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Here's a new thread. I'll link on the old one and ask that it be closed.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
![]() *Beth*, Nammu, Soupe du jour, Sunflower123
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I don't want to scare anyone, but I have felt terrible all day long, have had suicial thoughts even when I visited a church. I feel like I have used up all solutions ...
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![]() *Beth*, Beautyqueen, bizi, HALLIEBETH87, Mountaindewed, Nammu, Soupe du jour, Sunflower123, Victoria'smom, wildflowerchild25
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So angry right now I could spit nails. I don’t want to blow up at the person I’m angry and disappointed with so I’m typing it out here. I don’t get angry often but when I do, I have to work hard to be diplomatic.
I still have a lot to do to get ready for vacation. I’m working on it today. I hope everybody has a peaceful day. Hugs to all. ![]() |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous 42424, bizi, Soupe du jour, wildflowerchild25
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I’m just sitting at the Mayo Clinic with mum. She’s having her first injection in her eye today. When I called to make the appointment they said 1pm. Then they sent paperwork to mum and said 12:40. I suspect it’s still 1pm and we’re just going to sit here for 20 minutes
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous 42424, bizi, Soupe du jour
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I went out for the day. Just to run errands at some other stores a few towns away. I figured it would take my mind off things. The ride up was a bit tough on my neck but it was ok. I found some cheese I can normally only get in my old state. Then I got some cases of soda for a really good price. My mom and I stopped for burgers at a small burger chain resturant. I ordered a double cheeseburger plain. We ordered to go and ate in the car in the parking lot. I realized mine had stuff on it. I could tell the guy was having trouble understanding me but I still figured he got " a double cheeseburger with just cheese" when he said "only cheese?" And I said "yeah" it wasn't a big deal, the mayo just was on the bottom bun and then the condiments and garnish were on top so all I had to do was just take the bottom bun off and the garnish and I was still able to eat the burger and top bun. Anyways I'm home and I'm worn out but at least I've been distracted today and I didn't have much anxiety shopping. My appointments tommorow and Saturday are both AM luckily so there shouldn't be too much day of anticipatory anxiety.
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Prestiq, Geodon, Lamictal, Valium, Propalanol, topamax B2, Vitamin D, Prilosec, lorsartan, amitriptyline, melatonin. |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous 42424, bizi
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Do call your pdoc and/or therapist's office. There is always 911, too. I agree: 741741 is a good idea too. (This post has been edited.)
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ![]() Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 100 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Last edited by Moose72; May 26, 2022 at 01:19 PM. |
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Definitely reach out! I know there’s a text crisis line now, 741741. You just text “home” to that number and it will connect. If it gets really bad PLEASE go to the ER, as much as you may not want to. Your life is worth more than you feel it is right now.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
![]() Anonymous 42424, bizi
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So I wrote a portal message to my gyn and got a response from someone else asking me if I wanted to go to the "VH".; I wrote back and asked what that is! Ugh. This is getting to be freaking complicated!! FWB is sending me videos titled "How to lower your cancer risk down to zero"! That after I ate a donut for breakfast... I just got a response- VH is an abbreviation for the new women's hospital where they perform leep procedures. I asked if I would be put to sleep if I go to VH. No response yet.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ![]() Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 100 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous 42424, bizi, Mountaindewed, Nammu, Soupe du jour
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The dr thinks I have arthritis in my wrist
![]() I had a major panic attack in group today. I got stuck in a loop thinking about what if RS HAD yelled at me, the fact that he would even feel like it means he’s unsafe, etc etc etc. basically flashed back to when my ex husband was blowing up at me every other day. So it quickly escalated into paranoia. All my grounding skills flew right out of my head! But I remembered one and latched on to that, then I remembered to give senses, and I wrote out safety statements just over and over again. Took about a half hour but I successfully brought myself back to reality. Very big accomplishment!
