Bipolar check-in #70

Soupe du jour · Oct 20, 2022, 02:08 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Yes I posted some of my art on here

Thank you for the compliment!

You're amazing at baking, I wish I was as good at baking

There was a little convenience store down the street from where I lived as a kid, they sold candy cigarretts, this was in the eary 2000's, I was around 8 years old, my friend and I used to buy them all the time, I doubt they're sold anymore though. Thankfully I never became a smoker, my mom was a heavy smoker and drinker but I didn't pick up those things despite it being just her and I for my life up until she died when I was 22, never had a good role model in my life.

I love reese's pb cups, they're one of my favorite candies, almond joys too, pretty much anything chocolate I love

It's interesting how some children of substance abusers get into the habits, and some don't. You're lucky you chose the latter path. Bipolar disorder certainly pushed me into alcohol abuse, which in turn exacerbated my illness. I'm fine now, though.

I try hard at baking. I love doing it, and practice over the years improved my skills. However, I'm actually more a natural at savory cooking. My sweet baked goods usually taste yummy with good texture, but the appearances aren't first rate, by a stretch. My idea of decorating a cake is sprinkling it with nuts or raspberries. I wouldn't even try to write someone's name with icing. My handwriting was given a "D" in elementary school and would still get that grade today.

Wow! They had the candy cigarettes into the early 2000s? I agree that they're surely no longer sold. As a kid, my favorite candy was Toffifee. They're still around, including in Europe. I also liked the strawberry version of the Charleston Chew. I ate some chocolate, anyway. Now I agree on the Reese's pbs. I can get them in Czechia, but they're not so popular here. Most Czechs don't eat peanut butter, despite eating whole peanuts. They rather lean towards Nutella.

Soupe du jour · Oct 20, 2022, 02:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I was wondering if maybe the doctors test was wrong but then the at home test a few days later was positive too. Mine just came on suddenly in a few hours although I had been tired the day before. But I just randomly woke up with it then it suddenly got worse in the afternoon. I had some strange 24 hour cold 2 weeks before but tested negative then. Its just weird.

My experience was similar, in terms of it coming on suddenly. I knew I had it since it was similar to my husband's case. Also, the symptoms were ones I don't generally have. I do suffer from seasonal allergies, but they affect me differently.

Yea, I think if two tests showed it positive and your symptoms look/feel like covid, you surely definitely have it. I think in the end, most people will have had covid at some point or other. At least now they have better medications to calm it and the hospitals aren't packed to the hilt.

Nammu · Oct 20, 2022, 02:35 PM

I’m missing my fan. The new one is supposed to be here Sunday. Only 3 more days! At first it was quite cold so it didn’t matter too much but now it’s warming up. Last night was quite stifling. Today is nice, in the 50’s and mostly sunny. Took mum to her PT and the lady was running 15 minutes behind, mum was so dejected. She absolutely hates being away. From home. Today there’s a Ruby’s pantry I’m going to go to, you pay $25 and get $50-$75 dollars of groceries. It’s a hodgepodge so you don’t know what it is until you get there, but hey, savings is saving.

Nammu · Oct 20, 2022, 03:00 PM

Ohhh, my son-in -law is in the ER. Pneumonia. He had a fever of 105 and low sodium, whatever that means. Sounds like they are. Going to admit him.. I’m so strongly wanting to say to them that this would be a good time to quit smoking, but that would be mean. But it is what goes though my head. They both smoke and their whole family is always getting sick.

Sunflower123 · Oct 20, 2022, 03:09 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Ohhh, my son-in -law is in the ER. Pneumonia. He had a fever of 105 and low sodium, whatever that means. Sounds like they are. Going to admit him.. I’m so strongly wanting to say to them that this would be a good time to quit smoking, but that would be mean. But it is what goes though my head. They both smoke and their whole family is always getting sick.

@Nammu prayers for your son-in-law. Yeah, one smoker is bad enough.

~Christina · Oct 20, 2022, 03:48 PM

Monday my voice started to crack. Tuesday I started a cough. Yesterday my cough was brutal so off to the walk-in I go.

Of course this is my yearly Bronchitis and huge asthma flare that always hits September or October.

