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Hi guys,
I'm really struggling with suicidal thoughts, wanting to run away, thinking life will be better without me in it. Wish death had took me instead of my Mum. I have had a lot going on Mum's death in July, my Uncle's death in September, family dynamics, family fighting. I usually get depressed around about this time of year but now I'm suicidal. I hope this is a blip but it's not looking like that. I called the duty worker in my mental health team. They recommend distractions and they would get my Community Psychiatric Nurse to contact me that was 7 hours ago its 9pm here so hoping my CPN calls tomorrow. I'm just really f$$$ed up.... sorry!!! Sent from my SM-G980F using Tapatalk |
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#2
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Hopefully they get back to you soon. I know it's after hours but maybe they have an on call dr. Until bed hang out here. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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I can call NHS 24 but I don't want to just cause I'm staying with my Sister tonight and I haven't told her. Purely for the fact she has been working late tonight preping for a meeting first thing.
If I get worse I will contact someone Sent from my SM-G980F using Tapatalk |
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#4
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Sorry things are so hard right now.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#5
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I think your state of mind is in part the grief process.
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I hope you can get ahold of someone to help.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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Hi Laura,
This is my first time posting here in this forum. I saw your post because I too am having strong thoughts to just want to die but not a plan. Miss Laura, How old are you? I turn 60 tomorrow.. Life is hard with mood disorders and being lonely. Thankfully you are with your sister and not alone and perhaps you can just sit in the living room and watch TV and talk to her or call someone. |
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#8
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I think call the 24 hour line. you don't want to risk your life. your thoughts are serious and hard to fight, get help.
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Son: 14, 12/15/2009 R.I.P. ![]() Daughter: 20 ![]() Diagnosis: Bipolar with Psychosis. Latuda 100 mgs. |
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#9
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miss laura,
Please check in. ((((HUGS)))) ![]() bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#10
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Talking things through on the phone can provide temporary relief. I agree with BethRags' opinion that some of what you're feeling is grief. Hang on.
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Do you have a text support system there? Here texting something (741741 I think) hooks you to someone to talk to.
I hope you feel better soon and that your nurse gets back to you soon.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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Yeah we can call or email The Samaritans, call or chat online to Breathing Space, text SHOUT to a number and they will support you. I just hate bugging people. I know I'm worthy of support I should just do it but I can't. Thanks guys it's nearly 9am here so hopefully my CPN will call at some point today
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I hope your CPN calls soon, or has already this morning, Miss Laura. You absolutely need support! And I think it would be highly beneficial, if possible, to get grief counseling. I didn't right away after my mother died either. I got to the point where I demanded it while at the hospital. Luckily they came up with a group after my request. There was a younger woman who lost someone dear to her and a middle-aged woman who lost her teenage daughter who also participated. I couldn't help but wonder if I hadn't pressed for this counseling if none of us would have received it. Maybe consider asking for one.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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Another day and another no show from my CPN. I've called in 2 days 16 times I'm not asking for much sorry I'm suicidal ill just ignore the symptoms right
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Quote:
My pdoc's office has an after hours emergency line. Does yours?
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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We can't do that here we need to be referred. We can go to A&E (ER) and see but I live 1 hour away from there. I'm with my Sister tonight. I'm trying to tell her but can't find the words. I can call NHS24 or 111 and ask for mental health support. But not wanting to do that as I'm with my Suster who doesn't know a thing
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#17
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Tell your sister and make that call.
own up to it, she needs to know. (((((HUGS)))))) bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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I can't sat the words... "I'm suicidal"
I can't say "I want to die" I can't say "I feel unsafe especially outside" I want to stop writing my funeral plans etc but I'm committed to it now Sent from my SM-G980F using Tapatalk |
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I don't know what to say but nobody has answered you and I feel bad for that. I think you need to get help. Can you write a note that you need help and give it to you sister or to someone else who can get you help? Try to find something to do besides writing funeral plans; that is only going to make you feel worse and is probably dangerous.
Please seek help immediately. You are in an urgent situation.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
#20
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My nurse called today and said I'm not in immediate danger. Says I don't think you will do anything silly over the weekend I'll call you on Monday. I'm seeing her in person on Friday.
I have numbers to call if I get worse. I'm at my Dad's tomorrow afternoon for the weekend Sent from my SM-G980F using Tapatalk |
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#21
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Thanks for the responses my friends irl aren't picking up my texts
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#22
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That sucks! Most disheartening and a feeling of nobody-wants-me.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#23
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We're following your messages here, so don't feel you're all alone.
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![]() *Beth*, Miss Laura
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I know it is night there but I hope you see this when you wake up. How are you doing? Are you safe?
I'm worried about you.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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#25
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BeyondtheRainbow,
Thank you for asking.... I'm doing OK thanks. Its nearly lunchtime and I'm just getting up. Still weepy and a little bit lost?? But I'm OK thanks Sent from my SM-G980F using Tapatalk |
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