Bipolar Check-In #93

Another new start...I'll post on the last thread and request it be closed.

Wow, that went fast!

I know! Just 2.5 weeks. I know the last one started the day of my colonoscopy which was 7/23.

Do NOT eat a whole can of kidney beans for dinner! 😩

Depressed. Worked hard today organizing my home. Getting the clutter out of here will make it possible to run things in a tidy manner. Be lying if i said it wasn't rage cleaning tho. Hurling heavy objects into a heap on my balcony for me housekeeper to haul down to trash. Pile is two meters deep.

Bored of myself.

Feeling better!

Been tidying up my kitchen. Ughhh. Packing things away and cleaning countertops. Now my partner is doing the floors. I had a bath and put my pjs on at 2pm. Just relaxing in bed now.

I don't feel good but what else is new. I'm paranoid a bit about my neighbor but her house is boarded up and they took her somewhere.

I just hwve bad stomadh cramps

Its because I listened to the song Stand Up. Somethinh bad happens eveey time.

I kept having bad chest pain for like 4 hours so I’m at the ER. 😕. They took me right back. Did X-rays.

Maybe it was anxiety? Waiting on test results but I’m in a room not one of the chairs.

They’re checking for PE - pulmonary embolism because of my history. Getting pain meds. Probably toradol as it’s not addictive. Nope. IV antacid and Tylenol pills.

Hmm. They didn't give the med time to kick in. I'm still unsteady on my feet! Weird. I try not to move my head too much as that makes it worse. The nurse is going to talk to the dr.

Oh yeah. No new PE! Ddimer test was negative. I dunno why I'm so dizzy. They are waiting for the anti-dizzy pills to work more then I'll try walking again.

My cat “Lego” woke me up way too early. I slept well for first time in a while. Planning for a nice Sunday.

We had some work done on our house last week and my wife wanted to get the house cleaned, so she called her favourite cleaners.

I don't think they're particularly good but my wife likes them a lot.

So I was wondering why she likes them so much and I realized it today when they are over cleaning now: they sound busy!

One of them always has the vacuum running and the other is always moving something around. Sure, they are cleaning, but they're making theater out of it, which clearly resonates with my wife.

Pretty interesting!

So the final diagnosis was chest pain and liquid in my ear like maybe an infection? Making me walk like I was drunk - trust me, I had to walk down the hall a couple feet from my room. It also made the room spin when I turned my head. They thought they were related. I haven’t been swimming in a year at least. And they didn’t check my pee- I wish they’d tested my sample cuz my bladder hurts like I have a UTI .

Spent the morning reading and drawing and cleaning my apartment. Drew the bouquet for the watercolor class I’m taking. It’s not perfect but oh well, it’s the best I could do. I’m not experienced with drawing flowers/flower arrangements. I slept great last night. I’m a little overwhelmed by the busy week I have coming up. There’s just so much to do, Monday through Friday my schedule will be packed everyday. I think after this coming week, next weekend I’m gonna lounge around and do nothing to decompress.

My mood has been great, and also have had no dissociation for about a week.



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Blue bird I think your flowers look great! Very complex yet simple. I’d love to color them, great job!

Thanks Nammu!

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My mom is *****ing at me because I want to watch soccer. She says "you don't even know the game, or who is playing." I do know the game and I don't know why she is gatekeeping. So now I'm watching Project Runway instead since I apparently don't understand anything but fashion shows and drag queen shows.

My stomach is decent right now. But I got car sick.

Mandolin lesson number 2 at 2:30! Then going to the state fair. We’re gonna see a free concert tonight. Our tickets were given to us too. I got paid at work and I’m shocked. It’s a blessing as last week I couldn’t even afford the grocery

Thats a good thing that nothing is wrong

I’m so exhausted! I think I have a uti/yeast infection too. Though they never tested my urine so I’ll have to ask my primary dr about that when I see her.

Oh and N3 got a job as a student helper in physics! He did get an A+ in that class!

Lego is cool for a cat!

Monday morning here. The Bangles wrote a song that’s stuck in my head

It’s just another manic Monday
I wish it were Sunday
Cause I don’t have to run day

Hmm... last night instead of taking my meds I got high and I slept about 4 hours and I'm not having the shittiest day ever... suspicions are running high