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#927
Jan 20, 2021, 12:32 PM
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Happy safe travels. Can’t wait to hear more.
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#929
Jan 20, 2021, 02:31 PM
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Just got back from skiing. Home a little early because I hurt haha. Great day!!! Snowed on and off all day (which made visibility crap near the summit but whatever) and there were only a few patches of ice. Speaking of which, I was bombing this run (steepest groomed run at this place that is known for their expert skiing) and I caught a little air, fudged the landing on hardpack and went down. I must've fell about 200 feet (it was well over half the trail). I had to redeem myself on this trail, and I fell again (going much slower, but this time heading towards trees)!
So my hip is bruised now lol. Fun day. Some pow in the ungroomed. And we got a new president, so that's rad
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#930
Jan 20, 2021, 02:44 PM
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I had a video chat with my gynecologist this morning. Basically she can’t do a hysterectomy and to get just a hysterectomy done you need to go through a **** ton of hoops because your basically getting sterilized and at 27 years old with no kids she’s not sure I can get it done. She said you need 2 psychiatrists to give you clearance and make sure you never want kids. She said with my autism and other mental health diagnosis she said it would be really hard. She referred me to a hospital downtown that has a whole facility that does that stuff. But I’m honestly wondering if it’s worth it. I wanted the hysterectomy done to help me get through my PMS every month. But maybe just splitting up my injections every month will help even my moods out. I read that a lot of trans guys don’t get bottom surgery. Some do still want kids. I’ve never wanted kids. There’s this thing called a packer that trans men use so it looks like you have guy parts. So you pass even more. So I think I may get one of those and continue to work on my weight loss.
But thank god the national news was so positive today.
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#931
Jan 20, 2021, 06:46 PM
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Yikes, you're courageous. I've never been brave enough to go skiing. I'm glad you weren't hurt any worse! YES! We have a new president 
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#932
Jan 20, 2021, 06:56 PM
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I watched the entire inauguration and it was beautiful. Perfect. There was love written all over it.
Went to my GP because I feel like I have a uti that won't go away. He said nothing came up in the urine test. He sent it out to the lab. But he's concerned about a possible prolapse (bladder). Greaaat. I had complications with the birth of my son years ago and my bladder has never felt quite the same since. GP also said there could be an obstruction between my kidney and bladder. Sounds scary. I'm trying to be level-headed. Can't it just be a uti? Ugh. I took too many pills last night. I was not okay. I slept very hard (it's difficult to be concerned about taking too many pills when the sleep is so restorative). Therapist tomorrow, pdoc next day. Good.
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#933
Jan 20, 2021, 08:15 PM
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I am greatly relieved. So comforting to have a sane president again. I’m relieved on so many levels about that. Now if I could just get mum her shots I could relax more.
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#934
Jan 20, 2021, 11:05 PM
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Congratulations to my American neighbors on your new president!
My province is under a stay-at-home order. It's really hard not being able to get out for a change of scenery, to the mall or joyriding our subway. But vax are being distributed, so it's not going to be forever. I guess we're all in this together. I had a bad night at Scrabble club and will lose a pile of points. Heavy sigh! Hugs to all who struggle! EDIT: The stats came out at Scrabble club and i got the second-highest play of the night and the word was SMARTIE!!! 
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#935
Jan 21, 2021, 12:58 AM
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I shall call you Smartie from now on!
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#936
Jan 21, 2021, 05:10 AM
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So happy and relieved that we have a new President that I busted out the champagne and strawberries. The inauguration was lovely. I hate that I missed the night portion because of a Zoom meeting.
I’ve had a bit of a downturn lately. The weather impacts my mood greatly in the winter and we’ve had some dreary days. The sun was out yesterday so I went out for an hour with my champagne. I have a new sun lamp that has two modes: bright white and warm yellow that is helpful. I’m not on firm ground yet but I’m getting there. My daughter will visit the third week of February. Between my schedule and hers, we couldn’t work it out any sooner. That sucks but it is what it is. Warm regards and hugs to all.
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#937
Jan 21, 2021, 10:12 AM
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192 This morning!
my first client canceled and not enough time to reschedule, so I could go back to bed.hmmmmm.bizi 17 day AF I hope to break into the 180's by feb 1st.
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#938
Jan 21, 2021, 10:15 AM
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#939
Jan 21, 2021, 10:43 AM
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Maybe. He's not sure. Of course my mind jumped to cancer. I'm telling myself Whoa...back off. There are about 100 issues that we can have with our kidneys/bladder/urinary tracts. Of course, I'm hoping for a magic pill that fixes the whole problem.
