Interview... surprisingly went ok!

I don't know if I want the job, though. But hey, at least I got the experience. I'm expecting a rejection, however, only because I think there are a lot of applicants who apply and get perfect answers. I don't think I did perfectly well. But again, idk if I want the job anyways. No harm, no foul.

[Tucson]

I have been rejected for three jobs now. They would have been easy jobs. I am overqualified. I suppose this is the reason. My depression has been bad. I had to lay on my sofa exhausted for some reason. I went in and out of sleep. I am begining to feel better now. This cannot happen to me when I eventually find a job. I have been losing weigh AGAIN. I am over six feet and weigh 173 pounds. Not good at all. I have increased my calories. I am not exercising as much right now. Maybe this will halt my weight loss. It has been up to 110 degrees outside. I have no AC. So it is pretty warm in my house.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I have been rejected for three jobs now. They would have been easy jobs. I am overqualified. I suppose this is the reason. My depression has been bad. I had to lay on my sofa exhausted for some reason. I went in and out of sleep. I am begining to feel better now. This cannot happen to me when I eventually find a job. I have been losing weigh AGAIN. I am over six feet and weigh 173 pounds. Not good at all. I have increased my calories. I am not exercising as much right now. Maybe this will halt my weight loss. It has been up to 110 degrees outside. I have no AC. So it is pretty warm in my house.

I'm so sorry about the job situation. That's me too. I want just a simple job, but I have an M.S. in Cell & Molecular Biology. Overqualified. No chance. My husband could have lots of job offers around here if he just had a B.S., but he's got a Ph.D. Again, overqualified. It sucks.

I'm sorry about the weight loss. I'm dealing with it too though with an eating disorder in my past, parts of me don't want to regain the weight. I'm 5'5" and weigh 101 lb. My husband is very tall (6'4"); he usually weighs around 200 lb., but when he is working (he teaches high school physics), his weight usually drops to around 180 lb. He was extremely thin when I first met him, in the 160's; I guess he was just always skinny , so he started doing weight training.

That's awful heat not have to an AC. I'm in Texas (Houston area), and life without an AC is just miserable in the summer. We didn't have it growing up, and I remember nights and nights of my nightgown sticking to my skin, a box fan in the window doing nothing, too hot to sleep. The problem with this area of Texas is it doesn't just get hot, it is super, super humid ALL the time. That is a hot daytime temperature though. Are you drinking enough fluids to stay hydrated? Have you thought about trying a protein shake (Muscle Milk or the like, chocolate usually doesn't taste bad). When I was trying to gain weight from when my eating disorder was bad, I had snacks of Slimfast shakes as I liked the taste & texture better than Boost or Ensure. Could that be something to try? Or maybe snack on nuts? Healthy fats & a good source of calories?

[hopeless2015]

Things are going ok here. HUGS everyone

[wildflowerchild25]

I had a great day today. Put in 14 job apps, got an interview already! For Tuesday. I’m concerned that the hours won’t work for me but I won’t know until I go. They were not posted in the ad. It’s for an orthodontist office receptionist. It would be nice to get a job and stop ****ing around with unemployment. They are really d***ing me over.

I went to visit my sister in law because I was super bored and so was she lol. We had a nice lunch. I ate the whole thing which I haven’t really been doing. It was a big burger with cheddar cheese, bacon, and caramelized onions. Sooooo delicious. I had a couple of beers too, which I haven’t done in forever. Was nice to have just a couple and not get drunk. Usually I drink to excess, shall we say.

So it was a successful day, I didn’t sleep at all. I even filled my prescriptions and the total was just $92. That’s way more affordable than the $600 a month for the cobra coverage. I’m glad I’m on all generic stuff now. Obviously rexulti wouldn’t work for me without insurance. I like the haldol better anyway. I’m not nearly as hungry on it.

So the bbq I was supposed to have with the family got canceled because my brother and his wife are sick. I’m so disappointed but I know it can’t be helped. My other sister in law will come to my house and good times will be had anyway.

So yes, good day all around.

