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[Nammu]

Thanks @@

[Moose72]

OMG my freakin head hurts!! I hate migraines. Ie been taking tylenol all day yesterday and it finally just broke out horrible at 1 am (now). I need the ER- can't sleep at all- but there's probably 100,000 people in there with their body parts removed from fireworks. Ugh.

I want to read my book but i can't stand the light I need to read it by. Even the light on my cell phone is unpleasant.

I just called the after-hours number at the drs office. She gave me an appointment for tomorrow at 2:30 pm. Ugh. That's so loooong from now!- especially since its the middle of the night and I can't sleep. Since its not the worst headache of my life- quote- I don't need to go to the ER. Staying up the rest of the night won't be good for my bipolar but that's the least of my concerns right now, honestly. Not being able to sleep is one thing but not being able to sleep from constant severe pain is another.

[sadveiledbride]

Feeling like absolute ****. I should be asleep. There are things I want to get done. I don't want to be stuck in this state of mind anymore. "do something about it" not that easy, I can't just magically come up with coping skills. I am very sad tonight. Very blue, very down, very low are some words I would use.

[MidnightManiac]

Omg. Went to refill my prescription and the psychiatric nurse forgot to do it. I'm currently trying everything to get one today. I miss my pdoc. He passed away recently and I'm in between doctors, which is why I had to see a nurse this time instead, to check that I'm ok and refill my prescription.

On Monday I fill in as a manager at work so really can't afford a manic episode right now.

[downandlonely]

I hope you can get your prescription @MidnightManiac

[MidnightManiac]

Thank you @downandlonely, I managed! Had to call around and drop my mask so it would be sorted today. It went much faster than I thought, but then again, I pretty much called every emergency number until I found someone who would alert my psychiatric clinic to get to my message asap. I hate making a big deal, but it had to be done.

I'm relieved and grateful. ❤️

[Blue_Bird]

I got sleep finally thankfully! I feel so much better, yesterday was bizarre

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by MidnightManiac

Thank you @downandlonely, I managed! Had to call around and drop my mask so it would be sorted today. It went much faster than I thought, but then again, I pretty much called every emergency number until I found someone who would alert my psychiatric clinic to get to my message asap. I hate making a big deal, but it had to be done.

I'm relieved and grateful. ❤️

Very glad you got your prescription!

[Moose72]

Woke up without a migraine!! Cancelled my appointment.

[downandlonely]

Glad the migraine is gone @Moose72

[hopeless2015]

Today is 30 years that my Dad passed away. He was only 48. It's hard to believe that 30 years has already gone by!!

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Today is 30 years that my Dad passed away. He was only 48. It's hard to believe that 30 years has already gone by!!

My dad passed away at 48 too. It’s been nearly 22 years. Seems like forever and no time at all at the same time, right? Sorry about your dad. I know how precious dads are.

This is certainly a sad day considering the losses people experienced. My father called me a few hours ago telling me that his brother died today. I was not close to my paternal uncle, but it is particularly sad considering the struggles he had in his life, and the challenges his wife has had and will have. He was in his early 70s, so not so young as the fathers mentioned above. My dad is older. I worry this will affect him in a very negative way. My father was only in the psych hospital just weeks ago.

[wildflowerchild25]

Tomorrow is our housewarming party! I’m so excited. We bought all of the food and drinks today (including a pint of Captain Morgan for me &#129322. I’m so happy because my grandma is coming to see our house! She hasn’t driven to my town (she lives 45 minutes away) in a couple of years. But she’s coming just for me! She probably won’t stay long but I’m just glad to show her the house. It means a lot to me that she’s coming.

RS accidentally did a public event on FB so his whole family saw it and now we have about 30 people coming lol. I hope our neighbors don’t get mad! But it’ll be fine I’m sure. Not like we’re going to be playing super loud music or anything and it won’t go past 10pm. At least that’s when I’m kicking everyone out lol.

I buckled down and bought a juul today. My e cigs weren’t cutting it and I desperately want any to quit. Eventually I want to quit nicotine as well but I realize that I’m not ready for that right now. I haven’t had a cigarette since 2pm and it’s now nearly eight. I know that doesn’t sound like a lot but I was smoking a pack and a half a day. I would have had at least ten cigarettes by now. If I had been using my regular e cig I would have caved and run out to buy a pack. So this is progress. The real test will be tomorrow when I don’t have a cigarette to wake up to. If I can get through that I have a good chance of quitting.

