[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It was a beautiful day today.
Still experiencing auditory illusions. Saw pdoc. C-PTSD is my primary psych diagnosis. The PTSD symptoms set off by attending a concert -- almost 2 weeks ago -- are continuing. Flashbacks and auditory illusions.
The air conditioner is "playing" some very hard rock and its very tiring. Am trying ear plugs; yet, not much relief.

I hope to sleep tonight. I have slept the 2 nights I have allowed myself to drink alcohol. I am not a huge fan of alcohol, but it does help, at least initially.

I do not want to take in any alcohol tonight.
I hope I can sleep.

Love to All!


WC

I hope you sleep tonight! Sweet dreams.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[Fuzzybear]

I hope you get some sleep tonight

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It was a beautiful day today.
Still experiencing auditory illusions. Saw pdoc. C-PTSD is my primary psych diagnosis. The PTSD symptoms set off by attending a concert -- almost 2 weeks ago -- are continuing. Flashbacks and auditory illusions.
The air conditioner is "playing" some very hard rock and its very tiring. Am trying ear plugs; yet, not much relief.

I hope to sleep tonight. I have slept the 2 nights I have allowed myself to drink alcohol. I am not a huge fan of alcohol, but it does help, at least initially.

I do not want to take in any alcohol tonight.
I hope I can sleep.

Love to All!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I've crashed from elevated mood in March and April. It was a very mild hypomania. I mostly got the sleep disturbance. I get up at noon the rest of the year but during my Spring Fever i get up at dawn. I didn't get the desire to socialize or the racing thoughts or the spending spree. It was a very tame hypomania. I crashed the moment the vet announced a $700 bill for my dog's Spring meds and pre-dental work tests. That took the stuffing out of me. Sorry i was so overbearing about my diet -- that's over too. Heavy sigh.

I thought you were just fine here. I did not perceive you to be overbearing at all. I am sorry about your dog's bill. Our companions can be expensive.


WC

Took 2mg of risperidone for a few days and I'm feeling calmer. I'm sleeping better too, but I think that's more so because the heat is off and I'm no longer waking up at 2am irritated because it feels like 90F in here. Maybe I need to get a winter tent and a lower temp sleeping bag so I can actually comfortably sleep in the winter! Speaking of weather, it's weird. We got a decent amount of snow about a week ago and a few days ago there was a tornado watch a bit to our west and some crazy thunderstorms.

I'm super excited though, I'm hiking some larger mountains next week with awesome views (weather dependent) and pick up my new employee badge at work. My life right now is hiking. I still want to get one more skiing day in though. I might go to this BC place that's super popular in the spring if I feel like hiking with my skis and boots, but there's a few resorts still open, although lift tickets are still pricey. I am not spending $70 for one lift and 8 runs so hopefully this place will have a free last day like they sometimes do.

But I wish I had less stuff to do here so I could be on the trails more often.

[Blueberrybook]

I took the extra 150 mg of Seroquel last night my pdoc wants me to take to bring down the hypomania. Only have to be on this dose a week or 2 and then he will re-evaluate.

I'm having a bad fibromyalgia flare, to the point where even the shower water hitting my skin is painful. I decided not to go walking today and took my fibro meds, which sometimes make me tired (especially on top of the extra Seroquel). I hope I can spend a relaxing day and hopefully feel better tomorrow.

[scatterbrained04]

Overwhelmed by my messy house today. Working at it little by little. Really want to purge some things, but it's mega tough with my son around.

[thoughtsofast]

My colleague is having a housewarming party this afternoon and the last thing I want to do is see more people from work or see anyone at all. But I have no skill/tact to handle the consequences of my absence so I am trying to strategize my entry and exit.

[hopeless2015]

Terrible cramps today. Loaded up on pain reliever and on heating pad. I need to get groceries, we don't have **** in the house to eat. Got cleaning done yesterday so it's nice to just lay around and have things clean.

HUGS to everyone

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Terrible cramps today. Loaded up on pain reliever and on heating pad. I need to get groceries, we don't have **** in the house to eat. Got cleaning done yesterday so it's nice to just lay around and have things clean.