[bpforever1]

I was manic this morning then took my medication immediately. I applied for a full-time job and am hoping at least for an interview. After receiving all these inspirational messages, I thought I can do more than what I do now. We shall see. I feel ok but my head is not all there. I stayed up until 4 am then could not sleep. I took my medication immediately and slept a little. I should sleep some more. I have bills to pay so need to go out and pay them. I have much to do but need to sleep for now. I want to be more productive and will push myself to do so. I get tired easily though and become discouraged. I will push myself a little harder and see what happens.

I all ready have a lot of flashbacks today.

so I'm coming on here (at a weird early time) to distract myself.

need to get off here soon though

need to shower and make breakfast

[Victoria'smom]

So I took the ambien and Zyprexa this morning because I hadn't gone to sleep in over 24 hrs. And there was no hope of falling asleep because I was having waves of intense anxiety. Well I slept until 7 pm. My sister's family came over and we had burgers. I'm really really upset that I took the medication. Like I feel like crying so much ad. I haven't even told my husband I took it. I'm to embarrassed. I should have just dealt. I'm such a **** up. Maybe I should take the 2.5. I would have taken less then 10 MG but that's all I could find without my glasses.

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So I took the ambien and Zyprexa this morning because I hadn't gone to sleep in over 24 hrs. And there was no hope of falling asleep because I was having waves of intense anxiety. Well I slept until 7 pm. My sister's family came over and we had burgers. I'm really really upset that I took the medication. Like I feel like crying so much ad. I haven't even told my husband I took it. I'm to embarrassed. I should have just dealt. I'm such a **** up. Maybe I should take the 2.5. I would have taken less then 10 MG but that's all I could find without my glasses.

I’m confused why you were embarrassed. Be kind to yourself. You deserve it. Taking PRN’s is usually a good idea. I’d personally be having an episode if I hadn’t slept in 24hrs.
Apart from being annoyed with yourself and embarrassed, do you feel more refreshed for having slept?

[Victoria'smom]

I've just been tired and drained today. I told my husband but not how upset I am about it. I know I shouldn't feel this way but I do. Maybe if I take the 2.5 with no prn I'd feel better about it. Idk.

[Unrigged64072835]

It's been a long day.

The foreman for the master bath project came early. He was a good salesman, I'll give him that. Not only will the shower be replaced, the tub's tile will be replaced, the water damage on the ceiling will be fixed, and the window upstairs will be replaced. We got a great deal because of discounts and he could get the shower installed at cost.

Once that was done, our daughter came home upset. The boys went to her boyfriend's house to fix their car. Boyfriend and his brother decide they'll fix it themselves and leave the other friend out, not telling my daughter what's going on. (She is joint owner of the car and has a right to know.) Find out they broke a rusted bolt from banging on it too hard, and her boyfriend blames my husband for "not maintaining it," even though the boyfriend has been driving this car for about three years and could've said something a lot sooner.

My husband is in the kitchen, overheating, full from lunch, and exhausted. He hears this from my daughter and gets really angry, then tries to calm down and collapses on the floor. We went from going to the ER to not going and waiting an hour. Now he is taking a nap and it's near time for me to cook dinner.

I'm not cooking dinner because, quite honestly, my nerves are frayed.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

It's been a long day.

The foreman for the master bath project came early. He was a good salesman, I'll give him that. Not only will the shower be replaced, the tub's tile will be replaced, the water damage on the ceiling will be fixed, and the window upstairs will be replaced. We got a great deal because of discounts and he could get the shower installed at cost.

Once that was done, our daughter came home upset. The boys went to her boyfriend's house to fix their car. Boyfriend and his brother decide they'll fix it themselves and leave the other friend out, not telling my daughter what's going on. (She is joint owner of the car and has a right to know.) Find out they broke a rusted bolt from banging on it too hard, and her boyfriend blames my husband for "not maintaining it," even though the boyfriend has been driving this car for about three years and could've said something a lot sooner.

My husband is in the kitchen, overheating, full from lunch, and exhausted. He hears this from my daughter and gets really angry, then tries to calm down and collapses on the floor. We went from going to the ER to not going and waiting an hour. Now he is taking a nap and it's near time for me to cook dinner.

I'm not cooking dinner because, quite honestly, my nerves are frayed.

My nerves would be frayed, too!

I hope your husband will feel better after a nap?


