[Aurelius710]

Well, I found a job. Nothing too fancy, just a line cook position at a fast food place, but combined with some money I get for "rent", it'll tide me over. I'm still looking for a job that sticks to my skill set (mobile phones and cell contracts). It also means I don't have to worry about running out of money for necessities (food, meds, therapy) and/or relying so much on family to stay afloat. Then I can focus on school, which is it's own lovely situation, but I would have time to finish what I need to catch up on and stay in school for my final semester.

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by Aurelius710

Well, I found a job. Nothing too fancy, just a line cook position at a fast food place, but combined with some money I get for "rent", it'll tide me over. I'm still looking for a job that sticks to my skill set (mobile phones and cell contracts). It also means I don't have to worry about running out of money for necessities (food, meds, therapy) and/or relying so much on family to stay afloat. Then I can focus on school, which is it's own lovely situation, but I would have time to finish what I need to catch up on and stay in school for my final semester.

Good for you... congratulations on finding the job!

As you said it's not ideal but it helps keep your options open. Good on you for staying in school, it'll pay off in the long run.

[Blueberrybook]

Went running this morning, got groceries from curbside pickup, paid a fortune for generic Adderall with this crappy temporary insurance. Can’t wait until H has been at his job 60 days, and we get better health insurance.

I am afraid I might be getting a little sick. I am freezing cold now in jeans and a thick long-sleeved shirt, and we keep the thermostat at 75F. It’s a little chilly outside but not horrible. I have to wait to take my temperature. Stupid forehead thermometer never works for me because of a small bump on my forehead, so I have to use the old glass thermometer, but I have just drunk water. Pretty sure it’s a fever. Hopefully, Tylenol will take care of it.

Mood is so-so. I was out of Adderall for 2 days, wouldn’t think that would do it. IDK, maybe. I have been bad about remembering to take my anxiety meds in the afternoon, which includes Buspar and propranolol, Klonopin if I need.

Hugs to all needing them. Sorry not to be of any support lately, I am having problems with overexercise though my weight is stable once I rehydrate afterwards. I have gotten very compact in my build now.

[Wander]

7 am here and I am still feeling stable. Going onto my third day feeling this way. Yey! No swimming today. I need a rest, my hair is getting frizzy from the ocean water, and it is cold for a Southern Australian Summers Day. In fact the whole week is going to be like late autumn. Boo! Bring back the heat I say.

Nothing much on today which is good. Although I am having trouble sitting still and resting like I should. Think I will clean my bedroom. It is so cluttered as it is small, and it is like a storage room for my flat. I have a bike, two guitar cases, laundry stuff, wardrobe and dresser, and a lot of other miscellaneous items under my bed. I need to clean under my bed ( in case of spiders!) and that means taking everything out of my room to get under there. This is why it only gets done about once a year, usually when hypomanic.

[yellow_fleurs]

Feeling anxious and kind of freaking out a bit. I do think it is OCD thoughts possibly, but it is tough because I am having lots of shifting themes I cannot keep up with. So basically, not exactly paranoid, but have moments where I get scared enough I kind of feel like I almost am. It seems like if I mess up routine slightly, miss a little sleep or drink a little too much caffeine and I spiral into this state. I made myself get out and go shopping, do laundry and make dinner anyways. Unfortunately the anxiety took my appetite, but will try again later. Drinking a little wine, kind of hoping it will calm my anxiety, but also know that is a bad habit to get into. Going to try some meditation or something tonight. Also going to work on a craft. I have a tote bag to hand color with crayons.

[beauflow]

Joked around a lot today, and shared some info on thoughts with a good friend.. which realizing something with my family has me really wondering now... just amazing in a way to me.. genetics I guess. Signed up for the quit line too and asked for some patches, this is the first time I've done singing up on the quit line.
I feel pretty confident this time around, with a healthy amount of worried- been trying to make "game plans".
I'm crampy besides all that but they will pass

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by beauflow

Joked around a lot today, and shared some info on thoughts with a good friend.. which realizing something with my family has me really wondering now... just amazing in a way to me.. genetics I guess. Signed up for the quit line too and asked for some patches, this is the first time I've done singing up on the quit line.
I feel pretty confident this time around, with a healthy amount of worried- been trying to make "game plans".
I'm crampy besides all that but they will pass

When I was put on wellbutrin one of the side effects was I quit smoking. I woke up one day and couldn't take the smell and it tasted horrible. This was after 25 years of smoking up to 2.5 packs per day.

