I am in tears

For no reason other than I want to (SI) and I am trying really hard not too, not to mention that I am really low depressed whatever you want to call it today, I don't get to see my (pdoc) until the 10th and my (t) on the 15th. I feel like a total failure, if my moods don't get any better I feel like my job will be in jeopardy. How am I suppose to let them know at work that I am bipolar and (SI). Can't I just be normal? <font color="blue"> </font> <font color="blue"> </font>


Crap I can't even get my widget right.

Purplebutterfly~

I suggest you call your pdoc and T .. let them know how you are feeling and what is going on. They are there to help you . Even when it happens when your not going to see them soon. I understand the turmoil you feel your in right now. And its not fun. And we can be here to support you. But they can help you more with changing medication and talk therapy . Please try this. Dont be scared ok? Wish you well hon. Take care!!

Hugz
Bethy

Thanks! I have already tried to contact my (Pdoc & T), I am awaiting a call back from both.

Wonderful!! I am sooo glad you did this!! Let us know how it goes ok? Wish ya luck!!

Hugz
Beth

((((((((purplebutterfly))))))))

Flutterby Butterfly
In a purple field
In a cloudy sky
You are not alone
The sky will not be always blue
You can get by.

Look around where you are
Feels like a fishbowl, a jar
But there are others, I'm one
We too are beaten
Feel worthless and lost
Feel there is no sun.

But we can help each other
Share a shoulder each
And a tear
And all can take steps
Be they ever so small
A step away from fear.

Stay with us hear
Stay with us now
Together we have strength
We each have more
And as a group let's follow our path
No matter the length.

OK, not great, but I still express myself better that way than in regular words. I am there with you. Not just as someone who wishes to share a kind word. I am in a bad place now too, very bad. I know I am not alone there though, no matter it feels that way, because you are too, and others here. I will carry on and the fact that I know that my doing so, and saying I will, and that might help you, maybe another or more, that will help me have more strength to try to carry on. If you will do the same, you will also help me.

((((((((purplebutterfly))))))))

Thank you so much for that poem, very thoughtful of you to do so and i appreciate your words-I know I am not the only one out there but at times you just feel like you are the only one. Your words explain it all.
Thank You SJ_Gooseman

You are most assuredly welcome. And the words were for me too, I need them as well.

i hope that things smooth out for you soon. i wish you comfort and peaceful moments and some ease. my thoughts are with you and big hugs for you and good luck

purplebutterfly I hope you are feeling a little better. I am so sorry that things are not in the right place for you. Take what strength you can here, every little bit helps. I am dreading my own group tonight, because I have a policy that if I am not willing to be 100% honest, then there is no reason to go. I do not want to acknowledge how dark of a place that I am in to them. Unlike the people here, they are judgmental. No one here has seemed to be. We are all currently, or in the past have been in similar places. Take what help and solace you can from us.