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Hy y'all. Yeah I lived in south Austin and a lot of stuff including my T was in north Austin. At first I didn't have a car and the express bus took forever, then I got a car! Boy was that freedom. In the beginning I'd try to take 35 and that's hopelessly blocked at all hours, then I tried the loop but I found using the bus routes was actually offen faster even though you have all those stop lights. It's a real headache going north and south.
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Evening anxiety is back. Why does it get worse in the evenings!!???? Can’t even watch tv for long. Sleeps been iffy as well so sick of relying on medications to sleep. I can’t remember the last time I made it through the night with no help.
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That's it, Lamar!
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I had to make myself turn off grey's anatomy. Im hooked- and there are so many seasons. Ive never really liked soap operas but this one pulls me in. Lol oh well- guilty pleasures.
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Still feeling well. I went for a haircut this morning and my hair dresser commented that I’m more well than he’s ever seen me so I must be doing ok. Lol.
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Glad to see the new thread. Just one I thought things couldn't get worse, they did and continue to. I feel like **** and I'd hoped to have better words to say. I don't and I don't know if I will or won't soon. Things aren't taking a turn for the better, they're taking a turn for the worse. Happy World Suicide Prevention Month, which continually makes me angry every year it comes around with the many people I see pretending to care. There are some who do and I am grateful for them. Makes me sick how others just don't give a **** about suicide prevention and only do it for some money grab. I'm not talking about on here. Other sites mostly. I am progressing into more irritableness and anger each day along with depression. Can't seem to get myself out of this hole I've seemingly dug myself in.
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I've had this 4 am or 4:30 am wake up thing going on for a few days, then having plenty of energy. For that reason, I told my pdoc yesterday that maybe my Seroquel XR dose should stay the same.
I confess that I did not realize it, but hubby said I was hypomanic since yesterday morning. That is a bummer since I felt great, but stable great and yet I was told I wasn't. I now guess my psychiatrist realized that, too, since he kept my next appointment two weeks from yesterday. I now recognize some of his reactions and statements that were leading. Yes, he sometimes asks me odd things or flips in odd statements to test my reactions. I definitely reacted, but only now "get it". Well, it's 4:30 am now. I have to go with hubby Philadelphia today for his eye appointment. Not now. At 1 pm. It takes about an hour to get there. I hate those appointments, but not Philadelphia itself. Maybe I'll go to one of the nice cafes nearby. I wish I could eat there. Instead, Hubby always wants me to quickly walk to the nearby Wawa for hoagies. I'm getting sick of hoagies! Not that I don't like them. Last edited by Anonymous46341; Sep 05, 2019 at 03:58 AM.. |
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I hope you can knock yourself out of the hypomanic state soon. It must be frustrating to be told you aren't stable. Have you asked your pdoc for a PRN med to knock you down so you don't crash? |
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I know it may seem like people pretend they care, but I think they genuinely do care. For example, I care about anyone on this site who is experiencing depressive or suicidal thoughts, even if I don't know them. I mean, I suppose it's technically possible that some are in for the money grab since I do not know any of them personally, but I don't think the majority of them are in it for the money. I think they care but maybe don't come across as caring? I think it would be rather selfish if people only cared about the money, and despite the fact there will always be bad apples out there, most people are genuine IMO. It takes a very sick, twisted individual to be in it for the money. Just my opinion. I hope you feel better soon. |
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Morning y'all
I'm just waking up. It's a lil after 7:30 here. I slept 7 hrs during the day yesterday and 8 hrs last night. The IOP T may not like that when she sees it. We have to document how much we've slept "since yesterday morning" on the daily risk assessment sheet, so I have to put down 15 hrs. Even with the sleeping, I got my homework done though. I have class this afternoon, after IOP. It makes for a long day, but both are easy and semi enjoyable. The time goes by kinda fast. Hope everyone is doing well and has a good day! __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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I had a long sweaty tossing and turning night of sleep with horrible and vivid dreams but I woke up feeling much better so the flu or cold or whatever it was seems to be mostly out of my system now.
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Glad you are feeling better but the sleep thing sucks. Maybe you had a fever breaking?
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Thanks, bluebicyle! I'm heading out soon with my hubby. I do have prn Seroquel IR I can take. I try not to take it unless things really look like they're escalating. I'll put some in my pocketbook.
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Did get some sleep last night, broken and full of dreams but real sleep! One of my dreams was full of a mass shooter killing people I worked with, that I could have done without but overall I feel good. Yay for sleep.
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I decided to buy a Roku Ultra 4K device because I was sick of the coaxial cable problem, whereby only 2 of the 3 coaxial ports can be active at any point in time. (One is being used by my router and the other is being used by my cable box in my living room.) Thus, I broke down and just purchased a Roku since I can stream Xfinity stuff on it over the internet and make recordings. Was $98 on Amazon and has expandable storage so I can record a crap load of stuff.
Should come tomorrow because I have Amazon Prime. Looking forward to setting it up. For now, I've been watching stuff on my living room TV and on my iPad mini. I'm actually surprised it works on my iPad because I got it as a graduation gift in 2013 and I figured it might be "too old" to get the latest OS updates. (I needed a minimum of iOS 10 in order to stream videos to it from Xfinity.) Anyways, doing well so far! I'm getting a lot of stuff done around the apartment and I'm getting stuff done at work. I'm just taking a break now because I'm running something on my work laptop that takes about 2-3 hours to run, so I can't use the laptop during that time. So, I'm cleaning up and using my personal laptop in the meantime. |
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