[Moose72]

I took the "extra" 150 outta the meds that I didn't take while in the hospital. I think I have 5 days worth and today was the first day that I've done that. I feel very dopey and slow like I'm under water. . still I hope my script gets filled tomorrow. I'm a little worried about driving on Friday to take N3 to work especially having to get up at 430. It will take time to adjust to this new dose

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I took the "extra" 150 outta the meds that I didn't take while in the hospital. I think I have 5 days worth and today was the first day that I've done that. I feel very dopey and slow like I'm under water. . still I hope my script gets filled tomorrow. I'm a little worried about driving on Friday to take N3 to work especially having to get up at 430. It will take time to adjust to this new dose

ugh!
I hate getting up that early. rarely have to do that if ever.

Can you try to take the med earlier in the evening so you can get to bed earlier?

Well things have certainly imploded in my life.

My sister passed away from lung cancer! She lives in Oregon so I didn't see her often. But I saw her on holidays and its just very, very sad. She had a really tough life like me. Lots of trauma and abuse.

So I'm dealing with that and its just been difficult.

My son comes twice a week now to visit. Its like a 45 min drive. I take him back but he takes the bus here. Well he is totally missing his morning meds. He just giggles all the time so I've decided he can't visit until he takes his morning meds. Hes hearing a lot of voices and we had an incident that I don't feel comfortable going into on here. But he needs to be taking all his meds for a week before he can come again.

My insurance changed on the 1st. It's a long story and my antidepressant is no longer covered. So I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Wednesday. I'm going to have to go on a different antidepressant and I'm just worried about weight gain.

I've lost 13 lbs in 8 weeks! I'm so happy about that. It makes it easier to get around with my hurt back.

My cat tiger had some issues. Had to take him to the vet. Hes diabetic and has been on insulin for 9 years. He was having a reaction to the insulin. So the vet lowered it to 7 units instead of 9. He had to be evaluated all day on Thursday. He had a intestine infection so he gave him an antibiotic too. Its the shot one.

So I've been very busy lately. Tiger is much better! Thank God.

Hope everyone is doing well!

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I spent most of the day researching stuff for our trip, and doing chores (i.e. laundry) to prepare. I've even started gathering stuff to pack. Tomorrow I want to spend a good amount of time sprucing myself up, so I don't look like a frump. I even plan on wearing two dresses during the trip. One, a bit dressy. Truth is, we haven't been out to anywhere really nice in a long time, because of the pandemic. I guess not since Christmas (and maybe New Years), when we were traveling on a southern US road trip. The nice Christmas dinner was in Charleston, South Carolina. I confess to forgetting where we were on New Years. That must sound strange, but that trip was so overwhelming that some is a blur.

I'm so happy you have something like that to look forward to. That's awesome!

Originally Posted by Moose72

I called the pharmacy again to check if my script had been called in. He said, "I've got a 100 I could fill for you". "Is that the same prescription I normally get?" I asked. Well yes it was! I don't need to fill my normal script early, I need a NEW script for 300! So I just figured that my pdoc hadn't called the new script in yet. So I called the pdoc's office. Talked with someone on my "team". They said that my script was written but not sent in yet- that they'd contact pdoc and get that remedied. Meanwhile, I had some extra days of meds left from when I was in the hospital, so last night I took the extra 150 from there to make 300 total. Now I don't know if anyone will call me to tell me that my script has been sent in/is ready. You'd think the pharmacy would call me so I don't keep having to call them and guess whether or not it's ready, but I don't necessarily see that happening.

Yeah you're probably gonna need to call them. Its not a big deal. I hope everything gets worked out.

@BethRags and all:

I didn't make it to the Van Gogh exhibit today. I felt too depressed and sensitive and tired. I spent the morning resting. I gave my ticket to my neighbor Louise who has helped me out many times. I was glad to treat her and that the ticket did not go to waste. She texted after that she enjoyed herself and thanked me for the opportunity. She shot images and videos to share with me later. So that worked out well.

Early afternoon i rallied and went to the mall for lunch. I people-watched after. Familiar things i've been doing for 22 years, all a balm on my frayed senses, after months of hypo-manic hyper-activity.

Then i went to the new dollar store and got many bargains, affordable retail therapy at last. I love that new store! Fourteen aisles of the neatest things including two aisles of non-perishable foods. Wunderbar!

Aside from that i've just been hanging out with my dog here in the apartment and on the balcony.

I don't mind that my hypo-mania has broken and i'm mildly depressed now. I feel nice and mellow. Bipolar is kind of cool: i get to live two lives in one lifetime.