WC

[Tucson]

I am here. I went to the neurologist and he said that I may need an operation for my neck. I may have a disk replaced. The current one may end up bruising my spinal chord. Just great. Just great. My leg is better, so I started walking around my townhome complex. I have walked 1.5 mioles. Now I have to figure out what I need to eat to make up for the calories burned.

[zijax]

My father died in April. My sister and my step-mother are fighting over the will. My father named my older brother and sister executers of my trust. My brother has committed a fraudulent act concerning the recent purchase of my house. I thought I was going to own it but they are on the deed. My money paid for it but they own it. My brother lied about where part of the money came from. It is complicated.

My sister called me a pothead because I don't drink and I asked for money for my wedding-it is MY money. I have been in recovery for 15 years. I have not smoked weed since I was 18. I have had relapses but I jump back into sobriety. She drinks in the morning and has black outs. She says she is having a nervous breakdown.

My step-mother invited me to breakfast today. I have not seen her since my Father died. She has always been nice to me. We are both artists. Over grits and sausage buscuits she told me all the terrible ways my sister was treating her. She dropped her jaw when I told her how they were treating me. She gave me the attorney's address andling the will and sent an email full of legal terms for me to file a grievance against my brother and sister. Am I opening up a can of worms? What do I do? Does my step-mother have an angle? I am stuck in the middle. I feel unsure, frazzled and stressed.

I drove down the mountain to my six month check up at the dermatologist. The doctor found a possible malignant carcinoma on the side of my nose centimeters from my eye. She stuck me with a needle to numb it and did a biopsy. There is an ugly red hole there. It will scar. If it's malignant I will need plastic surgery. I have no health insurance.

Tomorrow I have to give three massages at the spa. I will not be embarrased. The clients eyes will be shut. I dread three massages. I want to lay in bed and drown in the darkness of my closed eyes. I want to escape.

Extra hugs, zijax! That is a lot of chaos!

Things here have been going ok. At BF's last visit to the psych hospital (assessed, not admitted), he was prescribed seroquel and it's been working! AND he's continued to take it and has not complained about it (many meds have gone by the wayside that way...). Things (if you don't remember the posts) had been getting really out of control and it was VERY stressful. It's just such a relief they have settled down!

Hugs to all those in the heatwave!

[wildflowerchild25]

I've had a good but tiring day. I went to pt and chiro today and it made my back 100x worse. I could barely stand to do the dishes. It's fine now that I'm sitting but I wish it would just stop hurting. I may need epidural injections. That's no good.

The family bbq is back on for this weekend. My brother and sister in law are feeling better so we're gonna do it. I'm excited! I already got my drinks (don't lecture me on alcohol, i know i know) and made the macaroni salad. Now I just need ice. But that would have been silly to get today. I don't have room in my freezer for a bag of ice.

I'm waiting for my computer game to update so I can play for the first time in like a year. I'm trying to motivate myself to stay awake. The update has stalled, however. I'm hoping it will continue soon.

I had a nice lunch with my grandmother today. I love spending time with her. She's the best. She's like a second mom to me. She took care of us when my mom couldn't and she continues to take care of me today. Like she's paying for my COBRA insurance until unemployment comes through for me. I had actually already had lunch but since I wanted to spend time with her I stuffed another lunch in my face lol. No more food for the day for me! My stomach is still super full.

All around good day. HOT though. And only supposed to get hotter. Going to try out my son's snowcone machine on Sunday.

[Blueberrybook]

Hugs to everyone having a difficult time. I have been doing better lately and am unsure if this is hypo or just the meds working better. I drove with my youngest sister from Houston to Plano (Dallas area), roughly a 6 hr drive. It’s my sister’s birthday (the one who lives in Plano). We went out for dinner then have some plans for tomorrow. I hope the meds are doing better for me. So far, no falls since the less reduction of Propanolol June 10. Anxiety not too bad, sleeping OK. I a couple rough days, but I can say definitely PMS probably played a role. Hoping to enjoy a few child-free days, other than my nephews (11 and 13). The 13 year old is surprisingly talkative as a teenager (a lot of things seem to interest him) while the 11 year old holes up in his room. At any rate, not my kids that I have to worry about. I did set up a play date for my daughter with one of her 2 best friends on the morning of July 5. She will like that.

