[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

My day was been decent. My younger daughter A her school is really into technology. They have a FB page. Last week on their page they announced students would come home the first week of Sept with information about two trips. One is a trip to Washington, DC and the other is to New York. I was really excited for my daughter. Well we get home from school and she does not beat around the bush. Basically the cost is $2,000 oh get this parent(s) only have “ONE MONTH” to turn the money. But the trips are not until next year?! I’ve let my oldest daughter borrow right at or close to $1,000. Even if she found a full time job next week. She would not be able to make enough to pay all that back in that amount of time. That’s not reasonable. Then I her dad has bills too. You can tell some in a months notice you need $1,000.
I told my daughter I did not the way her school went about this trip. If other parent(s)can swing $2,000 at the last minute great for them.

Ugh, yes, that sounds very expensive. It would be a great experience if you had the money. If my daughter had that opportunity, we wouldn't be able to swing it moneywise probably only if we knew about it years in advance and even so, maybe not then.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I called and talked to my case manager at pdoc's office. Seeing her this morning. And dropping off the dhs paperwork. Later going to make fudge with n3. Mmmm....

I'm glad you are seeing someone who can help you and hope it turns out well for you.

What is fudge with n3? I don't know what the n3 stands for.

[Moose72]

My case manager caught me. She said i can wait an hour to see my pdoc or i can "be pettitionedto pes" which means sent to psych er no choice. Yeah they read my blog.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I'm glad you are seeing someone who can help you and hope it turns out well for you.

What is fudge with n3? I don't know what the n3 stands for.

I call my kids n1 n2 and n3 for short because their names all start with N and there are three of them. A relative is in town who is famous for the fudge she makes. My youngest is looking forwardto learning how to make it after school.

[Moose72]

Btw my pdoc wants to see me asap and to pettition me to psych ER.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I hope you have a good trip! I have been so-so with reading posts lately. Is this a vacation trip? How long is is it?

It’s one of our many trips yearly to Florida to see our kids and the granddaughter. It’s her birthday today 3 years old ! Time fly’s

The Party is on Saturday, room full of loud kids lol I will have my daughter come rescue me early LOL

Thanks

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Btw my pdoc wants to see me asap and to pettition me to psych ER.

I hope you can let us know how you are doing.
Thinking of you!

WC

[Moose72]

Pdoc saw me and wants to change my meds yet again. No er

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I'm so sorry about that. I don't work, but I have forgotten to take my meds with me while be out of the house all day, and it really sucks if they are things like anxiety meds. Sorry about the breakdown you had in the bathroom.

Yeah, my meds keep me pretty stable (minus the breakdowns). Plus, if I miss them for too long, I vomit or at least get really nauseous. So I ended up leaving work early today (about an hour and a half ago) and took them when I got home.

I accidentally took a Ritalin pill that expired in November 2017. For some reason, I misinterpreted the bottle's label. I thought the label said that I *picked it up* in November 2017 (and thus it expires in November 2018). I have no idea why I thought that, but I did. Then I said, "Uh oh... That bottle's label was pretty faded. How old is it actually???"

I researched what it means to take expired meds and it looks like it's ok that I took it by accident. Apparently it's not toxic and that you can technically take meds that are a decade old. Not that you want to do that, though. It's risky! Plus, it's fully digested by now. lol. Time to toss it.

Anyway, I get scared that someone at work is going to notice my breakdowns, especially since I scream -- even though I scream kinda quietly as to not draw attention from the janitors in the early hours of the morning. I really ought to walk to my car and scream in there, as I am much less likely to get noticed. But the breakdowns happen so fast that it's hard to hold it in.

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Christina, I hope you have a great trip!!

Awww, blue.... (and wha? K9 units? What, for car pullovers or at work??)

Today is better so far. Then again, I've not even been up 2 hours yet and am just about to get off the bus...

K-9 for car pullovers on both highways and local roads. Lots of drug problems and police are finally taking it seriously.

I no longer live in Boston itself, but just outside it.

I remember high school (2005-2009 for me). There were tons of drug problems there and apparently the school's police officer was involved in a drug ring himself. Go figure. And he was involved in domestic violence. He resigned before he could get fired.

[Moose72]

My medsare changed yet again. ****. I took myself out to eat and am taking a nap. Then fudge. Come to find out my youngest skipped the whole day of school. Already. **** me. And not in a good way.

[Unrigged64072835]

New GP visit went well. Had to bounce around for increase in Lipitor, two new scheduled appointments and one off-base referral. Still didn’t get our meds at the other pharmacy, but that can be done tomorrow. It’s just going to be a zoo, though. I get to see a dietitian and a GI specialist (though I don’t know why I’m seeing a GI specialist for a liver issue).

