Bipolar Check-in #84

It was so scary. I was vacuuming our bedroom and the vacuum hit the radiator and it sounded like something ignited and sparks went flying! I squealed like a little girl! Then it smelled like burning. I texted my husband about it and he put in a maintenance request. I don't trust that radiator now. I turned the heat WAY down in here! I'm just happy the carpet didn't catch on fire or anything. Those sparks looked evil. 😈

Other than that exciting event not much has happened today yet. I did my usual cleaning, took my shower, ate a nuclear power plant sized apple for lunch (seriously. The thing was HUGE!). Took my anti-anxiety pills and a seroquel. Ready for a nap. Know I should write, but I keep on procrastinating for some reason! I don't know why!

It's really starting to annoy me though. Maybe it'll annoy me enough to the point where I'll get angry 😠, and then be like, "FCK THIS!!!!" And start writing. That would be amazing.

Are new meds supposed to make you feel like you have the flu? I've been napping since I got done with therapy and I have this headache that won't go away. I listened to music while napping which might not have helped.

I drank a peppermint latte and now I feel pretty ok.

@Mountaindewed

Think it depends on the med and the individual.

yup. and the combo of meds, condition (etc. if I had a stomach pain, I wouldn't take Tylenol because I have poor liver functioning and that can cause further pain)

Feeling the autumn vibes today. It’s definitely cold today. Have the heat on, vanilla scented wax melting in my wax warmer and a cup of hot cinnamon tea in my pumpkin cup and a good book to read. A fun way to make ordinary moments feel really special.

Is a 135/95 blood pressure bad? I've had the worst heartburn since starting the new med last night, and tums and Pepto aren't working. I'm wondering if I should be concerned or not.

I went to the dr today for lower back pain but while I was there I said I felt faint. They gave me juice and crackers. The dr looked in my ears because I said I felt like they were closing up. She thought my back pain was just from my period even though it was the day before my period and severe when my friend with benefits was over.Not your normal period backache!

I called N2. She found an urgent care that is open till midnight and can do ivs! (I do NOT want to go to the ER!). They're open till midnight! She has to do an errand but will pick me up around six since I can't drive feeling faint. I told the nurse I'd been feeling lightheaded and faint especially when walking, my mouth is super dry, I've had diarrhea for days probably because my regular doctor told me to take miralax every day! I was feeling this way at 8:30 this morning in the drs waiting room and told the doctor how I was feeling but she thought all I needed was something to eat. Eating didn't help! Not even lunch with Noah helped! She was more concerned with my back pain. Which I'm all set for now but the muscle relaxer might be dehydrating or at least give me a dry mouth. My mouth is so dry that it hurts and biotene only lasts less than 5 minutes.What a quandary. I haven't taken the new muscle relaxer yet. I guess I should write down all the meds I'm on. At least the nurse on the phone had the flow chart that said to get IV fluids! I don't think I've ever been this dehydrated before! The biotene for dry mouth isn't lasting but for 5 minutes! Aha! Someone told the doctor I saw and she said that the diarrhea wasn't mentioned at the appointment. Now N2 is driving home and then going back out for something then putting me on the waitlist online and THEN picking me up! I should eat and get my med list together.

I just got back from the best pedicure ever. They used hot stone to massage my legs. The colour I chose is metallic pink so it’s got a shiny gloss. Self care is real I tell you! Just ordered my son’s stationery online for next year. $85 so not that bad. I do need to get him new t shirts for his school uniform though he’s cut holes in his current one.

I got a $2,490 scholarship for my winter class.

I’m at urgent care

What’s wrong @Moose72?

I took another dose of that med and I feel a lot more chilled out now. I ate some crackers for dinner and I'm listening to Whitney Houston. My therapist thinks I just like indie bands that are not well known, and Elton John. I'm actually a huge Whitney fan.

Dizzy as hell right now. But my friend got me some stuff from the pharmacy to hopefully help so we’ll see how it goes. Trying to avoid going to the hospital. I think it’s a combination of some kind of vertigo and electrolyte imbalance.