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous 42424, bizi, Moose72, Nammu, Soupe du jour
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![]() bizi, Moose72, ~Christina
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To all: Thank you for your concern! It is the old life. I feel alone. I thought I had more friends then I really have, but of course I have some. There are very few who know that I am depressed. Those who know do not understand how serious it can be to be depressed. It is a none topic. I always has to be strong and hide because I feel that that is what is expected of me. It is also a family thing. It is like my brother and I have grown in different directions. I feel that we don't know each other any more. I am not sure how to go on with life. My therapist and I have agreed to end therapy in a few weeks. I don't have the money to buy a lot of sessions. When I was young I threw myself into education and had plans. How do we plan life when we are already pensioned and some of the best friends one had is already dead? How do one get new friends in old life?
I have the local number to emergency here. I will use it if I really need it. I do think about how sad my son and grandchildren will feel if I am not here. As long as that thought is there, I will probably fight as much as I can to not act on these thoughts. Thanks again! ![]() |
![]() *Beth*, bizi, Mountaindewed, Nammu, Soupe du jour, wildflowerchild25
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![]() *Beth*, bizi, Nammu, wildflowerchild25, ~Christina
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^^^ Exactly what Jennifer has posted. Is there someone you can contact? And in the meanwhile, keep posting here.
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I can well understand why you feel confused! I've done a bit of reading about the procedure you have had, and the leep procedure. It sounds to me like you have some cells that are not cancerous, but are abnormal and could become cancerous if not removed. It doesn't seem like you especially need to be asleep during the procedure....it certainly doesn't sound like fun, but apparently some women feel a slight "pinch" when the lidocaine is injected, whereas some don't feel anything, and the leep takes 10 minutes or even less.
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Arthritis at 35? Hmm, I'm not sure I agree, either. It is so hard during a triggering situation to recall grounding skills (at least, it is for me). Good for you for doing the work and succeeding! ![]()
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My T called to make sure I was coming Tuesday. I had a long convo with my husband about leaving me the hell alone about food that I'm not going to die between now and T appointment. The convo started because of what I said while smoking. The moral of the story is don't smoke when you're down. I didn't realize I was going to feel like ****, a liar, not worthy of the dx. that look like they're going to give me. I'm trying to drown out my thoughts with music but they're dark. I'm trying to distract but I don't feel like coloring or anything. I want to cry but I can't. Today is a 5 out of 10 day. 4 more hours till bed.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous 42424, bizi
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I ask many of the same questions and have not yet discovered answers. I am very concerned about you not having a therapist. Are there therapy services available that are low cost or free?
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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It's 82 degrees, but feels too warm so I have the a/c on. I don't understand why the heat seems to be staying in here. I guess I'll open the windows after a while.
I'm waiting for the Haldol to be delivered. I did take 25mg of Seroquel last night and did sleep. Of course I have the hangover effect and would like to just sleep and sleep. One day I'm going to treat myself to a sleep day. I will set the alarm to get up and take care of cat things, then I will go back to bed and just sleep all day and all night. That is my dream. I am outraged because it's looking like law enforcement messed up the shooter situation in Texas. Obviously, they were not only ill-prepared and disorganized, but also afraid of being shot. I do not understand signing up for a job you are afraid to do.
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Yes, wrist pain is common with carpel tunnel.
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Prestiq, Geodon, Lamictal, Valium, Propalanol, topamax B2, Vitamin D, Prilosec, lorsartan, amitriptyline, melatonin. |
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Just for an fyi mum’s eye injection went well. They gave her a numbing agent in an eye drop, then afterwards washed it out with eye drops. She said it didn’t hurt the eye but she could feel it in her big toe! They recommended Refresh gel eye drops as often as she wants and a ice pack as needed. I just made supper and she feels fine now that she ate. They did give her an eye patch but that’s to keep her from touching her eye.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous 42424, bizi, Soupe du jour
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How often does she have to have the injections? I'm glad you've got Mayo nearby to do them. I'm glad it wasn't awful.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous 42424, BeyondtheRainbow, bizi, Soupe du jour
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FYI....
I switched to left handed mouse on the computer made all the difference for me it was a simple fix. (((((HUGS))))) bjizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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