[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Wrote this years ago. Just found it.

Double Monkey Poem...

OMG I miss my Monkey man I do understand why he left though.

[MuddyBoots]

Rant ahead.
******mit I'm a terrible person. Stuff with my ex we're still kinda together but I said something offensive and I thought he was like really leaving me and I freaked the **** out and then realized what I did and told him I still love him and begged him not to "leave" me (even though I already technically left him?). I need to learn to reign in the words before they slip out my mouth.
Ffs I gotta get sober so this madness will stop...even though the madness didn't stop before I was using and during my 8 months of sobriety
I just wish he could stop being so clingy and I could be as avoidant as I pretend to be.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Wrote this years ago. Just found it.

Double Monkey Poem...

I really like that. Good job

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Yes, evacuated. The lower slopes Of the mountain we live on are on fire. I’m more worried for our house than last time.

Yikes. You and your family -- and your house-- are in my thoughts.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Ok, like last time, we evacuated to my in-laws’. It’s been a wild morning waking up at 0500 to get out as fast as possible. It’s hard to pack and load in the dark.

Thinking of you and your family. I hope everything turns out okay.

Just hanging in there with my mild depression. It feels pretty permanent. Doubt i will get (hypo)mania this Fall.

@Daonnachd: How dreadful that you had to evacuate and that your home is threatened! You are in my thoughts. Sending good vibes.

Hugs to all who struggle!

[Daonnachd]

Here we are. A friend of ours on the fire brigade has said she expects the evacuation to last 7-14 days. :sadface: They're working hard to protect the houses in our area though. I still have hope. I sure hope the house doesn't burn; I forgot my kilt and the associated kit. I would be sickened to lose that, more than most other possessions.

But my mood still feels stable despite the stressors of the day. (Have I told you where we're staying?)

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Sapien

Rant ahead.
******mit I'm a terrible person. Stuff with my ex we're still kinda together but I said something offensive and I thought he was like really leaving me and I freaked the **** out and then realized what I did and told him I still love him and begged him not to "leave" me (even though I already technically left him?). I need to learn to reign in the words before they slip out my mouth.
Ffs I gotta get sober so this madness will stop...even though the madness didn't stop before I was using and during my 8 months of sobriety
I just wish he could stop being so clingy and I could be as avoidant as I pretend to be.

Hugs and support, Sapien.

See if you can just get feet on the ground with like, four sober hours. Just go for four. Then, take it moment by moment. Do not worry about anything else. Try not to be cruel to yourself. Just start. Just start.

We love and support you. Noone ever thought I would get sober. If I can do it, you can do it. I am praying for you.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Here we are. A friend of ours on the fire brigade has said she expects the evacuation to last 7-14 days. :sadface: They're working hard to protect the houses in our area though. I still have hope. I sure hope the house doesn't burn; I forgot my kilt and the associated kit. I would be sickened to lose that, more than most other possessions.

But my mood still feels stable despite the stressors of the day. (Have I told you where we're staying?)

where are you staying?

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by bizi

where are you staying?

...with my in-laws...

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Here we are. A friend of ours on the fire brigade has said she expects the evacuation to last 7-14 days. :sadface: They're working hard to protect the houses in our area though. I still have hope. I sure hope the house doesn't burn; I forgot my kilt and the associated kit. I would be sickened to lose that, more than most other possessions.

But my mood still feels stable despite the stressors of the day. (Have I told you where we're staying?)

I will keep praying.

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Here we are. A friend of ours on the fire brigade has said she expects the evacuation to last 7-14 days. :sadface: They're working hard to protect the houses in our area though. I still have hope. I sure hope the house doesn't burn; I forgot my kilt and the associated kit. I would be sickened to lose that, more than most other possessions.

But my mood still feels stable despite the stressors of the day. (Have I told you where we're staying?)

You're in my thoughts.

[Victoria'smom]

I feel like I've been fighting with people all day and I haven't. I feel like some is behind me starring at me, no one is and I know it. I couldn't sleep last night without H there because of the feeling. My limited diet has gotten more limited but I'm not hooked on soda anymore. My head's buzzing and I'm struggling to take my meds. I don't want them taken away and I know I need them just...It's hard. IDK. I'm better but not at the same time.

[Crazy Hitch]

My pdoc added a new med today. If I wasn't hypo I'd probably remember the name. Let's see how this one goes

[Soupe du jour]

Daonnachd, I am thinking of you hoping that the flames calm quickly.

Wildflowerchild, all the best in quitting the nicotine. You can do it!

Hugs to all!

[scatterbrained04]

Yesterday I ended up never really doing much. Took a nap in the afternoon and then went grocery shopping. I managed to take out the trash and do the dishes but not much else. I wish I could get myself to do more on the weekends besides lay around and scroll social media. I'm not really even depressed, but I lay around like I am.

It's back to work today. I'll be going in a little late because I have to take my son to the dentist and then to school. Have a couple people we might hire. Will talk it over with the owner today and go from there.

