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I have been sick with a cold these past 4 days. I had to take a couple of days off work at my new job, so that's not good.
I had something due at work today and I'm not there to do it. I hope it'll be ok. This past weekend was the first in a couple of months where we didn't have anything to do. This is because that recently disabled relative's house sold and we finished emptying it out. It was so much work every day for a couple of months. But it's over now...a big relief! I got a new phone.... It was time for an upgrade and my old phone was having major battery issues... It would run out in a couple of hours so I carried a charger around with me everywhere. This new phone is really nice (not an iPhone). Mood-wise, I'm feeling low but not super depressed. I have a day here and there when the depression it's really bad but it passes after a day. The Modafinil is making a difference. I'm glad I stuck with it. My pdoc and I might increase the dose to 400 in a couple of weeks to try to get me out of the low and into baseline... so close. I read updates every day and hugs to everyone that's struggling... you got this!
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#552
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I just realized that I totally forgot about an adult school class last week that I had paid for. Oh well! It's a shame. I felt very unwell last week, so I just wasn't thinking/functioning sufficiently to remember things. The class was actually one I was interested in. I won't mention it to my husband. Maybe he'll forget that I signed up for it. Maybe. I will make a point to remember the two remaining classes (different topics) after Thanksgiving week.
I went to a GP yesterday because of symptoms relating to my sinusitis. I have to pick up some prescription nasal spray this morning. I feel very dull and numb brained. I'll try to do the bare minimum. That's OK. I do want to create a menu for my trip (I'm cooking) and perhaps a packing list. Bird boy's eye is looking better, but I confess I've been delinquent about giving him all of his prescribed eye drops. Hubby helps me in the morning and night, but it's so hard to give him the drops by myself. |
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I'd hoped sharing would be helpful. ![]() Many of us may push it a bit w/NSAIDs. It's very tempting, especially when we are in pain. NSAIDS and acetaminophen require following the dosage recommendations in order to avoid potential health problems. You are on my mind often. ![]() WC
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#555
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I'm a bit down today. I have an appointment with my T this afternoon but feel like cancelling. I shouldn't though. I need to start working on a plan to get through the holidays & my daughter's birthday in one piece.
I'm having one of those days where frustrating little things keep going wrong - buttoning my shirt and skipping a button, dropping a contact lens on the floor taking ages to find it (I nearly gave it up for lost), losing the end of the plastic cling Saran wrap (and I just have to say refinding the end is very annoying), having the tab pop off my Diet Coke, so I can't open it, rubbing my eye and the stupid contact lens falling out, fumbling ages to get the zipper on my coat to zip, dropping my car keys in a rain puddle...why did I even bother to get up today? Everything is taking me ages to get done today. I'm anxious, tired, but can't calm down enough to eat lunch (stomach feels off) ![]()
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#556
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Last Valentine's Day, yep, perforated ulcer. Burned a hole through my stomach into the duodenum of the small intestine. I had had the ulcer awhile, apparently (and it was not helped by the bacteria Helicobacter pylori of which I had a small infection, but it was a symptomless ulcer, so I wasn't treating it, which is why it perforated. If I had taken my daughter to school 10 minutes earlier, I'd likely have died. (She was the one who had to call H home, and H had to call 911 when I passed out.) Horrible painful trauma surgery, bad recovery, more pain than I even knew existed, hallucinating most of the time 4, 5 days straight. Couldn't have any food or drink but tiny sips of water to swallow medicine and ice chips, blood draws all the time, tubes everywhere, IV alarm going off every time I moved my arm, and a nice 4 inch scar just as a reminder. Those perforated ulcers (especially symptomless ones) can quickly make a person lose consciousness, go into sepsis, code & die. They don't do the operation I had done much in the U.S. any more the GI doc told me because most people with ulcers have symptoms and treat it, even OTC treatment could have prevented my case, but you can't treat what you don't know is there.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#557
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So i went out to starbucks with peter and am all smiling and awake. Wth? Called pdocs nurse but no call back.sometimes i think im making this all up.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#558
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I took lithium with food and my stomach was okay. I have an urge to quit my meds lately. Not sure where that's coming from. I don't know how I feel anymore. I still have hallucinations, but they've been reduced. Lithium has actually helped with my social anxiety, which is a surprise.
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#559
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my day has been quite boring, with the only exciting part (or semi excting part), watching muppet's christmas carol
I love that movie still... just feel blah not really sure why- just my life sucks I guess |
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#560
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I got a lot done today, went out and now I'm ready. I'm going to try and lose weight, at least 30 pounds. Take that Clozaril!
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#561
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My dog jumped of the couch wrong and hurt her paw/leg. So I asked my mom for pain meds and an ace bandage. She reminded me that's how my grandmother's dog died jumping off the bed and shattering his hip. Then she asked how old she was.
