[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Once he actually really looked at me he was like “oh Nevermind”

I’m not sure there’s any rules about how old you have to be to order from the kids menu. Unless it’s like an all you can eat buffet or a kids eat free day. I’ve ordered from the kids menu at fast food places.

My dad used to lie about me and my siblings ages when we’d go to Old Country Buffet so we could get the kids prices. He was also a genius at sneaking food out of buffets without getting caught.

Up until I stopped going skiing with my dad (maybe three or four years ago) I would always ask for a junior lift ticket. If I went skiing with someone who looks older than me I could probably still get away with it, but I typically go alone now so kinda obvious I'm old enough to drive and be on my own. And now with RFID cards I go with a friend and we get one card and take turns with the pass lol.

[Moose72]

Thanks everybody for the kind comments on my old photo. Makes me feel good!

[Moose72]

I made myself a list of things to do today, including sweeping and mopping. Hope I get through a bunch so I can relax later and watch my show!

[Mountaindewed]

I googled phobia of food. It’s a specific phobia that sounds exactly what I’ve been doing. Only eating a few safe foods. Freaking out over expiration dates even if it’s just a day old. I won’t eat things in the fridge that are open after 7 days even if the expiration date is ok. I also have issues with milk being ok. I cook my poultry and pork to the point of it being dry because I worry about tapeworms and other food poisoning. Although I know there’s some body image stuff going on as well, I feel like my main concern right now is that food just makes me anxious. And when I eat after going a long time I don’t feel better. I feel even more anxious.

[Sunflower123]

Hello! Checking in. I’ve been doing well. I seem to have avoided SAD for this season (knock on wood). I’m happy.

I had a pleasant surprise this morning. I opened my email and had two free tickets to a three day January event. I attended the same event in October and wanted to attend again. It’s serendipity. I do so much inner work and self development that my daughter thinks I should start a blog. Seriously considering it.

She will be visiting again after the inauguration. We can have that day we lost due to the storming of the Capitol. I hope everything (the inauguration) goes off without a hitch.

Sorry to see people leaving due to the ads. I don’t see any ads. Could be because I use my phone since I can’t see the computer well enough to type.

Hugs to all.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Hello! Checking in. I’ve been doing well. I seem to have avoided SAD for this season (knock on wood). I’m happy.

I had a pleasant surprise this morning. I opened my email and had two free tickets to a three day January event. I attended the same event in October and wanted to attend again. It’s serendipity. I do so much inner work and self development that my daughter thinks I should start a blog. Seriously considering it.

She will be visiting again after the inauguration. We can have that day we lost due to the storming of the Capitol. I hope everything (the inauguration) goes off without a hitch.

Sorry to see people leaving due to the ads. I don’t see any ads. Could be because I use my phone since I can’t see the computer well enough to type.

Hugs to all.

It's so nice to read such great news from you, Jennifer! And that's cool that you were given the free tickets. I hope you enjoy the event very much. That's also great news that you will see your daughter. Let's all hope that all of the days to come this year are safe without horrible chaos.

Blogging is a wonderful way to share and reflect. It did wonders for me. My only regret was that I shared it with too many people that I know, personally. I realize that many don't mind that, but I'm a bit more private. I regretted that too many people knew my business. As a result, I've virtually stopped blogging except for superficial posts about recipes, and the like. I guess what I'm saying is to first think about the scope of who you share with. Anonymity can sometimes offer greater freedom. Many blogs almost automatically want to link to social media, but there are ways to limit those linkages and share with either just strangers or only the people in life you'd tell anything to. Or even no one but you (like a private journal).

[Mountaindewed]

My $75 gift card from my insurance finally came in. Now I can buy pants that fit. Also my Sakura tea from Japan came. It’s pretty good.

It’s been a weird up and down day for me.

[Soupe du jour]

My husband experienced so much frustration today trying to gather documents for the movers in Europe. Why are so many things more difficult than they should be? I wished I could help him, but I couldn't since they are usually his tasks. Plus, he kept saying I can't.

I truly wish we could just get to Europe already. I'm wondering if we should wait until after the presidential inauguration, or go before. It really worries me that the domestic terrorists might affect our ability to fly out.

[Victoria'smom]

I didn't SH last night. I'm so overwhelmed and confused today. I had to do paperwork today and I'm not sure I did it right but there's nothing I can do it had to be done today. I just want to rest. But I can't. I'm trying to have my headphones on but everything is so loud, I can't think.

[wildflowerchild25]

Do you ever get fed up with “working on” yourself? Like this thing with my mom has uncovered like 12 new things that are wrong with me emotionally/behaviorally.

