[Miss Laura]

My symptoms are currently;

1. Sleeping too much
2. Struggling to get to sleep
3. Struggling to remain asleep
4. Struggling to get up in the morning taking me up to 4 hours to get up
5. No motivation
6. Lack of interest in doing anything other than lying in Silence
7. Can't be bothered with people
8. Struggling when in house to do or maintain my house
9. Struggling to maintain a routine
10. Thoughts of putting things in place in case I'm no longer able to or not here

I understand I'm in a depressive state. It was bound to cone I've been hypo manic or manic since January. No help from my mental health team. I've had to ride it all out.

Tomorrow (Sunday 9th July) is my Mum's 2nd Anniversary. I'm holding it together today but I've been in tears the whole week. I understand this is a natural phase I will have to deal with. She was cremated so we have a plaque where her parents are buried so we can visit. I don't like cemetaries plus I live too far away. But I'm going tomorrow with my siblings and Dad.

I wish I could get some kind of support from my mental health team but I can't. I guess I'm just frustrated which is why I'm writing this??

Anyways sorry for bugging you guys, hope you are all well

[bizi]

I have heard that when you lose someone close to you that the first year you are in shock then the 2nd year is worse. anniversary dates are hard so be gentle with your self.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[dmom3005]

Also please don't think you are bothering any of us. I know that
for me at least I'm here to help and listen to you if I can.

I know what it means to lose a loved one and not feel you have anyone
listening. So please if it would help talk to me and anyone else who is
listening about the person you lost if you would like. I know I am here to
listen. Just tell me at least anything that will help you.

I know I just celebrated my mom's 5th year anniversary of her passing
in June on the 10th. She was a wonderful person. And we all knew she
was passing soon, we weren't ready for it when it came. But we sure
celebrated her love and we miss her every day of our life.

So we celebrate her life every day now, we loved her more that life
its self.

So please let us know how we can help.

Donna

[~Christina]

Hugs Miss Laura. Grief has no time limit. It takes time to process the loss. It never goes away. I still mourn the loss of my Dad in 97 and my Mom 2004 . Eventually we manage.

Your aware your dealing with depression which sucks but it’s good you realize what’s going on. Maybe try journaling? Might help ?

Hang in there :

[Fuzzybear]

Miss Laura

[Miss Laura]

I'm really still feeling rubbish constable crying and having a tough time getting motivated. I'm constantly tired. Sleeping lots. I'm irritated too. I got my depot injection on Thurs 13th July. Hoping that will help with the depression

[Miss Laura]

I'm still not great! I'm really paranoid. I'm currently staying at my Sister's. When I'm out or alone I get really stressed and the paranoia shines through. I thought the injection might of helped but it hasn't

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

I'm really still feeling rubbish constable crying and having a tough time getting motivated. I'm constantly tired. Sleeping lots. I'm irritated too. I got my depot injection on Thurs 13th July. Hoping that will help with the depression

Did you get a depokote injection?Is that the med or was it some other med?
I am sorry you are still feeling like rubish.
Call your therapist or pdoc and ask for help.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[Miss Laura]

No my depot was Aririprazole. My therapist is off sick and my Psychiatrist won't touch me as I can't take anti-depressants. So it's a waste of time

[bizi]

What about adding lamictal? It is the number one mood stabilizer?
often used as a combo with a good antipsychotic medication which I presumme is the depot that you are taking.
Just ask.
sorry that you are suffering.
bizi

[Miss Laura]

I can't add anything my Psychiatrist has to. To get to him I have to call the duty worker abd if they deem me in need they speak to him and see what he says.

I called Duty Worker today she said yeah I can't take an anti-depressant so I just need to ride it out. I'm to call back in a week if I'm no better. Waste of time calling up but hey ho!

Yeah the Aririprazole is my anti-psychotic

[bizi]

I meant call and ask the pdoc to prescribe it for you.

Lamictal is a very friendly medication. Look it up and read about it.
It is highly prescribed in the USA.
good luck, bizi

[raspberrytorte]

I agree with bizi about Lamictal. I love my Lamictal! I would definitely call and ask about that med. It could really help you.

I hope you feel better soon.

Lots of hugs!

[Miss Laura]

I spoke to a nurse at the end of last week she says to call back today (Wed) but I don't see the point they aren't doing anything other than listening and telling me what I already know ie sleep hygiene and routine. I just struggle to maintain them. Ended up in tears last night 25th July in bed I'm at my sister's she came through we had a long chat. I cried for 2 hours. I'm dithering whether to call them today or not it's 11:15am now. I just feel like a pile of poop

[bizi]

That is depression talking.
I am sorry that you are suffering.
please ask you pdoc about lamictal.
it is a mood stabilizer with anti depressant qualities.
bizi

[Miss Laura]

I called the nurse up, she is going to put a word into Psychiatrist fat lot of good that's going to do but hey ho I'm playing their game. I just feel so exhausted I have nothing left in me

[bizi]

I am sorry it is so hard for you now.
I hope they prescribe the lamictal.
Hope you feel better soon.
bizi

[MuddyBoots]

I want to vouch for Lamictal as well. I didn't think it was helping me much, but they cold-turkeyed me off of it in the ED a couple weeks ago for absolutely no reason other than to torture me and now I'm imploding in a black hole.

[Miss Laura]

I've still not heard from mental health team. I doubt they will do anything its left to me to perk up unfortunately

[bizi]

most docs here, close up shop friday after noon then reopen at 8-9 on monday.
good luck and get out side for a bit. walk bare foot if you can. connect with nature.
bizi

[BeyondtheRainbow]

How are you doing Miss Laura? Did you hear anything from your pdoc?

Hope you are feeling better!

[Miss Laura]

Hi, I'm OK still feeling rubbish not heard anything from anyone. I'm due to get my depot injection on Thursday. Going to talk to the nurses. I tried contacting a mental health organisation to see if they could help ne get into a routine etc I need to be referred by my Psychiatrist. So gonna again talk to the nurses on Thursday. I've been staying with my Sister most of the week. Just cause my paranoia is quite bad