[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

Oh, the wonders of antipsychotic medications. My pdoc told me I didn't need to take Rexulti if I am also on Olanzapine 5 mg, so last night I dropped Rexulti and woke up numerous times at night although fell back asleep. Olanzapine has some side effects including tremor, and I wouldn't want to take it very long because of what it does to my blood sugar. I will try another night without Rexulti and see how it goes. I was able to fall back asleep. My son says that I am full of hatred and self pity and then apologizes the next day. We have a new routine that I don't try to stay awake to pick him up after 8 pm. If he's late, he's responsible for his own transportation. I won't drive after i've taken my nighttime meds. That has relieved the pressure valve so there is less conflict.

I can't deal with my son's hostility to me when it is getting late in the day and I just want to snuggle on the sofa watching internet tv. It seems that the sleep difficulties are common this time of year. My body wants to fall asleep when it gets dark, which is quite early here in Canada, but my son is coming home at 9:30 pm after work somedays.

So it is 5 mg Zyprexa and 50 mg lyrica tonight. I can also try to increase my Lyrica to 100. It is better I think not to be on more than one AP at a time if one can avoid it.

I'm sorry about the difficulties you are having with your night routine. That sounds frustrating. Yeah, if I drive after I take my night meds, I'd fall asleep at the wheel & end up in a traffic accident.

How old is your son?

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Had a better day today.
Got some work done.

Love to All!

WC

I'm glad your day went better.

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I'm sorry about the difficulties you are having with your night routine. That sounds frustrating. Yeah, if I drive after I take my night meds, I'd fall asleep at the wheel & end up in a traffic accident.

How old is your son?

My son is 24 and is moving out to his own apartment in the new year. It is walking distance to work then. I think he just doesn't realize that pushing my sleep routine around is not just inconvenient for me but also destabilizing, so I just had to put my foot down and say no rides after 8 pm. He can walk or uber home from the train station. There is also a bus. It takes some time for the meds to take effect and I have my nightly routine to settle down. Anyone who takes even a casual glance at the posts here will find out that sleep is a pretty big deal for people with bipolar, although not everyone and not all the time.

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I'm glad your day went better.

Me too, WC!

Better mood today. Better, not good mind you, as I'm burnt out on work, and not happy about some other stuff, but tolerable.

Took care of getting set up with an insurance last night. Not in effect yet, and damned depressing financially (even with a substantial tax credit -- which I don't totally understand), but at least it's done. This, and very nearly no food stamps now are the downside of getting (non earning) exBF out of the picture. I don't think I want to do the math, seeing how (not by all that much) I incomed out for a single houshold, and consequently have hundreds of dollars a month now in additional bills. Sucks. There ought to be some kind of prorated system. I don't even know if it's do-able. Guess we'll see.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

My student came back today! It was so nice to be back in my old classroom and have her back. She’s so sweet. She was happy to be back as well. She just laughed and laughed when the teacher wheeled her in. She looks so much brighter! Now that she’s getting proper nutrition she seems a lot more active. She’s hydrated properly too; she had two very wet diapers whereas previously she would only have one slightly wet diaper. It’s so nice to see her that way.


RS came over to help make cookies tonight and spent most of the night playing with my son. He’s such a good sport and so good with him. He’s coming to my son’s winter concert tomorrow and he will meet my grandma. She already likes him because he knew to take me to the amazing botanical garden. I’m glad he will get to meet her. I want to show him off to everyone!


I talked to my therapist about how scared I was to quit nicotine. She had a good idea. She said I should try to find a vape company that sells the pens I like but has lower and no nicotine options. That way I can taper myself down. I found one that I used before that was acceptable and I’m going to buy them at a lower nicotine concentration when my cartridges run out. I’ll use those for a month or so and then go down to zero nicotine. I think this might work out better for me. I’m so glad I have her. She always knows how to help me.

You have so many positives going on !!!!!!

So very happy for you

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Tucson

Today went OK. I did find out that I was turned down for a job yet another time. No Dillards, Sears, Macys, Best Buy, and Farmers Insurance sales clerk. I will next apply to Home Depot, Lowes, and Walmart. Lets hope for the best. Otherwise, I will need to go to door to door for a job. Maybe Circle K?

I’m sorry

Do you think you can handle retail? I know I couldnt ,people would drive me bonkers in that setting.