I had a good day. I hated PHP, but that's over and done with. On Monday morning I'm gonna call and ask to be discharged before my pdoc appointment, as long as the weekend goes okay.

[pirilin]

Too much work. Money in deep minus. Spirit high. Pessimism zilch.
Like Elvis sang "It's now or never". Steady as she goes. Forward.

I just checked in so quietly that nobody noticed.

Lines have been crossed and I've finally been banned from all social media. The jury is still out on whether PC constitutes social media. You'll know.

A story has emerged. The premise is deceptively simple: A thoroughly bipolar miscreant shares Hawaii-subsidized housing with a nest of drug dealers and works through Starbucks' Wi-Fi under an assumed identity as a technical editor for a shady Korean military contractor. Bipolar superpowers released by a psychotropic embargo enable our hero to narrowly escape simultaneous and traumatic audit by the IRS, the Social Security Administration and Korean military intelligence. Their household destabilized, the dealers factionalize and go to war, attracting the unwanted attention of Japanese organized crime and a local undercover psychological warfare unit of the IDF which requires a substantial and consistent supply of THC. Shameless insanity and international intrigue among the world on vacation. Waikiki Section 8. Look for it in the trash near you.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I just jerked awake at 1:45 AM thinking "write that down for your SSDI review". I'm not actually under review but I guess I'm worried. So I now have a notation that things because very difficult to impossible when it is hot.

So weird how the brain works. That's actually a very good thought but strange timing.

Hope I can get back to sleep....

yesterday my anxiety was really high- and I ended up running away from my room because I thought their was a wasp in their! (and I didn't want to go in to anathalaptic shock)

well it turns out that their wasn't a wasp at all- turns out the noise I was so afraid of came from my dvd player cooling down, which is actually a noise I live with every day and I'm fine with- not sure why my anxiety was so high about it, maybe I was having some sort of flashback or maybe it was just a bad anxiety day in general (though I'll go for the former, as I seemed fine the rest of the day)

I also had 2 seizures, and I ate some rather disgusting scampi ( apart from the fact I cooked it) and my cooking is terrible, their was something off with it..... not quite sure what it was.

today, me and my friend mel have a bet.

their's a new ride opening in america called alien swirling saucers and me and mel are betting on the queue time for the first hour.

if I win, mel has to get me a doctor pepper- and if she wins, I have to get her one.

I'm just hoping I win.

I am, after all, you know... the queen of theme parks. shouldn't I know everything about the american rides?

pretty sure if I lose I will never talk to mel again

I'll be so hurt I am wrong

[scatterbrained04]

Slowly feeling better. Still having muscle twitching, but not quite as bad last couple days. Anxiety is starting to lighten up a bit. Depression has been better. Concentration slightly improved. It really leaves me to wonder how much of what I've been dealing with is hyponatremia related. I think my sodium level is coming up but very slowly. I've been trying to eat a ton of salt.

Plan today is to get some cleaning done. Maybe try to enjoy the day a bit too. If the weather is nice, I might go to the pool.

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I've had a good but tiring day. I went to pt and chiro today and it made my back 100x worse. I could barely stand to do the dishes. It's fine now that I'm sitting but I wish it would just stop hurting. I may need epidural injections. That's no good.

The family bbq is back on for this weekend. My brother and sister in law are feeling better so we're gonna do it. I'm excited! I already got my drinks (don't lecture me on alcohol, i know i know) and made the macaroni salad. Now I just need ice. But that would have been silly to get today. I don't have room in my freezer for a bag of ice.

I'm waiting for my computer game to update so I can play for the first time in like a year. I'm trying to motivate myself to stay awake. The update has stalled, however. I'm hoping it will continue soon.

I had a nice lunch with my grandmother today. I love spending time with her. She's the best. She's like a second mom to me. She took care of us when my mom couldn't and she continues to take care of me today. Like she's paying for my COBRA insurance until unemployment comes through for me. I had actually already had lunch but since I wanted to spend time with her I stuffed another lunch in my face lol. No more food for the day for me! My stomach is still super full.

All around good day. HOT though. And only supposed to get hotter. Going to try out my son's snowcone machine on Sunday.

ooo that machine sounds nice.

enjoy!