[TheSeaCat]

My anxiety is flaring up something fierce, I cannot think straight because of it. I know it's stupid but I am deathly terrified for tomorrow. I know it's just a doctor and I'll be fine but I keep thinking what if what's wrong is surgical and then the thoughts turn to me losing my job again falling back into that depression spiral. I know it's stupid but I just want to hide today and avoid everyone.

My sheets are in the wash, finally now they will smell like fabric softener and scent beads instead of the ex. It was long overdue but I just couldn't find the time this week.

We are having my Grandfather over for dinner, hopefully he can serve as a distraction to this anxiety.

I need to do so much today and I just feel like doing none of it. I need to shower, shave the stubble off the legs, lay out clothes for work in the morning, make sure I have everything in my purse.

Hugs to everyone

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

My anxiety is flaring up something fierce, I cannot think straight because of it. I know it's stupid but I am deathly terrified for tomorrow. I know it's just a doctor and I'll be fine but I keep thinking what if what's wrong is surgical and then the thoughts turn to me losing my job again falling back into that depression spiral. I know it's stupid but I just want to hide today and avoid everyone.

My sheets are in the wash, finally now they will smell like fabric softener and scent beads instead of the ex. It was long overdue but I just couldn't find the time this week.

We are having my Grandfather over for dinner, hopefully he can serve as a distraction to this anxiety.

I need to do so much today and I just feel like doing none of it. I need to shower, shave the stubble off the legs, lay out clothes for work in the morning, make sure I have everything in my purse.

Hugs to everyone

I don’t think it’s stupid. It’s an unknown and you are understandably nervous. It’s good your grandfather is coming for dinner. I hope that helps a little. Take it easy and be gentle with yourself.

Thinking of you and hoping you have a smooth appointment tomorrow.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I don’t think it’s stupid. It’s an unknown and you are understandably nervous. It’s good your grandfather is coming for dinner. I hope that helps a little. Take it easy and be gentle with yourself.

Thinking of you and hoping you have a smooth appointment tomorrow.

Thank you Jenn, I'm trying to be gentle with myself, the sheets finally made it back onto the bed granted I had to fight with a fuzzyball who was laying in the middle of the bed.

I hope it goes smoothly too

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

My goodness! That’s a lot to have to deal with for anyone. You aren’t being a drag. You are a case study in dealing with things with dignity and grace. I would be curled up in the fetal position and here you are helping people and trying to keep moving. Kudos to you.

I sincerely hope this eases up for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you, Jennifer!

I've made it through getting dinner. Lol! One step at a time. Yes, I also hope it all eases up! Not only having guests on Thursday, but am having people stay overnight a couple of nights, too.

I appreciate your feedback and your being such an understanding friend.

Thanks, too, for the thoughts and prayers.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

My anxiety is flaring up something fierce, I cannot think straight because of it. I know it's stupid but I am deathly terrified for tomorrow. I know it's just a doctor and I'll be fine but I keep thinking what if what's wrong is surgical and then the thoughts turn to me losing my job again falling back into that depression spiral. I know it's stupid but I just want to hide today and avoid everyone.

My sheets are in the wash, finally now they will smell like fabric softener and scent beads instead of the ex. It was long overdue but I just couldn't find the time this week.

We are having my Grandfather over for dinner, hopefully he can serve as a distraction to this anxiety.

I need to do so much today and I just feel like doing none of it. I need to shower, shave the stubble off the legs, lay out clothes for work in the morning, make sure I have everything in my purse.

Hugs to everyone

I hope tomorrow goes well and things are simple. Thinking of you.
Looking forward to your post tomorrow!

WC

[wildflowerchild25]

Today was a success! Got my son’s hair cut, got snacks for the party, and then had a nice time with family. My son had a great time opening presents and being the center of attention. He also had a great time playing with his baby cousin.

I’m having a great conversation with my new guy. I’m really excited about him. He seems more real than the last guy and he seems more into me for me. The last guy was more into sex (even though we didn’t get that far) and while that would have been fun for awhile I’m looking for something more substantial than that. I’m glad he ghosted me so I could find this new guy.

I’m just really happy right now.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Today was a success! Got my son’s hair cut, got snacks for the party, and then had a nice time with family. My son had a great time opening presents and being the center of attention. He also had a great time playing with his baby cousin.

I’m having a great conversation with my new guy. I’m really excited about him. He seems more real than the last guy and he seems more into me for me. The last guy was more into sex (even though we didn’t get that far) and while that would have been fun for awhile I’m looking for something more substantial than that. I’m glad he ghosted me so I could find this new guy.