Haven't tried "Tonight's the Night." It's unusual for me to listen to Neil Young.

Was a hot hazy humid Summer day today, fine in the shade with a breeze but Hell for those having to be active in the sun. I was lucky to be able to enjoy it tho. I'm getting to be such an old geezer, sitting quietly on the balcony taking in the view is all the entertainment i need.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Moose72

What time is it where you are? Maybe you can just go to sleep early?

Yeah I did that. I tried staying up and then I just instantly fell asleep. I slept until 10PM. I haven’t eaten since noon: but I’m not very hungry. I am drinking a caffeine free diet Mountain Dew.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Thanks for that. I don't see anything mentioned about "The Pride of Vienna" in there though. When I look up "pride of Vienna" I get LGBTQ+ parade articles and sites out of Vienna.

I don't know. Maybe they simply changed the name. Plus, the word "Pride" has become so associated with the LGBTQ+ community that perhaps they thought the old name would cause confusion. Only a guess. Either way, they still have an international youth choir event.

[Soupe du jour]

@rose1985, I'm sorry to read about your sister's passing. My condolences. In regards to your son, it sounds like your tough love plan could be a helpful strategy. I hope he starts back on those morning meds again.

Hoping your kitty's health improves with the insulin. I have heard of many cats developing diabetes. I wonder why. I guess they're not that unlike humans, right?

Congrats on your weight loss! I know that if I lost 18 lbs I'd feel better physically, too. I need more stamina. It's too late to get that for Vienna, but I have a trip to the mountains coming up next month. Even 5 lbs off would likely help a little.

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

@rose1985, I'm sorry to read about your sister's passing. My condolences. In regards to your son, it sounds like your tough love plan could be a helpful strategy. I hope he starts back on those morning meds again.

Hoping your kitty's health improves with the insulin. I have heard of many cats developing diabetes. I wonder why. I guess they're not that unlike humans, right?

Congrats on your weight loss! I know that if I lost 18 lbs I'd feel better physically, too. I need more stamina. It's too late to get that for Vienna, but I have a trip to the mountains coming up next month. Even 5 lbs off would likely help a little.

Thank you for your kindness.

Yes my son has been coming twice a week for about 2 months. Its great seeing him. He spends about 6 hours here. We had an incident tho and he needs to be doing things differently. He sleeps all the time and isnt taking his antidepressant. So hes depressed too. He just isolates in his room all the time. I don't know how to help him. Hes on a ton of antipsychotics. Its really heartbreaking. But I have to protect myself and my cats.

Yeah my cat tiger has had diabetes since he was 7. Hes 16 now. I've been giving him insulin twice a day for 9 years. I'm hoping this new insulin dose does the trick.

Was nice to hear from you.

[Soupe du jour]

I'm feeling extremely irritable today. Wishing I could just snap my fingers and have some of the remaining things I want to do, just done. I've been working my tail off all morning. Meanwhile, Hubby has been spending hours on two little things and voicing strife about them. I love him dearly, but his extreme slowness still gets on my nerves, even almost 25 years into knowing him. By slowness I don't mean lack of smarts. He's very smart. But if only I could build a huge fire under his backside, I would. Or maybe he'd still be so slow-moving that he'd burn up. I know this may seem unfair of me, but what happens is that in order to achieve certain things in X amount of time, I often find myself taking on more than I should, to compensate. I have a history of doing this, and inevitably it often hurts me over time. The tendency is partly related to my personality, and partly past mood elevation.

I also get annoyed at his boohooing so much. For example, he'll cry over a little scratch, while I say very little when I get a gash.

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I'm feeling extremely irritable today. Wishing I could just snap my fingers and have some of the remaining things I want to do, just done. I've been working my tail off all morning. Meanwhile, Hubby has been spending hours on two little things and voicing strife about them. I love him dearly, but his extreme slowness still gets on my nerves, even almost 25 years into knowing him. By slowness I don't mean lack of smarts. He's very smart. But if only I could build a huge fire under his backside, I would. Or maybe he'd still be so slow-moving that he'd burn up. I know this may seem unfair of me, but what happens is that in order to achieve certain things in X amount of time, I often find myself taking on more than I should, to compensate. I have a history of doing this, and inevitably it often hurts me over time. The tendency is partly related to my personality, and partly past mood elevation.

I also get annoyed at his boohooing so much. For example, he'll cry over a little scratch, while I say very little when I get a gash.