Still need to plan meals but I’m tired...and need to work out too. Ugh.

See T tomorrow. Yay!

Lots of love and hugs for all you folks.

[Moose72]

Aaaaaaaannnnd the fudge was ruined! She's been cooking it for at least 50 years and it was ruined. Still tastes good.

I have already fogotten what pdoc said how to get off Trileptal but go back on Haldol. Man! Maybe I shoulda chosen to go IP...

[zijax]

Moose...sorry you're having a rough go of it. Hope your day gets better.

[yellow_fleurs]

Had my appointment with my psychiatrist today. Going to try therapy. I decided to just go with a therapist I already had a referral for who I think will be a good match. Also going to try a light box to help with the seasonal depression. I am waiting to decide until next time about the medications. We discussed that my med options right now are lithium or wellbutrin. The wellbutrin because I am sleeping more and having more signs of atypical depression. Told him I would consider and get back to him next month. Felt too indecisive this time to decide on the spot.

[Scooter9]

I had my pdoc appointment today. She added modafinil to find out if it will help my depression.

I'll take it tomorrow morning and see how it goes.

Still feeling low, body pains, etc. Hopefully this will pass.

My wife is upset that I'm on yet another medication. She says exercise is the solution to my depression and that the meds are poison. She also says I should find a group to hang out with. She doesn't understand what I'm going through.

[yellow_fleurs]

4psUche, I am really looking forward to checking out some of your recommendations! Also appreciate the warning, since I am in a weird spot mentally anyways to begin with haha. I do sometimes write, so might try writing in nature. No worries about overzealousness, the post made me smile---I have been thinking a lot about negative things and how much I dislike my brain recently so it's nice to focus on something else, and even a part of my mind that isn't so terrible

[Blueberrybook]

So-so day. Better than yesterday, but not great as I just want the CPS case closed because really, my daughter is in no danger at all from me, but the investigation is making her anxious. She is already a sensitive child and often worries about things, and this investigation is doing her no good either. That is what I really hate. That the investigation is worrying and upsetting my daughter. She will Google stuff on her iPad or on one of our computer and then get worrying.

FML. Nothing is aligning. Everything is going wrong. I feel _SO_ trapped!!!! I am so VERY done, yet cannot escape. I get tempted to write about what all I'm talking about, but too paranoid.

Will probably go straight to bed again. 5 pm, whatever. It's that or a breakdown. On the verge of tears.

I cannot go on like this.

Edited to add... forget verge, deluge.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

FML. Nothing is aligning. Everything is going wrong. I feel _SO_ trapped!!!! I am so VERY done, yet cannot escape. I get tempted to write about what all I'm talking about, but too paranoid.

Will probably go straight to bed again. 5 pm, whatever. It's that or a breakdown. On the verge of tears.

I cannot go on like this.

Feeling trapped is such a terrible feeling. I am sorry you are going through so much. Is there anyone you would feel safe talking to about this?

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

FML. Nothing is aligning. Everything is going wrong. I feel _SO_ trapped!!!! I am so VERY done, yet cannot escape. I get tempted to write about what all I'm talking about, but too paranoid.


Will probably go straight to bed again. 5 pm, whatever. It's that or a breakdown. On the verge of tears.


I cannot go on like this.

Damn IZ

I often just climb into bed and stay in when my world implodes.. please take care of you hun.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

FML. Nothing is aligning. Everything is going wrong. I feel _SO_ trapped!!!! I am so VERY done, yet cannot escape. I get tempted to write about what all I'm talking about, but too paranoid.

Will probably go straight to bed again. 5 pm, whatever. It's that or a breakdown. On the verge of tears.

I cannot go on like this.

Edited to add... forget verge, deluge.

(((((( Innerzone ))))))

Sending positive vibes!

WC

Originally Posted by Innerzone

FML. Nothing is aligning. Everything is going wrong. I feel _SO_ trapped!!!! I am so VERY done, yet cannot escape. I get tempted to write about what all I'm talking about, but too paranoid.

Will probably go straight to bed again. 5 pm, whatever. It's that or a breakdown. On the verge of tears.

I cannot go on like this.

Edited to add... forget verge, deluge.

maybe sleep will help.
Who is the cute guy in your signature?

[Daonnachd]

There's nothing worth mentioning going on in my life, but I wish I could balance things out for the rest of you. I don't say much anyhow, but I read the forum all day every day and I want to reassure you that you are all on my mind all of the time.

(((YOU)))

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

There's nothing worth mentioning going on in my life, but I wish I could balance things out for the rest of you. I don't say much anyhow, but I read the forum all day every day and I want to reassure you that you are all on my mind all of the time.

(((YOU)))

Thanks! You are on my mind, and I am sure many other people's here, too.