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#541
I'm sorry @Mountaindewed I know what I portray suburban soccer mom that *****es her coffee is to hot, that's what I look like too a perfect life, but reality is I'm chronically homeless, chronically hungry but engaging in an eating disorder, self injurious/psychotic which is light-years away from the drugs, sex, ground beef like skin, eating disordered, oding, run away, homicidal kid I was.
I also understand you've only known me on antipsychotics and don't know the years of work this group has our in to get me on them and to trust Drs. I know this is not the worst of it by far. __________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog Last edited by Victoria'smom; Today at 01:16 AM.. |
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Sorry. I was rude. I hope things get better for you.
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#544
Good morning, slept well. Started the vitamin D my doctor prescribed. Feeling pretty good. Going to that cafe today later when they open.
Just listening to music now and waking up. __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#545
@Victoria'smom, I often read your posts and am taken aback by your resilience.
You stick with things, you continue work on them, and just didn't give up, even though you feel bad. Very inspiring! __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#546
Had my coffee! After my purchase I had like $1.50 leftover on my gift card so I let them round up the total and donate the rest to St. Jude
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I'm doing well this morning. I slept well though I woke up in the middle of a dream where my old art teacher from high school was teaching English class and I was up front presenting a report on the first Harry Potter book and had a witch broom, a backpack, and a homemade golden snitch ball. Kind of weird. I was able to go for a 30 min. walk. I wish it were cooler outside and actually fall-like weather. Later this morning, I have to go to the high school to pick up my daughter who is taking the PSAT. She goes to online school at home but has to take the PSAT at the local high school.
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#548
Fantastic. I’m dissociating
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I think it's when seeing each other get on the other side of those roughest times on this forum that I feel most hopeful. @Victoria'smom, I want to thank you and just let you know that you're a big reason I'm looking into how to get myself back to school for something I've been interested in on and off for a long time. I love the perseverance. I know it's annoying--I was in a group where they always commended me on "perseverance" because, what? Because I was alive? Did I have another choice? I saw something on reddit or something where someone said "wow, look at that tree growing even though there's a fence in the way, what a resilient tree," followed by "the tree probably just wishes there weren't a ****ing fence in the way." I don't know where I was going, but I just finished reading "A Tree Grows in Brooklyn" yesterday and started "A Secret Life of Bees" this morning (another NP reading list book), so I'm a little impressed by how life finds a way I guess. __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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#550
good morning everyone hope that everyone has a decent day and if things are difficult right now that they even out. I'm feeling okay a little nauseous but that's normal for me. looking forward to seeing my gastro in a few weeks. getting ready to get my second crown on Thursday, and have a med switch but I'm uncertain what exactly the plan is. he wants to switch me from lexapro to Effexor and I'm feeling scared. not doing great with taking meds consistently, but I need to, the problem is I feel like I'm on the wrong combination. anyway, thanks for reading (:
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@MuddyBoots Thank you, I don't see any other choice. I hate looking high functioning but struggling. I feel no one takes me seriously because I'm too afraid to stop the niceties and explain. __________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#552
I'm trying to figure out a good plan on doing this program. It's pretty competitive to get into (half of people that apply for it get in), and I have some things against me, but I have some for me too. I've taken the prerequisites a loooong time ago, but I did well (B+ in honors biology w/lab, A in gen chem I w/lab, and they only want intro to algebra but I've been in three calc courses although I withdrew from one, but got As/Bs in the others). And then there's the fact I've been doing jack the past 8 years and having to try and figure out a way to explain that along with my criminal background. Not sure if someone "older" than the average person going into school and a woman going into STEM will help or hinder though.
The guy I talked to said doing the courses required during the program before being accepted into the program will increase my chances of getting in, so I'm doing some digging to see if I can "join a program" that has those courses at a closer CC/online (getting into the program so I can be a proper student getting financial aid and such) to switch if/when I get admitted. It's easy to get overwhelmed and confused (no one has taught me anything on smoothly getting into and paying for school), but I know I'm going to figure it out. __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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#553
@MuddyBoots if anyone asks you were caring for a sick family member for those years but the issue has resolved. No one needs to know it's yourself. As far as your criminal background I say own it make a list of things you learned from it and try to get past the shame. If you pm me I can help with school stuff that's what I do for people and having 20+ hours a day to indulge in psychosis isn't healthy. You can spin it you can do it.
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