[wildflowerchild25]

Feeling pretty agitated and freaked out. My mom is in the ER with a tooth infection that’s close to her brain. They’re doing a cat scan to see how far it’s gotten. She may have to stay overnight. If so I’ll have to go see her. I just feel very uncomfortable, like I want to rip my skin off. I wish I could see RS but I have to be available if my mom wants me to bring her something. Besides I can’t rely on him for every little thing.

I wanted to make some chili tonight and have RS come over for dinner but I’m not sure about that now. I don’t want to be In the middle of cooking and then have my mom call and ask me to bring her something.

I just need to calm down. I slept fine last night so I know I’m not getting hypo. I think it’s just worry over my mom. I’m sure she will be fine I just hope she gets to come home today. Staying in the hospital is no fun.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Feeling pretty agitated and freaked out. My mom is in the ER with a tooth infection that’s close to her brain. They’re doing a cat scan to see how far it’s gotten. She may have to stay overnight. If so I’ll have to go see her. I just feel very uncomfortable, like I want to rip my skin off. I wish I could see RS but I have to be available if my mom wants me to bring her something. Besides I can’t rely on him for every little thing.

I wanted to make some chili tonight and have RS come over for dinner but I’m not sure about that now. I don’t want to be In the middle of cooking and then have my mom call and ask me to bring her something.

I just need to calm down. I slept fine last night so I know I’m not getting hypo. I think it’s just worry over my mom. I’m sure she will be fine I just hope she gets to come home today. Staying in the hospital is no fun.

I hope your mom will be okay!

My mom lives with us and has needed to go to the ER and be hospitalized several times. It's stressful.

I hope your mom will get to come home today if it's safe to do so.

Thinking of you.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

My DNA came! I'm 32% German 29% Norwegian 14% English 3%Scottish and various others, let's see,....Swedish, Baltic states, Eastern Europe so the verdict is whiter than white. The stories of their being Native American on my father's father side are just that stories. Must find out what my grandfathers real name was when he imagrated from Norway cause can't find his parents. But the Norwegian traces back to a specific town! It's all so interesting. No famous people, my people are farmers and woodworkers. Salt of the earth types.

This is very interesting!

I have been meaning to do this. I get busy and forget.

Thanks for sharing!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Hi all! Freezing cold here but sunny
Got a new mattress, now I really don’t wanna get out of bed in the morning. I’m still working hard to stick with my regular sleep hygiene. Down to 7.5 mg zopiclone from 15mg and doing ok. The next hurdle is the hardest. I’ve gotten down to a quarter of the 7.5 mg tab in the past but couldn’t bear the lack of sleep and the depression it fuelled. Anyway, I’m ever hopeful.
Hugs hugs and more hugs to everyone

It's nice to have you posting!
I think of you often and wonder how things are going for you.

I have also been tapering my sleep medication. Now that I am more depressed, I sleep better at night. This will change again when my mood changes.

I am glad you are feeling "ever hopeful!"


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Doing on here. We had about 7 inches of snow Friday/Saturday so been doing a lot of chilling. Had to get groceries Friday after work since we were out if everything, that was crazy with the storm coming lol. Anyway, pasta efagoli cooking and kicked back in the recliner for the day.

Hugs to all

Hi hopeless!

It's great to have you posting!
We'd had a lot of snowfall, too, just before the weekend. Over the weekend we've had very cold weather.

I'll bet you are missing the motorcycle rides. I hope you have not had to deal with frequent bronchitis this winter.

Stay warm!

WC

[yellow_fleurs]

Hope everyone has been well, I will have to go back and read some posts to catch up on the past couple weeks for everyone.

Things are going pretty well. I mean, some days are good and some days really hard with the anxiety and my thoughts. My psychiatrist said it sounds like I could have OCD (therapist agrees), but I think held off on the official diagnosis. Not sure I articulated my symptoms that well, but oh well. They left me with the diagnosis of bipolar, too. Also, I was relieved that even though I don't have any follow-up appointments scheduled they told me I wouldn't have to wait forever, that if it was urgent and I needed to come back they would get me in. That made me feel better about stopping regular appointments with them for now.

Oh and my psychiatrist recommended using the light therapy around midday instead of early morning as studies have shown it can trigger mania more often when used earlier in the day. I mean, I think I was using it in the afternoon when it made me irritable but I will try.

