Just catching up a few days here...
Well, yesterday I moved. Broke up with BF and moved out. Move went smoothly though there were challenging stairs (feeling it today(!)) Got the basics in place. It's nice. Just a room in someone's house, but good size. It's the first time I've lived "on my own" (ie. no BF or husband). Suppose there will be upsides and downsides to that...

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Just catching up a few days here...
Well, yesterday I moved. Broke up with BF and moved out. Move went smoothly though there were challenging stairs (feeling it today(!)) Got the basics in place. It's nice. Just a room in someone's house, but good size. It's the first time I've lived "on my own" (ie. no BF or husband). Suppose there will be upsides and downsides to that...

Thank you for letting us know and so glad you made it out. It's not easy moving and it's not easy breaking up and doing the two together can be rough sometimes. You have sounded very resolute from the beginning and that makes it easier...

[Blueberrybook]

blue,
That is awful. I'm sorry you were put into that situation.

bluebicycle, I'm so sorry. For everyone involved. I hope your friend is getting help and is still with us. It's hard to know what else to say.

Today I went to an Al-anon meeting. It was the second time I've been there. The first was a few months ago. Lately I've felt kind of numb in a way. I've isolated, too. There are many things sort of going on in my head, but I can't seem to find answers or a peace. I'm OK, but part of me is in a figurative sleep. A protective sleep.

My blog used to be my creative outlet, but I don't feel safe posting there much anymore. I feel the need for privacy and anonymity. I don't have that there anymore.

I rarely go to my Facebook page and even delete notifications. I went there today and read two posts from my aunts (not biological ones) that saddened me greatly. I de-followed them because of it. Basically they expressed views completely counter to mine, but did so in a very angry/nasty way basically calling people with my views horrible names. I'm so sick of this anger in society. People want to hate. I hate hate.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Just catching up a few days here...
Well, yesterday I moved. Broke up with BF and moved out. Move went smoothly though there were challenging stairs (feeling it today(!)) Got the basics in place. It's nice. Just a room in someone's house, but good size. It's the first time I've lived "on my own" (ie. no BF or husband). Suppose there will be upsides and downsides to that...

I'm glad you were able to move out. Hopefully, things will improve for you from now on.

[Blueberrybook]

Not doing too bad today considering I have so many stressors going on. I think it will be the first month in ages (so long I can't even remember) when I've come in under budget on my credit card. I have a big problem with overspending even when having financial issues. Though now that bad financial issues have turned into "dire" it may change things, but I have also taken some steps to help me with spending too much money.

H is emailing old contacts to ask about jobs. There is even a person he knows from grad school who has owned his own company over 10 years now and is hiring, and H basically used a protocol this person developed in grad school all the time. The hiring person is older than H and nearly had his degree when H was just starting graduate school, and this person is wanting someone to use his protocol for more research, so H would be a good fit. It would come down to salary though because it would mean a move out to California, which also has a higher cost of living. But maybe...or possibly one of H's other contacts...I am praying and praying for something, somewhere to come up. Unfortunately, H has never had good luck with getting job interviews for online resume and job submissions. I don't think he ever once got a job that way.

[tecomsin]

I'm so sorry to hear that, blue.

[Daonnachd]

It feels good to come in under budget, doesn't it, bbb?

I just got back from an appointment with my psychiatrist. She's cool and so is her office manager. What's more, it's an hour's drive each way over wonderfully curvy mountain roads. I love that drive.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Just catching up a few days here...
Well, yesterday I moved. Broke up with BF and moved out. Move went smoothly though there were challenging stairs (feeling it today(!)) Got the basics in place. It's nice. Just a room in someone's house, but good size. It's the first time I've lived "on my own" (ie. no BF or husband). Suppose there will be upsides and downsides to that...

Congratulations! Here's to ever onwards and upwards.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Just catching up a few days here...
Well, yesterday I moved. Broke up with BF and moved out. Move went smoothly though there were challenging stairs (feeling it today(!)) Got the basics in place. It's nice. Just a room in someone's house, but good size. It's the first time I've lived "on my own" (ie. no BF or husband). Suppose there will be upsides and downsides to that...

I hope this works out very well for you!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I might as well just say it...

