[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Coolbreeze74

Woke up out of a deep sleep. Now cant seem to settle back down. My son is doing well. I'm doing ok. Just watching TV and movies. Things are mellow for me finally. So good to see my son smile and laugh.

Hope everyone is well. Hugs to those struggling!

Such a relief.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Sapien

There’s so much I want to do today! I want to go out, but I have to wait for laundry to get done first. I want to go for a run too, and write a new song I’ve got IDEAS. My soul is inspiration.
I really need to move though. I talked to my neighbor on a walk yesterday and he wanted to know why we don’t hang out anymore (he was a drug buddy). I just saw blood all over my arm, but now its normal?

Real blood ?

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Drenched in Philadelphia! It's real fun walking through puddles with a medical boot on my foot.

Tomorrow is another rainy day. I'm worried about flooding. Our staging and photography are tomorrow. Won't have the benefit of natural light.

Yesterday I had my psychiatrist appointment. He asked about my foot/ankle. I mentioned how swollen and bruised it had been. In response, he asked to see my foot. What?!?!? I said I had the medical boot on, and with laughter I turned my laptop towards my elevated leg, and added "Do you really want me to take it off, including my sock?" Luckily he said no.

After telling my husband the story above, he wondered if maybe pdoc has a foot fedish.

Laughing.With you.

[*Beth*]

A crap day. It's like I was a different person yesterday, my life a different life. All of a sudden, today it all looks frightening and pointless. I managed a half-block walk and mopped the floor. The rest of the day I slept. One more hour and I can crawl back into bed.

I hope this is just a one day thing and not the usual depression that strikes at this time of the year.

I read that there will be a full moon for Halloween tomorrow night, which is cool. Pretty. Nature.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

depressed

I have accomplished nothing in the whole day (blah blah blah) and I'm not even going to eat well tonight- I'm having a plate of turkey breaded dinosaurs

which is exactly a healthy meal a 24 year old woman puts on her menu

not childlike at all

well, I guess I enjoy them, so their is that

Support and hugs. Feel better !!

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I’m doing not too well today. But I did see my therapist in person. So that’s good. I felt like the session went well. We talked about the Pdoc appointment on Tuesday. Also in person. I said that went well. She asked me if he had talked to me about the melatonin or not. And I said “well actually... he told me that you emailed him.” And she said something like “oh yeah how did that make you feel?” And I said something like “well I wasn’t going to bring it up unless you did because I usually just keep stuff like that to myself, but it kinda annoyed me.” And she said “yeah I figured it did” then we talked about how it was a safety issue.” And I said “Now I don’t know what to tell you and what not to tell you.” But she could tell I was pretty pissed. I said I was not a typically angry person but how I was angry this morning and at my mom which I’m not usually and she thinks it’s because I was annoyed at her instead of my mom and my mom is a safe person. I honestly think the remeron is ****ing with my moods today. But at least I got a decent session in. I said my chest felt like it was in Vietnam and T paused for a split second and said “I bet.” My mom laughed and said she probably had no idea what the eff I was saying but therapists are trained not to judge. I just feel like a moody mess today.

Super good job being transparent. Yay !

[Moose72]

Hello, all. Watching Johnny Carson. It's past my bedtime and I'm still in the living room. I'm leaving my phone in the living room tonight plugged in because I had it in the bedroom last night but it was at only 50% when I woke up! So I don't know if its the phone or the charging cable that's bad. I think its the cable because the one out here worked just fine.

Got a notice on my door today that they're going to be fixing the balconies for five days coming up next week. That means I need to bring my outside chairs and table inside. I don't want to get the carpet dirty so I'll have to put down towels or something and I'm not even sure where to keep them. It's not like there's a lot of extra room in here.

I wish I had a pet but I can't afford one. I can't even afford to get a fish set up because they are expensive too. Besides- where would I put a fish tank?

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by BethRags

That sounds so sad, cyclist. It sounds like your ex can be poisonous. Whatever-whatever for her ...but it's a damned shame for you to see a pernicious pattern evolving in your daughter.

Let me/us know if there's anything we can do to support you. In the meantime, take care of yourself.