Told the NP what I needed and she was fine with it. The shots of Rocephin and steroid shot along with oral antibiotics and Steroids will keep this from getting worse or dragging out to long.

I have to work tomorrow which I dread being that I’m on my feet 8 hours with only that scrawny 15 min break.

It’s always something !

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Fuzzybear · Oct 20, 2022, 04:09 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Monday my voice started to crack. Tuesday I started a cough. Yesterday my cough was brutal so off to the walk-in I go.

Of course this is my yearly Bronchitis and huge asthma flare that always hits September or October.

Told the NP what I needed and she was fine with it. The shots of Rocephin and steroid shot along with oral antibiotics and Steroids will keep this from getting worse or dragging out to long.

I have to work tomorrow which I dread being that I’m on my feet 8 hours with only that scrawny 15 min break.

It’s always something !

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Hey Christina,

It's good to see you, especially as I'm also online right now

I'm sorry about your yearly bronchitis and huge asthma flare. It sounds brutal.

I haven't been around much at all for quite a long time except for the last day or so.

It's great that you've found work! I did read that before and meant to reply but I don't think I hit send (that's a ''bad'' habit I have sometimes, either that or I delete my posts... I deleted a long reply yesterday in someone else's thread, no idea why even?

I hope you feel better soon my friend

much love

PS I also often feel that helping others helps me as it gets me out of my own head.

Fuzzybear · 04:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Ohhh, my son-in -law is in the ER. Pneumonia. He had a fever of 105 and low sodium, whatever that means. Sounds like they are. Going to admit him.. I’m so strongly wanting to say to them that this would be a good time to quit smoking, but that would be mean. But it is what goes though my head. They both smoke and their whole family is always getting sick.

Hey Nammu,
I'm thinking of you and your son-in-law and sending prayers if wanted.

I hope he does quit smoking. I hope they both do! I understand about wanting to say about quitting smoking right now. (I had 2 relatives who were smokers)

Fuzzybear · 04:54 PM

Hey Sunflower,

I'm glad your day was a good one.

I also feel that it is usually not a good idea to get down in the mud and roll around with the pigs.

I have had many in the past try to bait me to get down in the mud with them.

But in the end, it's the pig who ''wins'' as they enjoy getting dirty. So I guess I must be a class act.

I am gentle and kind.

I have been tempted too! I'm only human like everyone else. And sometimes I've fallen for the pigs' manipulations... there have been many in my life

Much love to all

PS on another forum I once was ''grandiose''?? enough to say I think I'm basically a ''good'' person or at least I try to be good (most of the time..) The first reply was a trollish post which basically said how I probably was ''not a good person'' as I was so ''convinced'' that I was. And how ''people usually''..... (yeah right..)

So, If I had posted how I was a ''terrible person'' then I would have received ''reassurance'' but as I had a somewhat positive self image (after much self reflection) (and much reading.... and ''meds and therapy'') then that made me a ''terrible person'' - according to that troll (who possibly was a deeply disturbed person rather than being a poster who was intentionally trolling)

ok I probably have not explained that ''clearly enough''

I do not have time to go back and edit my post to make it completely clear.

I hope it is ''clear enough''... If not my sleep deprivation is worse than I thought..

Sunflower123 · Oct 20, 2022, 04:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Hey Sunflower,

I'm glad your day was a good one.

I also feel that it is usually not a good idea to get down in the mud and roll around with the pigs.

I have had many in the past try to bait me to get down in the mud with them.

But in the end, it's the pig who ''wins'' as they enjoy getting dirty. So I guess I must be a class act.

I am gentle and kind.

I have been tempted too! I'm only human like everyone else. And sometimes I've fallen for the pigs' manipulations... there have been many in my life

Much love to all

Fuzzy - God bless you for your message. It is greatly appreciated as are you.

Moose72 · Oct 20, 2022, 04:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Ohhh, my son-in -law is in the ER. Pneumonia. He had a fever of 105 and low sodium, whatever that means. Sounds like they are. Going to admit him.. I’m so strongly wanting to say to them that this would be a good time to quit smoking, but that would be mean. But it is what goes though my head. They both smoke and their whole family is always getting sick.

