Bipolar check-in #64

Pinny · Mar 27, 2022, 01:09 AM

So I have covid!
I tested positive yesterday after I felt a bit unwell.
I thought it best to take a test as my 92 year old granny was supposed to come visit!
It’s such a shame because I have to cancel all my plans I had for this week including physio for my torn calf muscle! The bleeding/bruising has all come out and it’s all up the back of my leg!
Oh and there was a dog exhibition I was going to go to this morning but obviously my plans for that are cancelled!
Other than that I haven’t felt too unwell, just a bad cold with a bit of a fever!

I’m worried about what my work are going to say because I’m only just back and now I have to be off all week!

My anxiety is reasonably high just now but my mood is definitely improving still. No dark thoughts yesterday at all which is a huge step!

I hope you all have had a lovely sleep

Soupe du jour · Mar 27, 2022, 02:17 AM

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Originally Posted by Pinny

So I have covid!
I tested positive yesterday after I felt a bit unwell.
I thought it best to take a test as my 92 year old granny was supposed to come visit!
It’s such a shame because I have to cancel all my plans I had for this week including physio for my torn calf muscle! The bleeding/bruising has all come out and it’s all up the back of my leg!
Oh and there was a dog exhibition I was going to go to this morning but obviously my plans for that are cancelled!
Other than that I haven’t felt too unwell, just a bad cold with a bit of a fever!

I’m worried about what my work are going to say because I’m only just back and now I have to be off all week!

My anxiety is reasonably high just now but my mood is definitely improving still. No dark thoughts yesterday at all which is a huge step!

I hope you all have had a lovely sleep

I'm sorry you're sick, Pinny. It's good you know, though, so your granny and others won't be exposed. Feel better soon!

BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 27, 2022, 03:33 AM

I woke up at 3:20 anxious about my breast biopsy this Thursday. I've had thisU kind of biopsy before except at the old hospital they did it in a chair. The new hospital does it with you laying down and breasts hanging out of a hole. It does not sound comfortable. And I just have a bad feeling about the results. I don't know why but it feels off to me. I also dread it because my prior biopsy of this type left me feeling horrible for 3 days. The doctors think it was a virus that just coincided and while I believe them I'm still anxious.

I joined a support board for women awaiting biopsy results. I hope that it proves to be helpful.

I hope to get back to sleep soon. I'm going to try reading my book.

unlived · Mar 27, 2022, 07:32 AM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

My mom isnt answering texts which is weird but she didnt answer a call and I'm not overly worried but that was an hour ago. I think I'll just have a protein shake for dinner. I'm not sure why I have felt like drinking my calories today.

And I just made a fool out of myself. I called my mom again and no answer. So then I did get worried and texted my sister. And she said they were fine and just finishing up lunch. I'm glad my mom is ok. I hope I wasn't too annoying but my aunt had a massive heart attack and died at a resturant in 2005 and that was what was running through my head. But its good though for my mom to spend some time with people other then me and my brother.

Ok. Maybe I did overly panic. I've had a lot of soda with caffeine and not much food today. But yesterday I said we needed someone big to die to distract us from the war and my mom said be careful what you wish for and I was wondering if I had done something super dumb. But I meant a celebrity not my mom.

My mom made it home and she stopped at Best Buy to pickup a new pair of $20 Apple plug in headphones (which I paid for). My old pair were just about dead I was just barely getting music out of one side and it was going in and out. She also picked up a small piece of wood because stand up mirrors are expensive but my $7 stick on mirror doesn't stick on my door so we got the $20 stand yesterday and put the piece of flat wood underneath it so it would be stable on the hardwood floor and we got the mirror on the stand and I now have a DIY stand up mirror. I keep thinking of that SNL skit The Califonians since thats what my mirror looks like.

Now all is well. Probably more because my meds are kicking in.

Big people have died… that Foo Fighters guy that just died and here in Aus one of our best ever sports people Shane Warne recently died so that took attention away for a while… his state funeral is in a few days so more attention will be away from the war here.