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I got some good work done planning for my "Calgon Take Me Away" week. That felt good. I did continue my streak of eating high sugar high carb desserts. Oh well! When hubby is with me I think that will be cut down a bit. I sort of eat the junk on the sly.
I see my psychiatrist tomorrow. I'm a heck of a lot better so far this week than last week. That's good. |
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#563
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I have felt terrible today, woke up with an incredible Seroquel hangover. I wanted nothing more to shut off the alarm clock roll over and go back to bed for a few more hours. I desperately need to wash my sheets they smell of him. I have just felt off all day and have been fighting a huge headache most of the day.
I basically hid in the office all day. It was another scrub day I didn't feel like doing anything this morning so I went lazy. I skipped lunch I just didn't feel hungry. I think the depression is trying to win and I don't need it too. See my therapist in a few minutes have a feeling I'm going to cry most of the session again. I really just want to go home a put on my leggings and not move from the couch. Hugs to everyone ![]()
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#564
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Well I went to my therapy appointment. Still didn't get anytime to voice my concern about where things are heading and how long it's going to take me. I am doing DBT therapy and I saw the workbook she prints out of. It's pretty big. My husband isn't going to be too happy about all the money required. I keep thinking I'll quit and then I have a good session. Today we really started getting into the mindfulness stuff that I'd been reading about on my own with some actual exercises to work on. I still stress about doing everything right. I need to be a little bit easier on myself because she says I'm doing fine. I don't know. It could however, be the adrenaline that's making me do alright. I just need practice. And that's the story of my life! Just need practice! I feel like I'm never good enough at anything and blah blah blah. That's negative talk. I need to stop that! I'm also cranky because there wasn't enough coffee left for me for my evening chill out (or toast up?). I've been having it lately in the late afternoons as a boost for the rest of the day and it's nice. But not today. *sigh
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![]() It's hard when your pets get hurt and when your own mother can't be sympathetic without throwing a barb out there. My mom says or better yet, usually texts, stuff like all the time. ![]()
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#567
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Have you talked to your pdoc about trying something for depression? Or do you have time to try things like exercise that are supposed to help mood?
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Sorry about the dull numb brained feeling. Is it from the sinusitis or just the way the meds have you feeling over all?
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Did you do OK? I double took my morning meds one day, that included Wellbutrin and Adderall. You can bet I was bouncing off the walls all day. Thankfully, I didn't have any issues like more panic or anxiety, just acting more manicky than usual - starting tons of projects I didn't finish, running the farthest I ever went, talking nonstop. I think H was glad when I decided to take my night meds and turn in. Thankfully, the meds worked and got me to sleep.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Found out H's cousin had recently moved to Paradise, CA. He & his wife have nothing but their car and the clothes on their back
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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I think my dull numb feeling is related to my moods more than medications or sinusitis. I am taking more Seroquel XR, but sometimes increases help lift my mood. I'm not nearly as desperate about things as I was last week. I'm not as upset. Perhaps my mood will continue to lift. I did so a good amount of planning today. The need for more planning will escalate as the week progresses. Then we're off to the beaches. I was good today and managed to give bird boy his eye drops. It is so difficult giving them to him solo. |
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I don't have a pdoc my primary deals with everything, I usually do a dance fitness class with my aunt a few times a week, I've just been too busy. I don't think it's time for depression medication, I think I am just feeling tired a run down and it's making my emotions act weird. Have you heard anything about your husband's interview. I'm also sorry about his extended family. ![]()
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I saw a new ENT doctor today for a 2nd opinion.
The 1st opinion ENT doctor said that I'd need surgery to fix my nose situation. The 2nd opinion ENT doctor said that surgery isn't going to help in the long run. I'm more inclined to trust him than the other ENT doctor I saw because this doctor is a top doctor. I mean, I really didn't want to pay to see a top doctor (because it's costly!), but when the other ENT doctor said the word "surgery," I had to get a 2nd opinion. But basically, the doctor did a nose endoscopy today and found (1.) a deviated septum (which I knew), and (2.) a turbinate problem. The other ENT doctor didn't even do a nose endoscopy! So he didn't really look that hard up my nose. I now have 3 more Rx's. ![]() |
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Good thing you have gotten a 2nd opinion! ![]() I hope he was able to help somehow. Thinking of you! ![]() WC
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Oh, I hate the cold. It could freeze tonight, which doesn't happen often here. OK, I've had the cold. Winter can go away. I want the heat back.
I think I need to drink more coffee to warm up. Luckily, I think I have some decaf. On top of the weather, which also chapped my lips, I'm having allergies, sneezing, and my nose constantly itching & dripping, eyes watery. I usually do not have such extreme allergies, considering I took a 24 hour allergy pill in the morning.
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