I have a similar situation with my good friend C. He smokes more than two packs a day and says he won't ever quit because he loves it so much. He has bladder cancer that came back. The American Cancer Society says that smoking is the number one cause of bladder cancer. He acts like cancer is no big deal and when he dies he won't know he's dead anyway.

Fuzzybear · Oct 20, 2022, 04:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Sunflower123

Fuzzy - God bless you for your message. It is greatly appreciated as are you.

Thanks Sunflower.

I added a bit to my post. I'm in a bit of a rush so the bit I added may not make much sense.

Much love to all

HALLIEBETH87 · Oct 20, 2022, 04:42 PM

Eek. Was 33 f this am but 50s now

Sunflower123 · Oct 20, 2022, 04:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Thanks Sunflower.

I added a bit to my post. I'm in a bit of a rush so the bit I added may not make much sense.

Much love to all

Oh Fuzzy, there is no doubt at all that you are a good person. I’m sorry that happened to you.

Much love to you.

*Beth* · Oct 20, 2022, 06:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I was wondering if maybe the doctors test was wrong but then the at home test a few days later was positive too. Mine just came on suddenly in a few hours although I had been tired the day before. But I just randomly woke up with it then it suddenly got worse in the afternoon. I had some strange 24 hour cold 2 weeks before but tested negative then. Its just weird.

I'm suspicious of the tests, especially the home tests. With the exception of having had scarlett fever when I was a kid, I have never been so terribly sick as I was in August. I seriously faced the possibility that I may be dying. I figured that I had covid, but didn't test until the third week of being sick. Frankly, I was so sick that even doing the test was tremendously difficult. When I did test it was negative. Maybe I waited too long to test, maybe I didn't even have covid - or maybe the test was wonky.

*Beth* · Oct 20, 2022, 06:22 PM

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Hi @HALLIEBETH87. 32 Celsius is indeed pretty hot. It equals 89.6 Fahrenheit, so is like a hot day in summer. ...

Technically, it was 32.2 Celsius yesterday. Thankfully, today is just slightly cooler - I need the fans, but not the a/c. I'll take it.

I well remember the excitement of the proposed change to using the metric system in the '70's. We spent so much time and effort in school to learn it, then it was tossed out. I've always been embarrassed that the US lags behind in oh, so many ways...the metric system, not teaching a second language in schools until upper grades. And then comes the health care system...and. On it goes.

Fuzzybear · Oct 20, 2022, 06:30 PM

Oh... the health care system. For mental health.

Fuzzybear · 06:58 PM

Hey Sunflower,

I hope the DBT therapy goes well.

I have not found a group anywhere near this location.

I did go to a DBT group here on msf a while back (when it was more busy here). It was run by a friend who is a therapist (not in our country though)

Nammu · Oct 20, 2022, 06:36 PM

Oh lord. They are still in the ER! That’s 7hrs now. They live in a town smaller than the one I live in and they recently closed the hospital wing, so it he does get admitted it will be to here and 30 minute ride or to Rochester a hour and a half ride! Rural health care has really declined!

I went to Ruby’s pantry. It’s a once a month pay food help thing. You pay $25 and get $50-$75 dollars of food. The draw back is that it’s bulk sized food. But we did score two boxes of dipping dots strawberry chocolate. I must say it’s very good. It would be better if we had a bigger freezer though. Tonight despite not being very hungry we’ve gotta eat the family sized ziti, as there’s no more freezer room.

Anybody know how to prepare and cook bok choy 🥬! Never had it at home before. Got two bundles of it. .???

Fuzzybear · Oct 20, 2022, 07:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Hi @HALLIEBETH87. 32 Celsius is indeed pretty hot. It equals 89.6 Fahrenheit, so is like a hot day in summer. This may seem odd considering that 32 F is the freezing point in Fahrenheit. The freezing point in Celsius is always easy to remember, as it is 0 C. It's also easy to remember the boiling point in Celsius as that is 100 C, while in Fahrenheit the boiling point is 212 F.