Mountaindewed · 10:26 AM

I went out to a few gas stations and I was wearing my Adidas pride hat but was dressed in tan Levis and my Hollister jacket. I didn't have any issue with the first 2. Then I went to a little shady one. It still had halloween candy At first the guy was fine. I think I even heard him call me "brother" but my mom was pestering him about cups and then when we got up to pay I couldnt tell if he glanced at my hat or down at my pants but he became crabby after that with us so I couldnt tell if he knew then but it just got me kind of down for about half an hour. My mom said he is just unfriendly in general. And I'm not 100% sure he knew or not. Maybe he was just mad at my mom about the cups. But if I'm wearing a hat like that then I guess its also on me for sort of putting myself out there. I just worry the longer I'm off my meds. My mom said to wait until I get my next blood test results before I contact my endocronolgist about going back on them. I go for my blood work Thursday so I should have the results possibly Friday afternoon but I probably won't get an answer from my blood doctor about anything until Monday. At this point all I can really do is just keep with my weight loss and eating less and control my worrying about things that arent in my control. The controlling my worrying is the one I'm mainly struggling with.

At the doctors on Monday the nurse asked me if I felt depressed, down, or hopeless these last 2 weeks and I said yeah. I mean who hasn't felt like that even someone without mental illness? Probably why she didn't make a fuss out of it. I often lie on that one and say no.

scatterbrained04 · Mar 27, 2022, 12:13 PM

I had made up my mind yesterday that I was going to try to get a CMM certification (certified medical manager). I was super excited. Read about it all day and told people I was doing it. I think it would be hard and probably take me a year or two to be prepared to sit for the exam. I've been a manager for 12 years and in healthcare for 15. It would really help me in my career.

Today I feel like I'm too stupid to do it and would never pass and shouldn't waste my time or money and don't even know if it's reasonable.

I don't know which thoughts to believe.

And I just started crying out of nowhere in the Taco Bell drive thru.

Sigh

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Nammu · Mar 27, 2022, 12:18 PM

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Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I had made up my mind yesterday that I was going to try to get a CMM certification (certified medical manager). I was super excited. Read about it all day and told people I was doing it. I think it would be hard and probably take me a year or two to be prepared to sit for the exam. I've been a manager for 12 years and in healthcare for 15. It would really help me in my career.

Today I feel like I'm too stupid to do it and would never pass and shouldn't waste my time or money and don't even know if it's reasonable.

I don't know which thoughts to believe.

And I just started crying out of nowhere in the Taco Bell drive thru.

Sigh

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I think you should go for it. Better to do than not do.

scatterbrained04 · Mar 27, 2022, 12:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

I think you should go for it. Better to do than not do.

Yeah. I supposed you're right. I guess the worst case scenario is I spend the money and end up failing the test. But I'd probably still learn something.

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Soupe du jour · Mar 27, 2022, 01:02 PM

Today flew by, seemingly quicker as it was Czech Daylight Savings Time. Yes, ours is a few weeks later than in the US. I read that many US states are passing legislation to end DST and that many Republicans agree with Democrats on this. Wha do ya know?

My husband is working on an editing project for his sister's beau to check his English translation of a scientific journal article. It's quite boring reading! He is a water scientist. He's also incredibly verbose! I know that I am, too, at times, but am capable of editing my writing when needed. Hubby refused direct payment, but as a thank you, the beau is offering that we stay at his vacation apartment in a scenic part of Czech Republic. Perhaps we'll go there with my husband's American friend that may visit us in the summer.

I thought I was casually dieting last week, but only lost 0.2 lbs. Guess I need to be more serious, so I'm now tracking on MyFitnessPal. So far so good today. I made a nice stir fry. I just adore them and swear if I ate them more frequently I'd lose more easily. Yet, Hubby sort of dislikes them. He even complained about today's. I told him that he will not be served any of the leftovers, and that he can eat yesterday's tomorrow and then scrambled eggs. He'll still covet my stir fry, despite. How do you dislike yet covet something? He's like a pet, in that sense.

*Beth* · Mar 27, 2022, 01:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Pinny

So I have covid!
I tested positive yesterday after I felt a bit unwell.
I thought it best to take a test as my 92 year old granny was supposed to come visit!
It’s such a shame because I have to cancel all my plans I had for this week including physio for my torn calf muscle! The bleeding/bruising has all come out and it’s all up the back of my leg!
Oh and there was a dog exhibition I was going to go to this morning but obviously my plans for that are cancelled!
Other than that I haven’t felt too unwell, just a bad cold with a bit of a fever!

