Bipolar check in #39

Well my rheumatologist agreed that Humira can cause the breathing problems. So for right now he doesn’t want me to start another med until my breathing goes back to normal, but if I get a psoriasis outbreak we will have to start something.

I have the Ultrasound on my liver tomorrow.

My Brothers Doctor is working to try and get something figured out. He truly needs the 24/7 antibiotic through a IV port. I’m still pretty frantic over it.

My sleep is really terrible think maybe 7-8 total hours in last 10 days.

I always tell my husband if he asks how I’m doing “ you don’t need to know it will just stress you out” well last night for a few reasons I told him a couple things and now he’s tripping the F out !

I really don’t need this and I flat told him “ this is exactly why I don’t tell YOU my Bipolar stuff” ugh I’m super annoyed and kinda rage-y about it which I really don’t need mentally right now.

But on a happy note.... my hair is now my natural white silver and has grown long. I can’t figure out how to change my pic on here ( clueless) but I get compliments all the time. My rheumatologist office staff are always so kind and fully admit they are jealous lol... It was nice to hear I needed something positive today.

Hugs and cookies ~ ( mine are boring unlike BirdDancers scrumptious looking ones )

It feels like things may be coming together for you medically, in that a plan was put in place and is being carried out. :


I hope your US tomorrow goes well, with an excellent out come.


Wonderful hair! Sounds beautiful!!!


Love ya!

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Thanks for this! I too will most likely have to have an endoscopy (if I ever get to the dr for my stomach pain) and I was very nervous. You made me feel better.

Yeah, it sounds scarier than it actually is.

They give you a "bite block" to bite down on. If you don't know what that is, it looks like this:



Yeah, looks kinky. But obviously that's how they keep your mouth open to prevent you from biting down on the small scope (which, btw, is twice as thin as a pencil).

Now that I think of it, though... I think my throat *was* a little sore because the GI dr applied some pressure when she put the scope down my throat (causing it to stretch a little), but my throat wasn't scratched/cut at all. My stomach and large intestine didn't hurt one bit, either. And believe me, I've had a nasal endoscopy FOUR times, and my nose hurt like a b**** from getting scratched every time. I know what getting scratched from a scope feels like.

The soreness of my throat went away in about 30-40 mins, I'd say, so... not a very long lasting effect. It just feels like you've coughed a bunch of times and have a sore throat. You may actually cough, too. But it goes away so fast that you forget about it.

Well my rheumatologist agreed that Humira can cause the breathing problems. So for right now he doesn’t want me to start another med until my breathing goes back to normal, but if I get a psoriasis outbreak we will have to start something.

I have the Ultrasound on my liver tomorrow.

My Brothers Doctor is working to try and get something figured out. He truly needs the 24/7 antibiotic through a IV port. I’m still pretty frantic over it.

My sleep is really terrible think maybe 7-8 total hours in last 10 days.

I always tell my husband if he asks how I’m doing “ you don’t need to know it will just stress you out” well last night for a few reasons I told him a couple things and now he’s tripping the F out !

I really don’t need this and I flat told him “ this is exactly why I don’t tell YOU my Bipolar stuff” ugh I’m super annoyed and kinda rage-y about it which I really don’t need mentally right now.

But on a happy note.... my hair is now my natural white silver and has grown long. I can’t figure out how to change my pic on here ( clueless) but I get compliments all the time. My rheumatologist office staff are always so kind and fully admit they are jealous lol... It was nice to hear I needed something positive today.

Hugs and cookies ~ ( mine are boring unlike BirdDancers scrumptious looking ones )

Not sleeping great, still/yet. Even if I am tiired, my mood is better. At times, I do feel on the edge of depression. I want to avoid depression, mine are do severe and last so long!
So far, i've been brought out of depression by Mirapex. I have had to observe myself and make quick med adjustments with Mirapex. I also must watch for any obsessive-compulsive behaviors.

These behaviors may be just fine, depending upon the effects upon one's life. I'd like to become an obsessive housekeeper! Lol!
I have company coming over the holiday. I need to get some things done/ready/etc. I have a guy coming this morning to shampoo the (white) carpeting in the front staircase and related hallways.
I will have more done with carpeting after the holidays.

I have found a "handyman!" He seems like a very nice guy! A little expensive, but it is the going rate around here.

