[Moose72]

Went out early and met an old friend for coffee. Another one of his friends showed up and we had an interesting conversation to say the least! Now just did the dishes and laundry. Feeling accomplished.

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

My thanks to all of you for your condolences. It was a much broader response than I expected. I sincerely appreciate that.

Sorry I didn't see your earlier post, but I'm sorry for your loss.

[hopeless2015]

Daonnachid, I'm so sorry for your loss...hugs

[Blueberrybook]

I woke up feeling not great. Sinus stuff. Had to run to the drugstore too for healing hand lotion for chapped hands & something a bit more healing than regular chapstick. My hands & lips are badly chapped from the cold.

My daughter has an early noon dismissal from school today (not sure why it's so random), so I have to pick her up soon. I'm trying to make some coffee & toast a bagel though things keep distracting me - mail, laundry, feed the cats, etc.

Feeding myself is never really a big priority for me...sigh.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I just got word about half an hour ago that my dad has died. His neighbour called the police to do a wellness check and they found him dead in his home. I'm in shock. The last time I saw him he looked to be in good health.

Im so sorry for your loss and that it was so sudden

[Sunflower123]

I seem to have turned a corner. I’m working out and socializing again and I’m interested in things so those are good indicators.

We have a Thanksgiving meal at church tonight and that’s got me thinking about the holiday. I’m looking forward to it. I’ve been researching vegetarian dishes to surprise my daughter with. It will be nice to have her home.

Warm wishes to all.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I seem to have turned a corner. I’m working out and socializing again and I’m interested in things so those are good indicators.

We have a thanksgiving meal at church tonight and that’s got me thinking about the holiday. I’m looking forward to it. I’ve been researching vegetarian dishes to surprise my daughter with. It will be nice to have her home.

Warm wishes to all.

Those sound like great things to be doing and feeling! Very happy for you. And that is such a nice thing to do for your daughter, Im sure she will be happy to be home as well!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

My thanks to all of you for your condolences. It was a much broader response than I expected. I sincerely appreciate that.

How are you today? Do you want to talk about it?

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I just got word about half an hour ago that my dad has died. His neighbour called the police to do a wellness check and they found him dead in his home. I'm in shock. The last time I saw him he looked to be in good health.

Oh, Daonnachd, I am so sorry! That is terrible. Please take good care of yourself, ok?

[~Christina]

I’d love to say the shot in my shoulder joint yesterday helped but holy hell its hurting worse, to be expected I suppose.

Seeing my T today finally !!! Not even sure where to start that doesn’t include tears to be honest. It’s a comfort just to be in his office .... it smells like a old bookstore which I love

Another day of constant rain , gray skies, miserably cold and far to much wind. Brrrrr

Be kind to yourself today people !

[Faltering]

I didn't sleep much last night. I was up with racing thoughts and some pretty aggressive hallucinations. At one point the voices got scary. I have physical pain in my head from the mental stress.

And it all came crashing down...
Yesterday got a letter informing me I no longer had insurance. So BOOM, just like that, I have no pdoc, no T, no doctor, no meds. I don't even know if I have refills, if I can afford them (probably not, there are quite a few), and if I don't have refills or can't afford them, I'll be doing withdrawals from everything at once, during the crazy busy season at work.

I have a part time minimum wage job, and I'm supposed to be able to make it in the open marketplace??! F'ing seriously??! With all my problems (and now having to worry about "pre-existing conditions" issues)? I also have an arm that is a total mess on top of the psych stuff.

I am ... well, not at all in a good state of mind. Euphemism. They said I can complete some application, but I can't imagine being able to afford them. Also, any application would reflect my wages during the busy season, which are not typical. Even if I can afford anything, how long will this take?

I am in a very, very dark state of mind.

So much for not catastrophizing. It has come to pass. Many expletives...

