the hospital pharmacy would no longer subsidize my meds. Great. You'd have thought they'd notify me so I wouldn't run out.

Mark up on meds is crazy. How can my cheapest subsidized med cost me $2.20 through the hospital and $28 at the pharmacy???

My four paws is fast asleep, full belly, empty bowels and toes flopped in standby mode. Wish I could sleep like that. Ok. I'd wear under garments...

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Daughter is having a bad day. She didn't get the job because her boyfriend works at the same store. Her cat is going stir crazy because she can't go up and down the stairs until her surgery site is healed up (re-check is next week). And one of her friends was stuck downtown with little gas and no gas money because his mother said,"Well you shouldn't be seeing your friends then." The. mother's been trying to make him stay home and study for school; he's trying to get a job so he can move out.

Needless to say after planning meals and getting groceries we're pooped. I'm making meatloaf for the fam and having a sandwich for dinner because I'm not that hungry and I don't like meatloaf. It's one of my family's favorite comfort foods, though.

So a stressful day. Plus PT that made my shoulders hurt.

Mood is between holy crap and leave me alone...

[pirilin]

Keep trucking. Let's rumble!!!.

Doing ok. Haven't had any hallucinations in a little while. I just seem to get them when I stop taking my meds, whether it's from throwing up or me choosing not to take them.

Also ignoring my sister since she thinks she's a little princess who deserves everything. She's been such a ***** lately. And it doesn't help that my mom seems to encourage the behavior.

How the **** she even has a boyfriend is beyond me. I don't know how he puts up with her. She throws hissy fits whenever she doesn't get her way.

[liveforsummer]

Stupid Med mix up this morning so don’t think I even took any. I just don’t remember.
Feel ok but kinda plastering on the Im fine face cause I see pdoc in 2 wks and I just want to be able to taper off meds.

Aaaargh

Way to go WC, glad you had a rockin time out!!

Hugs to all in need

Oooh, now of course I'm dying of curiousity what band had you rocking out, WC! But I get it could be a privacy/location issue and I TOTALLY understand that. (You can PM me if it isn't though, lol... )

Fahraige. Sorry you are feeling so crappy. You are always so supportive with a hug at the ready.

Hugs all around my peeps....

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Here.... dare I say it? Pretty good(!) Started Vraylar on Saturday and I don't know if it's that, or nice weather, or a combination of both, but I'm not going to question it. Not feeling hypo, either. Getting things done better than in most of last few months.

[RainyDay107]

I’m crappy.

New med didn’t work out Pdoc tried to persuade me to go IP during my appointment today (wasn’t expecting that, I didn’t mention the S-word). I said NO, I don’t want to go!

We raised my med and he me to consider genetic testing. And he wants me to get a Golden Retriever. OK’d the med adjustment, said I look into the DNA tests. Nix’d the GR. Appointment in 4 weeks, call if I need to (i.e., freaking out before then).

He said he wants me to be happy. I asked him to please stick with me. He said he would.

Saw T, too. She’s a hugger, lol. Trauma therapy. Might get to it if brain would CHILL.

FitBit just said get moving, 50 stairs badge yesterday!