[wildflowerchild25]

Had an excellent day off. Slept in, took a nap, and still managed to get a lot of laundry done. Washed all the blankets, towels, sheets, and pillowcases in the house. Also washed my clothes for the week.

I didn’t get out of my pjs all day and it was glorious. I briefly considered going to the store but I opened the door to put the trash out and felt that 15 degree weather and noped the hell back into the house.

I got an appointment to see the pdoc I had seen a few years ago but the first available new patient appointment wasn’t until April 13th so I’m gonna see the guy I don’t really like until then as a holdover. He wasn’t bad, I’d just rather see the pdoc I already know and trust.

[Unrigged64072835]

Not much going on. Riding out the freezing cold temps.

Hope you all are doing good or at least holding on.

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Wander

7 am here and I am still feeling stable. Going onto my third day feeling this way. Yey! No swimming today. I need a rest, my hair is getting frizzy from the ocean water, and it is cold for a Southern Australian Summers Day. In fact the whole week is going to be like late autumn. Boo! Bring back the heat I say.

Nothing much on today which is good. Although I am having trouble sitting still and resting like I should. Think I will clean my bedroom. It is so cluttered as it is small, and it is like a storage room for my flat. I have a bike, two guitar cases, laundry stuff, wardrobe and dresser, and a lot of other miscellaneous items under my bed. I need to clean under my bed ( in case of spiders!) and that means taking everything out of my room to get under there. This is why it only gets done about once a year, usually when hypomanic.

It’s stinky hot here. We must be opposite sides of the country.
We’ve got a whole lot of midgies in the house. I think they’ve got confused in the heat.

[Lefty Seven]

I just sold a tansu which turns out to be infested with termites. The Oahu go-to tactical termicide fipronil, which exterminators advertise as safe as brown sugar, is so carcinogenic that it's been banned in China, a ten million square kilometer Superfund site. If China thinks it's dangerous, it must be very dangerous.



Fipronil



China

Meanwhile, I'm dealing with a conspicuous personal grooming crisis.

My eyebrows look like Brezhnev's:



Brezhnev('s eyebrows)

Which crisis should I address first?

[BeyondtheRainbow]

So it turns out that it is really hard to donate a body. You'd think it would be easy since there is so much need but oh no. I've spent 5 days on this and so far one place couldn't take him because of the tubes he has, another couldn't get a funeral home to work with them, a third doesn't work in that state and tomorrow I'll call what I suspect is the last option.

I'm tired and cranky tonight. My therapist helped but he'll be able to help more next week when I'm not trying so hard to keep it together. I need to do that right now more than I need to fall completely apart. there is time to fall apart and that is next week. He did approve of my going to say goodbye but said I should not go with m brother to the house if my brother does go as he insists he needs to. I'm just overwhelmed by not being able to find a way to donate. Donations are needed badly so it's hard to believe its nearly impossible to set up.

Oh well. Tomorrow I go to the city where my brother lives and then Wednesday is goodbye day. I have one thing I want to say and that's all I need. I just want to go, do it and come home. If my brother insists on going to the home that adds hours to the already long trip.

I want Wednesday over with. Badly.

[Sunflower123]

Whoo hoo!!!! It took five hours but he is safely IP where hopefully he’ll get the help he needs. In addition, my daughter randomly decided at 6:30 this evening to drive down since she doesn’t have classes Tuesday. She’s picking up Olive Garden on the way in. Can’t beat that for a nice ending to the day.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone; I hope everyone had a great Monday. Kidding it's Monday; I've never met a Monday I have liked. On the plus side the chart and med audits are finally done for last month. I sent doc to go shadow M again; I was very glad to have my office back and no one trying to change my music. with the audits being done this frees me up for my next project which is being in charge of updating the exam rooms since we did get approval to make things undated; which basically means I'm in charge of picking colors and getting things in order.

In relationship news I had a great time with his family yesterday and I invited him over for grilled chicken taco's. I'm still trying to eat healthly and I have lost ten out of the twenty pounds I wanted to lose. Thanks to the gym and not putting garabage food in my mouth. I feel like I'm in a healthly relationship and I just love spending time with him. He really is a great man and I am very lucky to have him in my life.

In other news; I have talked to the chat mods and I will be hosting a work chat this Sunday at 8 EST. So for those of you that are having work issues; I would love to see you all there.