I'm sorry you're are burnt out. but you do so much. I find you to be a very strong woman. I really admire your strength. You don't complain much. So you're probably REALLY burnt out.

Try and take care of yourself please. You deserve it. Take a nice bubble bath or listen to some calming music. My go to is sara mclachlan. I love the inspiring songs by the cranberries and Tori amos. I absolutely love those artists. They've gotten me through so many painful nights.

I like to light candles turn off the lights and listen to music. It helps calm me.

I hope you get to feeling better soon.

Originally Posted by whatever2013

@BethRags and all:

I didn't make it to the Van Gogh exhibit today. I felt too depressed and sensitive and tired. I spent the morning resting. I gave my ticket to my neighbor Louise who has helped me out many times. I was glad to treat her and that the ticket did not go to waste. She texted after that she enjoyed herself and thanked me for the opportunity. She shot images and videos to share with me later. So that worked out well.

Early afternoon i rallied and went to the mall for lunch. I people-watched after. Familiar things i've been doing for 22 years, all a balm on my frayed senses, after months of hypo-manic hyper-activity.

Then i went to the new dollar store and got many bargains, affordable retail therapy at last. I love that new store! Fourteen aisles of the neatest things including two aisles of non-perishable foods. Wunderbar!

Aside from that i've just been hanging out with my dog here in the apartment and on the balcony.

I don't mind that my hypo-mania has broken and i'm mildly depressed now. I feel nice and mellow. Bipolar is kind of cool: i get to live two lives in one lifetime.

Haven't tried "Tonight's the Night." It's unusual for me to listen to Neil Young.

Was a hot hazy humid Summer day today, fine in the shade with a breeze but Hell for those having to be active in the sun. I was lucky to be able to enjoy it tho. I'm getting to be such an old geezer, sitting quietly on the balcony taking in the view is all the entertainment i need.

I'm sorry you're are feeling so sensitive. I totally get that feeling. Sounds like you know yourself well tho. I've never listened to Neil young. I'm really open to music. I should check him out.

Yeah I'm pretty hypomanic right now. That's why I'm up right now. Part of it is I lowered my zyprexa from 5 mgs to 2.5 mgs. That's how I'm able to lose weight. I absolutely couldn't lose weight on that dose..

I hope you get feeling better soon.

[leomama]

I have to get up at 4:30 every day for work and it’s hurting me. I wake up with so much anxiety. I can’t talk to anybody in my family about my medication issues because none of them take medication. They’re all successful and secure. I had to divorce in order to get help , so neither (ex) spouse, nor parents, nor sibling were supportive. Since all my senses and limbs work, I’m not a person of color and I wasn’t in the military , well, I shouldn’t be having the issues I’m having according to them.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I'm feeling extremely irritable today. Wishing I could just snap my fingers and have some of the remaining things I want to do, just done. I've been working my tail off all morning. Meanwhile, Hubby has been spending hours on two little things and voicing strife about them. I love him dearly, but his extreme slowness still gets on my nerves, even almost 25 years into knowing him. By slowness I don't mean lack of smarts. He's very smart. But if only I could build a huge fire under his backside, I would. Or maybe he'd still be so slow-moving that he'd burn up. I know this may seem unfair of me, but what happens is that in order to achieve certain things in X amount of time, I often find myself taking on more than I should, to compensate. I have a history of doing this, and inevitably it often hurts me over time. The tendency is partly related to my personality, and partly past mood elevation.

I also get annoyed at his boohooing so much. For example, he'll cry over a little scratch, while I say very little when I get a gash.

I hope you feel better.

I know what you mean about the exaggeration over a small injury. My mom almost has this like meltdown when she bumps her hand or her knee and she just makes a big deal out it. Meanwhile I bump into stuff hard all the time and I don’t even say anything. I tell myself that everyone has different reactions to pain and some people are more sensitive. Doesn’t make it any less irritating though.

[Moose72]

Taking N3 for some last-minute parallel parking practice before his test in 2 hours.

Resumed my benzo taper last night. Am down to 4mg from 20mg. 80% of the way there! I slept fine. So relieved!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

Resumed my benzo taper last night. Am down to 4mg from 20mg. 80% of the way there! I slept fine. So relieved!

That's great! Congratulations!

Originally Posted by whatever2013

Resumed my benzo taper last night. Am down to 4mg from 20mg. 80% of the way there! I slept fine. So relieved!

Awesome! I'm so glad you aren't having much withdrawal. For me I started having 4-6 hour long panic attacks. It was pure misery. Keep going!

