[Miss Laura]

Hey guys a few of you wanted me ti do a check in with you guys as im still med free and im currentky on week 11 or 12 o forget.

I am doing great...

1. Hypersexual
2. Insomnia 2 hours a night
3. Talking to LOTS of guys I have forgotten who is who
4. Amazon and Ebay baskets are £200 plus
5. Being sexual on camera
6. Sending naughty pics, text
7. Guy has came to my flat he was here fir 7 hours on Friday 21st Aug

I think that's all....

I am doing great and I feel like this has been the best week of my life

[fern46]

Thanks for checking in. You are at the top of the roller coaster and while it feels great, this is a dangerous update. You are exhibiting all of the classic signs of mania. Your behavior is self destructive. Please consider calling for help.

Keep checking in. I hope you have a safe and soft landing when you come back down.

[Miss Laura]

I am seeing my Peer Support Worker tomorrow face to face, my Therapist on phobe on Wed and my CPN Community Psychiatric Nurse on Thurs face to face.

Honestly not felt so liberated in years

[fern46]

That's great you'll be checking in. Freedom is great, but it can be like an anchor later if you end up doing things you're shameful or regretful of. Try to keep that in mind while you enjoy yourself.

[*Beth*]

Thanks for checking in, Laura.


I know so well the feeling of being in such a fabulous space. But then there's always that darn price to pay...the inevitable crash. So unfair, but very real

[bpcyclist]

I felt this way two wks ago. Now, I am depressed with a 1 to 10 scale rating of 3. Nothing happened in my life. Just my brain.

[Moose72]

I spent a year of my early 30's not being diagnosed just running from guy to guy. I even got an STI of sorts which was very uncomfortable. So be very careful!

[Miss Laura]

Hey guys its just the afternoon here I see my Peer Worker in 3 hours time.

I feel like I'm on top of the world. Have been up most the night chatting to guys online I’ve worked out there are 30 guys im talking to if not more its so exciting. Im so frigging horny right now. I think im ok I took a mania test and out of 60 the highest I scored was 36 so thats fine. If you want to know the test just ask i found it through Wikipedia.

[*Beth*]

How did the appointment with your peer worker go?

[Miss Laura]

Ots not for another hour im just getting reafy to go out

[Miss Laura]

Saw my Worker today. She says i should get a 2nd opinion in regards to my diagnosis as then it will put my mind to rest. I guess i ask my Psychiatrist for this not seeing him until I think December/January. Im seeing my CPN on Thurs so I might ask her if i have guts. I get nervous asking for things from them. She says I'm struggling with the diagnosis of bipolar abd the only way to help me sge thinks us if i get a 2nd opinion

[fern46]

I've heard you down, but I'm not sure if it was true depression, but the hypomania/mania has shown several times.

Read your updates in this thread and compare them to the mayo clinic list of symptoms.

Mania and hypomania
Mania and hypomania are two distinct types of episodes, but they have the same symptoms. Mania is more severe than hypomania and causes more noticeable problems at work, school and social activities, as well as relationship difficulties. Mania may also trigger a break from reality (psychosis) and require hospitalization.

Both a manic and a hypomanic episode include three or more of these symptoms:

Abnormally upbeat, jumpy or wired

Increased activity, energy or agitation

Exaggerated sense of well-being and self-confidence (euphoria)

Decreased need for sleep

Unusual talkativeness

Racing thoughts

Distractibility

Poor decision-making — for example, going on buying sprees, taking sexual risks or making foolish investments

So what do you think when you look at this list Miss Laura? Has your doctor ever made a distinction between BP1 and 2? If you think a second opinion would help with acceptance that is a wonderful idea. You can move forward once you accept what you're working with. I thought you had already accepted it, but you were deciding you wanted to try to live med free. Forgive me for missing that detail.

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by fern46

I've heard you down, but I'm not sure if it was true depression, but the hypomania/mania has shown several times.


Read your updates in this thread and compare them to the mayo clinic list of symptoms.


Mania and hypomania

Mania and hypomania are two distinct types of episodes, but they have the same symptoms. Mania is more severe than hypomania and causes more noticeable problems at work, school and social activities, as well as relationship difficulties. Mania may also trigger a break from reality (psychosis) and require hospitalization.


Both a manic and a hypomanic episode include three or more of these symptoms:


Abnormally upbeat, jumpy or wired


Increased activity, energy or agitation


Exaggerated sense of well-being and self-confidence (euphoria)


Decreased need for sleep


Unusual talkativeness


Racing thoughts


Distractibility


Poor decision-making — for example, going on buying sprees, taking sexual risks or making foolish investments


So what do you think when you look at this list Miss Laura? Has your doctor ever made a distinction between BP1 and 2? If you think a second opinion would help with acceptance that is a wonderful idea. You can move forward once you accept what you're working with. I thought you had already accepted it, but you were deciding you wanted to try to live med free. Forgive me for missing that detail.

Hey there,

I know i have symptoms showing through currently. If I was to list them here you will all think im ill. Im not ill im doing great.

I know im showing risky/dangerous at times behaviour but im controlling them. I'm just struggling with sleep and am up all night. I look shattered.

I've been doing this test online and it scores out of 60 I've been doing it since the 1st August.... the highest I have scored is 37.... lowest 26. Btw its a mania test it has 11 questions and its used i think by Psychiatrists.

My issue is that im currently so horny its on my mind 24/7. I signed up to a site for phone sex. I haven't used it yet.

[Moose72]

Call your pdoc. If you're not manic now, you sound like you're headed there.

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Call your pdoc. If you're not manic now, you sound like you're headed there.

I am seeing my nurse on Thurs see what she says

[Miss Laura]

Im worried my CPN tomorrow is going to make me go back on meds. If I tell her what's been going on.... there is a massive chance she will flip a lid and make me go on meds. I don't know wgstvyo do as its all conflicting. All im thinking about is sex, im singing hymns especially all last night. I started hurting myself when I sang them wrong. What is wrong with me huh!

[Victoria'smom]

Meds are so hard. Are you willing to try other meds? What are your rules? Could going on meds be temporary thing for you? What if any medication acceptable for you

[Miss Laura]

Only thing I won't go near is Lithium and ECT other than that I'm an open book

[Victoria'smom]

What are some of the reasons why you come off of Medicine?

[Miss Laura]

I genuinely forget, I miss a day or two and I struggle to get back to the routine, I see them as controlling me and my happiness

[*Beth*]

Are you able to accept that you have a mental illness due to a physical (brain) disorder?

[Miss Laura]

I want to say yes but I can't sorry

[Victoria'smom]

The controlling thoughts maybe slight psychosis.

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

The controlling thoughts maybe slight psychosis.

Yeah? My therapist today said they were obsessions abd compulsions with rituals etc

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Yeah? My therapist today said they were obsessions abd compulsions with rituals etc

That's common with BD, too, unfortunately.