Bipolar Check-in #84

I wasn’t really sure whether EMDR would be effective for anything, kind of doubted it would, it seemed a little silly to me, be but it seems to be having some effect. My psychiatrist thinks it’s good my therapist is doing EMDR with me. He said it’s really good. It was originally used for veterans with PTSD

Blue bird, i did 3 things that seemed to help my vaccination recovery 1. Drank a buttload of tea! 2. Rubbed the areas with my diabetes alcohol swabs to cool them - google says alcohol is not recomnended (read that after i did it, oh well!) - but a cold compress is. 3. Forgot my coffee one morning and slept all day, next day i was back to normal. But i think the 2 huge (20 oz) mugs of tea did it - i was gulping it down. I didnt FEEL thirsty but whatever, it was delicious.

Hope your recovery goes smoothly!

Thank you! That's actually what I'm doing right now, drinking tea and I have some ice packs in the freezer that I can use for cold. Usually vaccines don't affect me too much but if they do it goes away quick cause I take it easy for a day instead of pushing myself to exercise and be productive like I normally do. Tomorrow I only have two things I need to do. Go to the food pantry and go to the nutrition class but those are both easy things, other than that I can rest

My flu & COVID vaccines were relatively symptom free. I didn't do anything but take some Tylenol beforehand. I probaby should have put a cold compress on my arm but didn't so I couldn't sleep on that side that night. It was sore, but not nearly as sore as the sore arm I had the first time I got the COVID vaccine. Good for you for getting vaccinated. I think even if you get the COVID virus but are vaccinated, it is supposed to be less severe. I really wouldn't know as I have NEVER gotten COVID,not even when H & my daughter got it this past Feb. I was semi-suspicious some of my psych cocktails may have helped in protecting me, who knows?! We had all gotten the vaccines and at the same time.

I collect this certain brand of soda bottle and wanted to see if they had any of the ones I don't have yet, but they didn't, so instead I came home with Bailey's and underwear... Barely ate yesterday. My CM just said she'd tell my pdoc I'm down, thinks I could be anemic again (food tw)

I just did some paperwork for nh work stuff. ughhh why do I feel I fked that up?

My heartburn and anxiety were downright distresful today when I woke up. My new stomach med was just not helping. So I went back on my old one. I called my doctors nurse and told her what was up. I took some dramamine at 10 and then the med at 10:30. I passed out for a bit and then I woke up right before noon feeling so much better.

But I could just not get my heartburn under control even with quitting coffee and taking multiple antacids. And my anxiety was a wreck. I didn't leave my house at all since I started the med.

I've been sleeping all day but my anxiety and stomach are fine. My meds have just knocked me out.

OMG, had a bit of a buying spree, just hope not too terrible. I've already had to buy a ton of cat stuff this morning, have large vet bills, and an upcoming crown for my tooth. I haven't splurged on myself forever but I got a pilates band, a pilates ball and then a SAD lamp to try for my pdoc who thinks it will help my anxiety. We'll see. But I feel guilty spending the money in a tough financial month.

God, I hope this is not hypomania...!

blueberry, not every blip portends an episode. Sounds like those are all needed items, just not the best timing to need them.

I got my flu and covid shots back in Oct, had to issue at all. I think my body has built up an immune response to the vaccine so it’s not such a big deal anymore. I had heard this years flu shot was different from the past years so maybe that’s why no reaction to that one too.

I’ve complained before how hot this building is, I’m starting to feel like a record on repeat. But the heat woke me up before Dawn. It had stopped raining to I opened the window and was able to get back to sleep for a couple hours. Tomorrow the temperature drops outside I hope that keeps it cooler in here.

I did my laundry today, my luck continues to hold. There was nobody in the laundry room the entire time. Yay! This seems to be a good time. Unfortunately the good dyer didn’t work today. Took my money but wouldn’t start. Tomorrow I do sheets. I forgot I wanted to try and get ahold of the social worker. I really miss my email. I need to reach her soon as I need to sus out which advantage plan is best.

