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Originally Posted by tecomsin

I'm glad you have all these people supporting you. It's pretty common in psychotic illnesses for people to go through periods where they don't believe their diagnosis or need to take medication. That's part of what makes treating these illnesses long term so difficult.

I was just wondering why the experiences you have had can't be both intensely spiritual encounters and also symptoms of mental illness. Is it necessarily either/or?

My t shared the same question. I don’t have the best answer except to say there is such a HUGE divide in my beliefs and behaviors between when I am “well” and “unwell” that my very salvation is on the line.

[yellow_fleurs]

I stayed up too late, then woke up feeling weird so decided to go back to sleep. I do not like sleeping away the day, but I have become more self aware of when my thinking and brain just feel off, and sleep usually helps with that. I do feel better now that I slept more.
Got some breakfast at 2 pm (not before spilling old coffee all over the kitchen floor, but at least it wasn't the white carpet haha). Now going to finish up this paper once and for all. It will be a relief to get it done.
I am pretty sure my feeling kind of paranoid of people is not a true paranoia or psychosis thing and more of an anxiety type thing. Hard to be sure, but it seems self limiting if that makes sense, and it follows the theme of the obsessive thoughts I have about myself that might be OCD. Like a fear of what if I did something that could harm someone? gets projected onto others into what if they did something to harm someone? Wish I could get outside of my brain and see what's really going on. I feel both totally "fine" and not really fine at the same time. I hope I learn to be more self aware with time an learn what is going on in my brain.

[yellow_fleurs]

Brentus do you like seltzer? That can be a good alternative to soda if you get ones with flavors or infuse with fruit or add a splash of fruit juice. Just an idea

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Brentus do you like seltzer? That can be a good alternative to soda if you get ones with flavors or infuse with fruit or add a splash of fruit juice. Just an idea

That's a good idea ! I didn't think of that!

[Faltering]

I hope everyone is doing well and having a good weekend. I've been doing great! My mood and anxiety didn't really start improving until I started a thyroid medication in addition to Latuda. I wonder if that was the key for me. I like how my pdoc thinks outside of the box.

Originally Posted by Faltering

I hope everyone is doing well and having a good weekend. I've been doing great! My mood and anxiety didn't really start improving until I started a thyroid medication in addition to Latuda. I wonder if that was the key for me. I like how my pdoc thinks outside of the box.

I'm glad to hear your mood is improving! That's great news. Congats!

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Hope things are going well, and lots of love if they aren’t.

Couldn’t sleep last night. CPAP mask broke and I had to fix it in the dark. Then my brain was going off like one of those people at a party that kept on talking loudly even though I was more than ready to sleep. So I’m dragging now. Good thing was i used that energy for making a test garment and actually solved a couple of issues. Hopefully finish that tomorrow before cleaning and laundry. If I don’t sleep tonight I’ll call the clinic and hope I don’t get the pdoc who’s a jerk.

Night...

I restarted my Wellbutrin today. So far, nothing. My first reaction to it was immediate. It's not going to work. I know it. Been lying around all day except for taking my dog for a walk. Can't tolerate TV, music, Scrabble, nothing. Glad i don't have any demands. If i want to lie around til kingdom come i can. Wasting my life tho. Whatever. Feel weak and helpless.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I restarted my Wellbutrin today. So far, nothing. My first reaction to it was immediate. It's not going to work. I know it. Been lying around all day except for taking my dog for a walk. Can't tolerate TV, music, Scrabble, nothing. Glad i don't have any demands. If i want to lie around til kingdom come i can. Wasting my life tho. Whatever. Feel weak and helpless.

I hope it ends up working for you or you find something else that does.

Sometimes it just takes a little while to kick in especially when restarting a medicine. I think it's somewhat common when restarting a psych medicine that the effects are dulled or blunted in the beginning before taking real effect. I wish you the best of luck with your medicine!

My turkey dinner came out great, but it was a lot more stressful than I expected it to be. For one thing, my dad and brother arrived 40 mins early. I thought I specifically said to come by 4:30 pm, but they arrived at 3:50 pm. Also, my turkey took much longer than I expected and I initially put the thermometer probe in the wrong place thinking it was going to be ready far too early. Way wrong!

I was disappointed that my dad asked for alcoholic drinks. I hadn't planned to offer/serve any.

I'm beat and it's only 7:30 pm. Hubby and I did a lot of cleaning up. Thankfully hubby will finish up with the remaining dishes.

I looked at myself in the mirror wearing only undergarments. I have really packed on pounds. I have to do something serious about this. At the very minimum I need to lose 10 lbs. Ideally I should lose 20, and that's to just barely reach a normal BMI, though that is a reasonable weight for me.

[Wild Coyote]

Lost in space.

I believe my meds for bipolar are fine.

I am dealing with exacerbated trauma/PTSD/dissociation. No meds for this.

