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Jun 01, 2022 at 12:52 PM
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I had my 3rd phelebotomy procedure 1.5 hours ago and I already feel a lot better. I guess my sister texted my mom at 8 last night and asked if she could drop my nephews off while she and my brother in law were at the doctors having an ultrasound. My mom said yeah ok. They go to the same gynecolgocist office I went to and my blood doctors office is there as well. So we had all planned on meeting there so they could pick up my nephews if my sisters appointment wasn't over before mine started. Hers was at 8:30 mine was at 10. Then I got a call around 8:45 asking if I could switch the procedure to a different building and a different time. I have therapy today and after some talking I got it moved to 10:30 at the other office. I like this other office a lot better anyways. My brother in law ended up picking up my nephews at my house about 10 minutes before we had to leave which was good. So I had the procedure. It took a lot longer for some reason even though she got a vein right away. There were 2 older people in there getting treatments of some kind. I was getting a bit woozy but I made it. On my way out I noticed what appeared to be another trans man who was maybe 19-22 years old waiting by himself. I wonder if he has high hematricrit too. I came home and I drank a Coke and I feel pretty good. I'm still a bit woozy, but I can make my in person therapy appointment later this afternoon. I decided to see my pdoc in person tommorow. Its gonna be a hell of a lot of gas money and he has not seen me since October 2020 but I am ready to see him in person. I just hope he doesn't screw with my meds since I don't think the stuff I'm dealing with needs to involve him.
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Jun 01, 2022 at 01:06 PM
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I hope Miguel's loneliness subsides soon. I think it's common for young people who leave the family "nest" to struggle with adjustments to independent living. When I went away to university I wasn't so much lonely, but did struggle with the adjustment to the new life there. I had a horrible roommate at first, then my bipolar got a tinge out of control. For me, that included drinking sprees, lack of sleep, and other symptoms. Back then I wasn't yet diagnosed. I wish I had been. __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Jun 01, 2022 at 03:35 PM.. |
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Jun 01, 2022 at 01:52 PM
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Second to last class of fitness. Next week we do paperwork and testing, then class starts again the week after. It’s an amazing day. 70’ or 71F hardly any wind and brilliant sunshine.
I’m gonna go soon and pick up stuff mum wants to bake a cake and the weekend food. My sleep is stabilized again. Sunday I’m down to half of what it was. __________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Jun 01, 2022 at 03:42 PM
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I don't know what to do. I should NOT have said that. Now they're gonna force me to stay on Zyprexa. I really need to stop getting high but when I was clean it was awful I had five hospitalizations during that year. I can't go back. Maybe once I get the next 234mg injection things will calm down again. My brain is doing gymnastics on basically how to manipulate my NP at my next appointment instead of just being honest because I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE REALITY IS AND IT'S SCARING THE BEJEEZUS OUTTA ME!!!
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Jun 01, 2022 at 04:03 PM
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Jun 01, 2022 at 04:10 PM
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Ugh, ugh 😩 my car! My stupid car! I was in the drive though when there was this clunk, then the car wouldn’t go. I turned it off and then on and red lights everywhere. Transmission fault service immediately! Me in town it’s late afternoon and I don’t have my phone! So I took the back roads home with my heart in my throat. Oh ugh. I just spent well over $1200 on it just two months ago. My savings is being wiped out! 😩 I don’t want to call the stupid auto place I want a new. Car like magic. Ohhh 😲 😩
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Jun 01, 2022 at 04:34 PM
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My doctor herself wrote me back on the portal. She asked me to tell her what dates I am not available and she'll schedule my procedure. Well, my mom got back to me with the dates she WON'T be available to drive me but there were so many that I wrote the doctor back with "The dates I *am* available". I hope she reads that right. There are some dates that she could do it if it were in the morning but I didn't want to confuse the issue unless I HAD to. We will see what happens next.
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Jun 01, 2022 at 04:37 PM
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 :sad: I'm sorry this one is giving you so much grief. Depending on what a shop says it will take to fix it maybe it would be worth getting a more reliable car. I know- easier said than done.
