[Hopes]

Hi, I haven't been on here for a while because I can't seem to get outta bed due to my bipolar and ocd. I haven't been able to see a doctor in a few months now and I am not on meds because of this. My medications from b4 are gone and I wasn't ok when I was on them but I am really not ok now that I am on nothing. I am so panicky and very deeply depressed and obsessing like crazy....I feel hopeless and worthless and I literally feel it getting worse day by day. My husband says he doesn't judge me when I am like this but if he didn't then why doesn't he treat me better. I have 2 boys 9 and 11 years old and I love them so much and I love my husband very much but what do you do when you want to die and nobody cares about you! I can't care for myself and have been denied disability and I am in severe pain.
Help if any?
Hopes

[girlN]

i am so sorry you are feeling so terrible. it is hard to feel this way. have you taken zoloft? i know it can help OCD and depression. i wish there was some kind of magic word to make all the pain okay but all i can say is you have to go on for your boys if anything and you should call your DR. and look into all you options (med wise) good luck and i hope things turn around for you. Hugs and best wishes.

[Hopes]

thanks for the reply it is much appreciated

[drummergrl]

Hi Hopes!!!
Bet you feel like the icons above? Well, I think you're having some troubling "episodes" that need attending to right away. How come you got off your meds? If they weren't
working, you have to tell your pdoc and discuss changing them. It doesn't do you justice to go cold turkey thinking you
won't need them any longer. In fact, I don't know why you haven't had another bad episode???? I would. I use to quit
taking them after I felt better. I'd think, gee, I'm okay now I don't need them anymore. Phooey!!! little did I know the old
thoughts and habits come back ten-fold!!!! I was in worse
shape than I'd ever remember being in. Now I just accept
myself the way I am, take my meds. daily, and deal with it
day to day.
That's what you need to do for YOURSELF. When you start feeling better, your whole outlook will be better. Including your relationship with your family!! When mama's
not happy, ain't NOBODY HAPPY!!!!

Try it and see if that's something you can do for you. It takes
time for drugs to do their work, but it's better than the alternatives.

Good luck.
drmr

[msinfiniti]

I took Zoloft and it did wonders for my depression years ago. Just an fyi.

Hope you start feeling better.