Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I'm really upset.

I'm not religious, but I don't have a problem with religion whatsoever. Everyone has the right to believe in what they want to believe in. However, religious nursing homes in this area are being downright cruel toward my grandma. She just got Medicaid and we want to put her in a catholic nursing home because she is religious and wants to see a priest every Sunday, but now they're saying they won't administer her antipsychotic "because we shouldn't alter the mind that god gave us." WTF. This is where I draw the line.

So apparently anyone who takes an antipsychotic is now making a sin, and sinners aren't allowed to participate in religion. That's the message I'm getting.

I've never heard of this before, but whatever extremist version of Catholicism this is, it's BS. It's not her fault that she has to be on an antipsychotic for her dementia. Why are they punishing her?


Interesting. Never thought about the library. I'll have to see how to sign up for Overdrive (or whatever they use these days for audiobooks). I'll look into it -- thanks!

I'm not religious either, that is absolutely ridiculous. Can you make a complaint?

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After using ibuprofen for a couple of days it appears the "lump" is actually a strained muscle. Since the doctor would prescribe what I'm already doing at home, I cancelled that appointment.

For our anniversary we went out to a historical monument that we've been wanting to see for a while. It was kind of a disappointment but the weather was nice and we enjoyed being away from the cities. Took long drives to and from there only to find speeding semis on narrow country roads because of road closures and construction, and quite a few drivers who forgot they were not, in fact, racing in the Indy 500. Now waiting for an early dinner that will be good.

I have trauma T tomorrow, so we'll review grounding/calming techniques. Then finish cleaning up the house I'm sure.

Mood is pretty good despite the trip.

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Originally Posted by vertigo

At Christmas my SIL gave me (and my whole family) tickets to see U2 in concert. Today is the day. They put on a good show, but I'm nervous about all the people. Luckily, I'm not so depressed that I don't want to go at all. I have been there in the past few months. I'm glad not today because my SIL would not understand if I stayed home.

I'd have to drive about 5 hours to see them...ugh!

Hope it was a good show!

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Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I'm really upset.

I'm not religious, but I don't have a problem with religion whatsoever. Everyone has the right to believe in what they want to believe in. However, religious nursing homes in this area are being downright cruel toward my grandma. She just got Medicaid and we want to put her in a catholic nursing home because she is religious and wants to see a priest every Sunday, but now they're saying they won't administer her antipsychotic "because we shouldn't alter the mind that god gave us." WTF. This is where I draw the line.

So apparently anyone who takes an antipsychotic is now making a sin, and sinners aren't allowed to participate in religion. That's the message I'm getting.

I've never heard of this before, but whatever extremist version of Catholicism this is, it's BS. It's not her fault that she has to be on an antipsychotic for her dementia. Why are they punishing her?

Wow...I don't think your grandma would last long there without meds. That's ridiculous.

[hopeless2015]

Made myself go to the store. Literally no food left in the house. I love Aldi, 2 weeks worth of groceries for $65, including meat. I've taken a crap ton of ibuprofen for these cramps and am finally feeling some relief. I'm not being a pansy, these have been the worst cramps I've had. Back to work tomorrow no matter how I feel.

HUGS to everyone!!

[wildflowerchild25]

I started out feeling pretty depressed but being around people in group helped, and of course the sunlight. I went to the gym, returned my shoes and a shirt for my son (extra $70 for the win!), then I went to my physical. Which is a miracle, I haven’t had a physical in forever bc I hate the ****ing dr but my new primary care doctor is awesome! I love him. He’s so nice and I’m comfortable talking to him. I don’t feel like he’s judging me. So that went well except my pulse was high but it always is. I did paced breathing to help bring it down. It’s usually high at the dr because I’m so anxious.

I’m seeing NV tomorrow! So happy. And for once he actually asked to see me, and he’s been really affectionate lately so I’m really happy. He shared a sweet song with me last time that made him think of me, which was all about how the writer will always be there. I think I mentioned it.

So yeah, good day overall.

[Tucson]

I do not know went went wrong. I have been so extremely depressed. I have been like this for all afternoon. I just looked at my watch. What happened with all that time? I have been feeling so bad. I felt this intense “pain”, like a real physical pain, but it is not. Psychic pain? Only now has it been lifting enough where I can type this. My tablet has been resting on my chest before this started. I am starting to feel a better some now. I do not know how this started. I have never had this happen so quickly. I was very functional this morning. Depressed, but still functional. This morning, I walked fast for two miles without a problem. What has happened to me? Now I still sad and depressed. I was thinking of money issues, but if I am careful, I will be OK. I know this. I have been here before. It is slowly lifting. What happened? I just do not know what has been happening. I feel depressed still. I well
I still feel really sad. And well

It is coming in waves.

[pirilin]

Anything but depressed.

[Wild Coyote]

I have re-discovered klonopin for CPTSD agitation. What a relief. I wonder if my new doctor, whom I meet next month will go for benzos? A couple of his other patients take benzos, so that's a good sign.


WC

[Cocosurviving]

My day has been up and down. It started out find. My ran some errands this morning. My 20 year old daughter kept e-mailing me. We do not get along and I told her we need to go our separate ways. She does have a job and her own apartment. She has bipolar 2 but is in denial. Like a lot of others she tells people she has depression. The only med she takes is for anxiety.
She was having a hard time doing her phone customer service job. She asked for accommodations. She had her old therapist (seen for three months) write her a letter. My daughter is wanting more breaks. The customers make her really mad and she needs time to cool off. I suggested she go to a psychiatrist and “BE HONEST” with them so she can get on the right meds. Instead of talking to a psychiatrist or a therapist she gets on FB. She will tell all her business to people that don’t give a damn about her and are not professionals.