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Jun 01, 2022 at 04:44 PM
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Jun 01, 2022 at 05:02 PM
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Jun 01, 2022 at 05:29 PM
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MM .. you tend to go the route of taking meds and they are helping to you stopping them and you find yourself in a mess. Yes weight is a issue of course but sometime we just have to look at the much bigger picture. Try not to shoot your self in the foot .. again. Do you think Miguel might feel it’s ok to stop and start psych meds because he has seen you do it so often? Just a thought.
Jennifer my heart just breaks for you. Please do take extra care of yourself during such a horrible time for you and your family. Wild. Oh the cost of travel right now is ridiculous. We simple do not go anywhere unless we have too. I guess you can’t skip it for your nieces sake ?! Can you go and literally make it a 30 min stay then leave? Moose I hope you can get the procedure scheduled soon. One less thing to worry about. Nammu Oh NO ! I hope whatever is wrong is a inexpensive fix. Car trouble is such a huge stress. Beth ?! How are you ? Soupe are you excited for your trip to start ?? Did you see the landlord yet? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Jun 01, 2022 at 05:30 PM
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I’m still feeling very down
 On a happy note … Johnny cleared his name ! I am so happy for him  Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Jun 01, 2022 at 05:59 PM
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I feel a bit sick from my phelebotomy procedure. Actually really sick. I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack and I can't eat anything. But I made it to therapy at 3 and it was really productive. I liked that time slot although the anticipatory anxiety was a bit rough. I spent most of the afternoon trying to order a big deal online only flavor of Mountain Dew. Finally after multiple trys I think I got it. But it was a super big headache and I ended up needing to have it shipped to my uncles house since it wouldn't come to my zip code. He said it was fine. He'll bring it over when we're all on vacation in August. I hope nobody in his house thinks its for them. I got my meds packed for my trip and a change of clothes and I just have a few hygiene things to throw in my back pack. I'm a light traveler. But yeah at the moment I'm just trying to calm my heart.
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Jun 01, 2022 at 06:09 PM
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Jun 01, 2022 at 06:52 PM
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And to them it is normal money. Strange to think it ever could be a routine amount of money. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Jun 01, 2022 at 07:02 PM
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Pretty depressed today I have been trying to convince myself for like the last week or so that I really need to clean my house it is horrible. My wife would kick my but if she was around.
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Jun 01, 2022 at 07:09 PM
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I feel mixed. I slept last night but 8 hours instead of my usual 10-12 (so just fine but atypical for me). No more psychosis stuff but I just don't feel comfortable. It's not at all bad yet and I talk to my pdoc tomorrow. I just know what direction I'm heading in.
I got new glasses yesterday and they are really hard to adjust to for whatever reason. I'm feeling so impatient with them. It's one of the little things. I'll adjust but I feel so impatient with them. I'm worried about money (surgery bills have started coming in and I'm still paying for all the biopsies.). Yesterday I got a "final notice" on a bill I know I never received before as I've carefully kept track of them as there have been so many. That made me stressed. My mom had noisy work at her house and that stressed me out. I'm not typing as well as usual and the corrections irritate me. Etc. Really glad I have pdoc tomorrow. Really dreading the probable need for more clozapine for a few days. A few days has always been enough since I've been on this and I'm not sure I'm so bad she'll make me do the extra yet but I know where ti goes from here if it doesn't improve soon. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Jun 01, 2022 at 07:31 PM
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I just listened to a CD of mine twice in a row. I pushed play for a 3rd time and hear what sounds like 1600's string music- like a viol. I thought my CD was playing but when I turned up the sound nothing changed. NOW I just pressed play a couple more times and the CD is playing and the other music is gone.
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Jun 01, 2022 at 08:42 PM
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I feel so bad to hear that you're still feeling down. I am concerned that it is the prednisone. I guess that may be a good thing if it wears off. I just hope it doesn't go and trigger an episode. I'm sending you loads of love, Sweetpea (P.S. Thanks for asking where I was...I finally got here. Way too busy. I think I need a big, fat freakin' break, too, but the Universe doesn't always agree with me on that point  )
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