I’m worried about what my work are going to say because I’m only just back and now I have to be off all week!

My anxiety is reasonably high just now but my mood is definitely improving still. No dark thoughts yesterday at all which is a huge step!

I hope you all have had a lovely sleep

Oh, Pinny! I'm so sorry you have covid. I hope it stays mild and goes away quickly. I believe your work will understand; you have no choice about not going in. Please take wonderful care of your lovely self

*Beth* · Mar 27, 2022, 02:00 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I woke up at 3:20 anxious about my breast biopsy this Thursday. I've had thisU kind of biopsy before except at the old hospital they did it in a chair. The new hospital does it with you laying down and breasts hanging out of a hole. It does not sound comfortable. And I just have a bad feeling about the results. I don't know why but it feels off to me. I also dread it because my prior biopsy of this type left me feeling horrible for 3 days. The doctors think it was a virus that just coincided and while I believe them I'm still anxious.

I joined a support board for women awaiting biopsy results. I hope that it proves to be helpful.

I hope to get back to sleep soon. I'm going to try reading my book.

Joining the support group was a very good idea, I think. I hope you find it helpful. There is definitely something to be said for being able to share not only anxiety, but tips and thoughts with others who are going through the same thing you are.

I hate that you have to go through all of this, Rainbow. I'm glad I/we can be here to give you friendship. Thank you for trusting us

*Beth* · Mar 27, 2022, 02:18 PM

The weather is being just gorgeous, which is helpful. I took an extra Gabapentin yesterday and it did help. My anxiety was not as sharp yesterday evening. So I took another extra pill this morning. I will call my pdoc's nurse tomorrow and tell her I'm taking the additional dose. If the pdoc agrees, great. If not, I have my work cut out for me because I will need to go to county psych emergency and talk with someone so I can have proper treatment for the anxiety.

I've been buying just a few little things to brighten up my apartment for spring. My kitchen is red-themed, but the red tablecloth was done for. So I have a cute black and white one now. I have a really pretty hand made pottery vase on one of my book shelves, it's small and kind-of roundish. I love it, but I'm tired of looking at it. So I'm going to store it for now. I bought a little hand made basket to put on the book shelf; the basket is a bright chartreuse. I just wish the etsy seller would mail it already.

Anyway, don't have money for much, but just a few little things here and there brightens my spirits. Oh, and my favorite thing - new sheets! I bought a set of bamboo sheets on sale for $25. They're light beige, so nothing fancy, but the bamboo is so soft and cool for warmer weather.

Well, I am going to test Sidney's glucose then zip over to the store in the hopes of finding a nice pastry for a Sunday treat.

Love and hugs all around

Mar 27, 2022, 02:53 PM

@scatterbrained04:

Yes, life with bipolar is very messy, requiring constant adjustment. Many a time i've also decided on a big project for myself only to cancel it the next day. Last Summer i planned a party, invited the guests and cancelled the party and the invitations all in one day! I find it particularly hard to plan when my mood is in transition. I can't even commit to fresh vegetables. They often go bad before get around to eating them. For a while i managed with frozen but even that is beyond me now as i threw out two whole bags last time i cleaned out my freezer. I'm experimenting with canned vegetables and fruit and so far, so good.

But it sounds like you're already doing the job you're considering seeking certification for. Would it really be that hard?

Whatever you decide, kudos for having a substantial career while managing bipolar. It was certainly beyond me and i so miss working, so wanted to have a long and rewarding career. Life on disability benefits is a great disappointment to me. It's easier now that i'm 55 tho and early-retirement age anyways.

Life goes on!

~Christina · Mar 27, 2022, 03:58 PM

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Originally Posted by bizi

Christina, sorry for your tooth trouble.

I need to use my night guard because I grind my teeth.
You can take up to 4 advils 3 times a day if your kidneys are ok and

so is your liver. that is the prescription dose.

have you been on antibiotics?
I would ask about the pain shots. I have heard that they are ineffective when there is an infection present? I don't know if that is true....ask.
bizi

Thanks hun

I’m taking Tylenol and Aleve I was taking ibuprofen but I stopped that in case it needs oral surgery of some kind since it’s the whole blood thinner issue. I think it’s likely he will put me on antibiotics just to be in the safe side.