Good luck

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by beauflow

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Many well thoughts to everyone!


Yay TheSeaCat you're home!


Birddancer- your cookies sound great, ((and idk, but I would mention the cookies))...

[[[ I had one year I made so myself but me I ate a lot! ... swore never again!! ]]]


Christina many well safe travels

((- and not here.. no traveling. dog watcher beauflow on the look out for skunks.

I wanted to go somewhere but didn't plan well :/ need to work on that. ))


Raging Vortex many hugs, your nails sound pretty!!


And I did read others, but oi... I'm sorry


--

I was all over the place today, I'm so glad I drove all over when I was younger-- I got a lot of miles and memories with places, but I may not remember when being told about an area-- like

one highway I didn't remember it till I was on it,.. ((so much fun in away, if you know what's going on... no fun , if you're new to it or if it's overcrowded )).



it's a little funny - I took a picture in the first mall and I look sooo tired, almost like I should go home..

Then the second mall I look awake, and this was when I was leaving that one.


.in short I went to two malls and one area that used to have a mall and I'm very baffled by what's going on

20 to 30 years estimated for them to build this new area .... will it ever be??!


I allowed someone to touch my hair out of no where... the young lady handed me a packet and all I said was thanks... she asked of course, if she could do my hair.. and i figured why not? I knew they'd try to sell me something..


though, shame. *ring bell* shame.. i did buy the hair thing, but they gave me a college discount because idk why ..... they knew I wasn't in college

? Happy holidays I was told..

the look on my face may have helped- when they told me the price for "full price with two free" or "one discounted " .. ... I got mine for a third, and I was even hesitant on that... but I was amazed with the curls .... I hope this was kindness but idk,.. so I will hope . I'll try it out Tomorrow or someday, I do want to see how long the curls will last.... ((this was the first time curling my hair with something, I don't want to damage my hair..))


I did note, --well - I had issues talking a bit.. like in general, even at the first mall... like in my head it's all going, but verbal... meh ... some tried to understand... some I got strange looks.. but I didn't get frustrated with myself or anyone today though.. I was glad that-I just did go out... people were either people, or nice


I try not to focus too much on my speech ... maybe I should... my speech.. it's always been a problem, but some days I'm crystal clear and other days, "what came out?" If it even does-- and both with low and fast thinking? ... idk .. I just don't.. I do understand that could be a symptom, but I felt ok today.. tired/ awake


Hoping for rest for everyone but not too much

Good for you getting out !!! I bet your hair looks great , it’s ok to spend some money on your self. Discounts always helps !!!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I had a good day I felt great after finally getting sleep. No bizarre thoughts, feelings, etc. Was supposed to see a nutritionist but my ride never showed up so that didn't work out. I went to my favorite used bookstore and got some stuff. I love that place so much. I got this beautiful big hardcover book of Catholic Saints for $2. In perfect condition, it's normal sale price is almost $30. I always find awesome stuff there. They also sell some CDs (all $2) and DVDs ($3). I can't believe I've been in this neighborhood for 3 years and only just started going there this past month!


I had a lot of anxiety in the evening, but I ended up playing with my cats to distract myself and went to sleep for a couple hours (it's about 1:30am now) I'll go back to sleep later, just feel like reading for a bit.


It's strange being on winter break and not having to worry about assignments/deadlines etc lol I almost don't know what to do with myself. I'm going to hang out with a friend later in the day.


Hope everyone is doing okay



@TheSeaCat, so glad you're out of the hospital and doing well

I love old bookstores it’s true you never know what you will find at a great price !!! Enjoy your down time

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I think school was probably affecting your sleep, I'm stressing about finals but got distracted and know until my finals I'll be stressed. Cats are a good stress reliever. Cat has been on my feet most of the night as has R's overly fluffy dog who really likes me and the cat apparently.


I love the smell of books; sadly about the only thing I read anymore is a textbook, here, or research for school. I personally can't wait for winter break. I hope you have fun with that friend.


I'm glad to be home; i've missed my cat; the couch and my bed. I'm ready to go back to work though.

Glad your back home !

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

At this precise moment I'm taking it easy. I just ate lunch. Before lunch, I went to the grocery store and bread shop to pick up some things for general meals and...even more cookie-making.