I have been doing okay with my plans to be social. Went out to a museum exhibit this weekend and for Thai food with a friend, and to a networking thing during the week. Going out during the week was likely what threw off my moods, but still glad I did it.

Hugs if you want them!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Hope everyone has been well, I will have to go back and read some posts to catch up on the past couple weeks for everyone.

Things are going pretty well. I mean, some days are good and some days really hard with the anxiety and my thoughts. My psychiatrist said it sounds like I could have OCD (therapist agrees), but I think held off on the official diagnosis. Not sure I articulated my symptoms that well, but oh well. They left me with the diagnosis of bipolar, too. Also, I was relieved that even though I don't have any follow-up appointments scheduled they told me I wouldn't have to wait forever, that if it was urgent and I needed to come back they would get me in. That made me feel better about stopping regular appointments with them for now.

Oh and my psychiatrist recommended using the light therapy around midday instead of early morning as studies have shown it can trigger mania more often when used earlier in the day. I mean, I think I was using it in the afternoon when it made me irritable but I will try.

I have been doing okay with my plans to be social. Went out to a museum exhibit this weekend and for Thai food with a friend, and to a networking thing during the week. Going out during the week was likely what threw off my moods, but still glad I did it.

Hugs if you want them!

It's great to hear from you!

That's an interesting point about light therapy.
I have been pushing myself to get out more, too.
So glad things are going well for you!

WC

Super quiet uneventful day for me. It's only a little after 4 pm and I wish it was dinner time so I could settle in and go to sleep early.

[Aurelius710]

I've got a busy week ahead. My last semester of my undergraduate starts tomorrow, so that's a plus. My actual class time is minimal, so I'm going to plan of spending the rest of my school days finishing and turning in my 10 page paper (Mexican drug cartels. Fun subject! At least for me! ), after which I can get my financial aid back.

The financial aid office decided to change the metric by which they define satisfactory academic progress. It's not just failing a class that counts against me, but not completing one will count against me too. It seems like semantics until you realize medical withdrawals count too. I finally get through a semester and they use my past withdrawals to justify screwing me over over a single extension.

So, if I don't get this paper done, I don't get financial aid, which I was relying on to finish school in the absence of a job (which is its own contentious story), and that means, sans job or loan, I don't get my diploma.

No pressure right? Right? No wonder I feel stressed.

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by Aurelius710

I've got a busy week ahead. My last semester of my undergraduate starts tomorrow, so that's a plus. My actual class time is minimal, so I'm going to plan of spending the rest of my school days finishing and turning in my 10 page paper (Mexican drug cartels. Fun subject! At least for me! ), after which I can get my financial aid back.

The financial aid office decided to change the metric by which they define satisfactory academic progress. It's not just failing a class that counts against me, but not completing one will count against me too. It seems like semantics until you realize medical withdrawals count too. I finally get through a semester and they use my past withdrawals to justify screwing me over over a single extension.

So, if I don't get this paper done, I don't get financial aid, which I was relying on to finish school in the absence of a job (which is its own contentious story), and that means, sans job or loan, I don't get my diploma.

No pressure right? Right? No wonder I feel stressed.

I didn't know they could withold financial aid for medical withdrawals. That really sucks.

[Sunflower123]

I’ve been really exhausted lately, even on Ritalin. I do get stressed from time to time but I’m more concerned about this bone deep weariness. My family really needs me right now. Hopefully, things will lighten up soon and I can get some rest. I take mom back to the doctor on the 25th and she should be good to go then I’ll work on getting my brother to go IP. Unfortunately, it may be involuntarily. I really don’t want any part of that.

I hope everyone has a peaceful week ahead. Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[Wild Coyote]

Pdoc doubled my Wellbutrin on Friday. Am feeling spacey.
Was active in the morning. Rested in the afternoon.

Need to make myself get up to cook dinner, even though I don't want to at all.
Sundays are usually my day of peace. I have some alone time. This Sunday went by too fast!

I hope everyone has a good week!
Love to All!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’ve been really exhausted lately, even on Ritalin. I do get stressed from time to time but I’m more concerned about this bone deep weariness. My family really needs me right now. Hopefully, things will lighten up soon and I can get some rest. I take mom back to the doctor on the 25th and she should be good to go then I’ll work on getting my brother to go IP. Unfortunately, it may be involuntarily. I really don’t want any part of that.