Thanks so much, Beth. Rough dzy. Called crisis line. ER. Whole thing. Nice police people helped me. Got totally psychotic, ranting and raving crazy talk. No clue what I am saying when psychotic, justconstant terror of upsetting my creator. Total andobabble.

Fine now. I do get intermittent, short psychotic bursts. I do. So short, you cannot even medicate them and they âre gone. I always come here or to my sz pals, but was quicly overwhelmed and dialed 911, afraid of a single, terrifying command. Super terror. Yikes !

But. But. I did know enough even through the hazy mess that when I think God is asking me to jump again, that that is s always, always false data. Always.

Doc and nurses and police were so sweet. So helpful. I do love our police very much. Such hard jobs. Gonna write a thank you note. I am.

Thanks for the lovely support. The police and hospital all complemented us. You guys. Obviously no name of where or who we are. But I did say, this is how we save our respective lives every day. They had no idea. They were really in awe of us. They were. Wanted you all to know. Hugs.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Thanks so much, Beth. Rough dzy. Called crisis line. ER. Whole thing. Nice police people helped me. Got totally psychotic, ranting and raving crazy talk. No clue what I am saying when psychotic, justconstant terror of upsetting my creator. Total andobabble.

Fine now. I do get intermittent, short psychotic bursts. I do. So short, you cannot even medicate them and they âre gone. I always come here or to my sz pals, but was quicly overwhelmed and dialed 911, afraid of a single, terrifying command. Super terror. Yikes !

But. But. I did know enough even through the hazy mess that when I think God is asking me to jump again, that that is s always, always false data. Always.

Doc and nurses and police were so sweet. So helpful. I do love our police very much. Such hard jobs. Gonna write a thank you note. I am.

Thanks for the lovely support. The police and hospital all complemented us. You guys. Obviously no name of where or who we are. But I did say, this is how we save our respective lives every day. They had no idea. They were really in awe of us. They were. Wanted you all to know. Hugs.

I am so glad you reached out and got help. That sounds like such an upsetting experience, but I am happy to hear the medical staff and police treated you well. Please take care. Are you doing any better now?
I have been really impressed by all the times I have seen people on this forum help others get help and I was just thinking about how great this place and all the people are, including you.

[yellow_fleurs]

Hi all. I am irritable today, but trying to carry on. You know those days when you just feel like a walking lemon of bitterness? Haha, I don't think that sentence even made sense, but you get the idea. Feeling like it's hard to see past this low mood, but trying to remind myself they don't last forever. I spoke with my nephew on the phone today and that brightened my mood for a moment, though. It's almost impossible for me to not feel better around those kids, they're like rays of sunshine to me. Sending compassion to all.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by BethRags

A crap day. It's like I was a different person yesterday, my life a different life. All of a sudden, today it all looks frightening and pointless. I managed a half-block walk and mopped the floor. The rest of the day I slept. One more hour and I can crawl back into bed.

I hope this is just a one day thing and not the usual depression that strikes at this time of the year.

I read that there will be a full moon for Halloween tomorrow night, which is cool. Pretty. Nature.

So sorry, Bether. Hopefully a good sleep will help.hugs.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

I am so glad you reached out and got help. That sounds like such an upsetting experience, but I am happy to hear the medical staff and police treated you well. Please take care. Are you doing any better now?
I have been really impressed by all the times I have seen people on this forum help others get help and I was just thinking about how great this place and all the people are, including you.

We save each other every day. They should give Doc John and us the Nobel Prize. I will nominate him. And us. I totally will.

[bpcyclist]

Welpskidoodles, gang--Little Albert woke me after 3 whole hours. Doing well. Worried about election.
You heard it heard it hear first. Trump wins. God told me... Ha. Gotcha!

(He did... He really did)

Hugs!! To all!

[Daonnachd]

Well, 4.5 hours' sleep. Got up at 3:30. My son was still awake, having just finished some sort of game on his computer. ...and there was a car sitting in the street with its lights on and engine running. That last struck me as a little odd.

Completely unrelated, today is the day I shave my head, in case anyone cares.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Well, 4.5 hours' sleep. Got up at 3:30. My son was still awake, having just finished some sort of game on his computer. ...and there was a car sitting in the street with its lights on and engine running. That last struck me as a little odd.