Hugs to everyone

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by 251turnaround

I'm still really manic but not too far gone yet. I'm lucid still. I'm scared because my meds aren't working. I've called the pdoc and had them adjusted but they've yet to take effect. I feel euphoric and I'm buzzing. I'm so happy but it's a dark kind of happy. I don't like it too much.


Had a delusion last night but I used coping skills from this blog to help deal with it before it got out of hand.


It's getting harder though. I heard mumbles in the basement a little while ago.

Keep distracting while those increases start to help.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Anxious as.... took an anxiety attack in town has last 3 hours. I wish I had meds to relieve the pain I'm in

That must have been awful

I hope things settle down for good now.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Good day so far. Watched my son in a parade this morning he is in JROTC and they took part in a MLK parade.They made the parade voluntary because it was 47 degrees outside which is to cold for some of us Floridians. Went out to breakfast afterwards and shopping with the wife. Going to attempt to make salmon cakes for dinner this evening. Hope all are have a great day.

I grew up in Florida and 40 anything was to cold to me, but I hated summer which lasted to me 10 months out of the years.

Glad you and your son went out.

Dinner sounds yummy

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Whoo hoo!!!! It took five hours but he is safely IP where hopefully he’ll get the help he needs. In addition, my daughter randomly decided at 6:30 this evening to drive down since she doesn’t have classes Tuesday. She’s picking up Olive Garden on the way in. Can’t beat that for a nice ending to the day.


Warm wishes and hugs to all.

Wonderful news!!!!!!! He will come out feeling so much better

What a surprise from your daughter so enjoyable

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Meeting with my T in just a little bit.

How did it go ?

[rmayers]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

When I was put on wellbutrin one of the side effects was I quit smoking. I woke up one day and couldn't take the smell and it tasted horrible. This was after 25 years of smoking up to 2.5 packs per day.

I smoked for a long time ago and to be honest I couldn`t find the power which could help me. Then I read some books and have found some great articles on Migvapor and found the best way for me to quit - cold turkey. The way which has worked for me. Wish you to find the best for yourself. But do everything very consciously)

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

How did it go ?

It went well. She helped me realise that the major contributing factor to my downturn last week was inconsistent med compliance due to changes in our house. So I got all my meds back in the med box I was using before and will be more conscientious about taking everything I should. (There's more to it, but I don't want to go into it here.)

We also talked about an academic article I found discussing BPII.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by rmayers

I smoked for a long time ago and to be honest I couldn`t find the power which could help me. Then I read some books and have found some great articles on Migvapor and found the best way for me to quit - cold turkey. The way which has worked for me. Wish you to find the best for yourself. But do everything very consciously)

Hello rmayers,

Welcome to PC and to the Bipolar Forum.
I hope you find the information and the support you may be seeking.
Please do make yourself at home.
I hope to see you around the forums.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

It went well. She helped me realise that the major contributing factor to my downturn last week was inconsistent med compliance due to changes in our house. So I got all my meds back in the med box I was using before and will be more conscientious about taking everything I should. (There's more to it, but I don't want to go into it here.)

We also talked about an academic article I found discussing BPII.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Whoo hoo!!!! It took five hours but he is safely IP where hopefully he’ll get the help he needs. In addition, my daughter randomly decided at 6:30 this evening to drive down since she doesn’t have classes Tuesday. She’s picking up Olive Garden on the way in. Can’t beat that for a nice ending to the day.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

FANTASTIC!!!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

So it turns out that it is really hard to donate a body. You'd think it would be easy since there is so much need but oh no. I've spent 5 days on this and so far one place couldn't take him because of the tubes he has, another couldn't get a funeral home to work with them, a third doesn't work in that state and tomorrow I'll call what I suspect is the last option.

I'm tired and cranky tonight. My therapist helped but he'll be able to help more next week when I'm not trying so hard to keep it together. I need to do that right now more than I need to fall completely apart. there is time to fall apart and that is next week. He did approve of my going to say goodbye but said I should not go with m brother to the house if my brother does go as he insists he needs to. I'm just overwhelmed by not being able to find a way to donate. Donations are needed badly so it's hard to believe its nearly impossible to set up.

Oh well. Tomorrow I go to the city where my brother lives and then Wednesday is goodbye day. I have one thing I want to say and that's all I need. I just want to go, do it and come home. If my brother insists on going to the home that adds hours to the already long trip.

I want Wednesday over with. Badly.

Thinking of you.
Love and Prayers,
WC