I hope everyone has a peaceful week ahead. Warm wishes and hugs to all.

I hope things will lighten up for you soon, too.
I recall how extremely exhausted I was while helping my mom with her hip replacement surgeries.

My heart goes out to you!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Aurelius710

I've got a busy week ahead. My last semester of my undergraduate starts tomorrow, so that's a plus. My actual class time is minimal, so I'm going to plan of spending the rest of my school days finishing and turning in my 10 page paper (Mexican drug cartels. Fun subject! At least for me! ), after which I can get my financial aid back.

The financial aid office decided to change the metric by which they define satisfactory academic progress. It's not just failing a class that counts against me, but not completing one will count against me too. It seems like semantics until you realize medical withdrawals count too. I finally get through a semester and they use my past withdrawals to justify screwing me over over a single extension.

So, if I don't get this paper done, I don't get financial aid, which I was relying on to finish school in the absence of a job (which is its own contentious story), and that means, sans job or loan, I don't get my diploma.

No pressure right? Right? No wonder I feel stressed.

How absurd! That is a lot of pressure! So sorry you are dealing with this type of stress. I hope writing/finishing your paper goes smoothly.

WC

[MissDenim]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

You were very productive!
Many of us have a lazy day(s).

You are doing just fine with posting!
I can recall when I was new here. I'd felt like I didn't belong and like it was difficult to get to know people. Keep posting/interacting and you will soon feel more comfortable about having exchanges with people.

If you EVER feel isolated here, for any reason, please let us know. We will help.

It's great to have you posting!


WC

Thanks!

Truth is, I was feeling a bit isolated, but that could just be my social anxiety. It's kinda why I said something. But I guess I just need to keep posting/interacting.

[MissDenim]

Today was uneventful. It was another lazy day. I shouldn't have too many of these as it sometimes has me spiraling into a depression, but sometimes, because I do not have a job, it can't be helped. It helps to just take things day by day or hour by hour on a bad day.

I hope everyone is well.

[Unrigged64072835]

Crisis averted with the big freezer--needed to move stuff away from the top vents--but will still have to defrost in about a week. Since it will still be cold I think we'll manage.

So tired and sore from moving stuff but it's done for the moment. Took a long hot shower and a lot of Advil. Just hope I can still sleep.

See pnurse on Tuesday and pain management doc on Thurs. Don't expect any changes. Hope that it's otherwise a slow week so I can recover. Can't do too much anyway because we're low on funds.

With that I'm going to crash on the couch until it's bedtime. Good evening!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Feeling pretty agitated and freaked out. My mom is in the ER with a tooth infection that’s close to her brain. They’re doing a cat scan to see how far it’s gotten. She may have to stay overnight. If so I’ll have to go see her. I just feel very uncomfortable, like I want to rip my skin off. I wish I could see RS but I have to be available if my mom wants me to bring her something. Besides I can’t rely on him for every little thing.


I wanted to make some chili tonight and have RS come over for dinner but I’m not sure about that now. I don’t want to be In the middle of cooking and then have my mom call and ask me to bring her something.


I just need to calm down. I slept fine last night so I know I’m not getting hypo. I think it’s just worry over my mom. I’m sure she will be fine I just hope she gets to come home today. Staying in the hospital is no fun.

Oh no !! I had a friend go through that it all worked out but he was in the hospital a couple days. Hopefully your mom will be released today and no need to stay.

Glad your sleeping.

I think it’s natural to want to lean on RS , but I would keep it in Check a bit. You don’t want to burn him out , he likely needs time to really get a working knowledge of Bipolar and how it effects you and the relationship. I’m glad you found a nice guy

Chili sounds wonderful!

Let us know how your mom is

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

My DNA came! I'm 32% German 29% Norwegian 14% English 3%Scottish and various others, let's see,....Swedish, Baltic states, Eastern Europe so the verdict is whiter than white. The stories of their being Native American on my father's father side are just that stories. Must find out what my grandfathers real name was when he imagrated from Norway cause can't find his parents. But the Norwegian traces back to a specific town! It's all so interesting. No famous people, my people are farmers and woodworkers. Salt of the earth types.