I am reading here. Having a lot of trouble with reading comprehension right now.

Much Love to All!

[Scooter9]

So it turns out my cat has skin cancer. The vet says he got it all but of course you never know if it has spread elsewhere.

I spent the day with my mother helping her with errands. She still needs the walker and is hopeful that she can go back to the cane in a few weeks.

I had a couple of bad days this week, mood wise. Maybe I'll feel better in the spring, which is not too far off at this point.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Lost in space.

I believe my meds for bipolar are fine.

I am dealing with exacerbated trauma/PTSD/dissociation. No meds for this.

I am reading here. Having a lot of trouble with reading comprehension right now.

Much Love to All!

Many hugs and supportive vibes coming your way. You are in my thoughts and prayers daily.

[yellow_fleurs]

Wild Coyote I am so sorry. I have been thinking of you. We care about you here. I hope you have a good therapist and other support as you deal with this.

[yellow_fleurs]

BirdDancer good job with the turkey dinner. That sounds like a lot of work!

[Sunflower123]

Good job.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

My turkey dinner came out great, but it was a lot more stressful than I expected it to be. For one thing, my dad and brother arrived 40 mins early. I thought I specifically said to come by 4:30 pm, but they arrived at 3:50 pm. Also, my turkey took much longer than I expected and I initially put the thermometer probe in the wrong place thinking it was going to be ready far too early. Way wrong!

I was disappointed that my dad asked for alcoholic drinks. I hadn't planned to offer/serve any.

I'm beat and it's only 7:30 pm. Hubby and I did a lot of cleaning up. Thankfully hubby will finish up with the remaining dishes.

I looked at myself in the mirror wearing only undergarments. I have really packed on pounds. I have to do something serious about this. At the very minimum I need to lose 10 lbs. Ideally I should lose 20, and that's to just barely reach a normal BMI, though that is a reasonable weight for me.

The fact you made an excellent turkey dinner with so many anxiety inducing issues coming up is fantastic! I'm glad you made it through, and hopefully enjoyed a little of it as well.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Lost in space.

I believe my meds for bipolar are fine.

I am dealing with exacerbated trauma/PTSD/dissociation. No meds for this.

I am reading here. Having a lot of trouble with reading comprehension right now.

Much Love to All!

Thinking of you.

Well I'm doing ok. But my son who is 23 and has psychotic disorder nos, is hearing voices again. It's a long story but I can tell. He missed some doses of his meds. He falls asleep before he takes his night meds and I have to wake him up.

Hes going to be starting college spring quarter. He's only going to be taking one class, to begin with. He wants to be an astrophysicist, he's very smart. But with his psychotic disorder, I don't know how realistic it is.

We will see I guess. Hugs to those that need them and want them.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by Wander

The peace has left me. I want to destroy myself. I am overwhelmed. I can’t cope yet I don’t want help. F******* weekend anyway so no T or pdoc. What can they do? My heart is broken. Don’t want to ask parents for help as they will panic. I guess I’m embarrassed too. I don’t think it’s an episode but it is intense enough to be very worried if I don’t calm down.

I am so sorry wander! Thinking of you!

[tecomsin]

Thinking of you WC.

Originally Posted by Scooter9

So it turns out my cat has skin cancer. The vet says he got it all but of course you never know if it has spread elsewhere.

I spent the day with my mother helping her with errands. She still needs the walker and is hopeful that she can go back to the cane in a few weeks.

I had a couple of bad days this week, mood wise. Maybe I'll feel better in the spring, which is not too far off at this point.

I'm so sorry about your cat. I hope they got it all too.
I love my cats and lost my cat midnight to diabetes a yr and a half ago. He was 15 and lived a good life tho.

I too am waiting for spring. I despise winter and we had a ton of snow in February. We are still like 15 degrees below our normal. Can't wait until spring! I feel ya! Hope your mood improves soon.

[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone and happy Saturday; I hope everyone is doing well this Saturday. I am alright; still at the boyfriends place making sure he's alright and making sure his dogs are taken care of. His dogs just love me even though I'm pretty sure they are confused as to why I have been sleeping over for the past 3 nights and why it is I who are taking them on walks. I think the poor pups are just confused.

Today M and I had another do nothing day; well for the most part I did have to run the grocery store and pick up a few things but even then I did it in a pair of leggings and when I got back we watched some Netflix and cuddled. I also made dinner since well we might have been um eating to much fast food the past couple of days because of work and other stressors. I also took the dogs to the dog park and let them burn some of the energy.

I hope everyone is doing well.

Hugs to everyone

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Lost in space.

I believe my meds for bipolar are fine.

I am dealing with exacerbated trauma/PTSD/dissociation. No meds for this.

I am reading here. Having a lot of trouble with reading comprehension right now.

Much Love to All!

Awwww, sweetie!!!! I hope things improve soon!! You are in my thoughts. Lots of