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

Resumed my benzo taper last night. Am down to 4mg from 20mg. 80% of the way there! I slept fine. So relieved!

Excellent!

It's glorious Summer weather and hard not to love life again. I sat outside with my dog for over an hour, just soaking in the glory. I'm in a loose sleeveless pink flowered dress and feel beautiful! Perhaps my high mood just took a temporary dip due to the disappointment with my online friend? I feel all nice and re-organized and relaxed and calm and competent again. I even called the handsome helpful delivery young man in the elevator "baby" i felt so good. I've never had the courage to do THAT before. I like it!

Thanks for all the support on my benzo taper. Can't believe it is actually happening! Have been struggling with them for 25 years! Aces!

[Moose72]

N3 passed his test! We did some parallel parking practice and some backing into a parking space practice. Both went well during the test. I waited for him at a restaurant in the same shopping complex. He wasn't gone very long but long enough that I wanted to sit inside somewhere. So Thursday he has an appointment to get his license and meanwhile there's something he can print from home.

And I picked up my Seroquel! I just took it in a bottle rather than refill my blister packs. The pharmacist I like wasn't there though. :sad: I have 3 refills I think.

I got up at 8:30 and it's been go go go ever since! It's now 2:30.

Now N3 needs to learn how to drive his own car- a stick!

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m not sure if it was just the neurologist appt or not but I’ve been very very anxious today. I did make it to the dr and he dx migraines as expected. He’s going to give me another med to try when one comes on, a different med in the same family as imitrex.

I was just so freaked out at the dr that I think it has overshadowed my whole day. I went grocery shopping out of necessity because believe me if we had vegetables for the guinea pigs I absolutely would not have gone. I was so overwhelmed and freaked out.

I do not want to leave the house for the rest of the week, not least because it’s going to be near 100 degrees for the next 4 days. High humidity too, of course. I might let my son stay home from camp for the rest of the week since it’s an outdoor camp.

Ugh I just want to relax.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by rose1985

Well things have certainly imploded in my life.

My sister passed away from lung cancer! She lives in Oregon so I didn't see her often. But I saw her on holidays and its just very, very sad. She had a really tough life like me. Lots of trauma and abuse.

So I'm dealing with that and its just been difficult.

My son comes twice a week now to visit. Its like a 45 min drive. I take him back but he takes the bus here. Well he is totally missing his morning meds. He just giggles all the time so I've decided he can't visit until he takes his morning meds. Hes hearing a lot of voices and we had an incident that I don't feel comfortable going into on here. But he needs to be taking all his meds for a week before he can come again.

My insurance changed on the 1st. It's a long story and my antidepressant is no longer covered. So I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Wednesday. I'm going to have to go on a different antidepressant and I'm just worried about weight gain.

I've lost 13 lbs in 8 weeks! I'm so happy about that. It makes it easier to get around with my hurt back.

My cat tiger had some issues. Had to take him to the vet. Hes diabetic and has been on insulin for 9 years. He was having a reaction to the insulin. So the vet lowered it to 7 units instead of 9. He had to be evaluated all day on Thursday. He had a intestine infection so he gave him an antibiotic too. Its the shot one.

So I've been very busy lately. Tiger is much better! Thank God.

Hope everyone is doing well!

I'm so sorry about your sister. Losing a sibling seemed like a very specific, aching type of grief to me.

My cat, Sidney, was recently diagnosed with diabetes. She's 10 or 11 years old. She was initially put on 2 units of insulin, but during her "glucose curve" at the vet her sugar level dropped way too low. So now she's on 1 unit, but it doesn't seem to be doing anything. I called the vet this morning and am waiting for her to return my call.

Do you use any coupon cards to pay for Tiger's insulin? I've found a couple online, but don't know if they're legit. I'm very worried about the $300+ a month for insulin. I'm glad Tiger is doing better

[*Beth*]

I guess we have a new check-in thread. I haven't been online much lately. I feel somewhat overwhelmed with "stuff to do." I can get myself all worked up over something as simple as mopping the kitchen. I feel like I'm never doing it "right." And that kind of thinking certainly comes from my childhood. It's stubbornly embedded in my thought pattern. Must be busy at all times.


I'm trying to regulate my cat, Sid, on insulin. She's either too low or too high. So far, no happy medium. I'm basically an anxious mess with worry.

The temperature for the rest of the week is going to be over 100 degrees. Just...ugh. I wish the meditation techniques that work so well in my therapist's office would work as well for me at home.