LONELY!

It's been a while since I've been in the site, my life has been so crazy since being diagnosed with bipolar (rapid cycling) I feel so stressed out, I can't sleep at night but yet could sleep all day, my doc has me on epival which was helping a lot but in the last 6mths he's had to increase it now i'm at the max and he's got me on anti depressants and just recently anxiety meds!!! I just got offered a new job with better money I should be excited but instead I feel alone, and depressed?!?!?!

Congrats on the job offer. I'm sorry that you can't feel excited about it, but really it is great. I hope your meds work out quickly for you and you are able to find the right combo. I've had the same sleep problems and I can empathize. If only we could sleep the day away to make up for the lack of sleep we get at night.

Sometimes when we reach a goal, there is a let down afterward, or if there is no one to share the good news with, or if we are afraid of success, or if we feel society 'forces..' us to feel a certain way, that can explain the opposite feeling you may feel......perhaps there is reason, but perhaps you are on too much medication although I am not sure just a thought...perhaps a second opinion? I felt lonely for many years until I happened upon the right kinf of friends that fit me....took many other friendships until I settled on the right one...

Bosley, your not the only one who feels the same way when that happens to you.

It also happens to me also, feeling depressed and lonely at the same time it happens to me a lot even if sometimes a good thing happens. I'm also a rapid cycler, and its very stressfull. just hang in there with me, im trying to get my moods under control also, by the way congrats on the job offer.

Thanks that means a lot
it's been rough, i started cutting myself, and just overall feeling so anxious and mad and sad ..................It's crazy!

I can relate to feeling anxious, sad and mad all at the same time. What I tell myself and sometimes it seems to work is "Breath...." Know that this too shall pass.

I also can relate to the lonliness. I think this "illness" is a lonely illness, it helps to talk and get some of it out though. Keep coming back.