Once I came home I ate then took a Ativan. That helped.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

My left on a business trip today, so he won't be around, but he got me some stuff for my apartment and helped me fix the dishwasher, which was nice.

Is this some man in your life?????
Do tell.
bizi

Sleepless. Hopeless. Restless. Hostile. Agitated. Useless.

I know I should Risperdal it up, but I might do something stupid when I open the bottle.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by spikes

Sleepless. Hopeless. Restless. Hostile. Agitated. Useless.

I know I should Risperdal it up, but I might do something stupid when I open the bottle.

anyone there that could help you?
bizi

Originally Posted by bizi

anyone there that could help you?
bizi

I think I'll try and calm down and wait half an hour instead of trying to wake someone up.
...
I need to get laid

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I have been enjoying the slightest touch of happy hypomania which I never get and which I can hopefully handle without more clozapine. It's so unusual for me that I barely know how to handle it (but have the right checks and balances in place). I usually only get mixed.

Today was a nice day with therapist appointment and shopping with my mom. And then I got home and found out that a teacher who meant a lot to me died suddenly today. This man protected me from my abusive father on more than one occasion, supported me through an injury that was bad enough he could have just given up on me and generally was kind and supportive in ways I didn't even understand back then.

For years I've meant to send a thank you note and for years I've put it off. And now I put it off too long. I hope he knew how much it meant that he did the things he did.

I want to see my therapist again. I need help to cry. But this week doesn't work for an extra appointment; I have appointments every day and my therapist is over an hour away so I can't just pop in.

I am so sorry I never wrote that note.

[VerMOZZica]

I woke up really late today but I managed to get some cleaning done. I cleaned my bedroom and then cleaned up the bathroom. After that I took a shower and got dressed. My nieces and nephew came over and I made them dinner then we did some arts and crafts. I considered it a pretty good day today. I kept busy and it made me feel better though I admit there are some days when it seems like nothing helps. But today was good and I am grateful for that.

[wildflowerchild25]

Fell asleep at one am after massive anxiety attack. Now I’m up at 5:30 with a headache. I hope I’m able to go back to sleep for a couple hours. I just had some cereal to see if that helps the headache.

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It's early so I may come back later if I'm not vacuuming by then.

Last night's dinner was great. Food was excellent. Hard to believe it's over 7 years now. We've gone through so much. It's only in the last year that things have settled down, especially with me.

Have trauma T this afternoon. Hope I can vacuum the house afterwards, but we'll see.

[Daonnachd]

First, I live in the Napa Valley, the north end of the San Francisco Bay Area. Last night's concert was in the south end of the Bay Area. I am very tired from making the drive, staying up late, getting up early, and making the drive home in time to get my sons to school on time.

As to the concert itself, they opened strong with "When the Lights Go Out" one of my favourite songs on the album. Not having an opening band, U2 had enough time to do all of Songs of Experience as well as a lot of stuff from the other albums. In fact almost every album since their 1981 album, October, was represented. Surprisingly, nothing was included from Joshua Tree, their most successful album.

Of course, a lot of what Bono had to say was about equality, peace, and love. My favourite quote is this: "No one is equal until everyone is equal." ...But I also like, "Give peace a chance." Furthermore, the encore of three songs was kicked off with "Love Is Bigger than Anything in Its Way."

So, if you like the newest album, or love their old stuff, or are just curious about the sound and philosophy of U2, this is a good show to catch.

I'm feeling very good.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vertigo

First, I live in the Napa Valley, the north end of the San Francisco Bay Area. Last night's concert was in the south end of the Bay Area. I am very tired from making the drive, staying up late, getting up early, and making the drive home in time to get my sons to school on time.

As to the concert itself, they opened strong with "When the Lights Go Out" one of my favourite songs on the album. Not having an opening band, U2 had enough time to do all of Songs of Experience as well as a lot of stuff from the other albums. In fact almost every album since their 1981 album, October was represented. Surprisingly, nothing was included from Joshua Tree, their most successful album.

Of course, a lot of what Bono had to say was about equality, peace, and love. My favourite quote is this: "No one is equal until everyone is equal." ...But I also like, "Give peace a chance." Furthermore, the encore of three songs was kicked off with "Love Is Bigger than Anything in Its Way."

So, if you like the newest album, or love their old stuff, or are just curious about the sound and philosophy of U2, this is a good show to catch.

I'm feeling very good.

Yay!!! Glad you had a good time.

[251turnaround]

I'm still on a pretty long good day streak (for me, anyway) despite being exhausted and somewhat nauseous all the time. I wish I could go back on stimulant meds, but my pdoc won't let me.

It's almost scary how good I feel despite bad things happening around me.

[Wild Coyote]

Its a gorgeous day!

Going to run errands with H.

I hope everyone has a good day!


WC

[Daonnachd]

I meet with my T today.

...and I forgot to mention, the best part of the concert last night was when they played "Vertigo" just for me.

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by vertigo

...the best part of the concert last night was when they played "Vertigo" just for me.

That's what happens when you're personal buddies with Bono, I guess!

BTW, Kendrick Lamar (a rapper) just won the Pulitzer Prize for "Damn"...The first non-classical or jazz project to win the award. U2 plays with him on one song...It's pretty rap-like, though:

[thoughtsofast]

Missed work again today. So tempted to just sit in the house and mope around and worry about future. that kinda day today.I did manage to get back to gym yesterday though. I hope this phases passes on soon.