[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Still feeling sad and deflated but making it look like I have my s@@@ together. I ache all over from head to toe I haven't ached like this in years

Heya, Miss Laura. It's good to see you back. Though I'm in California now, my family came from Scotland so I feel a connexion to you.

I feel depressed and i can't sleep, even though I'm desperate for sleep.

I'm on far too many meds right now—8 of them—and I feel worse on more than on less.

I don't want to take all of my meds. I don't want any permanent antacid. Protonix, Prilosec, pepcid, nexium, etc I don't want. Why do I keep getting prescribed these things? I'm not overweight, and I definitely don't eat like crap most days, so my eating is totally independent of the reflux. But surely there is a better solution. I don't want stomach cancer from prolonged use of antacids.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Tomorrow is colonoscopy prep day. I have to start clear foods and then 4 am mon start the nasty drink. My appointment is at noon.

I've always wondered if it has to be clear liquid and the drink is so awful why couldn't put a few drops of like all natural flavoring to make it at least tolerable as long as they are clear. Good luck with the prep.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I was on my way to ECT when my brother phoned. Our mother had died. So I turned around and we went to be with my siblings. It was a rough week.

Oh no .. I’m sorry for your losses you must be just in shock. My heart goes out to you

[TheSeaCat]

My day was great! Went out with PA for lunch and to see Fantastic Beasts. The movie was really good. I really enjoyed myself plus the weather was nice so I was able to wear my favorite pair of wedges and maxi dress for probably the last time this year. He is just great and for the first time in what feels like a long while I didn't have a day of anxiety.

I am still mad at my father for what he suggested, I kind of want to suggest he see his doctor for depression medication, but I know better. So I've just been avoiding him.

Still terrified about seeing this Cardiologist on Monday stupid anxiety making me think of zebra diagnosis's.

Hugs to everyone

[~Christina]

Finally got a longggggg sleep coma I have needed so much .. Even so ...I still woke up annoyed and Bytchy. Eventually it will pass. I hope.

Made a huge pot of soup so lots of leftovers and to freeze.

Cleaned everything again , so my ocd has been soothed

All my chronic pain conditions are all riled up , Fibromyalgia, psoriatic arthritis, frozen shoulder and all my other broken parts. *sigh*

All in all things could be worse

Hugs to all

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Finally got a longggggg sleep coma I have needed so much .. Even so ...I still woke up annoyed and Bytchy. Eventually it will pass. I hope.

Made a huge pot of soup so lots of leftovers and to freeze.

Cleaned everything again , so my ocd has been soothed

All my chronic pain conditions are all riled up , Fibromyalgia, psoriatic arthritis, frozen shoulder and all my other broken parts. *sigh*

All in all things could be worse

Hugs to all

That's a lot of pain!
I hope you can get some relief!

WC

[yellow_fleurs]

Had my therapy appointment today. Sessions are much more enjoyable when you click with your therapist. Today she showed me my treatment plan and we will do DBT. So I am glad I found someone who can do that kind of therapy. She has major depression listed as my diagnosis, which she said is mostly just for insurance purposes and hasn't known me long enough to diagnose me with bipolar, but that there are some things which point to it so she will see. I will be interested to see if she comes to the same diagnosis as my psychiatrist.

Got pizza with a friend today and walked around some shops. Was too cloudy to see the meteors so we changed our plans.

[VerMOZZica]

Spent the day in and out of bed and on the couch. Finally got up cleaned the kitchen and helped clean the guinea pigs cages. Just doing those things made me feel totally exhausted. I just wish I had more energy and I wish I felt like I did last Saturday. I saw Morrissey in concert and it was fantastic and I had such a wonderful time. Right now I feel sad , lonely and exhausted. I just wish I felt happy.

[wildflowerchild25]

Today I had my son’s kids birthday party. We had it at a trampoline park. He had a great time! Eleven kids showed up which is great. That’s more than half the class.

I am very proud of myself because I pulled it off all by myself. I did the planning, the invitations, and hosted the party by myself. All of his other parties I’ve had my mom help because I couldn’t handle it. But this year I rocked it all alone! I feel like I’m finally getting this single mom thing down.

Tomorrow is his family birthday party. I’m going to take him to get his hair cut then run over to the grocery store to get chips and stuff for the party. Somewhere in there I have to do laundry. Very busy weekend for me! Then I have work on Monday and then I have to pack for Tennessee. We are leaving at 7am on Tuesday. Not looking forward to twelve hours of driving but hey what can you do. I just hope my son can handle it. I have to pack a snack bag so that we don’t have to stop a million times for food. I have to remember to pack my meds. I almost forgot about that. I have them in pill organizers so I just have to grab those. We will only be gone for four days.

So much to do! I don’t think I’ll be able to relax until Saturday. Then Christmas will be here before you know it!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Today I had my son’s kids birthday party. We had it at a trampoline park. He had a great time! Eleven kids showed up which is great. That’s more than half the class.

I am very proud of myself because I pulled it off all by myself. I did the planning, the invitations, and hosted the party by myself. All of his other parties I’ve had my mom help because I couldn’t handle it. But this year I rocked it all alone! I feel like I’m finally getting this single mom thing down.

Tomorrow is his family birthday party. I’m going to take him to get his hair cut then run over to the grocery store to get chips and stuff for the party. Somewhere in there I have to do laundry. Very busy weekend for me! Then I have work on Monday and then I have to pack for Tennessee. We are leaving at 7am on Tuesday. Not looking forward to twelve hours of driving but hey what can you do. I just hope my son can handle it. I have to pack a snack bag so that we don’t have to stop a million times for food. I have to remember to pack my meds. I almost forgot about that. I have them in pill organizers so I just have to grab those. We will only be gone for four days.