I knew a little about the metric system from my childhood in the mid 1970s, as it was taught in my second grade class, and I recall loving those few lessons. But then they stopped teaching it much, because a certain US president nixed the Act that was to spearhead the transfer (see
Metric Conversion Act - Wikipedia [Political junk.] In recent years, I've had to learn it more again. Having a European husband and moving to Europe made it necessary. Frankly, the metric system is far easier to use and more accurate/practical than the US measurement systems, yet the US public still uses the old ones. I think it's a matter of lost chance to change, and a romanticism or allegiance to the olden ways. And again, political stuff (US corporations not wanting to have to change $$$$). The US soda (pop) industry coincidentally uses metric for their large plastic bottle products (liter or 2 liter), but not most of their canned ones (still 12 oz, mostly). It was their flirtation with the change to metric, back in the 1970s. Other producers hadn't made a change. Then the Act was nixed... [I love such history! Sorry if this is uninteresting to anyone.]

How I remember approximate temp feel in Celsius is:

-40 C = -40 F (the temp C & F scales intersect) - Evil nasty freezing day in Siberian winter
0 C - Freezing point (32 F)
10 C - Kinda nippy, need warm jacket (50 F)
20 C - The temp my MIL required for Hubby to go outside without a jacket, when a kid (68 F).
30 C - Hot day in summer (89.6 F)
37 C - Base body temperature (98.6 F)
40 C - Brutally hot summer day (104 F)
100 C - Boiling point (212 F)
175 C - About 350 F, a common cake baking temp
200 C - Temp for making baked salmon (15 to 20 min) or chicken parts (35 to 45 mins)
250 C - Temp for making homemade pizza in regular oven
-273.15 C is the temp assigned to 0 degrees Kelvin (Absolute Zero), which is around -459.67 F

If one asks "What the 'F' about Fahrenheit?" it is a good question. The original creator of this system, physicist Daniel Gabriel Fahrenheit, in the early 1700s, likely based 0 F on "the freezing temperature of a solution of brine made of water, ice, and ammonium chloride (a salt)". While Celsius freezing point is for water alone. US volume and distance measurements are based on even more quasi ancient systems. For example, the US foot is literally based on the length of the average man's foot size, at the time. Again, all metric measurements follow the 0 to 100 system, making mathematical conversions far easier and 100 grams of water = 100 milliliters of water. 1 kilogram (1000 grams) equals 1 liter of water, etc. 100 cm = 1 meter and 1000 meters equals 1 kilometer. With the US system, you really do need a calculator or a bunch of tools that can be a nuisance, or be a mathematical whiz/savant.

Good post. Thanks for sharing this Soupe.

Fuzzybear · Oct 20, 2022, 07:52 PM

Here's hoping it cycles back...

*Beth* · 07:02 PM

I fully understand Maya A.'s words. I do. Yet, they feel limiting. Are we not all multi-faceted beings? There should never be the "one dimensional man" - it's not natural. Like fine diamonds, human beings are of many facets. And shouldn't we be?

With regard to forgiveness, there are so many perspectives. And different perspectives for different days, for varying circumstances, for many reasons.

I'm thinking of 3 examples, off the top of my mind. (lol, cut me slack on the length this post will be.)

Margaret Thatcher (certainly not someone whose politics I agreed with! Yet, I give her her due for her grit and commitment, and her damned hard work, as a woman facing a roomful of skeptical men over and over again).
It was said that Thatcher had this poem hung over her desk:

No Enemies
-Charles MacKay

You have no enemies, you say?
Alas! my friend, the boast is poor;
He who has mingled in the fray
Of duty, that the brave endure,
Must have made foes! If you have none,
Small is the work that you have done.
You've hit no traitor on the hip,
You've dashed no cup from perjured lip,
You've never turned the wrong to right,
You've been a coward in the fight.

And then there's this one...life is so short, after all....

Forgiveness
-John Greenleaf Whittier

My heart was heavy, for its trust had been
Abused, its kindness answered with foul wrong;
So, turning gloomily from my fellow-men,
One summer Sabbath day I strolled among
The green mounds of the village burial-place;
Where, pondering how all human love and hate
Find one sad level; and how, soon or late,
Wronged and wrongdoer, each with meekened face,
And cold hands folded over a still heart,
Pass the green threshold of our common grave,
Whither all footsteps tend, whence none depart,
Awed for myself, and pitying my race,
Our common sorrow, like a mighty wave,
Swept all my pride away, and trembling I forgave!

