[Amazonmom]

I've been feeling super depressed but completely energized and unable to focus. I saw my doc today. She changed my meds. I cried in the parking lot afterwards because I know i'm bad off and i'm embarrassed to be so weak after having a relatively stable mood for years. Severe agitated depression sucks.

I am so tense and anxious 100 percent of the time. I could barely breathe i was so tense today. I took the klonopin like she asked me to and i think i feel it starting to work.

i will take my increased seroquel tonight before bed. I like being able to feel intense emotion but it's not good to stay in this state. Doc is worried about what my thoughts are about.

She did ask to see my new car so i was happy to show her my new electric baby.
I feel like telling people what i've done makes me accountable for what i've done.

[*Laurie*]

My first thought is that what you've described sounds like a mixed state - or even a dysphoric mania. To me, that "place" is a very challenging, frightening place for someone with bipolar disorder to be in.


Please work hard not to feel embarrassed. Your brain simply got off track. It's a physical thing.

Take it easy, try to do relaxing things...or even a few chores...something that will distract you.

I hope the Seroquel helps. I think it will.

[Skeezyks]

Congratulations on the new car! Hope you begin feeling better soon...

[Amazonmom]

Thank you for replying. Yes both of us think im headed to the dysphoric mania if I don't take some action. My best friend from high school died and that's what triggered the activated agitated portion of my mood. She wants me to return to therapy but hasn't ordered me to do it yet. I would need to find a new T since my old one retired. I'm scared to trust a new T. I don't need my job and family disrupted because I confess I feel bad thoughts about myself.

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

My first thought is that what you've described sounds like a mixed state - or even a dysphoric mania. To me, that "place" is a very challenging, frightening place for someone with bipolar disorder to be in.


Please work hard not to feel embarrassed. Your brain simply got off track. It's a physical thing.

Take it easy, try to do relaxing things...or even a few chores...something that will distract you.

I hope the Seroquel helps. I think it will.

[Amazonmom]

The model 3 is utterly amazing. Elon Musk must be putting drugs in the cars (joke). My two gas cars are getting old and I'm seriously considering a second Tesla when I can afford it. Maybe a Performance model next time!

Originally Posted by Skeezyks

Congratulations on the new car! Hope you begin feeling better soon...