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#926
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The pdoc wanted me back in therapy ASAP, so I have an appt. on Sat. morning on the 16th. Maybe it will help. Pdoc seems to think it will at least help with the panic disorder and times I've had severe depression & constant losing of important things (cell phone, credit card, car keys). Stupid mixed, I can't concentrate on anything much lately.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#927
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Fibro still hasn’t flipped off yet ![]() I have another illness to add “ spinal stenosis “ go me !!! I have both physical therapy exercises for frozen shoulder too , ain’t nothing helping a thing. Hell to get old. I give you credit it’s not easy to split a Xanax in 4 pieces kudos !!!! I hate to see you go through so much hell just finding a job that doesn’t pluck you all up. If I didn’t have all the physical health problems I’d try to find something pt but I’m old and lack skills for stuff around here. I get so weary of life sometimes. But I keep waking up on the right side of the earth. My husband and kid would miss me. So there’s that. Try to go back to your old job , maybe something can be worked out ? Many : hug:’s
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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#929
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Please consider IP , I worry your going down a bad road and quickly. 6 hour shower ? Where were your kids or husband ? Did they not get you out of there just because no one takes a shower for that long ??? Worried about you ![]()
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#930
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I’m still cheerfully sui.
I don’t want to say what’s in my head because I don’t want to trigger anyone. I didn’t contact my pdoc yesterday because I didn’t want to. I’ve told my husband this morning what’s going on and he fed me some Seroquel
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Pookyl ———————————————————————————— BP1, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, Claustrophobia Psych meds: Saphris, Seroquel XR, regular Seroquel. PRN Diazepam and Zopiclone |
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The shower occurred in that time frame 7 years ago. I should have made that clear. I’ll go back to edit it. It was the middle of the night between 12-6. I had 2 kids at the time. They were both sleeping and I hadn’t slept in days. My husband was petrified but every time he walked in the bathroom I would get frustrated and insist it was the Holy Spirit and he must leave immediately. However, I have many times come to that shower as like a stepping stone. Either the Holy Spirit did some amazing things through me that night or I am mentally ill. It was so extreme that there is no one or the other.
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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#932
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Also, thank you so much! I am finding it increasingly hard to let go of things like the meds but I am really trying to have faith.
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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#933
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Take good care of yourself ![]() Please reach out for help if needed ![]()
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#934
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Is there a conflict between your religious beliefs and taking meds? Not really sure what this means to 'let go of the meds'?
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BP 1 with psychotic features 50 mg Lyrica 50 mcg Synthroid 2.5 mg olanzapine |
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#935
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I'm going back on the Wellbutrin. I filled the prescription today. $75 for a 3.5 month supply. My depression is more intense, like it was last time the W worked. Also, i'm due for my Spring hypomania, like i was prone to Fall hm last time too. So it could work.
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#936
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Hello everyone and happy Friday. I hope everyone is having a great Friday. Also Happy Women's Day to all the women here.
![]() We are both glad it's the weekend tomorrow and the plan is staying in and doing nothing this weekend; well besides maybe church. My kitty is still having a vacation at the parents and the twins are happy to be back together for a little bit; since I have been staying over at his place since he needs help. I miss kitty but at the same time I know he is glad to spend time with his twin; my dad has sent me many videos of the two monsters playing around so I am glad the kitty is happy with the family. Hugs to everyone ![]()
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Generalized Anxiety Disorder Depression Symptoms of PTSD Trintellix 10mg once daily Buspar 10mg three times daily |
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#937
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Spent the day with my daughter. She's doing a volunteer position for class work where she has to evaluate how various social services are helping or failing the MI community in her area. Then next semester she's attending a training for NAMI. Very interesting stuff. She has a much better handle on her BP than I did at her age.
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#938
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I feel like I’m not mentally ill. I feel like my episodes and experiences have been spiritual encounters. When I said ‘let go of the meds’ I actually meant letting go of control by taking them when I am scared of them, when I believe they are causing harm. My pdoc, t, IOP leader, and husband all told me I’ll go to the hospital if I stop taking my meds because of my current “delusional thinking”. I honestly haven’t doubted my illness for years but now, I just see so many miracles and can recognize the enormous power of the Holy Spirit inside me.