HUGS to everyone

I am sorry you are suffering!
I think of you often and wonder how you are doing.

I hope you feel relief soon!

WC

I've been trying to read, but I suck at it. I go through phases every couple of months where I can read and a couple of months where I can't.

I keep hearing things today and I'm not sure if they're real or not. Thus, I'm trying to distract myself with books instead of focusing on determining if something is real or fake. I just need to buy some audiobooks, I think, to shut out all the noise. The only problem is that audiobooks can be veeeeery expensive.

Otherwise, doing ok. Birthday is tomorrow. I'm seeing my therapist at 8:30am, going to the chiropractor (who's our family friend), and going out to lunch with my mom. My left on a business trip today, so he won't be around, but he got me some stuff for my apartment and helped me fix the dishwasher, which was nice.

[giddykitty]

why does my depression feel much worse than my hypomania?? I mean, on the scale it seems I dip lower than I rise above. Maybe it's about the same, it just sucks so much being down that it feels deeper and feels longer. At this rate, I'll still have another week or two and I'm so done with it now. Grr

Trying to exercise to alleviate some of it, but I'm not getting much time because I'm dragging *** on all of my chores.

I think I'm most bummed because my pdoc said the medicine was supposed to keep working/work better this month. I've not noticed that. Does that mean I don't have bipolar?? (why do I have to keep doubting this. I definitely am noticing cycles here. Sigh) At least my insurance cleared, so I'm going to try to get in this month to see her...if possible. I think she's getting sick of me.

[Tucson]

I am here. I have to eat more calories since I have lost too much weight. I am trying to start cleaning my house. I have been watching an excellent series on Netflix. I forgot that I have a membership to Netflix.

[wildflowerchild25]

Had a good day yesterday. Not so much today. Slept from 10:30 last night to about two pm today. Got up a couple of times to feed my son and get dressed but mostly slept. I feel like my son is going to grow up to hate me like I hated my mom for sleeping all the time. The only thing I have up in her is that I sleep on the couch so I’m actually there if he talks to me or asks for something. I didn’t play with him today though. We went outside for a brief time but it was thundering and then a bee flew at him and freaked him out.

I dragged my *** up to make dinner ONLY because the chicken was marinated already and I didn’t want it to go to waste. Chicken fajitas and Spanish rice was the only thing besides a banana I ate today. And some ice cream. Just not hungry at all.

I guess I’m depressed today. I’m worried that I will never find another job. I’ve only gotten one call back and it’s ina really bad area of the city so I’m not sure I would even take it even if I got it. I have to go and see just how bad the area seems to me.

I’m trying not to be a total slug today. I did put my laundry away. About to do my son’s only because he’s got his outfit that he has to wear to my niece’s christening in there and it can’t get all wrinkled. I have no iron.

Ugh I just wish I could feel good all the time and not just every few days. Is that too much to ask? Maybe it is.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

The only problem is that audiobooks can be veeeeery expensive.

I get audiobooks from my library. I get books on CDs because it works for me but my mom is able to get them as downloads to her phone (borrowed). I don't know how it works but the library would. When I worked I had a 2 hour each way commute and did rural home health so drove 3-4 hours per day during work and then I was part of a rental thing online with thousands of choices that made sure I was never without books to listen to so something like that is probably an option too.

[Cocosurviving]

Hi everyone, today has been a good day.

I colored my hair.

I walked my dog a few times.

I emptied the trash and had my daughter take it out.

I fueled up my car for the week.

I refilled my pillbox.

I had my daughter clean her room.

I went to Walmart and got breakfast smoothies for my daughter. We’re trying to eat healthier.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

Hi everyone, today has been a good day.

I colored my hair.

I walked my dog a few times.

I emptied the trash and had my daughter take it out.

I fueled up my car for the week.

I refilled my pillbox.

I had my daughter clean her room.

I went to Walmart and got breakfast smoothies for my daughter. We’re trying to eat healthier.

Your smile lights up the forum!

WC

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Your smile lights up the forum!



WC

Awe thank you!!!

I'm really upset.