Possible trigger:

Someone on this forum who I'm close to sent me a bunch of details via text message telling me how they were going to commit suicide (they literally walked me through it) and they even told me when they did it. I was trying to talk to them while calling 911 to keep them calm. But the second they told me they "did it," I had to stop texting and call 911 on them, but 911 took too long. The dispatcher in my state had to transfer me from my state to a dispatcher in their state and explain the situation. They also had to ask me a bunch of details about this person's phone number, where they lived, etc. That took about 2 mins because I forgot their full address (I only knew the street name) and only knew their name, city, and phone number. I don't know if this person on our forum survived because what they did to themselves.

It was severe, the worst I've ever heard of. I did some research onlineand there's literally a 50-50 chance they could be helped depending if they were unconscious or not. I can't tell you guys what it was because it will be very triggering.

Please keep this person in your thoughts. They are an active member. I will update on their status as soon as I know. But for now, I want to respect their privacy.

I am also sorry you were put in this position.
I hope your friend is okay. This can be very stressful, even traumatizing, I hope you are okay!


WC

[Unrigged64072835]

So sorry for your loss, Spikes.

Blue, I do hope that person was helped. That was very traumatic.

Congrats Innerzone on the move, BBB on the budget...there was someone else, but I forgot. Frigging memory!

Done with the endoscopy. Same crap that I had before. I’m going to try dietary changes first before I go on another Med. The GI doc mentioned an acid reflux diet on her notes, but she kept pushing taking Protonix in conversation. If I can stay off PPIs that would be awesome.

Day 6 of the contractor—he swears he’s going to be done today...uh huh...he said that yesterday.

I’m camped out on the couch for now. Have some sinus stuff going on, plus residual effects of the sedation.

Love and hugs to all.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

bluebicycle, I'm so sorry. For everyone involved. I hope your friend is getting help and is still with us. It's hard to know what else to say.

Today I went to an Al-anon meeting. It was the second time I've been there. The first was a few months ago. Lately I've felt kind of numb in a way. I've isolated, too. There are many things sort of going on in my head, but I can't seem to find answers or a peace. I'm OK, but part of me is in a figurative sleep. A protective sleep.

My blog used to be my creative outlet, but I don't feel safe posting there much anymore. I feel the need for privacy and anonymity. I don't have that there anymore.

I rarely go to my Facebook page and even delete notifications. I went there today and read two posts from my aunts (not biological ones) that saddened me greatly. I de-followed them because of it. Basically they expressed views completely counter to mine, but did so in a very angry/nasty way basically calling people with my views horrible names. I'm so sick of this anger in society. People want to hate. I hate hate.

I hope the Al-Anon meeting helped you.

So sorry your blog can't be your creative outlet any more. Maybe just write to write...I don't know. My problem is that I used to be creative, able to come up with stories and to draw, and now I can't do any of that. The meds? Time? Who knows? Something changed though. I couldn't even be creative off meds during my pregnancy (though of course, there you've got a lot of hormones going on).

I do want to de-follow my biological aunt on FB for posting stuff like that. But if I do, she'll make a big deal out of it. She's a drama queen. She'll manage to get a lot of my mom's side of the family upset because that's what she does. (At least I CAN post that she is a moron & drama queen here...)

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Just catching up a few days here...

Well, yesterday I moved. Broke up with BF and moved out. Move went smoothly though there were challenging stairs (feeling it today(!)) Got the basics in place. It's nice. Just a room in someone's house, but good size. It's the first time I've lived "on my own" (ie. no BF or husband). Suppose there will be upsides and downsides to that...

You have been so strong !!! You can and will do wonderfully.

Many hugs

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

So sorry for your loss, Spikes.

Blue, I do hope that person was helped. That was very traumatic.

Congrats Innerzone on the move, BBB on the budget...there was someone else, but I forgot. Frigging memory!

Done with the endoscopy. Same crap that I had before. I’m going to try dietary changes first before I go on another Med. The GI doc mentioned an acid reflux diet on her notes, but she kept pushing taking Protonix in conversation. If I can stay off PPIs that would be awesome.

Day 6 of the contractor—he swears he’s going to be done today...uh huh...he said that yesterday.

I’m camped out on the couch for now. Have some sinus stuff going on, plus residual effects of the sedation.

Love and hugs to all.

