[bpcyclist]

For those of you who have occasionally been psychotic, do you ever become depressed at about or at the same time?

Just wondering, as I have been dealing with this psychosis stuff for quite awhile, but in the last few days, my daytime hours have really had some experiences quite similar to my old, big-time depression. So, still intermittently psychotic but also fairly depressed right now.

Have others ever had this type of thing? It's been pretty hard to get through my days lately.

I've been depressed and psychotic at the same time. Not fun. I'm sorry you've been struggling so much lately and I hope you get a break from all this soon

[wildflowerchild25]

I actually get most of my psychosis while depressed. One time I was so depressed that I was convinced my brain had split in two with one half actively trying to kill me and the other half desperate to stay alive. The bad half forced me to look up suicide methods, like aggressively research them. But the good half kept me chained to my couch so I couldn’t go get the necessary supplies. It was scary as hell.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Yes while its neither a full psychosis or a full depression I felt pretty depressed after finding out my mom had stage four cancer had a few hallucinations and same thing upon finding my sister had stage four like a couple years later....even had a visual. Wouldn’t say I was blatantly psychotic but just a few blips hallucination wise and no delusions.

I was told I was psychotic during two severe depressions. The psychosis led to hospitalizations. I don't remember them. I'm unsure if I ever did.

I have most often had psychosis during manias, especially manias with mixed features. I remember a little bit of that time. Other details were lost. Some minor details were shared with me. I read a little in hospital records, but many records are vague. Some were clearly traumatic, which likely contributed to the amnesia.

I can't relate when people write that they are "currently" psychotic. I can relate to some insight when psychosis comes and goes within short periods, but not while it's happening.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Yes. I was while ip at Christmas and New Years.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by spikes

I've been depressed and psychotic at the same time. Not fun. I'm sorry you've been struggling so much lately and I hope you get a break from all this soon

I am sorry you had to deal with this.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I actually get most of my psychosis while depressed. One time I was so depressed that I was convinced my brain had split in two with one half actively trying to kill me and the other half desperate to stay alive. The bad half forced me to look up suicide methods, like aggressively research them. But the good half kept me chained to my couch so I couldn’t go get the necessary supplies. It was scary as hell.

Awful--just an awful experience.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Yes while its neither a full psychosis or a full depression I felt pretty depressed after finding out my mom had stage four cancer had a few hallucinations and same thing upon finding my sister had stage four like a couple years later....even had a visual. Wouldn’t say I was blatantly psychotic but just a few blips hallucination wise and no delusions.

Glad that was not full-blown at least. I am very sorry about your mother and sister. So difficult. Sending you comfort and peace.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I was told I was psychotic during two severe depressions. The psychosis led to hospitalizations. I don't remember them. I'm unsure if I ever did.

I have most often had psychosis during manias, especially manias with mixed features. I remember a little bit of that time. Other details were lost. Some minor details were shared with me. I read a little in hospital records, but many records are vague. Some were clearly traumatic, which likely contributed to the amnesia.

I can't relate when people write that they are "currently" psychotic. I can relate to some insight when psychosis comes and goes within short periods, but not while it's happening.

Very interesting. I am also usually psychotic and manic at the same time, it seems. But I definitely do not lose my memory function, certainly not all of it, when I am psychotic. I have been psychotic so many times that I am now most often aware when my judgment is slipping and I am losing my grip on reality. I am definitely aware, but that does not make it any easier to deal with and it does not stop it from happening. Being aware on some level that something bad is happeneing does not stop those bad things from happening, sadly.

I get psychosis no matter what, it seems. But yeah, I definitely get depressed with psychosis here. It's pretty frustrating when that happens for me, so I feel for you.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I get psychosis no matter what, it seems. But yeah, I definitely get depressed with psychosis here. It's pretty frustrating when that happens for me, so I feel for you.

Thank you, blue.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Very interesting. I am also usually psychotic and manic at the same time, it seems. But I definitely do not lose my memory function, certainly not all of it, when I am psychotic. I have been psychotic so many times that I am now most often aware when my judgment is slipping and I am losing my grip on reality. I am definitely aware, but that does not make it any easier to deal with and it does not stop it from happening. Being aware on some level that something bad is happeneing does not stop those bad things from happening, sadly.

I seldom lose my memory function while manic and psychotic, either. It has happened, but rarely. I'm almost always aware of psychotic perceptions, which is why I struggle with them. (What if this is real and not a psychotic symptom? How do I know I'm not seeing/feeling/hearing something that is normal, but that most people just don't experience or are not aware of? And on and on and on.)