You know what? I’m over it. I’ve made it this far, at the very least I’ve gotten BP under control. That’s the most life destroying. I don’t care about the rest. It’s too much. I don’t want to learn to ask for help. I don’t want to open up about what my first husband did. I’m completely fine just going about the way I am. I’m not doing anything dangerous and I’m not repeating the pattern with my son.

I seriously want to call my therapist and leave, except I know I’ll regret it and there’s no way I would ever start over with a new therapist. If my therapist were to ever leave or retire that’s it for me.

I’m just so sick of finding out how screwed up I am.

I don’t know. I guess I can’t really explain. I’m not trying to wallow in self pity or anything, I don’t feel like a victim. Just tired of this whole mental health and wellness game.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

My husband experienced so much frustration today trying to gather documents for the movers in Europe. Why are so many things more difficult than they should be? I wished I could help him, but I couldn't since they are usually his tasks. Plus, he kept saying I can't.

I truly wish we could just get to Europe already. I'm wondering if we should wait until after the presidential inauguration, or go before. It really worries me that the domestic terrorists might affect our ability to fly out.

I know, videos of Americans rioting make me sick. I’m just now watching the news after days of not, traitors I hope you can get out with a minimum of fuss. Hope the paperwork gets sorted quickly

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Do you ever get fed up with “working on” yourself? Like this thing with my mom has uncovered like 12 new things that are wrong with me emotionally/behaviorally.

You know what? I’m over it. I’ve made it this far, at the very least I’ve gotten BP under control. That’s the most life destroying. I don’t care about the rest. It’s too much. I don’t want to learn to ask for help. I don’t want to open up about what my first husband did. I’m completely fine just going about the way I am. I’m not doing anything dangerous and I’m not repeating the pattern with my son.

I seriously want to call my therapist and leave, except I know I’ll regret it and there’s no way I would ever start over with a new therapist. If my therapist were to ever leave or retire that’s it for me.

I’m just so sick of finding out how screwed up I am.

I don’t know. I guess I can’t really explain. I’m not trying to wallow in self pity or anything, I don’t feel like a victim. Just tired of this whole mental health and wellness game.

Yes, I'm pretty sure we all feel that way - and not infrequently. Keep breathing; it'll pass. Then you'll be ready to work on yourself again .

Btw, you're doing GREAT!!

[yellow_fleurs]

Hi all! I am keeping up with the walks. I got some stuff done today for my move, but nothing related to packing. My motivation is low and I am still feeling depressed. Randomly crying and all that. I will keep an eye on it over the weekend and if it gets worse maybe I will end up calling back my pdoc once more before I leave to ask about stopping this gabapentin. I am conflicted on if I should wait it out or not, but I just don't want to get progressively more depressed. I didn't hear back from that job this week and that is making me feel a bit discouraged. Anyways, I am sounding a bit like a downer, but in reality things aren't that bad in my life. Sending everyone compassion!

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I didn't SH last night. I'm so overwhelmed and confused today. I had to do paperwork today and I'm not sure I did it right but there's nothing I can do it had to be done today. I just want to rest. But I can't. I'm trying to have my headphones on but everything is so loud, I can't think.

I am glad you didn't SH. Also, good work on getting the paperwork done despite not feeling well. I think these are accomplishments to be proud of. I hope you can rest soon. What do you mean everything is so loud? In your head or in your environment?

[Victoria'smom]

In your head or in your environment?

both, I have like half thoughts floating around. That I can't even understand. I don't feel I'm understanding English but I'm responding properly enough that only my husband noticed. Any environment noise is amplified like crazy. I'm blocking out the noise with headphones and music. I just recently got my injection, I'm concerned it's not working. I don't see pdoc for 2 months and I have no T currently. It's all overwhelming.

[~Christina]

Hey Everyone !!!

Sorry I havent been around , Just alot going on. Some good and some Not so good, But it will all work out.

Our new lil Puppy " Gus" is absolutely Hilarious. We took him for his first shots yesterday he is 9 weeks old now. He wasn't too thrilled about the car ride and he decided to barf on me, I had a towel in my lap so no biggie He weights 2.8 lbs.. I have never had such a small tiny dog.. Our other dogs at 70lbs + and he comes running in the kitchen right with them when I say who wants cookies. Its fun to watch him, He has no fear. He loves to snuggle.

I hope everyone is doing okay and hopefully I can get up to date on you all. I have missed being here.

Much

[bizi]

yes you have been missed.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

I did a load of laundry today. It's been so long since i did it that the price has gone up! I also took a shower that i was way overdue for. I chatted with my one close neighbor today. It was my first face-to-face conversation in ages. It was pleasant. I tried to learn Bridge but found it too unpleasant and am not feeling so smart any more. I find listening to the radio is more my speed. My dad found it hard to learn in his fifties also. I guess Scrabble will be my one game. And beating players ranked many hundreds of points lower than me is not such an accomplishment. Not feeling as good about myself as the other day. I can't seem to sleep before 4:00AM. But the news was good tonight: the expectation is that my whole city will be vaccinated in four to six months. So that's good. I also drank water and ate veggies and some protein today. Whatever.