How are you doing ??

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~Christina · Mar 27, 2022, 03:59 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Pinny

So I have covid!
I tested positive yesterday after I felt a bit unwell.
I thought it best to take a test as my 92 year old granny was supposed to come visit!
It’s such a shame because I have to cancel all my plans I had for this week including physio for my torn calf muscle! The bleeding/bruising has all come out and it’s all up the back of my leg!
Oh and there was a dog exhibition I was going to go to this morning but obviously my plans for that are cancelled!
Other than that I haven’t felt too unwell, just a bad cold with a bit of a fever!

I’m worried about what my work are going to say because I’m only just back and now I have to be off all week!

My anxiety is reasonably high just now but my mood is definitely improving still. No dark thoughts yesterday at all which is a huge step!

I hope you all have had a lovely sleep

Oh no

I hope you recover quickly.

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~Christina · Mar 27, 2022, 04:02 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I woke up at 3:20 anxious about my breast biopsy this Thursday. I've had thisU kind of biopsy before except at the old hospital they did it in a chair. The new hospital does it with you laying down and breasts hanging out of a hole. It does not sound comfortable. And I just have a bad feeling about the results. I don't know why but it feels off to me. I also dread it because my prior biopsy of this type left me feeling horrible for 3 days. The doctors think it was a virus that just coincided and while I believe them I'm still anxious.

I joined a support board for women awaiting biopsy results. I hope that it proves to be helpful.

I hope to get back to sleep soon. I'm going to try reading my book.

I’m sorry your going through ALL of this ! I hope the biopsy isn’t too bad. I will continue to pray that all of this will be over with as soon as possible.

Be extra kind to yourself

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~Christina · Mar 27, 2022, 04:06 PM

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Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I had made up my mind yesterday that I was going to try to get a CMM certification (certified medical manager). I was super excited. Read about it all day and told people I was doing it. I think it would be hard and probably take me a year or two to be prepared to sit for the exam. I've been a manager for 12 years and in healthcare for 15. It would really help me in my career.

Today I feel like I'm too stupid to do it and would never pass and shouldn't waste my time or money and don't even know if it's reasonable.

I don't know which thoughts to believe.

And I just started crying out of nowhere in the Taco Bell drive thru.

Sigh

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Go for it !! I’m sure you will do great

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bizi · Mar 27, 2022, 04:12 PM

oh pinny take care of yourself.
and you are a great person for testing. you would not want your granny to get sick.
proud of you.
bizi

~Christina · Mar 27, 2022, 04:13 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

The weather is being just gorgeous, which is helpful. I took an extra Gabapentin yesterday and it did help. My anxiety was not as sharp yesterday evening. So I took another extra pill this morning. I will call my pdoc's nurse tomorrow and tell her I'm taking the additional dose. If the pdoc agrees, great. If not, I have my work cut out for me because I will need to go to county psych emergency and talk with someone so I can have proper treatment for the anxiety.

I've been buying just a few little things to brighten up my apartment for spring. My kitchen is red-themed, but the red tablecloth was done for. So I have a cute black and white one now. I have a really pretty hand made pottery vase on one of my book shelves, it's small and kind-of roundish. I love it, but I'm tired of looking at it. So I'm going to store it for now. I bought a little hand made basket to put on the book shelf; the basket is a bright chartreuse. I just wish the etsy seller would mail it already.

Anyway, don't have money for much, but just a few little things here and there brightens my spirits. Oh, and my favorite thing - new sheets! I bought a set of bamboo sheets on sale for $25. They're light beige, so nothing fancy, but the bamboo is so soft and cool for warmer weather.

Well, I am going to test Sidney's glucose then zip over to the store in the hopes of finding a nice pastry for a Sunday treat.

Love and hugs all around

So happy that your weather is treating you so well ! It’s cool to me that when the weather cooperates our mood can be so much better !

Glad the increased Gabapentin is helping and hopefully will not hear any crap from provider !

Good for you getting a few things. It really does help when we do here and there !