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#940
Jan 21, 2021, 11:23 AM
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Count me among those who watched the inauguration and enjoyed it thoroughly (music I didn't give a hoot about, and wth with that skirt?!, but anyway...). I actually stood up for both inaugurations, clapped, exclaimed and even cried a little. So VERY relieved. So very proud also to FINALLY see a woman achieve this. I agree with Beth-- there was love written all over it. And sure, one could say it's just words and the sorts of things that are spoken at such an occasion, but they didn't ring hollow. I think he is a good man. And that means the world.
We signed the lease last night. We can move in next week (no prorated rent, just free till the February rent kicks in). My boss offered the loan of his van. Both these things are so nice! I don't have a ton of stuff, but still wish I could just wiggle my nose and have everything magically there. Lol. I need to get my hands on some boxes. A bit apprehensive about taking apart a big IKEA cube unit (and of course RE-assemble...), but it's a beast and there's no way around it. (I could leave it, but I love it, so... no.) I'm doing alright. Much better, between now having a President that is worthy of the position and having the new place all official. Hey, it'll be the one place ever (and I've moved a LOT) that I'll remember when I started renting it, lol! My anxiety level has dropped significantly. Now all I have to do is deal with a heavy workload at work (that I've been working since extra hours because of) and move. Coffee please! 
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#941
Jan 21, 2021, 11:36 AM
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My hip and my knee are pretty colors today ahah. My whole body hurts. In a good way though.
Last night I couldn't fall asleep again, so I took 30mg temazepam and 100mg seroquel. I haven't taken either in a while so got knocked out for 12ish hours. I am feeling the med hangover majorly today. On my second cup of coffee and starting to return to normal.
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#942
Jan 21, 2021, 01:20 PM
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#943
Jan 21, 2021, 01:28 PM
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My hair before was six or more inches past my shoulders- hard to wash, impossible to style, very curly and heavy. Now she blew it dry wavy/straight. I feel so much more free! I feel like my age- or older! I just look old no matter which angle I take it from, or which facial expression I make. I don't know why the pic is sideways.
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#944
Jan 21, 2021, 01:34 PM
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My anxiety is the worst today. If my mental health team decided to put me inpatient I don’t think I’d be against it. But I can’t eat and I just keep taking Xanax which isn’t helping. I’ve had two 1mil XR and one .5 in about 2 hours. When I do eat my stomach hurts so badly. I went to the mall today for the first time since March and I really had to use the bathroom. I have not used a public restroom since starting my transition. I identify as male and I also pass more for male then I do female. So I decided to use the guys room because I felt like no one would yell at me. No one was in when I went in. When I came out 2 guys were there and one guy was coming in and he gave me a glance but I hurried on my way. I feel super awkward but also kind of proud of myself. But yeah I’m not sleeping well or eating much and I am so incredibly anxious. I was sweating in the mall and my feet felt slippery because they were sweating too.
I think it’s just really bad anxiety. I don’t think there’s anything physical going on but I can think of several big stressful events coming up. Although I do kinda freak out sometimes about cancer. Specifically leukemia and bladder cancer.
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#945
Jan 21, 2021, 02:01 PM
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Hi all! I am doing better
 I guess the lowering of the gabapentin did the trick, or something else coincidentally changed. Thank goodness because now I have the motivation to finish up this packing and moving. I am still feeling bittersweet about it, but not deeply sad for no identifiable reason. I would really love to get my moods more stable.I am preparing to donate my car as I think I mentioned, and I do feel a bit nostalgic about that. It's been my car since I could drive and my grandmother's before that. A lot of memories with it! It's time, though. I can't safely drive it to my next destination. I treated myself to a matcha latte this morning after cleaning out my car. I gave up coffee, but this was a nice treat. Sending compassion to everyone. |
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#946
Jan 21, 2021, 02:06 PM
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We've been in Czech Republic for a number of hours now. All flights went well. I will try to check in tomorrow. I am incredibly sleepy! In bed at what is only 8:07 pm Czech time.
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#947
Jan 21, 2021, 02:13 PM
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Jan 21, 2021, 02:13 PM
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#949
Jan 21, 2021, 03:03 PM
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Haha, you don't look old! Actually, you look very young. The haircut is really cute, frames your beautiful blue eyes so nicely.
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Jan 21, 2021, 06:17 PM
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I forgot to say that I got a couple books. I was driving home from my hair appointment, and decided to turn left toward Barnes and Noble. I found two books I found interesting: Hurry Down Sunshine by Michael Greenberg and the classic Touched with Fire- by Kay Redfield Jamison
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