And this...so gentle...no expectations, no guilts, no dues to be paid. Just...the sweet comfort of accepting peace.

I Forgive It All
-Mudcrutch (Tom Petty)

Take my horse down to the water
Let him graze awhile
Take my horse down to the water
Let him graze awhile

I have not been down these roads since I was a child
I ain't broke and I ain't hungry but I'm close enough to care
I ain't broke and I ain't hungry but I'm close enough to care
Send my things to my niece Laura

She'll keep 'em over there
I forgive it all, I forgive it all
With her, I forgive it all

There ain't no money in this deal, I just tag along
There ain't no money in this deal, I just tag along
Some things I feel right, somebody else thinks wrong

I forgive it all, I forgive it all
With her, I forgive it all

People are what people make em' that ain't gonna change
People are what people make 'em, that ain't gonna change
There ain't nothing you can do, nothing you could rearrange

But I forgive it all, I forgive it all
With her, I forgive it all.

Nammu · Oct 20, 2022, 08:07 PM

I see you can roast bok choy. That sounds like a good recipe. Simple too! I’m a simple cook, nothing too complicated for me.

Fuzzybear · Oct 20, 2022, 08:11 PM

Good post

Quote:

Originally Posted by *Beth*

I fully understand Maya A.'s words. I do. Yet, they feel limiting. Are we not all multi-faceted beings? There should never be the "one dimensional man" - it's not natural. Like fine diamonds, human beings are of many facets. And shouldn't we be?

With regard to forgiveness, there are so many perspectives. And different perspectives for different days, for varying circumstances, for many reasons.

I'm thinking of 3 examples, off the top of my mind. (lol, cut me slack on the length this post will be.)

Margaret Thatcher (certainly not someone whose politics I agreed with! Yet, I give her her due for her grit and commitment, and her damned hard work, as a woman facing a roomful of skeptical men over and over again).
It was said that Thatcher had this poem hung over her desk:

No Enemies
-Charles MacKay

You have no enemies, you say?
Alas! my friend, the boast is poor;
He who has mingled in the fray
Of duty, that the brave endure,
Must have made foes! If you have none,
Small is the work that you have done.
You've hit no traitor on the hip,
You've dashed no cup from perjured lip,
You've never turned the wrong to right,
You've been a coward in the fight.

And then there's this one...life is so short, after all....

Forgiveness
-John Greenleaf Whittier

My heart was heavy, for its trust had been
Abused, its kindness answered with foul wrong;
So, turning gloomily from my fellow-men,
One summer Sabbath day I strolled among
The green mounds of the village burial-place;
Where, pondering how all human love and hate
Find one sad level; and how, soon or late,
Wronged and wrongdoer, each with meekened face,
And cold hands folded over a still heart,
Pass the green threshold of our common grave,
Whither all footsteps tend, whence none depart,
Awed for myself, and pitying my race,
Our common sorrow, like a mighty wave,
Swept all my pride away, and trembling I forgave!

And this...so gentle...no expectations, no guilts, no dues to be paid. Just...the sweet comfort of accepting peace.

I Forgive It All
-Mudcrutch (Tom Petty)

Take my horse down to the water
Let him graze awhile
Take my horse down to the water
Let him graze awhile

I have not been down these roads since I was a child
I ain't broke and I ain't hungry but I'm close enough to care
I ain't broke and I ain't hungry but I'm close enough to care
Send my things to my niece Laura

She'll keep 'em over there
I forgive it all, I forgive it all
With her, I forgive it all

There ain't no money in this deal, I just tag along
There ain't no money in this deal, I just tag along
Some things I feel right, somebody else thinks wrong

I forgive it all, I forgive it all
With her, I forgive it all

People are what people make em' that ain't gonna change
People are what people make 'em, that ain't gonna change
There ain't nothing you can do, nothing you could rearrange

But I forgive it all, I forgive it all
With her, I forgive it all.

Fuzzybear · Oct 20, 2022, 08:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

I see you can roast bok choy. That sounds like a good recipe. Simple too! I’m a simple cook, nothing too complicated for me.

I've never tried bok choy. Hope you enjoy

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