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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#939
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Hope it works well for you ![]()
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#940
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I feel that way with my daughter also , I was diagnosed at 43 out of the blue. .....her 3 months later. She didn’t have 40 years of shyt to process thankfully. My daughter is also writing a paper on mental illness and the lack of resources. My daughter has done so much in her community in Fl.... she was part of the back pack movement at her university.
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The peace has left me. I want to destroy myself. I am overwhelmed. I can’t cope yet I don’t want help. F******* weekend anyway so no T or pdoc. What can they do? My heart is broken. Don’t want to ask parents for help as they will panic. I guess I’m embarrassed too. I don’t think it’s an episode but it is intense enough to be very worried if I don’t calm down.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD ![]() "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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#942
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I was just wondering why the experiences you have had can't be both intensely spiritual encounters and also symptoms of mental illness. Is it necessarily either/or?
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BP 1 with psychotic features 50 mg Lyrica 50 mcg Synthroid 2.5 mg olanzapine |
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#943
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It's a nice day today. I did a lot of prep for my turkey dinner yesterday, so today should be easy. I also straighten up yesterday. All I'll need to do is clean up the kitchen while the turkey roasts. The bed needs to be made and a laundry basket of clean clothes put away. Maybe hubby will help with the kitchen. We're going to have turkey up the wazoo. Dad and bro will get plenty of leftovers to take home, but I'll still have too much. It's an 18.5 lb turkey.
On Monday I have my annual physical at my GP's office. At least some of my blood work will likely suck, especially my cholesterol. It's been a while that I've had high cholesterol. Diet and exercise are not happening. I'm going to ask for the statin. Maybe that may even be a motivator for me to improve the diet/exercise. |
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#944
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It’s getting harder to walk around. My left leg and foot is worse than my right. My left foot doesn’t lift up all the way. I’m considering getting a cane to balance myself. I’m worried about falling. I already ordered a shower chair, a grab bar, and a set of grabbers for myself.
I’m worried that I will be permanently disabled. I don’t want to be permanently disabled at 32. I want to be able to walk and play with my son. I’m hoping and praying that surgery will help. I am nervous about seeing my dr on Monday. I’m afraid he won’t refer me to surgery yet again even though I don’t think any injections are going to help with the numbness and tingling. That alongside the pain is what makes it so difficult to get around. It’s a gorgeous day outside and I wish I could go out and enjoy it but I can’t. I might go out and sit in the driveway at least. I am just scared. I’m terrified of surgery but I have no choice, I’m more terrified of being disabled for the rest of my life. I just want answers. At least the spasms have stopped.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#946
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Having a pretty good day. Leisurely cleaning house while watching a Monk marathon. Going out to Costco for groceries and Belk for some yellow box flip flops. I love that brand! They last forever and I get lots of compliments. Here in Tennessee with me being hot natured, I wear them practically year round even though I sometimes get strange looks. I have a friend who works there and gets them at a 20% discount.
When I went to visit my daughter it wasn’t a happy, feel good kind of visit. I went up there to line up resources for her and to see that she gets help (she did everything I asked). We’ve always been so close and she is usually a thoughtful, caring person but she has deteriorated with the depression. I felt unwelcome, unappreciated and uncared for. It’s like I lost my daughter and best friend. Since then I have researched therapists who specialize in mood disorders, anxiety disorders and the grief process. I’m going to work through my feelings so I can be there for her while not getting dragged down by her behavior. I’m also going to start building up other areas of my life. Thanks for letting me get that out. I’ve been hurting since that trip. Warm wishes to all for a peaceful weekend and hugs to all who need them. ![]() . Last edited by Sunflower123; Mar 09, 2019 at 01:19 PM. |
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#947
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Worried about you. |
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#948
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#949
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Everything is fine.
Except that I had to remove the new master bath faucets. They are not of her liking. Just because they're over a foot tall. Who has foot tall faucets in the master bath?. There. That's what I like 'em. And they cascade. However, I recon they look like some fireman equipment. You win some...... I'm still removing caulking. Cheers.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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#950
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Today is grocery shopping day. I hope I have the courage to not pick up soda. I drink a lot , and I mean A LOT of soda. I'm almost ashamed of it, but I'm cutting it out because of some weight gain. It's better for my health in general anyway.
Other than that -- I'm not feeling as elated as a week ago, I think that feeling is passing. It kind of makes me sad, because I'm afraid I may be headed back into my depression. It was nice while it lasted -- maybe I'll even out with the meds I have now and just feel OK. One can only hope. |
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