Glad your endoscopy is over. I don't know if the GI doc will be doing those regularly on me or not. Yeah, I'm on the Protonix, but if not that then some other PPI...at least for the foreseeable future. I don't see the GI doc until December. The long-term side effects of Protonix are bad enough, and I am hoping the gastro-doc will put me on something with lesser risks after taking it a year or 2. Protonix ups the risks of fractures, and I already have osteopenia, am small boned, and tend to be clumsy (even as a child). All I need is a wrist or ankle fracture or some vitamin or mineral deficiency. But I'd rather that that emergency ulcer surgery again. That was so bad I practically wished I hadn't made it out of surgery...ugh!

[~Christina]

Blue I’m so sorry you are going through this.

Unfortunately I went through the same thing and never got a outcome , I want to think the person just left PC. PC can be helpful but it can also trigger to some people

I hope you hear good news soon.

[wildflowerchild25]

I have another job interview on Wednesday! I’m so excited. This is for a one to one aide position at the school I worked at over the summer a couple of times. The principal remembered me so I might actually have a shot! I was sure they wouldn’t even consider me because the last time I was there I kept falling asleep in class because of latuda. I guess the principal never got wind of that. This would be the perfect job. Something I know I’m good at, plus I wouldn’t have to worry about snow days and the hours would be great for my son. I’m hoping!

[yellow_fleurs]

Having a bad day, just really hard. Trapped in my mind.

[TheSeaCat]

I’m sorry Blue I hope that they are okay. I’m also sorry you had to go through that

I’m doing alright the new dosage seems to be keeping me stable. I’m still anxiously awaiting my test results. I also booked the hotel for a recent trip the family and I are taking so overall today was a decent day.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I have another job interview on Wednesday! I’m so excited. This is for a one to one aide position at the school I worked at over the summer a couple of times. The principal remembered me so I might actually have a shot! I was sure they wouldn’t even consider me because the last time I was there I kept falling asleep in class because of latuda. I guess the principal never got wind of that. This would be the perfect job. Something I know I’m good at, plus I wouldn’t have to worry about snow days and the hours would be great for my son. I’m hoping!

Great news !!!!!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Having a bad day, just really hard. Trapped in my mind.

Hope tomorrow is a better day for you

[wildflowerchild25]

Ugh. My boyfriend just broke up with me. I KNEW he was gonna do it. He said he doesn’t have time for me right now and he feels it’s unfair. I’m sad but at least I knew it was coming. It’s not completely out of left field.

And I don’t feel like I did anything wrong so I’m not gonna dwell on what I could have done better. It’s just unfortunate circumstances. I’m sad he didn’t like me enough to try to work through it but whatever.

Hopefully I’ll get a job this week to make myself feel better lol.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Ugh. My boyfriend just broke up with me. I KNEW he was gonna do it. He said he doesn’t have time for me right now and he feels it’s unfair. I’m sad but at least I knew it was coming. It’s not completely out of left field.

And I don’t feel like I did anything wrong so I’m not gonna dwell on what I could have done better. It’s just unfortunate circumstances. I’m sad he didn’t like me enough to try to work through it but whatever.

Hopefully I’ll get a job this week to make myself feel better lol.

(((((( wildflowerchild ))))))

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Ugh. My boyfriend just broke up with me. I KNEW he was gonna do it. He said he doesn’t have time for me right now and he feels it’s unfair. I’m sad but at least I knew it was coming. It’s not completely out of left field.

And I don’t feel like I did anything wrong so I’m not gonna dwell on what I could have done better. It’s just unfortunate circumstances. I’m sad he didn’t like me enough to try to work through it but whatever.

Hopefully I’ll get a job this week to make myself feel better lol.

Read the book "He's Just Not That Into You". Written by a guy. Its eye-opening. I think if your boyfriend were really into you he would MAKE time.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Ugh. My boyfriend just broke up with me. I KNEW he was gonna do it. He said he doesn’t have time for me right now and he feels it’s unfair. I’m sad but at least I knew it was coming. It’s not completely out of left field.


And I don’t feel like I did anything wrong so I’m not gonna dwell on what I could have done better. It’s just unfortunate circumstances. I’m sad he didn’t like me enough to try to work through it but whatever.


Hopefully I’ll get a job this week to make myself feel better lol.

I’m glad your not self blaming in this situation. He could have tried harder. You deserve a man that will be there thick and thin.

It’s his loss.

Many hugs!!!