I exercised again so that makes three days in a row which i'm happy about. I'm enjoying the early dark. I ate too much junk today. It's an ongoing struggle. My dog has me worried as she's not doing too well. Hope she is okay. My tolerance for things was better today; not quite so irritable. Feel sore from exercising, but i guess that's to be expected. Drank a gallon of water, which means i didn't drink it as pop, so that's a win too.

Hugs to all in need!

I feel sick as **** and I'm violently puking and my jaw hurts and I'm nauseated and I feel weak and my blood pressure is 171/102.

Should I go to the ER?

Legit qusteion.

Went in for a 6 month lab update with my family doctor. Labs are great. I'm still on the edge of diabetes but the metformin I take for weight control is managing it if it needs managed. He didn't say anything about that so it's good.

I left with a diagnosis of bronchitis/possible pneumonia, a script for antibiotics and the hated "I'd give you steroids but I can't give you steroids".


Glad I had that appointment although I hated showing up sick to a wellness check. I have had a cough for a few days but it got a lot worse between yesterday and today so I couldn't cancel and I wasn't sure it was that bad until today. They had to get the doctor to agree to see me since I was wearing a mask. Oops. Maybe I should have called in but it's not COVID.


My mom posted a new picture on Facebook. I don't know if it is the angle or just a shot of reality but she suddenly looked her age to me in the photo. It really hit me that she's not young. She is so incredibly independent and active it's hard to remember. I hope the picture is off and I can return to my previously scheduled denial.

@Mountaindewed Only you know how you feel. If it were me I'd probably go in to be checked but if you waited a bit and things calmed down then it's just a judgment call.

Back from urgent care. I was dehydrated which I knew. They gave me 5 of those half bottles of water which is equal to a bag of IV fluids. So I could finally pee and give a urine sample. The portal said all tests were normal and continue to hydrate yourself. I got dehydrated because I was taking Mirilax every day per my primary’s recommendation for constipation from psych meds. The problem was I didn’t think to stop taking it when I had several days of diarrhea.i was just taking it every day per my primary’s instructions. Just took my new muscle relaxer for my back and gabapentin. This new muscle relaxer shouldn’t cause sedation so it’s fine to take with gabapentin.

I’ve got a follow up to this urgent care visit coming up one of these days soon. Monday is my pelvic ultrasound to check on my ovarian cyst. I’m thinking it was normal as my period started 10 days later. A little short for a luteal phase but that’s probably normal for perimenopause.

I had some pedialyte to help with the electrolytes and some Dramamine for the dizziness

Seems to have calmed down at least a bit. I was on the verge of going to the ER cause my heart was pounding and I was very dizzy like room spinning. The dizziness has calmed down some and the heart pounding stopped. Part of the heart pounding thing cause as soon as I felt like the room was spinning I started having a panic attack on top of it because I was afraid I was dying.

I had one other episode of dizziness like this severe a few months ago. I felt like the entire room was spinning around quite literally. I managed to go to sleep that time and I woke up feeling better and didn’t experience it again till this evening. It’s highly uncomfortable and scary so I would like it to not happen again. I’d also like to know wtf it actually is and what causes it. I know my meds cause dizziness but they never have for me and I’ve been on them a long time. This is like sudden vertigo

My dog has perked up!

@Blue_Bird vertigo is the worst. I'm sorry you're having to deal with it.

Work is weird right now because of how things have blown up/the situation I mentioned yesterday that my boss didn't handle well. There is a lot of tension between certain people too. Eventually, things will probably even out a bit, but my guess is that will take some time. It sounds like I'm not the only one thinking of getting a new job though-there could be a few of us who don't come back.

I had a nice evening at home. I went on a walk, watched a tv show, and did a little reading. Now, it's already almost time for bed.

That's great!!

Oh, and for what it's worth, my SAD lamp is helping. My depression is better yesterday and today after I think I found the sweet spot for the intensity. I'm not all better by any means and combined with being sick I may not get out of bed tomorrow but something is improving I think.

I don't use the SAD lamp even every year but I recommend having one if you are at all prone to seasonal depressions. I suspect I'll be using mine until March or April now.

I’ve always wanted to get a SAD Lamp but I’ve just never gotten around to doing it then every winter I kick myself in the shin for not getting one!