The cool insomnia club #2

Finally fell asleep at 230 or so. Got maybe 5 not great hours, but it is something. Very grateful. I do find that when I live with gratitude for whatever I do have that is positive, that I do much better than when I focus on what I lack. Whcih is much.

I’ve been getting 3-6 hours of sleep for the past 2 weeks and it’s really been taking a toll on me emotionally, and physically. I need to drink large amounts of caffeine during the day to help me stay awake and keep my anger in check but the caffeine then causes massive anxiety. I’m sure my sleep is why I have been feeling so awful lately. I’ve been up since 11:30 last night.

Hello darkness my old friend.

I think I may be boarding the hypo train, hopefully I can avoid mania.... My knockout meds (which incidentally is an AD) stopped working yesterday after only being on them for a week...

I'm toying with the idea to let it flow and go along for a short ride (or nip it in the bud and just take the AD every other day to get off the train tracks.... )

It's hard because I've been depro for nearly 4 months so this is realllllly tempting.

Pretty solid sleep last night. Grateful.

Lia...............

Hypo is a beautiful shiny land full of puppies, kittens and bunnies, colors make sound and taste good..

But there is the mania that might happen and climb you right into hell then the crash and burn.

Maybe ask Parker about decreasing the dose or even going every other day?

I know that you have had months and months and freaking months or depression hell.

My Advice Sis is back away from the pretty lights, Ask Parker about changes in the meds and see if that helps keep you more Level.. Check the half life on the AD so you can present that info to Parker to show him that something has got to change

Love ya

I just got done with a 5 day IP stay. I barely slept the entire time I was there - the nurses were amazed.

I actually got home last night and slept like a rock in my own bed. I'm hoping to make it two nights in a row.

Very Happy that you were able to get some fantastic sleep

I'm crossing all my body parts that tonight is another successful night

Up with idiots blowing up illegal fireworks and with my poor terrorized old cat. Oh, and my foot itching under my cast, which I could swear is made of concrete. It'll be a month on Wednesday and I'll get the cast off and transfer to a "boot." At least I'll be able to shave my leg.

Ohhhhhhhh Beth getting that cast off is going to make you feel like a brand new woman

Meh ! couple hours very broken..

Same ole same ole. I go to bed between 11:30 and midnight, read a bit and then play toss and turn until dawn. Just getting a few hours in. My eyes are dry and itchy as a result and it's hard to read. No remembered dreams for several days, am due a big supersized techno colored dream any day now!

I had a snack of scrambled eggs and cheese at 3am before I went to sleep, and then I was wide awake by 7:30am (unhappy about it) needing to clean something... Also I am now smoking like a chimney which is bad for my budget as cigarettes are now considered contraband and is super expensive if you can find them.

To skip or not to skip , to ingest or not to ingest my AD, that is the question.

I'm having sOOOO much fun tho guys! I bought this really cute coral and black jumper and silver eyeliner!!!!!

Hehe for those of you who don't know me, my clothing colour pallette ordinarily consists of black grey and navy... When I do buy bright colours I normally give them to Jordan after a few months. I don't hear her complaining!!!!

Bwahahaaaaa

14 hrs. with kitten on tummy...

Lia .. As always I demand a Pic of this outfit and silver liner??? I know that is gonna make your eyes pop ! Yeah Jordan will benefit LOL

Your country and the decision to knock cigs to the black market is retarded , but Hey Shes raking in Millions

Maybe split AD in half??? could be a happy medium? I dunno can you call Parker Monday am and ask him ??

I just dont wanna have to paddle to you and glue you back together unless it includes fruity drinks with umbrellas on the beach...But then hey

Sleep is a nasty 5 letter word right now

Wow, I slept well last night. I woke only once around 3am but was able to fall back asleep. Who ha what a difference it makes. My eyes are not all gritty. Barely remember the dreams tho, sometiing about a colorful bus and war veterans getting books that came in white paper, like candies. And shopping at target.

I only got a few hours last night. According to FitBit I didn't sleep at all.

Nammu .... I am soooooooooooooo Happy for you

6 hours, pretty typical, then, Albert started licking my cheek...

Won't need to call Parker, he trusts me to tweak, so I think I'll take your advice and half it.

Although I won't mind some fruity drinks with umbrellas.

Will model for you and text you a pic.

Nada last nt. Maybe aftrn. nap...

Much LOVE to ALL

I slept really well last night. Dreamed of being on a big spaceship, earth built. It had walls and wall of old timey computers with wheel tapes and tons of dark green cords connecting it all. The commander was a woman in her late 30's with blondish hair. There was a tech who looked like an elf. And just before I woke up we were given a communication from command that we would have to pay for candy and gum.

I spent 5 days inpatients - and barely slept. However, since getting home last Wednesday I have been sleeping very well.