The cool insomnia club #2

Polibeth · Jul 16, 2020, 04:25 AM

My mom used to find me awake and do the same thing

When I was recently IP I drove the night nurses crazy because I didn't sleep. They all thought it was strange but my pdoc told them it was normal for me.

*Beth* · Jul 16, 2020, 08:50 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Beth.. Well Yes 2 doses, I honestly just take 2 big swigs outta the bottle... and I immediatly go laydown, A few times I have take another swig but no more and I like my Kidneys and Liver too much to risk it. I tried the ZzzzQuil it didnt even give me a long blink.

Gah, my ZZZQuil just arrived...well, if it doesn't work tonight it's onto NyQuil for me.

The only time that I actually got a pretty consistant amount of sleep daily. I was on 800 mg Seroquil and either Xanax or Valium.. But well the Seroquil caused weight gain and it began to fade with sedative side effect in 4-6 weeks. I have Seroquel here of all doses, Zyprexa, Abilify, Thorazine, Haldol,and probabaly 5-10 more

That's the biggest problem. Nothing I've found works for more than a few weeks - or a few nights. Like melatonin. Pfffft. Stuff worked for 2 nights, then it was like swallowing water.

So I have a large amount of meds that I can try.. Nothing works for me for more than a couple weeks so I seldom take them. I need them when I am on day 4-5-6 of no sleep.. It sucks, alot

Yeah, that's what I do. Not sleep until I'm collapsing, then taken just about anything that might slam me to sleep.

I remember being young 7-8 years old? My Mother would find me awake in the middle of the night and whoop my azzzzzz over it.

Aw, I'm sorry. That's rotten, rotten. My mother used to threaten

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to kill me if I went to sleep because of her belief that I hated her. I was 8, for pete's sake. She was mentally ill, sometimes an angel, sometimes completely whacked. She's been dead for 14 years, but I still hear her as I'm falling asleep...anyway...why we're here...

Even years later my brain is just afraid to fall asleep but thats due to my csa, I had one of those "Uncles" So honestly altho all that I have processed. My T Richard and my Pdoc think that my overwhelming fear from the PTSD will always be a factor and ill probably not ever get sleep daily. So I take what I can and if need be snow myself totally under.

I understand, all too well. My so-called "step-father" was my Lester the Molester. Oh...the shite that kids go through.

Now with My Husband having more health problems I am finding sleep harder to find.. But I do what I can when I can ..

Hope your able to find sleep

Thank you, sweetie. You, too.

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~Christina · Jul 16, 2020, 09:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Polibeth

My mom used to find me awake and do the same thing

When I was recently IP I drove the night nurses crazy because I didn't sleep. They all thought it was strange but my pdoc told them it was normal for me.

Im so sorry that happened to you too

~Christina · Jul 16, 2020, 09:38 PM

Im sorry Beth that you also went through hell because of Childhood terror. My T Richard says even once we can process that abuse for almost everyone they are left with life long insomnia for fear of XYZ is going to happen if we do go to sleep, Mostly we arent able to get the deep restorative sleep that comes so easily to others.. My Husband climbs into bed we might chat for a couple mins, He rolls over and he literally is snoring in 5 mins.. I am so jealous.

You might want to ask your Pdoc about Seroquel to use as a prn, last ditch " Omg I HAVE to get some kinda sleep" deal.

Hope you can find something that helps you !

*Beth* · Jul 17, 2020, 01:43 AM

Yeah, so much for the ZZZQuil. Useless stuff, unless I'm dreaming that I'm writing this post

Christine, I think I have to ask her for a low dose of Seroquel. I'm desperate. Finally falling asleep at 11a.m. then sleeping until 1p.m. is ridiculous.

Mountaindewed · Jul 18, 2020, 11:25 PM

Yesterday morning I woke up at around 6:30 and immediately thought “ugh I can’t get up right now.” Then I fell back asleep until 8:30. Now I’m wide awake at 12:24 and I haven’t tried going to sleep yet. I’m in bed though. I’m kind of hungry for snacks.

~Christina · Jul 19, 2020, 10:48 PM

Few hours last night.. I have decided come fall and I can open the windows I'm painting my bedroom .....the current color is fine I am jut sick of looking at it.. I'm thinking like a Caribbean blue????

Jul 20, 2020, 01:34 AM

The plan for tonight was to take some Ativan and go to sleep. Well, it's 2:30am and I'm wide awake! I normally have no problem falling asleep around 10:30pm and wake up around 7am but these past few days I just wake up earlier and earlier and tonight just absolutely nothing.