Hope everyone has a wonderful and safe weekend!

[sadveiledbride]

Not much happening today. I feel sad and tired. Maybe I'll go to sleep early.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Today is 30 years that my Dad passed away. He was only 48. It's hard to believe that 30 years has already gone by!!

I lost my Dad in 97 from leukemia. Everyday I miss him just as much as the day of.

[~Christina]

Moose : I’m glad your migraine finally quit making life hell

Hopeless and Wild I’m so sorry you lost your Dads so young it’s just never easy.

BirdDancer: I’m sorry your Father lost his brother, I too would be concerned since he’s just out of IP. How are you holding up? Are you still enjoying your trip?

Wild .... enjoy your party!!! You are really working hard to stop smoking you will get there

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Hi everyone. I've been on vacation for a week and then trying to get over some kind of tropical virus I picked up there. I'm going to have to go to the doctor soon if it doesn't improve. It's getting old waiting for it to go away. I wasn't able to post while away because internet was terrible and then when I got home I had to get a new computer because mine died just before I left. I've been back online a few days but just haven't felt like posting.

But.....I had a great vacation aside from getting sick at the very end (yet not getting sick during our long travel day thank God). This was a long-awaited trip and I'm so glad we were able to enjoy it. I even jumped off a boat and tried snorkeling. I'm afraid of heights so jumping off was a big deal and I'm very proud of myself.

I'm so sorry for those who suffered losses, Tecomsin and Bird Dancer. and for those who are remembering those lost in the past. You have been in my thoughts.

[tecomsin]

I met a friend today who is a 12 Step sponsor for other people but for me we are mostly just friends. Today he told me he went to a nudist event on Canada Day where we live and then he invited me to go with him to another one. It creeped me out. He is also quite a bit older than me and married and I have met his wife. Today he was just complaining about her. Now I am wondering if I need to cut off that friendship too. This is making me kind of sad.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

I met a friend today who is a 12 Step sponsor for other people but for me we are mostly just friends. Today he told me he went to a nudist event on Canada Day where we live and then he invited me to go with him to another one. It creeped me out. He is also quite a bit older than me and married and I have met his wife. Today he was just complaining about her. Now I am wondering if I need to cut off that friendship too. This is making me kind of sad.

Oh goodness :0

That would be creepy to me. Does he normally talk about her?

[sadveiledbride]

I feel absolutely sick and disgusted with myself and those I choose to let into my life

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by sadveiledbride

I feel absolutely sick and disgusted with myself and those I choose to let into my life

I’m sorry your struggling so much Hope you find some relief soon.

Thanks, Christina. I will be sure to call my dad every day during my vacation to check on him. Luckily my brother lives with him and is a support. As for my vacation, it's actually been quite nice, considering. I just hope there are no more tragedies for a while...at least.

I understand the pain and grief of losing a parent. My family lost my mother about 15 years ago, when I was 33 years old. It was horribly sudden and unexpected despite her dying of bile duct cancer. Honestly, we didn't even really know exactly what took her until after she passed away. I had been very ill with bipolar disorder when she was unwell. So much that I was absent from her, in a sense, during that time. Her sudden death pushed me over the edge. I had 10 psych hospitalizations in three and a half years, soon after, plus at least a combined total of a year in psychiatric IOPs/PHPs. It definitely took time to start healing a bit. I know that the wound is never fully healed, but we must go on. I must emphasize that I was definitely not the only one in my family injured by the loss. Their stories of grief and injury are long and rough, too. My youngest nephew was also particularly affected. He never really recovered, despite his youth. As hard as it all is, time helps, particularly with continuing support. It must be processed.

Tecomsin, if you like this friend, perhaps you need only tell him that his invitation makes you uncomfortable. Perhaps he'll take that to heart and never mention such things to you again.

[Wild Coyote]

Oh Geez! So, my H did a lot of very despicable things. His behaviors and attitudes are causing this divorce. I did not do anything against our marriage, etc. However, I am being treated like I am to blame!!! Why would i choose this if I had a choice? So... he blocked all accounts, banking and otherwise. He is willing to leave me twisting in the wind.What did i do?

So we often hear about this, where the man has more economic power... and he tries to get control of all of the money. So, it is another sad day.

OMG! How archaic !!! just totally ridiculous!
He admits doing all of this, behind my back, yet again, and then he asks if i will help him with most anything. NO!!!

uggh! So very tired!
Hugs and love!