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

And it all came crashing down...
Yesterday got a letter informing me I no longer had insurance. So BOOM, just like that, I have no pdoc, no T, no doctor, no meds. I don't even know if I have refills, if I can afford them (probably not, there are quite a few), and if I don't have refills or can't afford them, I'll be doing withdrawals from everything at once, during the crazy busy season at work.

I have a part time minimum wage job, and I'm supposed to be able to make it in the open marketplace??! F'ing seriously??! With all my problems (and now having to worry about "pre-existing conditions" issues)? I also have an arm that is a total mess on top of the psych stuff.

I am ... well, not at all in a good state of mind. Euphemism. They said I can complete some application, but I can't imagine being able to afford them. Also, any application would reflect my wages during the busy season, which are not typical. Even if I can afford anything, how long will this take?

I am in a very, very dark state of mind.

So much for not catastrophizing. It has come to pass. Many expletives...

OMG! How frightening and frustrating!
I hope you can find some help!
Thinking of you.

WC

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

And it all came crashing down...
Yesterday got a letter informing me I no longer had insurance. So BOOM, just like that, I have no pdoc, no T, no doctor, no meds. I don't even know if I have refills, if I can afford them (probably not, there are quite a few), and if I don't have refills or can't afford them, I'll be doing withdrawals from everything at once, during the crazy busy season at work.

I have a part time minimum wage job, and I'm supposed to be able to make it in the open marketplace??! F'ing seriously??! With all my problems (and now having to worry about "pre-existing conditions" issues)? I also have an arm that is a total mess on top of the psych stuff.

I am ... well, not at all in a good state of mind. Euphemism. They said I can complete some application, but I can't imagine being able to afford them. Also, any application would reflect my wages during the busy season, which are not typical. Even if I can afford anything, how long will this take?

I am in a very, very dark state of mind.

So much for not catastrophizing. It has come to pass. Many expletives...

Im so upset for you! Why does this have to happen to us? Everything is so much harder with our bipolar brains! I hope you can get it sorted out soon. Crossing fingers and praying for you.

[Moose72]

Pdoc just called. She said it sounds like im coming out of a depressive episode. To hold Trazodone tonight and call tomorrow if i need to but this might help.

[rwwff]

Saw my psychiatrist today and we're going down to Abilify alone as tremors from depakote were just making everyone including me just a little too uncomfortable. I'm a little worried but I'll see them again in a few weeks, so not too much risk I think. Here's hoping its just the depakote causing the tremor.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by rwwff

Saw my psychiatrist today and we're going down to Abilify alone as tremors from depakote were just making everyone including me just a little too uncomfortable. I'm a little worried but I'll see them again in a few weeks, so not too much risk I think. Here's hoping its just the depakote causing the tremor.

Tremors are no fun!
I hope this med change will help you.

It's great to hear from you!
I hope to hear more from you as time goes on.

Please take care!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

It is another gray day here. It's also snowing, about which I have mixed feelings! I am trying to stay focused upon the beauty of the fresh snow. The trees are very pretty!

I am smelling the beef stew I had started in the crock pot/slow cooker this morning! It's comforting! Aromatherapy from the kitchen!

It is mellowing my irritability.

I hope everyone is having a decent day.

Love to All!

WC

[rwwff]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It's great to hear from you!
I hope to hear more from you as time goes on.

Its just really hard for me to converse nowdays; not sure why but I have to put conscious effort into doing it in order to even type up a message. Before, or at least during episodes in the past, I could really post and talk a lot without having to tell myself that I need to do so. Very strange feeling really.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by rwwff

Its just really hard for me to converse nowdays; not sure why but I have to put conscious effort into doing it in order to even type up a message. Before, or at least during episodes in the past, I could really post and talk a lot without having to tell myself that I need to do so. Very strange feeling really.

I have time periods feeling much like you have described.
It can take so much energy, more than I sometimes have, just to post and/or respond to a PM.

It's always good to have you around, whenever you are up to it.