So much to do! I don’t think I’ll be able to relax until Saturday. Then Christmas will be here before you know it!

Nice job!
I believe in you.

WC

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

So sorry you're hurting. I've missed some of this thread. Are you sick or just hurting or do you have a chronic pain problem? Pain always makes everything so much worse.

I hurt when I'm depressed I do have back pain constantly but it's just that heavy achy feeling I have all over.... thanks though :-)

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Heya, Miss Laura. It's good to see you back. Though I'm in California now, my family came from Scotland so I feel a connexion to you.

Awww I really like where I come from like everywhere we have our problems politics wise etc. I do have a relative in California she's in love with Scotland too

Yesterday was a mix of major travel stress and pleasant moments. I'm glad our itinerary is significantly lower key from here.

Originally Posted by VerMOZZica

Spent the day in and out of bed and on the couch. Finally got up cleaned the kitchen and helped clean the guinea pigs cages. Just doing those things made me feel totally exhausted. I just wish I had more energy and I wish I felt like I did last Saturday. I saw Morrissey in concert and it was fantastic and I had such a wonderful time. Right now I feel sad , lonely and exhausted. I just wish I felt happy.

But I bet it made the piggies very happy. Do you have pictures of them up? I love piggies. Have you ever seen the video about pumpkin spice? It is so cute.

I hope it gives you a bit of cheer.
I'm glad you had a great time seeing Morrissey. How many times have you seen him? (I'm guessing more than once.... )

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I've always wondered if it has to be clear liquid and the drink is so awful why couldn't put a few drops of like all natural flavoring to make it at least tolerable as long as they are clear. Good luck with the prep.

Mine is cherry flavored. I hope that helps

Feeling a little under the weather, physically. Kind of stuffed up nose and swollen neck glands. Yuck. Took a nice hot shower. Taking it a bit easy today. Will go out for only one errand -- mini grocery shop just down the street. No expeditions. Mentally, I'm compartmentalizing. Whether that be a good thing or not. Pdoc appt. Wednesday.

[Blueberrybook]

I slept 13 hours last night. No running today. Rain.

[xRavenx]

Went to my pdoc yesterday. She said if I don't feel better, than she wants to add Lithium. I really get nervous about medication changes with all the side effects, so I told her I'll see if anything changes and we'll discuss this more in a few weeks.

I think I'm just going to rest on Thanksgiving. I'm just so incredibly tired lately. I'm trying to feel okay about the holidays coming up, but it hardly works. Last year, I was in a bad episode, and lately I feel lonely, yet I want to isolate. I cannot concentrate on what people are saying around me and cannot be present with groups of people and hide. I'm just so stuck in my own head and have nothing to contribute. Therefore, I am isolating and think it's best for me right now due to these factors and a lack of motivation.
Just trying to remain hopeful and hanging on.

[scatterbrained04]

Having a decent enough day. Slept through the night, only woke up once. Purchased my son's big Christmas gift this morning, and I'm excited to give it to him. Concert tickets he really wanted. I guess I'm going to have to suck up my massive downtown driving anxieties for one night. He'll be excited. So it's worth it.

Got my grocery shopping done today. Still have some chores but can't seem to get motivated to do them. It's a never ending story when you have messy kids.

[Faltering]

I got my lithium level tested on Saturday, so I'm guessing I will find out if it's good this week. I've been able to sleep through the night without akathisia lately. Not sure why I get it sometimes. My mood has been okay with bouts of anger. I'm working on controlling it. I think anxiety is becoming a bigger issue now that my mood is improving. I see a psychologist for the first time on Wednesday. I'm not sure what to expect, but I hope it goes well.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Yesterday was a mix of major travel stress and pleasant moments. I'm glad our itinerary is significantly lower key from here.

It's a treat to have you posting even though you have been traveling.
I enjoy your posts.


WC

[Moose72]

Still prepping. One hour till the nasty drink.

[Wild Coyote]

I am exhausted today. Cannot get out of my own way. I need to be working on Thanksgiving planning, cooking, shopping. Am simply too tired.

I have not slept well for months. I am tapering some meds, while increasing others. I am constantly trying to fight depression.

I am in a flare of fibromyalgia, a flare of neuropathy and a flare of Psoriatic Arthritis. In pain and very fatigued, even flu-like. Adds to depression.

I must struggle with dinner soon. I have some items which need to be cooked soon.

My apologies for being such a drag today.

I hope everyone else is having a better day!


WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am exhausted today. Cannot get out of my own way. I need to be working on Thanksgiving planning, cooking, shopping. Am simply too tired.

I have not slept well for months. I am tapering some meds, while increasing others. I am constantly trying to fight depression.

I am in a flare of fibromyalgia, a flare of neuropathy and a flare of Psoriatic Arthritis. In pain and very fatigued, even flu-like. Adds to depression.

I must struggle with dinner soon. I have some items which need to be cooked soon.

My apologies for being such a drag today.

I hope everyone else is having a better day!


WC

My goodness! That’s a lot to have to deal with for anyone. You aren’t being a drag. You are a case study in dealing with things with dignity and grace. I would be curled up in the fetal position and here you are helping people and trying to keep moving. Kudos to you.

I sincerely hope this eases up for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.