Pumpkin Cookies for all.

@Blueberrybook

I see both my therapist and psychiatrist tomorrow, but am just going to mention my anxiety and paranoia have been really bad. No one needs to know I'm soulless.

My CPAP mask has been broken for weeks if not longer. The strap magnet broke off so it no longer seals. Therefore it leaks and probably isn’t doing much. I woke up at 5 am today and have felt tired the whole time. My liver doctor’s nurse doesn’t think Vraylar is increasing my liver enzymes but they want me to get them checked Monday after I see my Pnurse. They said they went up but then back down and wondered what I’d changed. I don’t see the lower results in my portal so I dunno. My new CPAP equipment is on its way! I hope they get here soon. I have to mail back the wrong stuff soon too. They are sending a shipping label.

Raspberry, you are not soulless. Definitely not.

saw to today. i needed it. helped alot. im a lot calmer. ive been taking klonopin nearly daily. idk how else to fall asleep when so anxious like i am

I had such a nice day yesterday i was hoping for a repeat today but my depression came back. My order of frozen meals and my bottle with a mixing ball for protein powder came so i ate better today. But exercise didn't help and neither did spending time in nature. I couldn't tolerate my game or my soaps or music or "Ozark." I feel like i'm just enduring life.

I had a pedicure. I was long overdue. I feel guilty though because I’m still broke since Taking my daughter on a $366 grocery shop because she was broke. Still heard nothing back from the principal regarding my teaching allotment for next year and it’s starting to undo all the work that’s taken me 3 months to achieve. Still have my bloody period and it’s still so darn heavy. I’m going to go anaemic if this continues…..

Good morning. I slept pretty good. My right arm is extremely sore from the two vaccinations yesterday.

I’m going to the food pantry soon. I’m out ofl literally everything except a couple packs of ramen noodles and some instant mashed potatoes. So I’m gonna go there and get some food to get me through the next week or so.

Got a lot of good food at the food pantry not to mention an entire cake!

I had my ultrasound. I hate the whole coming in wearing Levis and a black Carhartt duck lined winter jacket and a black beanie and then her doing the ultrasound and being like "can you lift up your shirt?" And her seeing my scars. She was non judgemental. Though I thought I saw her glancing down at my pants on the way out.

She took a ton of pictures. And I was just lying there for half an hour covered in goop while she took pictures of multiple spots. She spent like 5 minutes on the same spot. Idk whats up. She said they would get back to me in a day or so.

Mood and anxiety wise I'm fine. I'm just tired despite sleeping yesterday and last night and I'm not hungry even though I fasted.

@crazy_hitch -So sorry for your loss

I've had a busy morning. I went for a 3.5 mile power walk, good pace. Then, had to help H wrestle Sugarberry into the cat carrier for his trip to the vet. It is a neuter, vaccines, microchip, some bloodwork, costs a near fortune, but he is the gentlest cat ever, I just am anxious everything will go well. I showered, refilled mine & H's meds, had to deal with the 40 lb bag of cat litter delivered by Amazon today (separating it into gallon ziploc bags of more handable portions), order groceries online for pickup later this weekend. Then, I did order a SAD lamp to see if it will help anxiety like pdoc suggests, so I will have to figure that out. And I had a dental cleaning & x-rays appt at 11 this morning. I haven't even had my morning coffee yet. Really need to slow down some.

I feel very tired and achy , I wonder if it’s from the vaccinations. I know it’ll go away soon. I had stuff planned for today but after standing outside in the cold for 2 hours waiting for the food pantry to open (the line gets long really fast so you have to get there early) I feel worn out. I might just take it easy the rest of today. I feel kind of guilty cause I had planned on going to the nutrition class today but I just want to lay on the couch and relax

Sorry for you and your partners loss

Crazy Hitch