Questions Bipolar Version #8

Nah, I'm more of a median girl myself.

What kind of things bring you joy?

hmm... music, mcdonalds, dr pepper, humor, trivia, watching kids cartoons or kids in general... that's about it. defenetly gone down over the years

did you have a good nights sleep yesterday?

Not really had 3 or 4 hours I think I'm hypo I know I am I'm itching to talk to people. I was singing hymns at 2am (I'm not religious) I'm just a weirdo

Question: Is there something special your looking forward to this year?

no nothing.

have you ever witnessed any type of animal cruelty?.

Yes.

Have you ever won a raffle?

Yes, I think around four or five times. I'm fairly lucky. The most recent prizes were movie tickets and gift basket with all kinds of Johnson & Johnson products.

What is your favorite fruit?

grapes.

question: have you ever been judgemental of others?. even if you didn't mean to do it

Yes probably think it's human nature

Question: How do you handle a mental health video call? Do you dress smart or just normal? Do you speak posh or just natural? Are you anxious?

I just dress normally on those calls. Take it, or leave it! I hate the video appointments so much that I stopped seeing my T.

Do you believe in the benefits of homeopathic medicine?

don't think so.
how comfortable are you when it comes to trying new things. are you totally up for it?, or do you like your rooteen and sticking to what you know.

I like new things, but try/add them in small amounts, though my recent move is HUGE. Otherwise I do best with my routine. Even after the move I'm trying to get back to some of the old routine, while adapting to the new.

Do you think you're doing enough right now? I know this is an open question, so interpret or apply how you like.

I feel i'm doing some things right, like i did three (3) loads of laundry yesterday and took a shower so i'm all fresh and clean and that feels great. But my eating has been lousy lately and i've been suffering because of it. I have modest goals: just to eat some veg, protein and drink water every day and i haven't been meeting them.

Do you like being a stranger in a strange land or are you a fan of the familiar?

While I haven't traveled much in recent years, I loved globetrotting when I was younger. It's sometimes a bit intimidationg venturing out when you don't have knowledge of native languages but, fortunately, some basic English knowledge isn't uncommon in most places. (I tried to avoid being an "Ugly American," though.)

What is the farthest you've ever ventured from your home? What was it like?

The farthest i've gone is Corfu, Greece. The sea was a beautiful turquoise and as i was a student travelling on a budget i slept on a cot on a rooftop with forty other people. It was completely peaceful, no theft or misbehavior. Lovely weather is very conducive to good behavior for humans.

Do your nightmares have themes?

I used to dream about being attacked every single night, but now I just have some really weird dreams about my old job too, but I wouldn't consider them nightmares (though I would quit 100x if they happened in real life)?

Choose one: Neon or pastel

neon all day!

do you remember your very first therapy session?. how did you feel doing it for the first time. scared?. excited?. bit of both?

Yes my first visit with a therapist was when I was 16. I remember he had on argyle socks and that he pronounced me a "normal teenager" after one session.

Are there some of your memories which you can't believe actually happened?

Memories no, but I have times when I question reality. Especially if my environment changes too quickly. Just to give an example one day at work I was sitting down with eight people and we’re all just kind of joking before work started. I got up to get a cup of coffee about 10 feet from the table By the time I was done pouring my coffee everyone from that table disappeared. I mean they were nowhere in sight and our cafeteria is easily the size of a football field. What did everyone sprint to the Call Center? So naturally I started questioning was I just sitting there talking to myself? Like wtf! If you could just pick up and go somewhere else, would you?

Right now, no. I'm eager to adjust to my new home environment. It would sure be nice if the pandemic would end soon, though. However, I am not one that thinks people should pretend that it is, when it's not. I've been watching a little US news and am a bit concerned how quickly, and fully, some US states are opening up, as if it is over with. I find that ignorant and juvenile-like behavior. Sorry, but I do.

Do you enjoy being an adult? If so, what is it you like over childhood? And I ask this not with any specific aspects of your personal childhood (like if your parents hurt you), but childhood in general.

I struggle with adulthood.

1: I didn't have a proper childhood, so now I want to make up for it and live like a kid

2:. when it comes to adult terms and adult words, I'm useless. I can't think of an example off the top of my head, but I think like a child, so anything thrown at me that sounds adult, or is meant to sound adult, I don't see it that way

3: their's a tun of aded pressure being an adult, which often I can't handle

4: I struggle with emotions. again, it's hard to really give an example, but I think of them like a child

5: I don't know where I am or where I'm going. at least as a kid I had school and rooteen to help with that stuff

6: I have a lot more mental/ physical health issues now

1 thing I do like baout adulthood (it's not all bad), I like being free and able to do what I want- not be bossed around by parents or anyone else. I quickly learned to love that fact, even before I grew out of my teens. I am a strong person, nad if I believe something should be done, I will get it done- despite what others say about it
how do you respond when someone makes a comment to you about your appearance/ hygiene?. if a good comment, do you take it well?, and do you respond to bad comments?