So cool !!! I have really wanted to do this for a while now !!

Glad you did this !

[wildflowerchild25]

The agitated feeling passed relatively quickly. My mom is ok. She got some antibiotics but her blood pressure is really high so she has to follow up with her primary care dr. I have to try to get her to do that. She doesn’t usually go to the dr until something is really wrong, like she did with this infected tooth.

But everything’s ok. I took a nap so I’m not sure if I’ll sleep well tonight. But I couldn’t keep my eyes open. Hopefully I sleep ok anyway.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’ve been really exhausted lately, even on Ritalin. I do get stressed from time to time but I’m more concerned about this bone deep weariness. My family really needs me right now. Hopefully, things will lighten up soon and I can get some rest. I take mom back to the doctor on the 25th and she should be good to go then I’ll work on getting my brother to go IP. Unfortunately, it may be involuntarily. I really don’t want any part of that.


I hope everyone has a peaceful week ahead. Warm wishes and hugs to all.

You have a plateful

I hear you on the bone deep.

Hopefully your moms appt will go well and somehow your brother realizes he needs help.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Pdoc doubled my Wellbutrin on Friday. Am feeling spacey.

Was active in the morning. Rested in the afternoon.


Need to make myself get up to cook dinner, even though I don't want to at all.

Sundays are usually my day of peace. I have some alone time. This Sunday went by too fast!


I hope everyone has a good week!

Love to All!



WC

Hopefully you will adjust to your new dose quickly and will get to work on the depression your trying to be rid of.

I agree today is flying at light speed.

Make sure to be kind to yourself.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Crisis averted with the big freezer--needed to move stuff away from the top vents--but will still have to defrost in about a week. Since it will still be cold I think we'll manage.


So tired and sore from moving stuff but it's done for the moment. Took a long hot shower and a lot of Advil. Just hope I can still sleep.


See pnurse on Tuesday and pain management doc on Thurs. Don't expect any changes. Hope that it's otherwise a slow week so I can recover. Can't do too much anyway because we're low on funds.


With that I'm going to crash on the couch until it's bedtime. Good evening!

I have a refrigerator that pulls that crap too , I get furious about it but can’t afford a new one.

I hope the Advil helps and your able to rest your mind and body.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

The agitated feeling passed relatively quickly. My mom is ok. She got some antibiotics but her blood pressure is really high so she has to follow up with her primary care dr. I have to try to get her to do that. She doesn’t usually go to the dr until something is really wrong, like she did with this infected tooth.


But everything’s ok. I took a nap so I’m not sure if I’ll sleep well tonight. But I couldn’t keep my eyes open. Hopefully I sleep ok anyway.

Glad your mom is ok and hopefully she will agree to see her GP !

Hope sleep will come to you tonight.

[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone; I hope everyone had a good Sunday my morning was rather eventful in which an old coworker decided to call me to see if I could get her a job at my current clinic; practically begging me to give her a job. No thank you. R was laughing at the conversation, I finally hung up and blocked her; I don't need people like her in my life; afterwards I got dressed so I could go shopping with R, Auntie; the girls; and another friend which was nice.

Last night M brought dinner and I had my first actual meal that required chewing since lunch on Tuesday. I had a french dip and my cat got his tummy full of Prime Rib as did Bear. R enjoyed her date which I hoped she would granted it's awkward for me since she did go out on a date with my primary doc, and they both really liked each other so there is certainly another date in their future. M and I are getting really close to each other.

We stopped and got burgers after shopping and M just brought us dinner from my favorite Italian place and of course Tiramisu to split; it's nice being able to eat actual food even though I pretty sure the last two days have been the cheat days to end cheat days; French Dip and pie last night and Burger, fries, milkshake, a Italian Sampler platter and Tiramisu. The saving grace is I have been drinking water and cold Raspberry Green Tea instead of something like a soda. I just wanted actual food since it had been since Tuesday and I was craving a big fat juicy burger.

My jaw seems to be a lot better since a PA switched my antibiotics and I can actually open my mouth without wanting to cry; I'm pretty sure it would have been a lot easier had I not developed that infection. I swear is it too much to ask to not have something health wise happen every week.

Hugs to everyone