I’m just really happy right now.

All great news!
I am very happy for you!

WC

[yellow_fleurs]

Really cannot focus today. This is embarrassing, tried working on a paper for 7 hrs and got sidetracked the whole time. I don't feel overly happy or energetic, just like my thoughts are jumping around. I sort of think this might just be how my brain works, and this is why I originally thought I had ADHD.

At least I cleaned, did laundry and got groceries. So not a totally wasted day. Just rather be running around doing things than trying to reel in my brain today I guess.

[Guiness187055]

I laid in bed for 17 hours. I am overwhelmed I have so much that I need to accomplish before I leave for vacation next week. So of course I got nothing done and now have put it off until tomorrow. I will probably lie in bed all day again and get nothing done again.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I hope tomorrow goes well and things are simple. Thinking of you.
Looking forward to your post tomorrow!

WC

Thank you Wild I'm sorry you are in immense pain, I really hope you get to feeling better soon.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Thank you Wild I'm sorry you are in immense pain, I really hope you get to feeling better soon.

Thank you!

The pain part is chronic and does let up some at times.
Stress makes it all worse.

I am so glad you have someone going with you to see the cardiologist.
I hope you get good news!


WC

[Lefty Seven]

I realized I like hating people more than loving them, good news for everyone.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am exhausted today. Cannot get out of my own way. I need to be working on Thanksgiving planning, cooking, shopping. Am simply too tired.


I have not slept well for months. I am tapering some meds, while increasing others. I am constantly trying to fight depression.


I am in a flare of fibromyalgia, a flare of neuropathy and a flare of Psoriatic Arthritis. In pain and very fatigued, even flu-like. Adds to depression.


I must struggle with dinner soon. I have some items which need to be cooked soon.


My apologies for being such a drag today.


I hope everyone else is having a better day!




WC

I hate that your having a rough time . Mental , physical and such lack of sleep , my heart goes out to you.

You are NEVER a drag

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

My anxiety is flaring up something fierce, I cannot think straight because of it. I know it's stupid but I am deathly terrified for tomorrow. I know it's just a doctor and I'll be fine but I keep thinking what if what's wrong is surgical and then the thoughts turn to me losing my job again falling back into that depression spiral. I know it's stupid but I just want to hide today and avoid everyone.


My sheets are in the wash, finally now they will smell like fabric softener and scent beads instead of the ex. It was long overdue but I just couldn't find the time this week.


We are having my Grandfather over for dinner, hopefully he can serve as a distraction to this anxiety.


I need to do so much today and I just feel like doing none of it. I need to shower, shave the stubble off the legs, lay out clothes for work in the morning, make sure I have everything in my purse.


Hugs to everyone

Good luck with your cardio appt tomorrow! I understand your worry it makes perfect sense.

This time tomorrow you will know what’s going on.

Fresh bedding always makes me happy !!!

You can handle all this !

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Today was a success! Got my son’s hair cut, got snacks for the party, and then had a nice time with family. My son had a great time opening presents and being the center of attention. He also had a great time playing with his baby cousin.


I’m having a great conversation with my new guy. I’m really excited about him. He seems more real than the last guy and he seems more into me for me. The last guy was more into sex (even though we didn’t get that far) and while that would have been fun for awhile I’m looking for something more substantial than that. I’m glad he ghosted me so I could find this new guy.


I’m just really happy right now.

You have done great !!! Just planking the kid birthday would have wore me out !

Glad your son had a good time

Please be safe making the drive down , we are going to Florida for Xmas and it’s a 12-13 hour drive , by the time I get there I’m so wired and buzzed I can sleep lol

Glad this fellow has gotten your interest ! Might be a great fit

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Feeling a little under the weather, physically. Kind of stuffed up nose and swollen neck glands. Yuck. Took a nice hot shower. Taking it a bit easy today. Will go out for only one errand -- mini grocery shop just down the street. No expeditions. Mentally, I'm compartmentalizing. Whether that be a good thing or not. Pdoc appt. Wednesday.

Hope your not coming down with something , it can blast right past you !!!

Force fluids and get as much sleep as possible.

Glad you see your Pdoc this week.

[~Christina]

Had a attack of “ bipolar is forcing me to buy something “ hasn’t happened in forever so off I went with my $20.00

I bought a new pair of pajamas and a cheap watch .. got my fix.

Funny I went to 4 stores before that place and couldn’t find a single thing I would want regardless of how much money I had.

Hubby and I went out for dinner and we both just ordered ice cream lololololol.