[Soupe du jour]

I'd like to push my husband to book our flight to Europe. I don't forsee any major issues relating to the presidential inauguration, since we are not in or that near Washington DC. I mean, why stay longer here? We are just needlessly spending money on accommodations, and I want to move on already. As for covid, nothing major will change in the immediate future, or the current situation wouldn't prevent our going.

I have a face-to-face appointment with a therapist in Europe on January 26. I have to be there then. Postponing it would be unwise. She could view me as unreliable.

The poor diet we have experienced is also getting to me, big time. So is the lack of control of things in my life. Lack of control will persist when we get there, because of language and cultural issues, but not in all spheres.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

both, I have like half thoughts floating around. That I can't even understand. I don't feel I'm understanding English but I'm responding properly enough that only my husband noticed. Any environment noise is amplified like crazy. I'm blocking out the noise with headphones and music. I just recently got my injection, I'm concerned it's not working. I don't see pdoc for 2 months and I have no T currently. It's all overwhelming.

That sounds tough. Would it be worth calling your pdoc before your appointment do you think?

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hey Everyone !!!

Sorry I havent been around , Just alot going on. Some good and some Not so good, But it will all work out.

Our new lil Puppy " Gus" is absolutely Hilarious. We took him for his first shots yesterday he is 9 weeks old now. He wasn't too thrilled about the car ride and he decided to barf on me, I had a towel in my lap so no biggie He weights 2.8 lbs.. I have never had such a small tiny dog.. Our other dogs at 70lbs + and he comes running in the kitchen right with them when I say who wants cookies. Its fun to watch him, He has no fear. He loves to snuggle.

I hope everyone is doing okay and hopefully I can get up to date on you all. I have missed being here.

Much

Oh my gosh that puppy sounds so adorable! I can just imagine them running with your large dogs. Glad to see you around, we've missed having you!

[Soupe du jour]

My husband and I have a flight booked to his home country in Europe for next week. On inauguration day. Because of the day, we decided to book a hotel at the airport the night before, just in case there would be some unexpected traffic issue(s). I called my sister to tell her that I need to visit our father, and want to also see her, my nephew, and brother before departing. I have to say this is feeling surreal. It is happening. It is real.

In contrast to the strange feelings and inevitable sadness on my side of the family, my husband's sister and nephews are absolutely delighted we're moving to their country. Hubby is currently talking to them as I type this. I overheard them literally yelling "Hurrah!" (their version) when Hubby confirmed the arrival date.

I mentioned this days ago, but I do have an appointment with a new therapist, near my upcoming new home, on January 26. I will also continue to meet, for now, with my long-time American psychiatrist via video session. Once we get settled in with the public health insurance, I will search for a psychiatrist there.

Here goes a new life as an American expat living in Europe.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

My husband and I have a flight booked to his home country in Europe for next week. On inauguration day. Because of the day, we decided to book a hotel at the airport the night before, just in case there would be some unexpected traffic issue(s). I called my sister to tell her that I need to visit our father, and want to also see her, my nephew, and brother before departing. I have to say this is feeling surreal. It is happening. It is real.

In contrast to the strange feelings and inevitable sadness on my side of the family, my husband's sister and nephews are absolutely delighted we're moving to their country. Hubby is currently talking to them as I type this. I overheard them literally yelling "Hurrah!" (their version) when Hubby confirmed the arrival date.

I mentioned this days ago, but I do have an appointment with a new therapist, near my upcoming new home, on January 26. I will also continue to meet, for now, with my long-time American psychiatrist via video session. Once we get settled in with the public health insurance, I will search for a psychiatrist there.

Here goes a new life as an American expat living in Europe.

Congratulations, Soupe! Yes, of course stressful, but the end result...just imagine. I am eagerly anticipating many photos

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Congratulations, Soupe! Yes, of course stressful, but the end result...just imagine. I am eagerly anticipating many photos

Thanks, Beth! And yes, I'll send photos. I'm actually excited about our upcoming new home. Though it will be rented (not owned) by us, it is a step up in that it is a single family home (not townhouse) with a nice amount of property. Also more in the country, though it is also quite close to the second largest city there. There is a horse ranch within walking-distance. Basically it's an old European village environment. I look forward to walking in forests and foraging for wild mushrooms. Perhaps after a bit, we'll adopt a new parrot or two. It's been very sad since our parrot passed away.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Oh my gosh that puppy sounds so adorable! I can just imagine them running with your large dogs. Glad to see you around, we've missed having you!

Thanks, I am glad to get back I hope you are doing well

Gus is Hilarious