"Just say NO!" Many of you may recall how strung out I was over the holidays. You might recall I was doing a lot of work without help from any of the 28-32 guests. I was feeding. I was fed up long ago; yet, had kept doing it for my mother. My mother has never gotten an invite from her other children on a holiday.. Many know my mom turned 80 y.o. this year. She also has some additional health issues. this year. I have put my foot down and have finally said I am done doing this for everyone. I have had a rough year myself, on top of assisting my mom.. I have compromised so my mom will get to see her grandchildren, I hope. People are invited to stop in for dessert and fun and games after 2 PM.

If you plan to stop in, just let me know 5 days ahead, if possible. I must give Bird Dancer a count so she will have some idea as to how many deserts to make.

I remain hopeful for a Happy Thanksgiving!

Oh and I am picking at my skin more again. It's gross, I know. I just keep around hand sanitizer to use when I catch myself doing it.

On a positive note I went to the gym yesterday and cooked dinner for myself today. Vegetarian "beef" and broccoli with teriyaki sauce.

Sorry, I know this post is all over the place, like my brain right now. Sending compassion!

@BirdDancer: You said your dad was "making a statement by sleeping in the chicken coop." What on Earth was the statement saying? Haha, funny story tho i'm sure it wasn't fun to live thru, your dad's absences.

Not sleeping great, still/yet. Even if I am tiired, my mood is better. At times, I do feel on the edge of depression. I want to avoid depression, mine are do severe and last so long!
So far, i've been brought out of depression by Mirapex. I have had to observe myself and make quick med adjustments with Mirapex. I also must watch for any obsessive-compulsive behaviors.

These behaviors may be just fine, depending upon the effects upon one's life. I'd like to become an obsessive housekeeper! Lol!
I have company coming over the holiday. I need to get some things done/ready/etc. I have a guy coming this morning to shampoo the (white) carpeting in the front staircase and related hallways.
I will have more done with carpeting after the holidays.

I have found a "handyman!" He seems like a very nice guy! A little expensive, but it is the going rate around here.

"Just say NO!" Many of you may recall how strung out I was over the holidays. You might recall I was doing a lot of work without help from any of the 28-32 guests. I was feeding. I was fed up long ago; yet, had kept doing it for my mother. My mother has never gotten an invite from her other children on a holiday.. Many know my mom turned 80 y.o. this year. She also has some additional health issues. this year. I have put my foot down and have finally said I am done doing this for everyone. I have had a rough year myself, on top of assisting my mom.. I have compromised so my mom will get to see her grandchildren, I hope. People are invited to stop in for dessert and fun and games after 2 PM.

If you plan to stop in, just let me know 5 days ahead, if possible. I must give Bird Dancer a count so she will have some idea as to how many deserts to make.

I remain hopeful for a Happy Thanksgiving!

To change your picture (avatar, the profile pic is something else). At the top left go to My profile, scroll down to edit avatar (which is under settings and options). At the bottom of the page it tells you how to upload your new avatar and then I assume you have to select it at the top and then you're good to go.

Sounds pretty humanitarian. All this info you're sharing is very reassuring.


I can't sleep so I'm up, watching The Advengers and lurking on PC

Not sleeping great, still/yet. Even if I am tiired, my mood is better. At times, I do feel on the edge of depression. I want to avoid depression, mine are do severe and last so long!

So far, i've been brought out of depression by Mirapex. I have had to observe myself and make quick med adjustments with Mirapex. I also must watch for any obsessive-compulsive behaviors.


These behaviors may be just fine, depending upon the effects upon one's life. I'd like to become an obsessive housekeeper! Lol!

I have company coming over the holiday. I need to get some things done/ready/etc. I have a guy coming this morning to shampoo the (white) carpeting in the front staircase and related hallways.

I will have more done with carpeting after the holidays.


I have found a "handyman!" He seems like a very nice guy! A little expensive, but it is the going rate around here.


"Just say NO!" Many of you may recall how strung out I was over the holidays. You might recall I was doing a lot of work without help from any of the 28-32 guests. I was feeding. I was fed up long ago; yet, had kept doing it for my mother. My mother has never gotten an invite from her other children on a holiday.. Many know my mom turned 80 y.o. this year. She also has some additional health issues. this year. I have put my foot down and have finally said I am done doing this for everyone. I have had a rough year myself, on top of assisting my mom.. I have compromised so my mom will get to see her grandchildren, I hope. People are invited to stop in for dessert and fun and games after 2 PM.


If you plan to stop in, just let me know 5 days ahead, if possible. I must give Bird Dancer a count so she will have some idea as to how many deserts to make.


I remain hopeful for a Happy Thanksgiving!