I was pretty busy all day which is good , everything is clean and neat.

Defrosting my shoulder is really annoying and of course painful but like really ???? For sure ???? Ugh !

Seeing my GP tomorrow for a follow up , need to get my flu shot !!! Physically I can’t afford to get sick on Enbrel.

Hugs to anybody be needing one or three

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Had a attack of “ bipolar is forcing me to buy something “ hasn’t happened in forever so off I went with my $20.00

I bought a new pair of pajamas and a cheap watch .. got my fix.

Funny I went to 4 stores before that place and couldn’t find a single thing I would want regardless of how much money I had.

Hubby and I went out for dinner and we both just ordered ice cream lololololol.

I was pretty busy all day which is good , everything is clean and neat.

Defrosting my shoulder is really annoying and of course painful but like really ???? For sure ???? Ugh !

Seeing my GP tomorrow for a follow up , need to get my flu shot !!! Physically I can’t afford to get sick on Enbrel.

Hugs to anybody be needing one or three

Bipolar does that to me as well, I am saving for some awesome Black Friday deals. You can't go wrong with a new pair of pajamas.

Ice Cream for dinner sounds delicious, glad you and the hubby had a nice day out.

Busy is good, I'd rather be busy than bored.

Sorry the defrosting is painful.

Definitely get the flu shot, last year was certainly rough.

Thank you for the well wishes by the way, I'm working on school work to distract myself. I also turned my mattress so my bed should be extra snugly tonight.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Had a attack of “ bipolar is forcing me to buy something “ hasn’t happened in forever so off I went with my $20.00

I bought a new pair of pajamas and a cheap watch .. got my fix.

Funny I went to 4 stores before that place and couldn’t find a single thing I would want regardless of how much money I had.

Hubby and I went out for dinner and we both just ordered ice cream lololololol.

I was pretty busy all day which is good , everything is clean and neat.

Defrosting my shoulder is really annoying and of course painful but like really ???? For sure ???? Ugh !

Seeing my GP tomorrow for a follow up , need to get my flu shot !!! Physically I can’t afford to get sick on Enbrel.

Hugs to anybody be needing one or three

I am glad you've gotten out!

So sorry about the shoulder pain. A frozen shoulder can be incredibly painful. "Adhesive capsulitis" tells us some of how painful it can be!
I recall the pain I'd had w/this condition. It's more common amongst middle-aged women.

I hope your appt w/GP goes well.

Sleep soundly!

WC

[Pookyl]

Feeling pretty good. Except when I think about a wedding I’ve got to go to on the weekend. Then I can taste vomit.

[Victoria'smom]

I just lied to my son. I need him to believe me. However I don't see this whole thing working out.

[Moose72]

Second round of the nasty drink. 6:00 am.

coping okay.

on saturday I had a papa john's takeout pizza which was lovely. sat on the sofa with my legs spread out on my kittycat rug enjoying it with little britain on tv. it was lovely

yesterday I had roast lamb which wasn't that good, but I did have some yummy peach juice which was good

apart from that been the usual coutch potato. litirally nothing to report.

but I've been coping okay and that'ss what counts. who cares I've not realy donem uch- it'sn ot through lack of motivation this time, through nothing to do

[Wander]

Saw my pdoc this afternoon nearly two weeks after discharge. I came out of hospital like a rocket, caught up with heaps of friends and couldn't sit still without getting bored. Since Tuesday last week I have crashed and its only getting worse and heading towards severely depressed again with SI. Today I lay in bed listening to music until my appointment at 3pm. I didn't even eat.

My pdoc is having me get a lithium level taken tomorrow morning and having it urgently sent to him so he can send me the results tomorrow afternoon and adjust my dose if needed. I see him next Tuesday and he is talking med changed which worries me as I have tried just about everything that doesn't cause major weight gain. He also talked about putting me back in hospital if I worsen as my thoughts are starting to get weird and dangerous.

I have been off work for months. I am broke and I want my life back. Trying to be hopeful and meditate to bring peace but despair is creeping in.

[Blue_Bird]

Hey, haven't checked in to this thread or part of the forum for a few years. I have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. My mood has been pretty good the past few days I was experiencing a lot of ups and downs for awhile . I had like 2 months of mania, 1 month of depression, and it just kind of continued alternating like that for awhile. Part of it being stress, part of it from missing my meds and also having a terribly sleep routine. I'm trying to get into a good schedule with sleep, it's very difficult to regulate. Sometimes I'm sleeping 12-16 hours a day other times I'm not sleeping at all or only a couple hours. I slept 3 and a half hours last night but feel alright