[Soupe du jour]

At 9 am, I will finally call my general practitioner about the injury I got in Czech Republic about 6 days ago (fell down steps). Some of it is still not recovering. In fact, this morning, in bed, I turned over and experienced an especially nasty shot of pain in my rib area, but in the front (same right side of body). I am assuming it's related, but also took some Alkaseltzer in case it was digestive system distress. Again, it is all slightly better during the day, but always worst when I wake up after being in bed for hours. All on my right side (neck, shoulder, upper to middle back, arm down to elbow). Sometimes when I move my neck, I hear a crack. Maybe in the end I will need a chiropractor????? Only if my GP says that is appropriate.

[Sunflower123]

I have a telehealth visit tomorrow with my NP and I don’t know how to tell her that I didn’t go from 300 mg to 150 mg of Wellbutrin as she told me to at our last visit. I disagreed with her, she wasn’t listening to me and I didn’t want to go back into a depression going into DST. Not looking forward to this.

Hugs to all.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

At 9 am, I will finally call my general practitioner about the injury I got in Czech Republic about 6 days ago (fell down steps). Some of it is still not recovering. In fact, this morning, in bed, I turned over and experienced an especially nasty shot of pain in my rib area, but in the front (same right side of body). I am assuming it's related, but also took some Alkaseltzer in case it was digestive system distress. Again, it is all slightly better during the day, but always worst when I wake up after being in bed for hours. All on my right side (neck, shoulder, upper to middle back, arm down to elbow). Sometimes when I move my neck, I hear a crack. Maybe in the end I will need a chiropractor????? Only if my GP says that is appropriate.

I must have missed that you had an accident. I am so sorry. I hope you start feeling better soon and that everything heals correctly.

[MuddyBoots]

Soupe- I hope there come to be no major injury and for a quick and speedy recovery

Daonnachd- Praying for your family and dwelling

Wildflowerchild- Good luck in quitting the nicotine, you got this!

[Soupe du jour]

Thanks, Jennifer and Sapien!

Jennifer, I hope your pdoc doesn't mind that you stayed on the higher dose. Mine usually wouldn't mind such a decision. He only minds more if I lower a medication without his approval. Or increase without PRN approval.

Crazy Hitch, good luck with your new medication. I hope it levels your mood without negative side effects.

Sapien, I'm hoping your husband will be more understanding of what you're going through. When I find myself prone to rants from mood or anxiety, I try to step away a bit or simply plan out activities or strategies to curb them, ahead of time. Sobriety is so important. I know the struggle, but once I got control of my alcohol abuse, everything started to look up. Really practicing healthy coping skills was/is key for me. It took time and practice, though.

[Soupe du jour]

Before the worst of my bipolar illness, about 15 years ago, I was still working a full-time job (plus always extra OT). At that time, we had sufficient money to afford a housekeeper to come in once every other week. When I became very ill, my husband kept her on because house cleaning was even more difficult. I had offered to my husband a while back to take over all housekeeping tasks, but he was reluctant to let her go, despite us not affording such a luxury type service anymore. Of course I did the "maintenance" cleaning. In any case, with our house in complete disarray, and a major move on the horizon, I will need to end the service this morning. I expect her arrival shortly. Once our house is painted on the inside, new flooring, fixed windows, etc., we will perhaps hire a "white glove" cleaning team. The lady I mention has helped us with cleaning for the whole of the 15 years, so it's a tough day having to let her go. We do not think she is the right person for "white glove" cleaning. Of course we plan to give her extra money as a farewell, and a gift. We will pay her for today, even though we will not ask her to clean today.

Other than the circumstances relating to my injury, I do feel psychologically and physically ready to drop her service. Also, my husband will be able to help much much more in near future, not that he hasn't always helped, anyway.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I have a telehealth visit tomorrow with my NP and I don’t know how to tell her that I didn’t go from 300 mg to 150 mg of Wellbutrin as she told me to at our last visit. I disagreed with her, she wasn’t listening to me and I didn’t want to go back into a depression going into DST. Not looking forward to this.

Hugs to all.

Good for you for standing up for yourself!!!

[Blue_Bird]

They're bringing back all the events in the community room. Cooking class, bingo, comedy night, the Halloween movie day, scavenger hunts in the apartment complex,, and lots of other stuff. I'm excited because there was absolutely nothing going on for the last 6 months.

My sister is coming over to visit this weekend. Looking forward to that. Kind of nervous because I always worry my apartment isn't clean enough. Will do some extra cleaning this week before she comes. But yeah, should be nice to talk to her, we'll have coffee and cookies.

Going to start my horror movie marathon soon for the whole month leading up to Halloween. Can't wait!! One of my favorite holidays. It's been hot lately but should be cooling off soon. I'm ready for cold weather.

Have a dentist appointment Wednesday. My insurance approved the request for a root canal thankfully, so they can proceed with that eventually. Wednesday is just a regular filling. I have a lot of work to get done and it's gonna take many appointments.

Hope everyone is doing well

[MuddyBoots]

Blue Bird- Hope your teeth-work goes well and with as little pain as possible, enjoy the horror movie marathon and those cookies!