This morning I made homemade marzipan, and blanched, skinned, and halved (vertically), a whole bunch of almonds for the cookies I plan to make. They are marzipan cookies, a German recipe called Bethmannchen cookies. Now that the above tasks are done, mixing the final dough and forming and baking the cookies should be somewhat easy and quick. They're easier cookies to make than many of the ones I've made this past seven days. I'll leave making the remaining harder cookie varieties for tomorrow, Friday, and/or this weekend.

I see my psychiatrist in about three hours. I need to wash my hair. It's looking pretty scraggly. I have been showering daily for a number of days because the cookie making has really been physically taxing, and made me sweat a lot.

All your baking is making me drool lol

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

Oh, the wonders of antipsychotic medications. My pdoc told me I didn't need to take Rexulti if I am also on Olanzapine 5 mg, so last night I dropped Rexulti and woke up numerous times at night although fell back asleep. Olanzapine has some side effects including tremor, and I wouldn't want to take it very long because of what it does to my blood sugar. I will try another night without Rexulti and see how it goes. I was able to fall back asleep. My son says that I am full of hatred and self pity and then apologizes the next day. We have a new routine that I don't try to stay awake to pick him up after 8 pm. If he's late, he's responsible for his own transportation. I won't drive after i've taken my nighttime meds. That has relieved the pressure valve so there is less conflict.


I can't deal with my son's hostility to me when it is getting late in the day and I just want to snuggle on the sofa watching internet tv. It seems that the sleep difficulties are common this time of year. My body wants to fall asleep when it gets dark, which is quite early here in Canada, but my son is coming home at 9:30 pm after work somedays.


So it is 5 mg Zyprexa and 50 mg lyrica tonight. I can also try to increase my Lyrica to 100. It is better I think not to be on more than one AP at a time if one can avoid it.

Glad your able to decrease meds , hope your sleeping continues well enough !!

Sorry about your son that has to be beyond difficult.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Better mood today. Better, not good mind you, as I'm burnt out on work, and not happy about some other stuff, but tolerable.


Took care of getting set up with an insurance last night. Not in effect yet, and damned depressing financially (even with a substantial tax credit -- which I don't totally understand), but at least it's done. This, and very nearly no food stamps now are the downside of getting (non earning) exBF out of the picture. I don't think I want to do the math, seeing how (not by all that much) I incomed out for a single houshold, and consequently have hundreds of dollars a month now in additional bills. Sucks. There ought to be some kind of prorated system. I don't even know if it's do-able. Guess we'll see.

Sorry everything is up in the air and things are being more costly. I do not understand our insurance situation anymore. It’s either expensive policy or astronomical deductions. It’s straight up bulllshyt !!

I have a reasonable deductible with Medicare but it’s so hard to pay for that with my husband and I being disabled. Then all those 20^% left , I own 3 doctors the ortho guys and neurologist all the 20% of the visits , I literally can only afford 5 dollars a month to each as I do need to eat for the month.

I hate that your having to struggle so much. Will your work hours decrease after the holidays ?? Is so what then.

I wish I could fix your situation !!!

Try and hang in there hun : sadhug:

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys well it’s official I got my wish of making President’s list for the first time ever! I usually make Vice President’s list which is still quite an honor, but straight A’s in a great Bachelor’s program. I might have cried seeing the final grade I love online classes all the answers are preloaded and the moment you hit submit you get the grade back so no more nervous thoughts of I totally failed.

Dropped by work real quick to see everyone since I know they were all worried my boss about flying tackled me as did a few receptionist, spent 30 minutes working on a insurance problem one had. They always come to me for issues since I did do reception with the same system for quite a while. I don’t think my cat was thrilled to be in waiting in a cage for that long but I really didn’t need him scratching up my new leather. So he was in a cage, I figured he was probably missing his twin so I figured I’d take him home for a short visit.

Grabbed Panara for my family since they have never had it and I am really trying to eat better things. My dad wanted to see the car and test drive it and he hates driving at night so it’s a late lunch for everyone.

I’ll post another update later after I get the lecture for buying a car and not telling anyone. I’m just so glad to be out of prison that I will take all the lecturers just to be out and free. I’m also expecting questions about M.

Wildflower I am so glad your student is back and RS sounds like such a keeper.

Hugs to everyone and thank you all for the

[Guiness187055]

Went to my GP to fill out disability paperwork. She said I would be unable to hold a job just like my Pdoc did. So we will see what happens when I go in front of the judge with my lawyer. I like my chances.