WC

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by rwwff

Saw my psychiatrist today and we're going down to Abilify alone as tremors from depakote were just making everyone including me just a little too uncomfortable. I'm a little worried but I'll see them again in a few weeks, so not too much risk I think. Here's hoping its just the depakote causing the tremor.

I've had tremors from medicine including depakote before, fortunately stopping the med stopped the tremors. Good luck

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It is another gray day here. It's also snowing, about which I have mixed feelings! I am trying to stay focused upon the beauty of the fresh snow. The trees are very pretty!

I am smelling the beef stew I had started in the crock pot/slow cooker this morning! It's comforting! Aromatherapy from the kitchen!

It is mellowing my irritability.

I hope everyone is having a decent day.

Love to All!

WC

We had enough snow this week to sit in the grass. But i had to scrape both cars from frost this morning. Erg! But the trees were very pretty with snow clung to them. Im trying to not think of February and digging my car out....

[Blueberrybook]

Don't mean to ignore posts on here; I'm tired, succumbing to a sinus infection. I took a 24 hour allergy pill yesterday, and I think it has worn off, but I can't remember when I took it, not even morning, afternoon, or evening. So I'll wait until bedtime.

My daughter is not feeling great either. I got her from school at noon because it was an early release, and she wanted to take her bath at 1 PM to warm up. She never wants to take her bath early unless she doesn't feel good or we've been out and she's gotten dirty, like the beach.

We are both a bit over-dramatic when not feeling well, so when H gets home, he is going to have his hands full.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by rwwff

Saw my psychiatrist today and we're going down to Abilify alone as tremors from depakote were just making everyone including me just a little too uncomfortable. I'm a little worried but I'll see them again in a few weeks, so not too much risk I think. Here's hoping its just the depakote causing the tremor.

I always get tremors on Wellbutrin and am getting them again. They are not bad ones and have gone away every time I've stopped the Wellbutrin (well, it would take 2, 3 days off the med before the tremors stopped). Right now, I'd rather not have the depression and just deal with it.

I hope the tremors go away with stopping the depakote. Did the pdoc give an estimate of how long he thought it might take to see if they will go away?

[TheSeaCat]

I am really struggling today, I don't feel as exhausted as I have the past couple of days. I slept really good last night, still need to wash the sheets, I figure I'll do it this weekend.

Work is good; really good. My boss said something really nice to me, but it made me cry; she said she was greatful to have me as her second in command. Went to the bathroom and cried my eyes out. Physican Assistant friend found me and hugged me. He said my old workplace caused so much issues that I can't even be happy over a compliment . He would like to meet my old boss and punch them. He's very sweet and and apparently protective.

We went to lunch together, I find I really like his company. He's still going to tag along to the Cardiologist with me. I honestly can't think him enough. I'm still nervous for this stupid appointment.

Speaking of old workplace; I received a ransom letter from my old insurance company, apparently when I saw my doctor in August, I was not covered and they refuse to cover that visit and the prescriptions they paid for. One of which was Latuda. The bill is literately for $1,450.02 and if I don't pay it it's being sent to a collection agency.

I called and was quite rude to this insurance company. The didn't get the info my insurance was termed until August 16th so of course it still showed my coverage as active at the doctor's office and the pharmacy.

The Physician Assistant said even when I'm no longer a employee they are still finding a way to screw me.

My insurance doesn't care that it was their and the employer's fault. I called my second insurance and it is highly unlikely they will cover the price of Latuda. They will cover my other medications, but I will still probably be on the hook for $1,200 dollars.

I am just so mad right now, I really need my therapist and maybe a punching bag.

The PA and I discussed maybe seeing a movie tomorrow as friends, but right now I am too mad to even think straight.

I feel like i'm finally at a good place and still my old employer is laughing. I really don't know what I did to deserve this, I don't even make that in a month, and I'm being paid quite nicely, but not enough to cover that. I don't know of anyone who can cover that.

Why can't I take a complement from my boss without crying.

Hugs to everyone