Nammu · Jul 20, 2020, 06:10 PM

I woke up from a nightmare last night. After I woke up it was hard to shake the fear, so I got up and checked all the doors. Come to find out that the doors weren’t locked!

~Christina · Jul 20, 2020, 11:57 PM

Nammu

Sucky dream but I am glad you woke up and locked everything up tight !

I have to follow behind my husband sometimes and lock doors, I mean we live in the country and no one has ever come out here that has no reason too. But its a habit I had living in Florida that doors need to be locked especially at night.

Hope tonight brings you a pleasant dream and lots of good sleep

~Christina · Jul 21, 2020, 09:18 PM

Well Im snowing myself under big time, I cant take anymore, Ambien and Xanax are my best friends tonight

Hope everyone sleeps well tonight

Mountaindewed · Jul 22, 2020, 04:39 AM

I went to bed around 9:30. I took a Tylenol and fell asleep fairly quickly. I woke up at 2:30 in a massive amount of pain. So much for hoping it will be gone by the morning. I got out of bed 1.5 hours later and I have Growing Pains on now but I’m not paying attention to it.

Crazy Hitch · Jul 22, 2020, 05:05 AM

Well I've gone from getting out of bed for the day at 12:30am to now getting up at 3:30am. I'm quite proud of that

Nammu · Jul 22, 2020, 10:27 PM

Hope you got some good sleep Christina. I’m in a funk. I still go to bed at the same time but don’t fall asleep till after 4am, then I don’t want to get up in the morning! Dreams, they deserted me. I miss my colors and freedom.

Mountaindewed · Jul 23, 2020, 12:12 AM

Been up since 2:30 yesterday morning. I had no idea cysts and other similar stuff hurt this badly. I’m trying to figure out if I need to go to the ER in the morning. The immediate care doctor did say to go if it got worse. I haven’t eaten anything but a pack of pop tarts since Tuesday night. I’ve tried a few rounds of antibiotics, a couple doses of Tylenol, and a sitz bath. And barely any relief. Right now the pain is terrible. I think I can take another Tylenol right now though it’s been about 6 hours.

~Christina · Jul 23, 2020, 08:21 PM

Im sorry your hurting Mountaindewed , I hope you find relief soon.

~Christina · Jul 23, 2020, 08:23 PM

Well I did sleep.. I kind of think I am just going to snow myself under with Ambien and whatever nightly for a few weeks.. Im just ready to break.

Nammu · Jul 23, 2020, 08:24 PM

I hope it helps you are due a huge break.

bpcyclist · Jul 23, 2020, 08:43 PM

Been up for 37 hours. Not even sleepy. Word.

~Christina · Jul 27, 2020, 03:00 PM

Well ! I had many days where I got some sleep. Ambien and Xanax slugged sleep but chemical sleep better than no sleep.

I am stopping the ambien now, I need something for when I go 4-5 days with zero sleep

Even Chemically slammed for sleep I still have a few recurring nightmares they come from CSA/PTSD so that stuff will never go away but Id like it to not be almost every single night.. Ughh!

I did have an odd dream about finding a puppy in the middle of the road, which isnt that odd, considering I live in the middle of no where and terrible people drop animals small and large all the time anywhere they can throw them out the door or window....., well I brought it home and my husband insisted it was a ground hog and I kept saying no it was a puppy .. seemed to go on for hours and hours ! oh and the puppy was emerald green

bpcyclist · Jul 27, 2020, 03:29 PM

Still just sleeping whenever I can. Was up for 36 hrs when I saw those demons or whatever. Sleep big for me.

Fuzzybear · Jul 28, 2020, 02:24 PM

I am also sleeping when I can (it is grrrrrr.....)

Polibeth · Jul 28, 2020, 06:57 PM

I've only been sleeping thanks to a benzo. Started a new job and struggling plus I have to get up early to get there.

~Christina · Jul 28, 2020, 07:02 PM

I need my Xanax to even maybe get sleep or at least let me lay down and rest my body for 4-5 hours ... sucks

Do you like your new job ?

bpcyclist · Jul 28, 2020, 07:46 PM

Had one hr. basically of sleep in 38 hrs. Wide awake. No sleep med will make me sleepy, not even Thorazine. Only hi-dose Depakote. Prolly hafta do that manana.

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