[Unrigged64072835]

Hope you all are doing well.

I’m definitely going to lay off the hot chocolate. In fact I’ll have to lay off chocolate and sugar in general. Wild mood swings, sugar crashes and gas are not fun.

At least my husband and I went to a park and walked around for a bit.

Hopefully have money from home loan tomorrow. I hope that puts my husband’s mind at ease with paying off the one company.

Been a quiet boring day otherwise.

TheSeaCat, isn't being free a great feeling? Woohoo!!!!!

[Moose72]

Theseacat, it is indeed a great thing to be free after a hospital stay!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Went to my GP to fill out disability paperwork. She said I would be unable to hold a job just like my Pdoc did. So we will see what happens when I go in front of the judge with my lawyer. I like my chances.

it's so helpful that both of your docs agree! I don't see how they can deny you!

Good luck with your claim.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

@The SeaCat - Congrats on your grades!

@Wildflowerchild - Wow! Things just keep getting better! RS sounds like a super guy! Lucky you!

Love to All!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Better mood today. Better, not good mind you, as I'm burnt out on work, and not happy about some other stuff, but tolerable.

Took care of getting set up with an insurance last night. Not in effect yet, and damned depressing financially (even with a substantial tax credit -- which I don't totally understand), but at least it's done. This, and very nearly no food stamps now are the downside of getting (non earning) exBF out of the picture. I don't think I want to do the math, seeing how (not by all that much) I incomed out for a single houshold, and consequently have hundreds of dollars a month now in additional bills. Sucks. There ought to be some kind of prorated system. I don't even know if it's do-able. Guess we'll see.

I hope things work out for you.

I don't think any of it is "fair" to you and I hope things get better quickly!


WC

I saw my psychiatrist a while ago. I told him how well I've been and how much more energy I've had, but normal good energy. I mentioned that I lowered my Seroquel XR from 600 mg to 500 mg. He said that given my reasons, I definitely accurately predicted the modification he would have made. He wasn't angry, but told me that I really should have left him a message telling him what I did (on the day I reduced it) and asking him to call me if he had any objections. Well, message received. Luckily he has no objections to my change and agrees it did me well.

I made Marzipan cookies. First time making that recipe. They're good, but if I make them again, I'll cut down on the recipe's rose water. It's a little too much for my taste. Plus, their color in the end was not as nice as the recipe picture, despite my efforts to improve it. In the end, I dusted them with confectioner's sugar. That improved their appearance 10 fold, but is likely not traditionally done.

[Moose72]

My daughter (N2) isn't home from work yet. Neither is she answering her phone or texts. If she comes straight home, she usually gets here about 5:20. Its now 6:50. I'm getting worried.

Well, NOW that I typed that she picked up! And she's left the dishes a disaster area. Caked-on stuck on food. If she'd just rinse her dishes and put them in the dishwasher we wouldn't have this problem. And no, Cascade does NOT get that off. I am soaking various plates and cups now. All I need is a shower and bed. Almost 7:00...

I went to the grocery store today and got a few basics, including laundry soap. Also bought N3's present for the gift exchange for my BIL/his uncle.


All this cookie talk is making me want cookies! I like the peanut butter ones with a Hershey's kiss smushed into them. Or the ones that are white balls and have pistachios in them. (?) You usually see those this time of year.


I need a shower and I'm procrastinating. Last one I had was yesterday at 3 a.m. I count that as still the day before yesterday.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

All your baking is making me drool lol

Yes, Birddancer, I am drooling too! What are they all for anyway? Are you making tins of a variety of your cookies for people?

Moose72, those white balls with pistachios sound good. Do you have a recipe for them? Once I made peanut blossom cookies (the PB with Hershey kiss) and took them to Czech Republic for Christmas. Nobody ate them. Would you believe it? Hubby won't eat them either, so I mostly stick to European cookies. They are yummy.

I'm not sure why exactly I'm baking so much. I need projects and part of me wants to compete with my mother-in-law's supposed 12 to 13 varieties. I'll share them with family and friends.

My husband is super late. I'm worried and the dinner may get ruined.

OMG! I only now remembered. Hubby is going out to dinner tonight with his work buddy. Anyone in the mood for Chicken Milanese and Taglietelle with creamy herb nut sauce?