Re: What to do after you lost everything due to your Bipolar actions.

Hi there.

Sitting at a dr office right now because I've hit rock bottom.
I lost everything. Divorced, my timesharing suspended, due to being unstable, I do have a job but have lost at least two. I am homeless at the moment and live in my car I just broke up with my bf and I've had atleast 7 addresses within this year.

I make wrong decisions when I am trying my best. (Sucks) I dont get along with people but I get along when I am of service to others. I have a big heart and my kids think i am the best mommy in the world and their friends do too. My ex husband has done everything he can to come between my children and I.

Today I had a court date I had not money to get there but had a phone confrance with the judge and he let me have it. I have to do 12 parenting classes and 8 therapy classes. I am a wreck so I dont blame him.

Ever since I got with my ex and then a long custody battle for almost 7 years I have not been the same. Mental abuse and going to court. I have been robbed most of my mommy hood. And possibility denial so i am here broke af and in debt and very sad.

Today is the day it all hit me like a truck. I'll find out soon here if I am indeed bi polor.
I am sure i am since I experience symptoms.

Hello Steffy: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. I'm sorry you have encountered so much difficulty. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the relationships forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/relat...communication/

And then here are links to 7 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of bipolar disorder:

Bipolar Disorder: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

Small Things I Do Every Day to Manage My Bipolar Disorder

The 4 Keys to Managing Bipolar Disorder

10 Small Steps You Can Take Today to Improve Bipolar Disorder

https://psychcentral.com/blog/bipola...self-loathing/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/the-bi...olar-disorder/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/top-te...dium=popular17

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

ok..so for right now things look kind of bleak....but...
you have a job. so there is cash coming in.
where do the kids live? are they in the car with you? can you try to get into a women's shelter? it may not be perfect but it is better then a car.

so you have parenting classes and therapy. honestly it could have been much worse. take those classes seriously. and then run with them. be the best you can be. not all great parents start out with great homes and tons of cash...but with love and what ever stability they can offer. your kids need to know you can keep them safe and loved.

it's time to get it together...if you are bipolar get the meds if offered and take them.

think about the decisions you are making...go slow. you don't need to be the best all the time you just need to make good solid careful decsions. think about the kids if they are with you. use you cash wisely.

you didn't say what the court case was for, but don't tempt fate. judges don't usually like that. they will offer to help but if you can't abide by their offer , well you might not get a second chance. your kids depend on this chance.

bipolar is not a death sentence. meds and the therapy and parenting classes could help you a ton. take the chance to improve and make the best. i wish you good luck.

Sounds tough

I am lucky that I was not homeless and got a lot of support but I hope you get a good therapist who can help you prioritize. When you hit rock bottom, you usually didn't land there overnight and will not come back in a day. Baby steps. Then you can build on it. That I was able to get disability for a couple of years gave me some time help that was an important part of my recovery.

Be gentle on yourself and read alot, consult a lot, really think about how to build a plan that might realistically get you into shelter, etc. Think about your weaknesses and be mindful that old habits sometimes die hard but getting ourself in a tough spot can motivate us to change. I have change a little, not drastically, but I have and also recognize when I am following into some of my nonhelpful patterns. It's not a straight path because life is complex when you have kids, work, a spouse/ex but you can improve. We can turn our shame (I do not know if you are ashamed, I was) into pride about being disciplined about making positive changes. Good habits can pay off and you can come back!

Are you seeing a psychiatrist or a different kind of doctor? I'm not sure if you are saying you have been diagnosed with anything, or what you mean when you refer to your bipolar actions. Is that what led to your being homeless?