Your sheets sound lovely ! I’m also using bamboo sheets and I can’t imagine having any other type

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~Christina · Mar 27, 2022, 04:16 PM

I can’t tell you how happy I am that tomorrow is finally Monday !

Hope everyone is having a nice day

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*Beth* · Mar 27, 2022, 04:36 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

So happy that your weather is treating you so well ! It’s cool to me that when the weather cooperates our mood can be so much better !

Glad the increased Gabapentin is helping and hopefully will not hear any crap from provider !

Good for you getting a few things. It really does help when we do here and there !

Your sheets sound lovely ! I’m also using bamboo sheets and I can’t imagine having any other type

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Thank you, dear friend. Yes, aren't bamboo sheets a delight?! We don't really have humidity here, just dry very hot, but I know you have humidity. The bamboo sheets must be helpful for that.

I'm sending you love and healing vibes for your tooth. *Counting down until Monday*

Blue_Bird · Mar 27, 2022, 04:40 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

The weather is being just gorgeous, which is helpful. I took an extra Gabapentin yesterday and it did help. My anxiety was not as sharp yesterday evening. So I took another extra pill this morning. I will call my pdoc's nurse tomorrow and tell her I'm taking the additional dose. If the pdoc agrees, great. If not, I have my work cut out for me because I will need to go to county psych emergency and talk with someone so I can have proper treatment for the anxiety.

I've been buying just a few little things to brighten up my apartment for spring. My kitchen is red-themed, but the red tablecloth was done for. So I have a cute black and white one now. I have a really pretty hand made pottery vase on one of my book shelves, it's small and kind-of roundish. I love it, but I'm tired of looking at it. So I'm going to store it for now. I bought a little hand made basket to put on the book shelf; the basket is a bright chartreuse. I just wish the etsy seller would mail it already.

Anyway, don't have money for much, but just a few little things here and there brightens my spirits. Oh, and my favorite thing - new sheets! I bought a set of bamboo sheets on sale for $25. They're light beige, so nothing fancy, but the bamboo is so soft and cool for warmer weather.

Well, I am going to test Sidney's glucose then zip over to the store in the hopes of finding a nice pastry for a Sunday treat.

Love and hugs all around

The stuff you got for your apartment sounds cute

and new sheets are always great. I need to get a new bedding set eventually. Mine is kind of worn out

Hope Sidney's doing okay

and enjoy your pastry

I've been craving raspberry cheese danishes lately

*Beth* · Mar 27, 2022, 04:45 PM

Didn't quite make it to the store yet. Sid's glucose number dropped kind-of suddenly, which scared me. So I'm monitoring her for a while. I'm sure she's fine, though. When I go to the store I have to buy some gas, too. I'm wincing! Gas is right under $5/gallon. I'll put just $15 in, which will put my tank at a tiny bit above 1/4 full since there's a little bit of gas in there now.

I've been listening to Vivaldi and other Baroque music today and it's putting me into another, lovlier world. The cats enjoy it, too.

I can't believe this, of all things! The dippy lid of my toilet detached and came off. Wacky. I'll have to have the maintenance dude in to fix it. Honestly!

Here's a bright purple balloon on a silver string...the balloon has gold sparkles inside of it...one for each of you

Nammu · Mar 27, 2022, 04:50 PM

Oh pinny heal quickly.

For everyone else English toffee cookies, calories free!

bizi · Mar 27, 2022, 05:00 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

I can’t tell you how happy I am that tomorrow is finally Monday !

Hope everyone is having a nice day

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The weather is gorgeous!
birds are chirping, sky is blue. hot in the sun as
it is in the high70's even hit 80 no humidity. I should say low.
WE ate brunch at this place called brick and spoon.
had 2 bloody marys with brunch.
Had a huge omelet with shrimp and other things with hollindays

(I know wrong spelling auto correct could not help me out.
sauce like in eggs Benedict )With a side of corn grits. both delicious!
When we got home I switched to my NA partake beers.
I am so full from brunch that I announced that I was

not going to eat dinner. It is 5pm and I am still stuffed from brunch. tomorrow I am going to put a pork roast in the crock pot
with tomatoes and brussel sprouts, and carrots.
cream of mushroom soup....maybe 2 cans.
it really is a hot plate that acts as a crock pot.
have a good day to yall.
bizi

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