Completely unrelated, today is the day I shave my head, in case anyone cares.

How often do you have to shave your head?

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by BethRags

How often do you have to shave your head?

Good morning! Somebody else up early.

I shave once a week though I would shave more often if I had the time. ...actually, now that I'm not working on Wednesday anymore, that makes a good interstitial shaving day.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

...

Got a notice on my door today that they're going to be fixing the balconies for five days coming up next week. That means I need to bring my outside chairs and table inside. I don't want to get the carpet dirty so I'll have to put down towels or something and I'm not even sure where to keep them. It's not like there's a lot of extra room in here.

...

You could buy a few plastic party table covers (the thin, disposable kind) to set your furniture on. They cost about $1 at WalMart.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Good morning! Somebody else up early.

I shave once a week though I would shave more often if I had the time. ...actually, now that I'm not working on Wednesday anymore, that makes a good interstitial shaving day.

Good morning!

I've shaved my head a few times. It felt terrific.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by BethRags

You could buy a few plastic party table covers (the thin, disposable kind) to set your furniture on. They cost about $1 at WalMart.

Or just plastic sandwich bags under the feet of said furniture. That's what we did when I was doing the commercial carpet cleaning gig.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Thanks so much, Beth. Rough dzy. Called crisis line. ER. Whole thing. Nice police people helped me. Got totally psychotic, ranting and raving crazy talk. No clue what I am saying when psychotic, justconstant terror of upsetting my creator. Total andobabble.

Fine now. I do get intermittent, short psychotic bursts. I do. So short, you cannot even medicate them and they âre gone. I always come here or to my sz pals, but was quicly overwhelmed and dialed 911, afraid of a single, terrifying command. Super terror. Yikes !

But. But. I did know enough even through the hazy mess that when I think God is asking me to jump again, that that is s always, always false data. Always.

Doc and nurses and police were so sweet. So helpful. I do love our police very much. Such hard jobs. Gonna write a thank you note. I am.

Thanks for the lovely support. The police and hospital all complemented us. You guys. Obviously no name of where or who we are. But I did say, this is how we save our respective lives every day. They had no idea. They were really in awe of us. They were. Wanted you all to know. Hugs.

A BIG hug for you for keeping yourself safe

I'm so glad to hear that all professionals involved were kind and helpful.

Yes, my therapist is profoundly impressed with us, too. Hey, we're impressive!

Jumping is not an option. Simply not. (But you know that.)

I'm sending loving vibes to you, bcp: ~*~**~**~*~***~

[*Beth*]

[Soupe du jour]

BethRags, I swear that I almost forgot today was Halloween. Thanks for the reminder! Happy Halloween to all!

Daonnachd, my hair has been so frizzy, out of control, and graying that I wish I could shave it all off, too, but your bald head looks much better than mine would. By the way, I think many bald-headed guys are very handsome. It really works great on some people. I even thought Annie Lenox and Sinead O'Conner really rocked shaved heads.

[Soupe du jour]

Bpcyclist, I am also very happy you sought help, but sorry you became so ill as to need it. I have a similar story about calling 911 during a psychosis. Like you, I was lucky to have had a wonderful policeman help me. There were others with him, but the one took the lead. I am assuming he had the most training/experience with people in psychological crisis. That's so important since I believe a pretty high percentage of people they interact with have some form of psych issue.

[Soupe du jour]

I'm going to take it easy for the entire morning. I am physically tired and sore, plus still a bit shaken by yesterday's additional stress. Hubby is running errands. He feels a lot better today. Luckily the home emergency guy took some good actions and promised to have roofers come on Monday to fix the problem. He said that he will come with them to ensure proper repairs. Luckily, we have several sunny or partly sunny days in our forecast. Finally!

The ceiling spots seem to be drying because of the emergency technician guy's actions (plus de-humidifier and fan). They will still need to be primered and repainted, though.

[Soupe du jour]

If anyone is interested in before renovation/staging and after photos, see below. The first chaotic one (with my injured foot) I posted here almost a week ago. The second is the same room yesterday afternoon. All of the rooms in our house were updated/freshened up and staged.

It's nice to know that the house we're renting in Czech Republic is being a bit spruced up, too, before our arrival there.