I'm not religious, but I don't have a problem with religion whatsoever. Everyone has the right to believe in what they want to believe in. However, religious nursing homes in this area are being downright cruel toward my grandma. She just got Medicaid and we want to put her in a catholic nursing home because she is religious and wants to see a priest every Sunday, but now they're saying they won't administer her antipsychotic "because we shouldn't alter the mind that god gave us." WTF. This is where I draw the line.

So apparently anyone who takes an antipsychotic is now making a sin, and sinners aren't allowed to participate in religion. That's the message I'm getting.

I've never heard of this before, but whatever extremist version of Catholicism this is, it's BS. It's not her fault that she has to be on an antipsychotic for her dementia. Why are they punishing her?

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I get audiobooks from my library. I get books on CDs because it works for me but my mom is able to get them as downloads to her phone (borrowed). I don't know how it works but the library would. When I worked I had a 2 hour each way commute and did rural home health so drove 3-4 hours per day during work and then I was part of a rental thing online with thousands of choices that made sure I was never without books to listen to so something like that is probably an option too.

Interesting. Never thought about the library. I'll have to see how to sign up for Overdrive (or whatever they use these days for audiobooks). I'll look into it -- thanks!

[Faltering]

I stayed home from work and I feel guilty about it because I know I have a lot of work to do. This morning I felt so depressed that I was sick to my stomach. I have SI. I told everyone my illness is physical so they'd understand, but it's really mental. I keep having intrusive thoughts too. I don't think it's safe to be around people in public today. I don't know what to do about my job anymore. I feel like I've failed and let everyone down by being hospitalized and needing time off. I see my pdoc on May 22nd. I think I need to start keeping a mood chart.

[hopeless2015]

I called in sick to work to. I'm feeling really low but I really think it's because of my period. I've been all over the place with it for months now. Been to Dr and everything checks our fine. I'm 47 so I think I'm just going to have to deal with this till menepause. Sucks but not a thing i can do about it.

[Daonnachd]

At Christmas my SIL gave me (and my whole family) tickets to see U2 in concert. Today is the day. They put on a good show, but I'm nervous about all the people. Luckily, I'm not so depressed that I don't want to go at all. I have been there in the past few months. I'm glad not today because my SIL would not understand if I stayed home.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vertigo

At Christmas my SIL gave me (and my whole family) tickets to see U2 in concert. Today is the day. They put on a good show, but I'm nervous about all the people. Luckily, I'm not so depressed that I don't want to go at all. I have been there in the past few months. I'm glad not today because my SIL would not understand if I stayed home.

I hope you have a wonderful time and the crowd is not too overwhelming.

[Blueberrybook]

I've been pretty productive today. Took a 4 mile walk. Took my cat to the vet for her annual exam and vaccines. Went grocery shopping. Vacuumed (but unfortunately knocked over my daughter's toy storage center with a zillion toy-filled bins, ugh!), plus the vacuum cleaner handle hit me under my left eye. I'm probably going to get a black eye from that.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by vertigo

At Christmas my SIL gave me (and my whole family) tickets to see U2 in concert. Today is the day. They put on a good show, but I'm nervous about all the people. Luckily, I'm not so depressed that I don't want to go at all. I have been there in the past few months. I'm glad not today because my SIL would not understand if I stayed home.

I hope you have fun!
Can't wait to hear/read your review!

I saw Brit Floyd this year and what a good show!

Enjoy!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I'm really upset.

I'm not religious, but I don't have a problem with religion whatsoever. Everyone has the right to believe in what they want to believe in. However, religious nursing homes in this area are being downright cruel toward my grandma. She just got Medicaid and we want to put her in a catholic nursing home because she is religious and wants to see a priest every Sunday, but now they're saying they won't administer her antipsychotic "because we shouldn't alter the mind that god gave us." WTF. This is where I draw the line.

So apparently anyone who takes an antipsychotic is now making a sin, and sinners aren't allowed to participate in religion. That's the message I'm getting.

I've never heard of this before, but whatever extremist version of Catholicism this is, it's BS. It's not her fault that she has to be on an antipsychotic for her dementia. Why are they punishing her?

Huh?

Archaic. Infuriating.
Sorry, Blue.

It's your birthday, supar kitteh, get out there and celebrate!


WC